woke up very early today. at around 8am. cos going to play soccer. today the ball don't know why so hard. then caused my foot to be very pain. kinda injured i think. cos when i walk also feel a bit weird. haha. ke lian sia me. then played quite okay ba today. got a group of bowen guys come and challenge us. thought they damn pro. but in the end, they only scored 3 or 4 goals throughout the whole game whereas we just keep scoring. haha they so lousy.

then went to have lunch at hougang point after that. was very tired. didn't have appetite also. so jarett, kel and i just share the food. then rain so heavy. had to take bus home. then after bathing slack a while and use com.

went to boon lay mrt station after that to meet xiao rong and steph with zk. cos xiao rong asked us to go to her church. when we reach city harvest, quite shocked. cos alot of people. quite big also. ard the same as new creation. sherman also went. then sang christ songs. but nv sing alot. then pray lo. hope God will bless me with his love. hehe. =p then saw the power of God today. people fainted and some shouted when special prayers were said to cast the evil spirits out of their bodies. its amazing and unbelieveable. God is great.

after that took cab and rushed to bugis. cos supposed to meet kok ming and yong guan there at 7.15pm. but at 7.30pm, we still at the church. cost ard $16 sia. then me and zk share. stupid lo. i bring $20 go out. $8 spent on cab. wth. cos today celebrating yg's birthday. we went to the pasta mania. had spicy chicken spagetti and hawaiian pizza. very full after eating. cos long time nv eat good stuff le. then talk to kok ming about my stuffs lo. went ard bugis pei yg see watch. cos i think he going to buy tmr with his aunt. then after that went back to hougang lo.

played pool at hougang plaza. not bad la. quite fun. but i become lousy liao. simple shots also can't go into the hole. maybe long time nv play le ba. lol. then play 1 hour like that went to find kel. cos have to return his stupid ez link card. borrowed from him to take train. cos he got concession for train ma. then went to zk's void deck and talk abit before going back home.

very tiring today. hope after a night's rest i will feel better. anyway shiyin, thanks for helping me do the chatter box thingy. hehe. thanks wor. i really appreciate it. =p

just knew the truth behind everything. she had already gone steady with louis after the day we broke up. but just disappointed in the way she cheated me. let me tell u about what she do ba..

she asked me change my nick (vin. u can block me! but i will nv ever forget how u this fucker VIVIAN WONG YUN QING treated me). then say i'm a coward not to be able to face reality. then say i'm not a gentleman. i'm not there when she needed me most. the girls in my class are close to me. their testimonials and their pics with me. i go k box and pool with them. then i nv go kbox with her. then say i should wish her happiness. and its not her fault for not telling me about the 3rd party. and say i should be a gentleman and give her happiness not like now being a coward. then scold me cb for not wanting to change my nick. and she invited her bf to the conver. and he said i'm not a gentleman. nv trust and respect her. pls lor. is she nv trust me or i nv trust her? and she should respect me as a bf to let me have my freedom. in the past, i always tried to let in to her though she's possessive. but now she said cos i scold her vulgar in the past. but i nv even scold her a single cb in that one year plus. and she said its all the unhappiness i had given her that made her do that when last time she told me she confirm won't like that guy. she even admitted herself its her fault that she is not open minded. and now she said its my fault.

but after what hui wen told me. i'm very relieved. people who know me, i can assure u all i'm 101% okay now cos my feelings for her have now flown to somewhere unknown. thanks for ur concern since 23/7/05.

and now i'm very sure, breaking up with her is the starting of my happiness...

woke up damn early today. 6am leh. cos not going for s&w in the afternoon. meeting sherman they all do the dream weaver thing. stupid lo, have to complete by this coming monday. this kinda shit waste alot of my time. but i was very happy in the morning. for the first time since 24 april 03, i have finally seen yenling. wow. she changed abit. her style not bad le. haha. then first time saw her in her rjc uniform. but i don't think she recognises me. cos when i 'stare' at her, she looked away. but nvm la, we sat very near each other. less than 1 metre away. heart pumping fast. but not as excited as i saw her last time. last time saw her more siao. like can go and jump down. but not bad la, at least God gave me a chance today to see her. thanks God =).

reached sch quite early. then went for the s&w. ran 2 rounds nia then sit there watch people play. sian sia waste my precious time. then after that went to canteen 2 with matt and sherman. after they go, came steph, shiyin and yixiu. then they pon the CATS. haha. then we go library do things lo. then i went to my CATS class after lunch. slept the whole lesson. that old woman keep talking rubbish. when i woke up, almost class over. then went to libray to find them to continue the damn dream weaver. haha anyway shiyin, if u read this, i want to thank u for helping me do my blog and my web. =)

stayed in sch till quite late ard 7 something. anyway i'm single liao. so not like last time. now have a lot of freedom. sometimes i keep thinking..is that break up the starting of my happiness, or the ending of my happiness? i hope time can give me the ans.

song sia! tmr playing soccer. hehe. hope can play better than last week. k la, end here for the day le.

heys people. haha this is my first entry. don't really know what to write. but anyway, thanks for reading my blog. let me talk about what happened to me recently ba.

just broken up with vivian last saturday on 23/7. after 441 days together, our relationship had come to an end. though i'm really very upset about it, but i managed to learn many things from the failed relationship. at the same time, i also want to say a big THANKS to the people around me who cared for me when i'm down. people who know who u are, thanks very much for being there for me. =) i was really sad at first. seemed to be lost in everything i do and didn't have concentrate to accomplish any task. but i realised what raymond said was right. why should i be sad when she's so happily getting on with her life without me? its useless. it won't bring her back to me. so i vowed to live stronger and lead a happier life. over here, i wish vivian all the best in whatever she does and may God bless her.

i also keep quarrelling with my mum nowadays. my mood turned bad whenever i'm at home. i don't know why too. sometimes really don't understand why don't my parents understand me. i just want a door to prevent all those noise from distracting me when i'm studying. is this a big crime? everyday still shout like a spoil radio. hope she will just shut one day and peace will come.

haha okay enough of complaining about my life. talk about my day ba. spent the last part of my school day at sch doing the dream weaver thing. quite stupid. but managed to finish the first part. after that, spent quite long thinking of my add for the blog. haha. after that went to bukit panjang then to woodlands then took 161 back to hougang. though took quite long, but not bad la. can see singapore de scenary.

i just found out something. vivian seems to be together with louis. haiz. her personal msg is VdearL. which i think means vivian dear louis. then i went to check louis's profile in friendster. saw vivian sent him a forward testimonial and ended it with .+. cherish what u have .+. haiz. very sad and disappointed. if she wants to break with me, she can just tell me the real reason. but she didn't tell me that it was because of another guy. why the hell she wanted to bluff me? very disappointed. haiz. i'm so disappointed.