TRYING HARD..

Trying very hard now….
Still i can’t handle it…
sometime i think to myself..
Is it worth the hard working??
time really fly…
they are faster than the king of the sky…
they are faster than the king of the jungle…
but still we are here at the same place..
for like 1000 century…and not even wanna leave…
sometime i got those flash back…
what i had done…
what i regret…
what i used to love the most…
i admit i have a MAJOR crush…
still i let it go…
cause i know when things are not meant to be yours…
someday you have to let it go
then i let it got for like 3 years now…
still i think about him sometimes…
wondering how is he and so…even though
we are total stranger to each other…
our primary teacher is retiring…
and that all because of that..
we get together again…
Yes,those are in the same class once…
Primary school…
lots of wonderful memories…
there is where i learn
story-telling…
syarahan…
but not in chinese…
Oh those wonderful yet a bit of bitterness in it…
how i love to go back…
even for only one day…
the pure laughter that i can’t have it now…
really miss those days…

TRY-ING
V-LAINE
XOXO

Stereo Guy VS A friend with Benefits

Is the RAYA HOLIDAY!!!

so

SELAMAT HARI RAYA

MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN

i've watch friends with benefit and bad teacher...

Yes is 18 but still who cares..anyway...

guess what this man stars in both movie...

he is so sweet....darn it...why...especially in

friends with benefit...

a guy working in GQ MAGAZINE...

i mean GQ!!!! like hell seriously...

a guy working in GQ...i bet he's a DAMN FINE guy...

he is JUSTINE TIMBERLAKE....

ain't he i don't know...sweet?? hot?? sexy??

god!!! he's fine..really fine...

The second one....

My Stereo Guy.....
a judge in THE VOICE....
a main Vocal in a band...

and sing like he's the king of the music industry...

Yes...he's ADAM LEVINE...

Uuu lala...

can i own him....

hahha...another hot guy in "collection"....

till then...

Raya-ING

V-LAINE

XOXO

PLAYLIST

“ I don’t care who you are..
Where you’re from…
What you did…
AS LONG AS YOU LOVE ME..”

-BACKSTREET BOYS-

“If want me i must be doing SOMETHING RIGHT…
i got nothing left to prove…
And is all because you…
So if you need me…
And baby I'll make you feel alive
i know i must be doing…
Doing SOMETHING RIGHT…”

-WESTLIFE-

“All i wanna do is find a WAY BACK INTO LOVE..
I can’t through without a WAY BACK INTO LOVE…
And If i open my heart again…
I’ll guess I'm hoping that you’ll be there for me in the end…”

-HUGH GRANT & HALEY BENNETT-

“OOHH…you know that i love you…
Can’t you see my eyes..
Their are only one who real slow…
Feels like INSOMANIC…uhh..”

-WHEESUNG-

“而我知道，那真爱不一定能白头到老…
而我知道，有一天你可能就这么走掉…
而我知道，我知道…
这一切我全都知道，我就是受不了…”

-MAYDAY-

“平旦之中制造一些些浪漫…
丝丝点点浪漫累计成情感…
关于爱的能量怎么都用不完多奇妙…”

-UNKNOW-

“RE SO SO SI LA SI LA SO LA SI SI SI SI LA SI LA SO…
为你翘课的那一天
花落的那一天
教室的那一间
我怎么看不见
XX的下雨天我好想在"另"一遍
没想到失去的勇气我还留这
好想在问一遍
你要等待还是离开"

-JAY CHOW-

The music industry have different genre of music…
and is appropriate to every age of people…
fill you life with music..
fill you life with colour
live the way you want

SONG-ING
V-LAINE
XOXO

Still a NORMAL MAN-KIND

We are born..
We are raised…
We are independent…
We are everything WE are…
We are excellent in things we do…
We are still normal people if we are a workaholic
We are still normal people if we are a doctor
We are still normal people if we are born disable…
We are still normal people if we are open with our personal life…
We still can have a TRILLION other jobs and still life a normal person life…
but with only that…
Life mean nothing…
Life is like cooking…
if you’re planning not put any seasoning to your food…
that thing you’re are cooking is just TASTLESS..
they need all kind of spices…
just to get the best aroma and taste out…
that’s all…
no matter is just only salt and pepper…
it still bring out those WONDERFUL aroma
and mouth watering taste you can’t help it but to take a second bite…
Life is all about the “all kind of spices”…
different spices gives you different conclusion…
some might end up just the way you want it to be…
but some might just ruined you day…
Living life is a tough thing to to…
But if you master this art…
then you are truly a master in live a perfect life…

Oh..GREAT...

