-Saturday, January 29, 2005-3:40:00 AM
Berhenti Berharap
Aku tak percaya lagi
Dengan apa yg kau beri
Aku terdampar di sini
Tersudut menunggu mati
Aku tak percaya lagi
Akan guna matahari
Dengan mampu menerangi
Sudut gelap hati ini
Aku berhenti berharap
dan menunggu datang gelap
Sampai nanti suatu saat
tak ada cinta ku dapat
Kenapa ada derita
Bila bahagia tercipta
Kenapa ada sang hitam
Bila putih menyenangkan
Aku pulang...
Tanpa dendam
Kuterima........ Kekalahanku
Aku pulang...
Tanpa dendam
Kusalutkan......... kemenanganmu
Kau ajarkan aku bahagia
Kau ajarkan aku derita
Kau tunjukkan aku bahagia
Kau tunjukkan aku derita
Kau berikan aku bahagia
Kau berikan aku derita
-Friday, January 28, 2005-6:15:00 AM
Bismillah......
Alhamdullilah, 2dae is d HAPPIEST day of my life :) I'm soooooooooooo happy :) WoAh!!!!!!! Only Allah s.w.t noe how i feel rite now :) I seroiusly have 2 say a BIG FAT thank u 2 my beloved MUM. She was d sole reason why i continued on my job hunting :) Thank u sooooooo much. I LURVE U, IBU :) oh gosh, i feel lyk crying. Ish....... And also, 2 my fellow NKJM, Thank u sooooooo much 4 encouraging me & supporting me :) U guys r d BEST!!!!!
Tata.........
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-Thursday, January 27, 2005-12:50:00 PM
KaL Ho Na Ho
Well, i've juz got back from azzie's Raymond house. We had a GREAT time :) Thanx Azzie 4 inviting us over 2 ur house 2dae. U have made ur day. *WinkS* Haha....... well be4 tat me & yah actuali went 2 hunt 4 a job AGAIN. Insyallah we will be able 2 get a job at BATA....... I want 2 CONGRATULATE Yah 4 arriving at BOOTS & SHOES earlier than me :) Well, i was late anyway. Hehe..... Sorie :) As soon as we reach Azni's house aishah was also there, me & yah were exhausted coz we lyk walk from d interchange 2 her house. WOAH!!!! Tat is tiring......... We actuali watched a Hindi movie, d title is........
KAL HO NA HO.
Tat sHow is lyk soooooooooo SAD :( Wah, i practically cried watching tat show. i was sooooooooo feeling emo juz now. Even though at times, azni keeps "touhing" me. * WinkS * Muahahahahahaha......... On d other hand aishah avoided from watching d sad part coz she didn't want 2 cry :) Hehe..... Sooooooooo CUTE :)
I feel soooooooooo HAPPY 2dae. Serious. I have never felt happier :) I was even humming d theme song 4 tat movie all d way home ;) Haha........ Not in d bus lah but i walked home from d bus interchange. Hehe....... Tat show is lyk d BEST sad show ever tat i have ever watched be4. It touched my heart, especially, FRANKIE :) Azni & yah, i noe u guys have fall in lurve wif tis dude coz they even rewind d show, juz 2 rewatch tat dude's face :) Haiz........ Anyways, we really had a GREAT time & Azni THANK U SOOOOOOOOO MUCH 4 d potato pau :) I lurve it........
TaTa..........
p/s: Spread lurve everywhere u go, let no one ever cum 2 u without leaving better & happier.
-Wednesday, January 26, 2005-8:25:00 AM
Bismillahirrahmanirahim.
