SL survey

1. Rate your life from 1-10 (1 being very miserable)
A: 8

2. Is your hair long or short?
A: long

3. Do you have many real friends?
A: hmm...real friends....yeah i hav, but not much, you know..it's not easy to look for one.

4. Name friends you last hung out with?
A: Nicole Ong

5. Do you love chicken?
A: DAMN I LOVE IT!!!

6. Last three drinks you had?
A: Milo panas, Fresh milk, plain water

7. Do you eat fish?
A. Duhh of coz i do....

8. Do people mispronounce or spell your name incorrectly?
A: hmm..sometimes, like .... venessa, vannessa..etc etc

9. Who was the last person you hugged?
A: my another half. LoL

10. Last guy you think about?
A: guy....hmm...HYDE!!

11. Any food that made you smile today?
A: Food ar..today dun hav. =S .....But yesterday 3JC's food was good, plus sitting beside someone..i was smilling =)

12. Name one thing you have in common with your friends?
A: Which group of friends? @.@

13. Do you trust your friends?
A: My close friends, I do of course.

14. How old will you be in five years?
A: 26 yo la.....sounds so old. =.=""""""

15. Do you believe in love?
A: haha..yeah....yeah...

16. Except for family and friends, who are you in love with?
A: uh-hummm... my piggy.

17. Do you honestly believe you have found the right guy/girl?
A: yeah =)

18. Are you someone’s best friend?
A: yeah... heheh

19. Do you love music?
A: they are my drugs.

20. Last song you listened to?
A: house music, Deep at night by some sohai.

21. What’s the instrument you wish you were able to play
A: guitar >.<

22. Who was the last person you talked to?
A: Rcenic xD

23. Who was the last person to call you?
A: Rcenic xD

24. Would you consider yourself a worrier?
A: YES i am!

25. Do you consider yourself as a happy person?
A: Yes!! Just recently xD

26. Do you believe in saving yourself for marriage?
A: HMMMM......

27. Last person that pissed you off?
A: errr..my lecturer

28. From whom have you missed the most calls in the last 5 days?
A: missed most calls..hmm..none

29. Who’s the first person you call when you’re having a bad day?
A: XD who else?

30. Last person who made you laugh like crazy?
A: Errr..dat was quite some time...me and my TOA buddies were at 3JC..laughed like hell..until stomach pain somemore..

31. Who’s your greatest inspiration in life?
A: Maria Sharapova!!!!!!!!

32. Are you a good guesser?
A: depends wo....

33. Who was the last person to sing your current favorite song and what song?
A: Kaskade. LoL ...........it's you it's me

34. Who makes you laugh the most?
A: many ppl i met in life

35. What have you been telling yourself lately?
A: i miss someone so badly =/

Happy

Incubus - I miss you

To see you when I wake up
Is a gift I didn't think could be real.
To know that you feel the same as I do
Is a three-fold, Utopian dream.

You do something to me that I can't explain.
So would I be out of line if I said "I miss you"?

I see your picture.
I smell your skin on
The empty pillow next to mine.
You have only been gone ten days,
But already I'm wasting away.
I know I'll see you again
Whether far or soon.
But I need you to know that I care,
And I miss you.


.....even though..you're just sitting opposite me now..............

CAL survey =.="

Some answers might be a joke. hahah.


1. At what age do you wish to marry?
No idea really =/


2. What will you do when you feel really emo?
- listen to my Trance, chill jazzy house, and all emo songs.
- frown?
- be unfriendly
- talk to someone


3. Who is your idol?
Maria Sharapova for sure. =)


4. Where is the place that you want to go most?
err..if there's only a choice, i'll choose London


5. If you have one dream to come true, what would it be?
Change Sunway into TOA. LOL


6. What is the purpose of your life?
I want to be unique and different from da rest. O.o


7. What are you afraid to lose the most right now?
Money hahah...pok kai already larrrr =.=""


8. What cheers you up for the rest of the day?
An sms from someone.... i guess. hahah.


9. If you meet someone you love, would you confess to him/her?
NO. I will never.


10. List out three good things of the person who tagged you.
no one tags me. LoL


11. What type of person do you hate the most?
EGO, Arrogant, LALAs, childish


12. What would you do if you won a million dollars?
Keep it. LOL (but..before dat, buy a MAC BOOK PRO, SONY SZ series notebook, Good speaker, Car, iphone, go for holidays, nintendo WII, what else? XD )


13. What is your ambition?
I F-ing dunno..i just killed my ambition =/


14. What will you do if you got rejected by someone you like?
I do not wish to answer this question.


15. If you have a chance, which part of your character would you like to change?
Blur or dreamy


16. What is your favourite colour?
BLACK XD


17. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
err.....found your goals? or found a reason to live?


18. If there’s one thing in your life you want to do but yet unable to, what would it be?
This is deep @_@


19. What would you do if tomorrow was the last day of the world?
I'll kill myself 1st. I dun wan to die together with everyone. HAHAHA


20. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
Don't betray me.