It been awhile...
things had happen...
well..some stuff are bound to be happen..
is just a matter of time..
I was so messed up...
wanting you to you know...get over it..
but..you just don't really want to let go the past..
we can't planned perfectly the life we wanna live..
sure there is some obstacles that we have to over come...
Life is like dancing on big stage with almost everybody
you love..
you care...
you admire...
even with those you don't know...
but still end up dancing with him/her..
Talking is like a long song
if either
a sad one..
a happy one..
a romantic one..
a full with passion one..
a loving one..
any genre in the song industry you can find
seriously..you just can't jumping up and down
because someone mess up your day..
nut still i love guys..
there's wat i wanna say..
and yeah...
you are mean...pathetic...liar ...
thank you..taylor

Swift-ing

V-LAINE
XOXO

Come clean

FICTION books is not all about
GORGEOUS HUNK..SIZZLING HOT BABES..
AND YES BRANDED STUFF...HOT SEX SCENE AND STUFF..
is about how the writer thinks about life in her/his ways..
it can be dull like a single but not available people hanging out at the club...
or it can be lively like a no single unavailable people hanging out at the club..
my dream of having a book shelf full with this kind of book
is currently in process...
people always believe that reading non-fiction book
is way more better than reading fiction book..
why?? is simple because
FICTION=FAKE..
NON-FICTION=NOT FAKE...
i'm having RACHEL GIBSON hockey series..
true love and other disaster...
is a nice book...
holiday left 6 days
i wonder if i can spend it nicely...haha...

FinISH!!!

finally...MID TERM is over!!!
but still my mother is still asking me to study...
i was like..
"mom...even though u ask me to go study...i can't absorb lar"
and guess what
i have end my relationship with THE PANDA..
really make me look like a poor kid...
yes...lack of sleep..
from STAR NEWSPAPER..
lack of sleepiness with effect your weight...
is not decrease ya noe....
yup..INCREASE...
because the metabolism rate is slowing down
due to lack of energy...
so i have a new reason to sleep..
haha..
obsessed with MICHAEL BUBLE...
i just don't know how a man can sing love songs..
as romantic as him..
seriously...i totally melt in his voice...
he just like..i don't know..
melted warm chocolate in a cold day..
or freezing ice-cream in a damn sunny day...
oh....nice..
gleeing...
and again...i'm obsessed with kurt's guy...
yess...DARREN CHRIS...aka BLAINE in glee..
he's just soo talented in sing..
especially in "silly love song" and...and..
"do you think i'm sexy..."..
OKAY
TILL THEN

FOOL-ING
V-LAINE
XOXO

Oh Dear...

long time since i post...
sorry..
i don't have much time...
and here i'm going to state a
OFFICIAL STATMENT
that 24 hours is not enough for me..
yea..past these few month....
i really live full of my days..
seriously...
and here i'm saying

HAPPY BIRTHDAY
TO MY DEAREST FRIEND
WHO HAD CELEBRATE HER
BIRTHDAY IN
APRIL!!!
ESPECIALLY U!!
KEI .... LOVE U MUCH!!!

mid term is coming..
problem is...i'm going to bangkok/pattaya!!
yes HOLIDAY!!! i really need a getaway!!
FRIENDS out there wait for some treast from your beloved V-laine
keke...
okay till then...i'l update ASAP!!

What It's Really Meant...