Renungan
"...... Hawa dicipta dari tulang rusuk Adam, bukan dari kepalanya untuk dijadikan atasannya, bukan dari kakinya untuk dijadikan alasannya, melainkan dari sisinya untuk dijadikan teman hidupnya, dekat pada lengan untuk dilindunginya dan dekat di hati untuk dicintainya........ "
-Tuesday, January 25, 2005-12:10:00 PM
Haiz..... well 4 a start 2dae i did nothing at home xcept 4 eating & eating. I did ABSOLUTELY NOTHING!!!!!!!!! I had wanted 2 go & watcha movie wif yah but too bad d it was a nite movie, so it was a GONER!!!!!!! Wat a waste???? Haiz........ but its okay :) But thank goodness tat my dear fren, 'Arifah wanted 2 c me coz she actully missed me, sooooooooo sweet. So i met her under my blok @ ACE ThePlace & we tok....... Biasalah bout d usual gurlz things ;) Hehe....... But other than meeting her, i was kinda bored at home, playing d comp d whole day & chatting wif ppl. It kinds of make me sick of tat usual routine :( YuCkZ......... But anyway, i have 2 get used 2 it 4 d next 1 mth be4 getting my results. Arghhhhhhh......... I'm SCARED!!!!!!! Hmm..... but i've done my best :) So I'M READY!!!!!! Muahahahahahahahahaha.............. Haiz.......... Tata............
-Monday, January 24, 2005-8:35:00 AM
Here i am 2 say congrats 2 my fellow nkjm, Farah a.k.a Blue Nkjm 4 she have found her one & only true lurve, Wan :) Congrats Gurl! Hmm........ wow, now its down 2 me, yah, azzie, farna & aishah 2 find ur lurve one :) Hehe....... Relax ah...... we still have d entire s'pore population 2 xplore & then we can make up ur decision. *WiNkZ* Muahahahahahahaha........ Well, Farah dun 4get ur fren when ur in lurve. Always remember tat u can cum 2 us d "Xperienced" Lurve Doctors r here 2 help u when u have any probs :) Hehe..... Even though we have fallen out of lurve 4 a few times now, we have learnt from ur mistakes & have becum a better psn :) But anyways, 2dae did nothing at home. I'm BORED! Aiyoh...... maybe tml we d NKJM wud be going out 2 watch a movie. R were???? Hmm...... It all depends :) Okaylah, tat's all maybe when nitez cum i will have inspiration on wat other topics 2 tok about :)
Tata...............
FaRnA PaCiKuL
-Sunday, January 23, 2005-2:30:00 PM
HiDuP mEsTi MaU kEnTuT
Aloha....... its been a while since i've visited my cute bloggy ;) Hehe..... I've been out 4 d past few days going 2 my grandma's & auntie's house. Penat giler........... on d Hari Raya Haji, i went 2 celebrate it @ my grandma's place wif my relatives & got home @ about 10 pm. Kind of tiring even though i weren't doing anything there, lyk i did barely touch any of d food on d table. No appetite. Then i thought lyk we cud take d cab home but NOPE, had 2 take d bus home. I was lyk hoping tat my uncle cud pick us up since he was heading 2wards my house anyway. Haiz....... But nvm :)
For 2dae, i went out wif my hansem cousin, my aunt, my 2 sis & of course my cute little baby boi Hannan. Lurve u baby boi ;) We went 2 d library & i was lyk in-charge of them when we were @ d library coz my aunt nd 2 run sum errand. So i was lyk, Huh???? But wat d hell??? I juz had 2 take them 2 d 4th lvl & ask them 2 pick up sum books. SENANG!!!!!!!!! Muahahahahahahahaha........ But afta ta they complained tat they were hungry & all but wat cud i do???? I am BROKE :( So we had 2 lyk wait 4 my auntie 2 get back 2 cwp & went off 2 Swensen 2 eat sum GOOD food :) Thank u sooooooooo much my beloved Auntie :) Then afta tat we went shopping 2 buy sum stuff 4 my cute baby boi & went back 2 my aunt's house :) Aiyoh....... sooooooooo tiring layan-ing my adek2 sedare.