What's about all these?

Look...

I have been trying to keep myself calm, stay cool and accept the fact.
But, toleration is over.
I'm just farking sick. What da hell am I doing, for all these while? Is this what I want?
People tend to work towards their goals. Knowing that the path they are taking is what they want, regardless of stress they might be facing.
What's about my goals?
In the year of 2005, I gave up on my HSC course in INTI, with a very low UAI, but I know I was on the wrong path, and it's not too late because I was young. Yeah..but at least I managed to pass all my subjects, with a cert.
Because of me, dad's RM9000++ was a waste.
From the day onwards, when my decision comes to final, Multimedia Design was my choice, and I, sort of like, made a promise to myself, dat I shouldn't let my parents down again.
I was confused between TOA and LimKokWing. Thank god, well actually, thanks to Winson whose my ex, for his advice.
I did not make it to the orientation on the 1st day, but on the second day, while paying fees, there was this girl(damn noisy) which happens to be Juan standing next to me at the counter, and then proceed to the auditorium. There's another girl standing alone at corner caught my attention, she looks like a mixed. Oh yeah, so the girl is Normah. I introduced myself to Yi-Wen who was sitting next to me and Yin May was next to Yi-Wen. I have 2 friends now. The talk was boring(it's about da same as every colleges la..) As soon as it ends, one of the lecturer announced saying that she is going to seperate us into classes. and I was like..WTF? Okay, I'm not so lucky all these while, so..we 3 are going to be separated. F.I.N.E.
Praying..praying. Please don't....please don't.
"For class CD061-1, name, name, name, Liew Juan Juan, Leow Yi-Wen, name, name, Normah, namessss, Tay Yin May, Vanessa Tan etc........"
I just can't believe that!
As days go by(sounds like name of a song), we fell in love with the class. Knowing Boon, Carson, Keen, Bucgene, Zarith, Derrick, Jamie, and many more la..just everyone from that class, was fun! I'm sorry I can't name everyone since it's getting late now and my mind's shutting down.
Arh..I should stop talking about the class now, getting more and more cheong hei, since this should be an emo post. =/
When it reaches the 3rd Sem, we're separated into our own major.
For major, My Multimedia classmates were great too. xD We don't play "one man show", instead, we helped each other since the course was really tough. Thank god we had pro lecturers, I miss Yenni a lot!!!!!
Everything went on smoothly, I know I was on da right track, it was challenging, tough, but interesting, fun, and I just love it very much. I was enjoying it very much, knowing that every subjects were useful, it's not a waste.
Honestly, I have never been so hardworking in my whole life, I don't skip class, I rarely do last min work unless too busy, and yeah of course sometimes I slacked a lil, let Boon complete my figures while helping him in computer graphic assignments(switching roles, LoL)
Since I was just an average student in high school, dun care much about stuffs, kind of playful =.= It was so much different in TOA, I gave my everything for studies.
What happens when a fisherman goes fishing, caught many fishes and suddenly there was a storm while on his way back to the land?

I'm just another useless fellow. Leaving TOA for a useless course. I know I've been ranting about this non-stop, but I just can't help it. The first week was good since the course is pretty relaxing. It took me a week to reminisce of the past, emo-ing every night as usual, I've gained a new perspective yet letting go of my ambition. I was feeling empty whenever I think about it, about the course. It was so empty that sometimes I lose track about what I was doing. No one could ever feel the emptiness inside me. I've made da wrong decision. I told friends I regret taking the course and should have continue in TOA, everyone's reply was "Your health does not allow you to take this course." Do you know the bitterness I felt inside whenever they said that? Oh it's because of me having that idiotic epilepsy, I'm gonna make myself fall into the hole of hell. Is that what I'm supposed to have? Yet, I know my friends are right, that's the only thing affects me. THE ONLY THING? Ruin my life? my goals? UNFAIR!!
(This sentence - P and C). It's a shame! How can this happen in a big so-called Uni-coll like this? Honours degree? WHAT DA HELL.
And I've never enjoyed any of the subjects and classes because I know they're stupid and useless. That's the reason why I skipped my class so often. When someone asked "why do you enjoy skipping classes?" I said, "Oh, I'm lazy to attend. Boring. Lazy." No! It's not about that, but there's no point telling them the truth since no one can help. I hate the classes, I don't feel like attending, how i wish everyday is a Saturday.
Yeah, the course itself does not bring motivation, how can you expect your students to be motivated and make them love Multimedia. The way my classmates explained on their Graphic Design course they gotta learn during da 1st year made me so guilty. Guilty. Learning packaging for Multimedia course? I felt pity for my classmates, they weren't taught Adobe Photoshop at all. =(
My knowledge=junk, after the graduation. There's no need to look for a job. Be a couch potato. That's the best way to kill my own ambition! WHO'S TO BLAME?