By 1 MALAYSIA...
Today...around 1600...
i waited for like 15 minutes for a public bus..
when i was waiting...
i saw a Chinese man...
he was with an BLIND INDIAN man..
and the Chinese man was so caring
he even stop a taxi for that Indian Blind man...
i was like how good if everyone in Malaysia
can witness it....
and truly link it with the 1 Malaysia concept
but sweet thing don't last long...
after that..there's a van blocking in the middle of a
intersection road..
i was like...
"don't the driver have a brain?? or something??"
Yup...i realize...i was back to reality..
and again i remind myself i am in Malaysia..
yup..people don't do kindness everyday
okay till then

AWW-ING
V-LAINE
XOXO

FINISHED...

like seriously...
it just finished...
OMG...i still can't believe what i had just watch...
MY WHITE COLLAR...
It JUST FINISH...
yes..a 16 episode series tv show...
it just finished...
Oh DEAR...My dear
NEAL CAFFERY...i have to "gantung" for awhile..
ahhh....noooo WUUWUWWU...
yes...and GLEE is My new addiction..
OMG...Mr SHUE..
if my school DO have a teacher just like
MR SHUE...OMG...
i'm really gonna score that paper that he teaches..
whaahhaha
waht an AWESOME teacher...
yea..there's a BIG
NATURAL DISASTER that just hit JAPAN..
a 8.9 magnitude earth quake and a 10m high tsunami..
and now 3 of their nuclear plant had explode...
and causes the spread of radiation....through out the world..
OH...hope JAPAN WILL RECOVER FAST ENOUGH...

にほん がんばって!!
[japan gambateh!!]

till then

Japan-ING
V-LAINE
XOXO

Hope That You Guys DO Really Know...

Is Not that i don't want...
is just that time and the mood don't allowed me to do...
Is Not that i don't care..
is just that everything had been taken care...
Is Not that i don't talk...
is just that i DO talk but LESS...
Is Not that i don't hang out...
is just that i can't afford to....
Is Not that i don't get in..
is just that i can't really fit in now...
Is Not that i don't want to follow the steps..
is just that the pace is to fast for me..
Is Not that i don't stand a chance..
is just that i let it slip away...
Is Not that i don't text...
is just that my bills are increasing...
Is Not that i don't LOVE you guys...
is just that i don't have enough love to give away...
i know all those are just stupid reason i gave but
now that i miss you guys soo much that i feel too empty....
seriously...
i feel that I have BEEN REPLACE by someone...
someone that really suit to replace me...
is the feeling of jealous or "SHIT..i've missed out the good times"
we never made promises..if we do
is all those...UN-PURPOSE promises..
how i miss the time we spend together...
how i miss the time when we just get crazy and forget everything...
sometime i do really think that my decision are wrong..
sometimes i do really hope that i can turn back the time..
and spend more time with you guys...
i really hope that you guys DO really know
what I'm feeling..

FEEL-ING
V-LAINE
XOXO

DO or Not??

Oh Dear....
finish my exam...
finish my episode 14 of white collar...
finish my LOVE and OTHER DRUG...
yeah...what had i accomplish is just my entertainment part..
what I'm worry is my education...
oh Dear..
i don't really know why i choose Science Stream...
is a tough thing to do..
is a damn tough thing to take....
but what to do...is already too late to turn back...
yup...i can't turn back time...
if i meet the people from WAREHOUSE 13..
maybe i can...hahah
is already 15 minutes past 22..
and I'm still working on my history notes...
and damn i have tonnes haven't do...
just too much for me now..
but i still have to bare with it...for another 9 months i guess..
i can't really wait to leave the secondary
textbooks for good...but i still have to bare with it...
feel like killing somebody...now...
just everybody just put too much exception on me..
and i feel burden...
mom was like..
"you finish your revision??"
dad was like
"still infront of your computer??"
sis was like
"don't ever skip tuition"
as a student can't we have any entertainment thing going on??
like lively?? i really fell like dying..
i'm half dead now..
still my history notes is up there waiting for me..
till then..

Oh Dear..
V-LAINE
XOXO

Is The One SINGLE DAY....

Show this to yr partner when your are playing poker...