But it was a FUN day after all :)
-Friday, January 21, 2005-12:50:00 PM
WoHoOoOoOoO
Wohoooooo............ i had great fun 2dae @ nyp wif my 2 partners in crime Yah & Azni, d 2 CRAZY gurlz from Hougang "Chalet". Muahahahahahahahahaha............. Giler sak!!!!!!!!! But wat 2 do, once u get close wif them, u wud get infected by their disease :) Hehe........ But hey we had LOTS of fun :) We played games & had FREE food. Wat more can u ask 4???? 2dae ur dearest Yah learnt how 2 ikat d kainsamping & afta tat she was suppose 2 jump & turn around five times. Afta all tat tiring game, we were given free "Roti Jala" a.k.a "Roti kirai"(i wrote tis specially 4 nuriah so she can remember tat tis 2 rotis r d same). Muahahahahahhahaha......... Azni also got 2 try out tis game where she have 2 pick up d transparent marbles in tis bowl of water using a chopsticks & Yeah she managed 2 do tat :) U Go Gurl!!!!! And we also saw sum1. Hehe....... only Yah & azni noe who tat psn is ;) *Muackz* Hehe...... we had lots of fun taking pictures 4 example.............. u go check it out urself wif Yah & Azni, only they r d ones who noe bout tis "chicky" Pictures :) Anyways, on behalf of Yah & Azni, i wud lyk 2 say Thanx 2 Yusof who had shown us around d campus juz now & 4 bringing us 2 d canteen :) And yeah, we also took a picture tat can actually be printed on a postcard :) It was sooooooooooooo fun :) Btw, 2dae i learnt how 2 sew : ) Yes!!!!!! I did it even though it looked kind of funny & all but who cares......... Yah, decorated tis gingerbread man wif icing sugar & it tasted GOOD!!!!! Azni on d other hand did a henna painting on her hands & it looks BEAUTIFUL!!!!!!! See all of us learnt sumthing new 2dae :) Tata..........
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-Wednesday, January 19, 2005-6:20:00 AM
2dae me & my bro went out 2gether 2 SSC a.k.a Sembawang Shopping Centre 2 return his KFC uniform as he quit his jobbie. Sooooooooooo sad, there goes my income :( Hmm.... dunno wat makes him quit his job but i guess werking life is juz not meant 4 us students yet coz 2 me studying is easier than werking. As 4 me, i'm still looking 4 a job but 2 no avail. Too bad............ but its rather fun sitting at home, doing nothing :p Hehe....... Pemalas nye gurl........... But seriously its difficult getting a job nowadays & especially wif my dad around telling me 2 stop looking 4 a job coz he's gonna give me my income but i still wanna gain d experience of werking. Anyways, i'm thinking of buying contact lenses but i'm short of money so d only thing 2 do now is 2 beg my dad 4 one :) Hehe......... Pandai lah nanti aku bodek2 die ;p Muahahahahahahahaha........................ Evil.......... But hey i'm still under his care so he has 2 provide me wif everything :) Tata................
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-Tuesday, January 18, 2005-12:59:00 PM
hApPy ShA LaLa
I'm feeling better now, tis is all thanx 2 my partners in crime Yah Shinoda & Azzie Raymond :) U guys r d best.......... I'm back 2 my normal old self but d new version ;) Hehe......... who has been reading my blog wud noe wat i mean..... 4 azzie raymond, i'll help u look 4 ur budak madrasah :) 4 yah shinoda, kau nak apek mane satu tadi???? D one wif d "nice" hair or budak madarsah tu???? Muahahahahaha.............. okay lah, thanx 4 "teman-ing" me juz now :) Tata...........