Mainly, about studies. Partly is about.........
F I T S - Only 4 letters. But it got my life upside down.
I never feel like telling ppl about my stuffs. but yeah, thanks to Sze Chia, CS, Matthew and Yi-Wen spending your midnight, middle of da night or sleeping/napping hours, listening about it. I know how retarded it was to crap about my life but........I'm upset. I really am.

My very recent life.

Morning.. !!

I couldn't sleep like how I used to...oh..wakes up at 11am in the morning or sometimes 12 noon. =.= then..Mom called, just to inform about our daily lunch plan, and usually what I'd like to hear was "Get yourself prepared, we are going out for lunch."
But usually .....lazy ppl like me enjoys lazying in bed with my black Ipod till the very last minute. Sometimes even before I got up from bed, I can hear the auto-gate sound and the sound of a car engine. Oh crap, mom is back, rushed to toilet so to prevent a "war".
As soon as mom gets upstairs, she will be like, "omg van, ure still bathing? I want to bathe also!"
Okay, fine. We "like" to snatch the middle toilet, not really "into" the master bedroom's bathroom.

Back to present.
Yeah, I mentioned that I cant help myself but to wake up earlier. Maybe I'm used to the morning classes. Arh..whatever it is, I'm just trying to say "I can't wake up late anymore."

Speaking of classes, damn it, this is da worse course I've ever taken in my life. There are only 5 students in the class. One out of 4 is a guy, (dunno from which country), we felt pity for him coming all da way to this Uni for such lousy course. LoL and then..for the rest of us (the four girls) are lazy and like to skip class a lot. So even if we came in late for class, still it's considered early. xD
Softwares they used are like "shit". OMG, Macromedia MX???????? Dreamweaver MX????? and their MACs are like, many years ago punya MAC. TOA using new MAC k? Such a big UNI couldn't even afford to get themselves updated. Since not having class yesterday, which is a friday, I decided to look for my TOA Multimedia classmates. Went into the video lab, and saw Windows Vista with all latest versions, Adobe flash CS3, dreamweaver CS3. =.=" WTF, I was damn tulan seeing that, so UNFAIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and their comm skills class sucks a lot. Forced students to buy 60 bucks book for just a sem. Damn. I'm not getting it, so how? I dun care.

My classmates(Julia, Yuan Yee, Ann) and myself, skipping like nobody's business, and I do not expect myself to do last minute work (yet I did, very sad right? =/ ) That's the side-effect of a bad course. Aiyaaaa....there's no need to complain so much since I'm not FIT to return to TOA.

Having a car in Sunway doesn't help much, except for the fact that I'm able to visit TOA buddies or hang out at Pyramid.

Dad came to visit me, and we had bak kut teh dinner with Bro and Kim at SS14 on Thursday. Arhhhh I was damn forgetful, do you know what happened? I left the place without my house key(which is on the table), and was searching for it when they dropping me at hostel. =.=" So dad had to drive all the way to SS14 to get back my key. "SO CARELESS" inside the car kena marah like hell. Sorryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

My roommie, Diana, is a girl, of course is a girl la...LoL She's a chinese malay mixed(same like Normah), 18 yo this year, a small girl to me. Yeah, we can get along well. But sorry la, I can't talk to you every night, there's always a magnetic wave between me and karen(my lappie) plus the net and my headphone. X_x the unit I live in has been re-renovated before I moved in. And was kinda lucky to have both bathrooms with water heater, pity those with only one. sad. (and dun need to wash toilet!! LoL unlike PJS9) But the man did mentioned dat we might have to move to other units because this unit is mainly for International student. I was like ....WTF? I have to move again? cilakak. @_@

These days I've been going to CC quite often with Nicole and Jason(pig's friend), since so free. =.= actually..honestly, i've never played games in CC. =.=" *sweat* and to wake up at 6 sth early in the morning for breakfast with them. Like major changes in my lifestyle. @_@ haha....but it's a good lifestyle. xD ....thanks to pig lorrr....

The other day I couldnt search for a parking lot in hostel, can't attend flash class(at last was canceled also cos only 1 student was there), back to Pyramid alone. =.=" And..................I did something so retarted!!!!!! Boon, Yin May and Juan....I'm really sorry!!!!!!!!!!!!! No, I'm not in a horrible situation. =(

Sometimes, the world is unfair. Very.
Rich kids (spoilt brats) spent their time like yuppies hanging out late at night, clubbing, drinking, smoking, don't give a damn on studies, flunk ma flunk lor...i have money, can resit how many times I want to. They have no worries, pampered by daddy mummy, what's on their mind is only about love and relationship "arh..i dunno who to choose..i like him but i like the other him also, arhhh..I'm feeling stressed!!) WTF? U call this stress? I have a friend like dis. never seen the real world, and will not survive once they're on themselves. and Whereas............................

Hmmmmmm...lifestyle changed, many things changed, except for one thing, .....I'm still dat blur like always, and, poor listener(as in, i can't hear what ppl said =/), oh yeah, and not to forget, dreamy. fark. cannot change one. =/