History repeats itself, onto others!!Gosh I can't contain my excitement!! It looked as though history is repeating itself, on someone else!
I recalled sharing my experience w her when we were doing spa in batam. Because what she was going through and thinking about was so similar to mine. I didn't mean to be negative about it, I was just sharing my experience and perspective in hope of giving her some clarity to her situation.
It didn't take too long before she made that decision. Perhaps she had been thinking abt it for long already. I hope I was not the one who pulled the trigger.
Nonetheless, over the few months that followed.. There was some slight resemblance in the group dynamics. I am like watching history unfolding again, this time round from a 3rd party perspective. Of course what really happened outside the group activities I will never know, (or perhaps we can carry out some interrogation to find out). But at least from the surface, it is so clear that there is at least one of them trying, and again it was the other one who succeed. And the entire dilemma of when to announce to the rest, how not to hurt the other person, how to fit the newly formed bond into the group dynamics, etc.. It is happening all over again!!
I am oh so excited over the news.. One, it is similar to what i have gone through before! I can totally understand the feelings and excitement and apprehension and anxiety and awkwardness. Two, I feel like the pioneer who have started the "tradition" going! Hahaha.. Three, both are my good friends and I am really happy for them! Four, i am anxious to know how the group dynamics is gonna change from here. I welcome the change and is entirely happy abt it, but at the same time wonder how the third person would respond to it.
I can't wait to hear the story!! It will be so exciting to find someone who can totally understand what I had been through!! But the next few weeks will be a delicate period... Let's hope everything turns out well eventually. And that they will be as happy as we are. ;)
signing off @ 9:37 am with
Friday, March 25, 2011
Two official letters in two consecutive daysIt's always a mixed feeling whenever I see this letter. Happy on one hand, but unsure if it is well-deserved on the other. I feel obligated to work harder, especially after receiving the letter of appointment, but I keep feeling so clueless and incompetent. Probably laze is my biggest nemesis.
I don't think I am as happy as I should be because this to me is just about taking on more tasks and responsibilities. Moreover I don't feel competent enough to deserve it. But of cos if I don't get it I will be even more upset. Human is simply never satisfied right. Heh..
Hopefully I will be able to find new energy in my worklife from all the upcoming tasks to start the fire burning again. It had been put out cold and wet and that was unbearable. I want to find a purpose in my existence again.
Perhaps it's not abt finding one, but creating one. Good luck to me.
signing off @ 11:41 pm with
Wednesday, March 16, 2011
The BIG THREEJust organised a surprise birthday party for my hubby who is moving towards the BIG THREE in his life!! hehe… had a chalet + BBQ at ECP with several colleagues. Tricked him into going to ECP, and surprised him with a big paartaay! yaaay!! was a bit worried that the surprise won't pull through since he looked rather sianz/tired when i fetched him. And i couldn't really see his surprised look when he saw the party. but i really hope he had fun and enjoyed himself. :)
Happy 30th birthday my dear!! Like I always say… a guy grows more charming with age. So do embrace the BIG THREE! =P *muaks!*
signing off @ 12:07 am with
Wednesday, March 02, 2011
Is it coincidence, or for real?I changed my chinese name, together when i apply for a new IC. The pronunciation is still the same, but now the third character is different. I changed it as my mum said the earlier name is a really unlucky one for me.
So I changed it. Since it still sounds the same and I guess the impact is not great. And hope for the better.
True enough, my life changed. All of a sudden, i kena a lot of BIG arrows. It is as though all of a sudden i was placed on a different level and people think I can do more. Maybe they found out I am now holding a pink IC so can reveal more stuff to me. Or maybe they just accumulate them and throw to me at one go. Or maybe they think I have been slacking.
Regardless of what reason, I am suddenly swarmed with tasks I am not sure if I can handle separately, not to mention now I need to handle all of them at the same time. On one hand I am honoured everyone think so highly of me and excited about the tasks… on the other hand I am very stressed and overwhelmed by them. I am really having doubts whether I can juggle them well.
I just hope that I will emerge from it without too much hiccups and develop myself in the process. Wish me luck!!