Guess What???
Is the day that every couple stick together day..

is VALENTINE DAY....

yup!!! HAPPY VALENTINE DAY..

the word VALENTINE make me flash back
to one of my HISTORICAL FICTION...
yes...one and only...
WHAT HAPPENS IN LONDON..
i love this book sooo darn much!!!!
i've been single yup..
for the record...17 years...
but my status is SINGLE BUT TOO BAD NOT AVAILABLE..
i bet today guys use the most pick up line in their year...
cause they think being single in VALENTINE DAY SUCKS!!!
the best thing is tomorrow is holiday!!!
yes...finally i can have my beauty sleep...
i'm still stuck with white collar...
but damn this series is AWESOME....
and i'm liking it..
guess i have to stop here..
till then..

guys...you girl will be like this...
refer the above

Valentine-ING

V-LAINE
XOXO

Is the Time...

Hey Ya Folks...
guess what...is the
EXAM SEASON...
our school break "the" record again..
forcing us to go school by having exam on
a SATURDAY MORNING...
yesterday..when i was reading
BIOLOGY AND CHEMISTRY...
i was thinking what the hell am i doing..
doing revision on Friday night..
seriously...what am i thinking...
but still I've read through what is needed to read...
this morning is a toughest morning ever..
wake up in a Saturday morning at 0530..
feels like dying
YES!! inside and outside...
but i still get the chance to watch
WHITE COLLAR
that i'm currently OBSESS with...
actually i planned to watch in the afternoon..
and thanks to my dear sis...
i have to cancel that plan and go to sleep
XD...
DAMN..I'm in love with NEAL CAFFREY..!!
and he look nice in green colour...and EXPENSIVE SUITS...

he even said this...in his"orange jumper suit" aka prison clots...
"they don't even let me to wear a TIE"..
Gosh he is Funny..

love that way he smile...
and..God Forbidden...
why he can be sooooooooo
GORGEOUS...
can't find any man with that kinda of features..
oh..dear...
good news...
WHITE COLLAR..
COMING SOON SEASON 3
WHAHAAH I'M THRILLED..
OKAY TILL THEN

cast of white collar
from left to right
TIM DeKAY AKA PETER BURKE
TIFFANI THIESSEN AKA ELIZABETH BURKE
MATTHEW BOMER AKA NEAL CAFFREY
WILLIE GARSON AKA MOZZIE

people said that grey suit make a man OLD...
dose matt bomer looks old???
i don't think so...

Exam-ing
V-LAINE
XOXO

I JUST DIE....

I'm Soooo INTo White Collar...

i found this series on FOX Channel 710
on Astro...
and because of
NEAL CAFFREY...
real name
MATTHEW BOMER
with the blue eyes...killer smile...damn nice Body...
gosh...he is what i dream for in my real life...
OH DEAR....
i'm currently on the way
watching second season....
GOSH....he is a real hottie...
check this out...** FAINT**





but guess what...
i just google him..
really...
i'm shock until i'm getting a nose block
like now...
For the sake of GOD...

HE'S GAY!!!!!!

with he's"LOVER"

rasing don't really know how many kid...

he's lover is a co-CEO in a company...

named=SIMON HALLS...

oh god...i feel that guys that i lay my eyes on...

are gays...

i'm dead..

real trouble...

seriously...he even said

this....
" i don't care about it at all.I'm completely happy and fulfilled in my personal life"

GOD..but still he's a hot one though...

but he's gay

and i can't really accept it...

oh dear..in the name on god..

why do hot guys like him have to be gay...

i really don't mind if he is a straight and have a girl now...

till then...

He's GAY

V-LAINE

XOXO

LOVE..

i really dun know why people out there
especially MY age...
having serious thought about their relationship
I'm not criticizing them is just that..
u are in a puppy love..
not that serious love like ADULTS...
i really don't know why that have to let themselves
suffer...
is just some stupid move...
is the CNY hols...
and the god is giving us privileged
by raining non stop for these two days...
maybe god is too in the festive season until god cry..
yesterday it started poring like in the morning...
till the afternoon...then evening..then night..
the rain is not that heavy but still is raining...
until this morning...
i was like
"What?? still raining??!!"
i was thinking god don't want to let these
"precious" rain drops fall when i was in school??
it would be way more better to have such weather
when is schooling day...
CHINESE NEW YEAR is coming real fast..
i think is only 3 more days..
but i haven't finish shopping...
my shoe are still in the store some where in KL streets...
like everybody says..
save the best for last...
okay till then..

