beginning of the end

-Sunday, August 13, 2006-6:28:00 PM

Normally when someone ask u,
"How are you?"

Ur normal basic ans would be,
"I'm fine thank you"

But have you ever wish that u cud haf given a diff ans
to that qns?

This is the ans that i wish to give when
i'm asked that qns;

"I'm nt fine. Thank you.
I'm having a bad headache that
i feel like banging my head on the wall.
I've gone to the doctor twice this month.
I'm stress abt school, and life.
I'm in my worse mood ever.
I'm feeling so down that i haf to fake all those smiles and laughter.
I haf to hide those tears coz it might affect others.
I haf to cry silently in my heart
every single nite to make those painful feeling go away.
My weight haf gone down drastically that
i feel like i'm a walking skeleton.
Do u want to feel how its like being me rite nw?"

FaRnaH ShorT

Farnah ♥

-Saturday, August 12, 2006-8:37:00 PM

Life have never been easy for anyone.

Not for me,
Not for my family,
Not for my friends
&
Not for anybody else.

I just wonder how ppl around me
can go through all the obstacles in life.

I may appear strong
but
deep down inside it is "eating" me up slowly.

Its rather funny how i can still
appear happy and cheerful in front of others.

Smiling at them and making stupid jokes
to make others happy.

When the fact is
when i'm alone, i drown myself in tears.
when i'm alone, i begin to tink abt tings that i'm not suppose to.
when i'm alone, i talk to myself.
when i'm alone, i ask qns that haf no ans to it.
when i'm alone, i wish for a miracle to happen.

Let's all look on the bright side of life
and
Be Happy =)

I've got no high expectations in life,
i only hope that i graduate from tis course
and
make a different in other people's life.

That's my only wish,
and i hope to fulfill it before i close my eyes forever.

And for those who are concern abt me,
i'm doing fine.
No worries =)

FaRnaH ShorT

Farnah ♥

-Monday, August 07, 2006-10:23:00 PM

I knew it was cuming
bt i didnt expect it to happen anytime soon.

I wish i was a turtle,
so that i can hide in my shell
n
not hear anything tat they say.

It came to me,
bt i wasnt ready for tat yet.

I wish i was a porcupine,
so that i wont get hurt
bt instead ppl ard me will get hurt
when they get near me.

Then it all happen,
i hide under my blanket
n
drown myself in my own tears.

I wish i was a lion,
so that i can be brave
n
roar as loud as i want when i'm unhappy.

Then he came to me
n
gave me a hug.

I wish he was a bear
so that he can give me a hug
whenever i'm in despair.

FaRnaH ShorT

Farnah ♥

-Tuesday, August 01, 2006-9:43:00 PM

Have u ever felt tat when u keep things 2 urself,
it kills u inside slowly?

Have u ever felt tat ppl only comes 2 u when
they nd u
n
leave u when they r happy?

Have u ever felt tat u are tired of putting up wif
all tis kind of nonsense?

Have u ever felt tat u juz wish 2 lead ur own life
n
never want 2 be disturb by others?

Have u ever felt tat no matter how hard u try
2 stay strong bt in the end
u break down?

Have u ever felt wat its like 2 be questioned abt
the same qns over n over agn
even when they noe the qns will only hurt u?

Have u ever told urself 2 put up a smile
even when u r deeply hurt
n
not in the mood?

Ask urself tis few qns.
Sowie if any of these qns might affect anybdy's feelings
bt i'm only writting dwn wat i tink n feel.

FaRnaH ShorT

*Those sweet memories are nw haunting me in my dream*

Farnah ♥