Saturday, July 29, 2006
I wanted to stop blogging, and i did just that for a year plus. However there is just this one show which i simply had to express my thoughts for it. Although i doubt my words would make just as much impact as the show had made in me.
????? - Ichi Ritoru no Namida
While i admit that initially when i wanted to watch this show it was because of this cute jap model called Sawajiri Erika. I probably paid more attention to her than the actual storyline in the first couple of episode, however that soon changed. It was when the main character, Aya, finally realised that she has been dignosed with spinocellebar degeneration (SCD), that the drama becomes real touching. By the end of the whole drama, even though i hate to admit it, i was struggling not to let anything flow out of my tear-filled eyes. The true-person story, with the addition of a male character to fulfill the late Aya's wish for romance, added spice and more heartbreak for the viewers. Sawajiri Erika simply is the most suited actress for this role. She was so impressive that i just cant get her image out of my head. Not only pretty n cute, her acting skills is simply fabulous.
More importantly, this movie has really made a deep impact on me. It made me realised how i've really wasted my life. When Aya was struggling to live, she still made full use of her life, and her will to survive is second to none. I think i'd really treasure every moment of my life from now onwards.
For friends reading this blog, I'm more than willing to share this great drama. Highly recommended, I think this has just got to be the most saddening n touching show i've ever watched. Definitely i'll get her book which has sold 1.8millon copies in Japan once i've learnt Jap. A truly inspiring real life story.
http://www.jdorama.com/artiste.2192.htm
http://ent.sina.com.cn/v/j/f/ygshdyl/index.html
_just me_
10:37 PM
Monday, March 13, 2006
Its an ever learning process in life.
Now I've learnt that no matter how much effort u put in, people will always let it go unnoticed. People do tend to think that they r the main contributors, and then the silent background worker who covers everything else will not have any credit to his name. Especially when resources are taken away from him, by the others, and left him stranded all alone with 600+ phone calls to make, to call n call until each of the receiver picks up, and then to answer a few hundred more calls coming back at him.
The only way is to go around telling everyone, " oh, u know last night i worked until what time", "we burnt so many nights". People dont see things when u dont say it out, the nights where i worked at home, send despatch to homes after work, making calls at chalet, working non stop till 3am before a major event. i wonder how people dont see the double implications when someone said, " me n him burnt many nights to get things done", without mentioning the third guy.
So my lesson learnt, to heap credits onto yourself, and learn to be a fucking selfish bastard, screw the welfare that you think ought to be given to people and just ensure that your own task allocated is completed.
For taking up so much shit, people only give u credit amounting to someone who has barely done even half of what you did. and then stuff so much more credit onto themselves. off days? i dont really care. i just want a little bit more recognition for my effort, is that difficult? When the leg of the 3 legged stool is weak, ever wonder why? anyone questioned about my 4 manpower that was allocated to me, missing for the whole period just to fulfill another part of the system? did i ever complain? and when fingers are pointed, did they say anything? No, no and no.
This is life. Face it. Reality stinks. This world has no room for humanity, no room for compassion. Its a world where self interest comes first.
And so, here lies the nice guy that used to have such faith in the world. Time to face the cruel reality proper.
_just me_
8:48 AM
Tuesday, December 20, 2005
hao v4.06 seems to be some code error in data logging. therefore, the program will not be able to record any history of usage. however, we assure the users that the program, otherwise, is still up and running.
we are trying our utmost best to fix it up, but apparently only when hao v5.01 is out and available in the market on 07 nov 2006, there seems to be no solution to the pending problem. meanwhile, there's the last entry that we managed to retrieve out:
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it was the hardest day in my new army life. sending my clerk into db.
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hopefully i wont need to send anyone else in, in my last remaining yr of ns life.
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thanks for viewing this blog, friends. but it down and gone. so dont bother checking back. i've lost motivation to keep this running coz life's a bore right now. maybe i'll start to use my friendster more often then. keep track with me through msn or friendster. thanks alot
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- clearing leave till next yr -
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merry christmas!
_just me_
5:59 PM
Sunday, October 16, 2005
Going for my MRI scan review tomorrow at ttsh. hopefully it isnt too bad. at least i was able to last through a game of soccer despite having some soreness in my knee. Life's been decently good in camp.. there's some work to do but i was able to cope with it thanks to leonard. during these days i was more of a ops clerk while understudying him. taught me quite alot of things so far and he took the main workload. of course, i managed to avoid going home at 5.30 from camp almost all the times.. which is good. and earning a day of off-in-lieu by playing soccer is great.
now since my unit is kinda fixed.. i just gotta plan about what to do next. getting my license is a top priority.. however the idea of teaching tution is now quite impossible due to the long travelling distance from my camp to home, which effectively ruled out any spare time i mite have.. gotta get a new fone as well.. then of course, towards next year i'll start looking for notes for my university course.. i'm quite determined to do well in my studies. and i will start running and doing exercises to keep my body in shape, or rather to regain some shape. especially with a couple of sentosa trips coming..
_just me_
5:57 AM
Sunday, October 09, 2005
Got my posting on 3rd oct. headed to my new unit at kaki bukit camp on 4th.. my new post is asst ops spec at 29sib. people there r fine, everything's good except for the distance.. guess i'm not in the position to choose anyway.
_just me_
8:22 AM