CNY-ING
V-LAINE
XOXO

DEAR DAD..

Yo SUP dad!!!!
i really hope that you get to read this.
if you do get to read this...
please..keep quiet about this..
SHHH...
hehe...
aiyo daddy...
sick already....
stay at home and rest lar...
skip one run nevermind de...
don't always go run lar...
i know very healthy..
but once awhile...
rest...won't cause any damage on yr healthy...
hehe..but stay healthy
every second...every minute...every hours....
every day...every week...every month...
every year...
love ya!!!
why i post this is because....
my dad drive me to school everyday...
yea.....i know is normal..
but today...he was having a fever...
but still he drive me to school...
DAD!!!!

TILL THEN

DAD-ING
V-LAINE
XOXO

White Canvas....

people normally use a 8.5" x 11"
and what they draw is up to them...
is either an imaginary picture from their mind
of a naked man or women as their model...
but for us...
as a student point of view...
what we wanna really draw is..
our future....
a nice bright future...
nobody really know what is ahead of us...
everything comeback to square one
if we don't work hard enough
to achieve what we wanted in our life..

is been a long time i read YAOI manga...and
i'm back..whahah..
GAY are not wrong..in this world...
they just have the same sex affection...
is not their fault and we can blame them...
and a new literature... book..
a new syllabus for form 5...
STEP BY WICKED STEP...
awesome book...
the form 5 should spend some time to read..
is a really nice story..
yea...back to that drawing canvas...

people use various types of colouring method...
water colour... panting... just normal colouring...
crayons...or just another colour that they can find...
after the colouring...
is some finishing touches...and
we can hung it up.....
and have it display....

is just like life....you finish what you have done...
and now is the time where you have that story out...

till then

Canvas-ing

V-LAINE
XOXO

Break My Record...

if u can.....
TODAY....
ON THE
7TH OF JANUARY 2011...
TIME BETWEEN 0700-0740...
something unpredictable happens..

I'M LATE TO SCHOOL.....
FOR THE FREAKING FIRST TIME...
AND YOU CAN SAY I'M FREAKING PROUD...

LOLZ...
yea..actually i didn't really heard my phone rang
seriously...i didn't heard that....
when is almost 0700...
my dad rush in to my room and said with a
rough whisper:.."Wake up already is 7 now..!!"
i get down on my feet as fast as possible...
and rush to the bathroom...
and i take a bath instead of sitting on the BOWL...
and tying my hair with great speed...
rush up to the room to get my pocket money..
and rush down to the living room..and at last...
my arse was on the car seat...
my dad aka my driver...
he was finding the fastest way to get me to school..but..
still because of the nasty traffic in front of
LEISURE MALL......

and i arrived school 0740...

my friends were like..
"where's v-laine???"
"is she absent to today???"
"she can't be late right??"

DEAR FRIENDS..
THANKS FOR THESE CONCERNS..
AND YES..
I'M LATE FOR THE FIRST TIME..
IN SECONDARY SCHOOL...

i'm hoping that i won't do that AGAIN!!!
hehe..
Till thenn..

First-time
V-LAINE
XOXO

3RD of JANUARY

Early in the morning....
i woke up around 0500...and i think is too early
so i slept back
but the thing is i can't fall back to sleep...
so i get up and get ready to face
the one thing that i don't wish to face...
SCHOOL and TUITION...
get my ARSE stuck in the car by 0615...
and what i see is red lights..
big and small...
some shine...some not...
people....in uniform...
that's mean...student...
kesian...they are in the bus...
at the bus stop....
i really wish that i can meet him again...
too bad...no more next time...

Till Then

School-ING
V-LAINE
XOXO