cannot believe it. it's the end of recess week. that means half a semester gone.

i've been feeling this unbearable desire to get away from everything i'm doing now and do something new, go somewhere else. this place is stifling and omg dystopic. i wouldn't say it's horrible, it does have some nice points - like free and healthy public toilets everywhere, good navigation and transport system etc.

but life is not just amenities, and life is certainly not just having a good education, a good job, making good money, eating good food, buying a car, etc. i want to live somewhere more relaxed, somewhere i can think and develop ideas, somewhere where my neurons wouldn't be permanently damaged by stress and late nights.

somewhere i can walk random paths. where i don't have to avoid green turfs. where there's no one in vicinity and i can sing as loud as i want to. where there is no freaking INFORMATION shoved at my face, where i can look for my own information and feel like a child again. human again.

the hills are bluer on some other side. the hills will be bluer some other time.

i have this desktop background. can't remember where i got it from. haven't changed background in years but recently thanks to my new laptop, i can see it clearer. and when i carefully look at the small houses in the background, the f*ing SCALE man.. i have this feeling in my heart like it may stop beating anytime, and my brain's going to burst if i don't make a run soon.

in a place like that you know your place in the universe.

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the moment was full of contradictions. and i mean overflowing with it.

"i'm turning turning turning turning turning around
and all that i can see is just another lemon tree."
useless shit thinking.

anyway loads to do, submission is just a week away, so probably won't update much in the near future.