i came across this interesting line by Sherlock Holmes while reading conan:
"i'm a brain, watson, the rest of me is a mere appendix."

wow. must be great to be like that. i wish i was. hm yes i should stop thinking and feeling anything, but i cannot. what is it? guilt, regret, fear, sadness, happiness, nostalgia.. maybe mostly regret.

her voice is really heavenly.

went to the temple and got scolded by the gods. the poignance of it is both humbling and redeeming. it actually feels relieving to have your mistake pointed out but to know at the same time that it's ok and that it's human to make mistakes. maybe this is why people have religions..

this power of divine redemption is something only the gods can have. it is the power of making someone feel human again.i think sometimes i get caught up with trying to be "right" and do "right" and i cannot accept my mistakes. whenever i realise that i've made a mistake, i'll try to right my wrongs. but sometimes this itself is not right. i should just accept it and go with the flow. i have apologised, but forgiveness is not within my power. so knowing that, when it IS within your power, just bestow it generously, because that is your power to set everything straight again.

i got my korean visa! looking forward to the field trip. maybe all will go well.