check out my new blog. haha. it's supposed to be for my works and stuffs related to school and hobby. pursuits. but it's not quite up yet. i'll start tonight or tomorrow. when i get tired of work.

it's under 'whatnot' on the list of links on your right.

suddenly feel better after reading old news. like don't think about it. it's good, and it will get better. not like i've never been through it.

just/must do it. work.
to do today: site analyses, think=>confirm final structure, perspective. sleep.
to do tomorrow: plans, sections, elevations, model.

Krabat seems promising. i'm still on page 28. 15 more pages to go or i'll get that annoyed look from my dear teacher.

here's wishing my sunshine a happy holiday and the jiayous to last all the times i'm under an umbrella.
and nguci has to study hard! and i think you are, so that's good.

samuel's paper2 is on monday. so today was the last lesson before os. omg. how. hope all goes well.

feeling downright miserable. and i can't even concentrate on feeling miserable because of design questions. this sucks. went to the site again today. some new inspirations but still locked. and i can't concentrate on design because of miserable thoughts.

today was a freaking lucky day. all the buses i took came within 1 minute of my stepping into the bus stop. amazing. and i went to the site with the clouds looking grey and walked 20 minutes to the middle of nowhere, stayed around for half an hour and walked back. and it rained after i boarded my bus. and continued raining all the way to siglap up to one stop before i alighted. amazing2.

but that doesn't stop me from feeling miserable, tired and uninspired.

later on we'll conspire..
reso practice is fun. i like my group. we met up for practice during lunch break and sang at some odd void deck near science. well i think singing just has this power of binding people. it starts getting really fun when you start practising for real. hope tomorrow goes well. hm and tonight's culture night as well..
and then i'll get a rest!

but shit i need to do design and digital design.

my sunshine took a very long leave and is probably sipping lemonade in hawaii. but it is as likely that it is hiding behind every other cloud.
i hope there's enough money to buy a return flight. or, just to be cheezy, enough silver to make a line.

i know i know. dunno why it should still affect me when i already know. haha. i'm trying..
natha says slap. lol. won't make me feel better. i'm not sadistic. but ya true no need to worry about it.
being delusional is convenient. haha. suddenly feel so optimistic about everything.

and still looking forward to the end of semester!

i am constantly hungry.. i think it's the stress.. so annoying.

stupid autocad gave me a huge fright. this line can really kill you.
staying over in studio like really over i even brought clothes for the first time this semester. the horror of hall.

learning autocad. i'm so proud of myself. haha. but whether i can actually finish on time for monday's crit is another matter.

why why why. am i that delusional lol. it's a price for the prize. hahaha.. ok that was lame.

SEP application is open! si. how exciting.

i'm going to start an archi blog. our tutor keeps encouraging us to. lol. but sounds taxing. not like typing crap as i'm doing here.

if i survive through thursday, that'd be great. haven't read a single word for tomorrow's physics test. and i haven't even been attending lecture.

hm... dunno. maybe i should wait like two weeks. feels long, though.

ah jadi pingin go somewhere belajar bahasa juga..

i wish there's a way to learn architecture the way people learn language.. like roam around looking at street signs, talking to people, etc. would be fun. something ubiquitous. ok it IS ubiquitous as it is but ya.. you get the drift.

i think i'm paranoid. haha. but dude.. i'm wayy better now. now i feel a sense of calm, and to a certain extent carelessness. if you think about it, carelessness is a luxury.

looking forward :)

so touched geokhan called to discuss about my question on abstraction. i think i'm getting it a bit more and more each day. haha.

i'm tired. need a lot of sleep. my blog sounds whiney. haha.

life is effing depressing. lack of sleep is making me cranky and just damned tired the whole time. i can sleep anytime anywhere in any position.

but the worst is trying to "get it".

what do i always tell him, there's nothing impossible if you put your heart to it, will it, and work it. and yet i feel hopeless. so pathetic, not being able to live that sentence myself.

the pandan reservoir site is accursed. stress level is increasing exponentially, and is inversely proportional with sleep. Interim submission and one essay due on monday. die. haha.

on the other hand.. thank goodness both presentations went well.

our new book is 'Krabat'. i feel so out of touch with the language. can hardly express myself.

omg i'm so screwed. haiz. but i cannot think. no inspiration. and just so tired and unmotivated. want to sleep badly. haven't even visited the site again.

yesterday was full of the unexpected. interesting day. but not enough sleep. my dark eye circles are expanding their territories again.

i speak fluent indonesian okay.... okay maybe not that well anymore, but not that pathetic. lol. i just can't think fast in standard indonesian. haiz. so evil.

why do we hardly talk about ourselves like today? it's nice.
i mean usually it's about schoolwork, people or places. but sometimes it's nice to talk about pasts and futures.

i shouldn't be so happy. controlling happiness level means controlling sadness level, too. i must try harder. haha.

should probably start doing design assignment soon. but i need to do the two bloody presentations as well. haiz.

wah.. we learnt a bit of vocal percussion today. so it was kind of fun. besides, we started practising for the performance.

feeling somewhat excited for the design brief. but lots to do. haha.

so what about today? how did that go? i feel so extra.

anyway. new design brief. this is sick i need a break. i haven't read through the brief but nvm. i've 3 presentations within the next one week.

maybe it's a period of trials. haha. because i realise that everything goes against my will. lol. like the new choice of site. oh wells. i think about it in terms of semesters. so next sem will be good. and this sem is ending in two months' time!

miss tjchoir. was just listening to the old recordings i used to make in the middle of rehearsals. it's amazing! listening to wizard of oz rehearsal. so funny!! can hear erick's strained voice. haha. and tessa counting. and xiufu's wrong notes when jonathan wasn't there, and how he turned pro when the wicked section began lol. and everybody else. this was a saturday morning, i remember.

those were my best days. like everybody loved everybody else. well not really, but almost. tjchoir is best.

i guess i miss tjchoir cos well.. i think that people in choir must be capable and must take choir seriously. otherwise, it's seriously no fun!! haiz. i mean tjchoir was serious, wanted to be good and wanted to have fun. we spent long hours and we got the satisfaction in the end. but a slack choir i think is a waste of time. haiz.

i love 06/07 batch of tjchoir. my best memories.

mui's room in perth is interesting.. very different. very western. haha. maybe it's the carpet. but still i like my room. just that it looks a bit bare and, according to zhaorui, clinical. it's hard to create a cosy space with the rather bright lighting.. i think it was meant to encourage studying. doesn't quite work, haha. and i should probably be cleaning my room and tidying my desk, but .. it's after submissions. i want to rest lol.

wanna go out blow bubbles. haha. feel abit restless after submission. speaking of which, my com crashed like 10 times over the past two days. seriously. it was a frustrating experience. not like the school com is much more reliable either (but maybe i just picked the wrong station).

cooped up inside ocn doing digital design media. so not my thing. lol. but i guess doing okay, if not for the fact that i'm not concentrating!! and feeling a bit sleepy. which is weird, considering i slept most of yesterday away. enjoying reso practices. fun and gratifying. not like .. a certain activity.. haha. that was really a lame one. haiz. anyway.. after tomorrow i'll have a short break (not really, cos there's still tutoring to do and science project.)

i don't know why i'm writing all these. maybe just venting frustrations. and distracting myself from rhino and ecotect. tuesday was really annoying. i mean i'm still annoyed now. so must have been quite bad. lol.

anyway ya go visit sundancechannel.com for the 'green' videos. but i always think making people watch videos is an anti-green act. no?