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--4:55:00 AM
I noe i have let down soooooooooo many ppl in my life now especially 2 my fellow nakajimas & i'm sorie. I'm sorie yah tat i didn't stay strong as i used 2. I'm really sorie. Its really hard 4 me 2 explain things 2 u guys but when d time comes i'll tell u guys. Tat's a promise. I have had my share of happiness now & i tink its time 4 Allah 2 test me. I've had toooooooooooo much of enjoyment now. I noe i have 2 be strong & all but i juz carry on lying 2 myself, telling myself 2 4get bout wat happen. Every night, i'll cry tinking of all d things tat have happened. I tried 2 do my part as sumbody's gf but i end up getting hurt.................. I'm really sorie if i have ever offended u guys in anyways.
Red nkjm.
-Monday, January 17, 2005-11:59:00 AM
LiFe
I've juz realise tat life can be soooooooooo fragile.
At one point u r alive & d next u r dead.
Even though there was a real life example tat had happened 2 my family in d year 2004,
i still didn't REPENT.
I still wanted 2 enjoy life lyk normal teenagers do,
but i was soooooo wrong.
Life is tooooooooooo fragile 2 play around wif.
I still didn't heed all d messages tat was delivered by my ustaz & ustazah.
I was STUBBORN!!!!!
Why???
Why Farhanah????
Why didn't u want 2 REPENT????
When u have seen sooooooooo many disasters tat had happened in tis world!!!!!
Muz u wait till d end of d world,
then u will REPENT?????
--7:29:00 AM
.: SoRiE :.
Here i am 2 say sorie 2 a particular psn.
i noe i've been unfair 2 u but i got my reasons of doing tat,
u may say tat i've never understand u but d fact is i did.
U may say tat i've never spared a thought 4 u but i did.
All d more tat i cared 4 u tat makes me cum 2 tis decision.
I don't want u 2 suffer no more,
coz d more u suffer, d more i'll be living in agony.
I juz wanna say SORRY.
-Sunday, January 16, 2005-12:30:00 PM
Do U LuRvE HiM Or NoT???
Tis is d common question tat ppl usually ask u. Do u lurve him or not???
At times u don't even noe d ans 2 tis short yet complicated qn.
But why????
Have u ever ask urself tis qn be4????
Did u accept tat psn becoz of lurve or juz 4 d fun of it???
Have u ever given a thought bout tis???
Wat if in d end u r at d losing end???
Wat if u r d 1 whose going 2 get hurt???
Wat if???
wat if???
Tat's d only qn tat u nd 2 ask urself be4 u get committed 2 sum1.
-Friday, January 14, 2005-1:45:00 PM
Hey2............ From d few entries till now i have been emphasising tat i'm JOBLESS......... Aiyoh......... So wat????? I've decided not 2 stress bout not werking :) So
Aishah kau tak payah nak tempah kan aku katil kat hougang chalet :) Muahahahaha............Let time decides when i will get my job :) Huh....... Now i'm feeling better :) Tata..............
mRs PaCiKuL
--9:55:00 AM
Arghhhhhh....... i'm stressed!!!!!!! My comp has not been functioning well lately! Aiyoh........... Susah nye hidup mcm ni................. I'm going
CRAZY!!!!!!!!! Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhh............ can sumbody give me a job already???????
CrAzY KeCiK
-Thursday, January 13, 2005-1:30:00 PM
Helo......... i'm feeling better now :) It's not tat i've got a job or anything but dunno why lah????? Hmm..... but i tink i'll juz try my luck first at ntuc & c whether they have accepted me 2 be one of their ntuc members :) Hehe...... i'm cheering myself up :) Tat's better.......... Insyallah i will get a job sooner or later be4 chinese new year. Amin.
BuBbLiT a.k.a MrS PaCiKuL
--2:55:00 AM
haiz.... 2dae dunno why i woke up damn early :( Thought of going 4 another round of job hunting but i'm still tired.......... Aiyoh.... how am i going 2 get a job if i keep up wif tis attitude of mine. Arghhhhhhhh......... i'm going crazy!!!!!!!!!!! As 4 my bro he got a job already & i'm still rotting dead at home doing nothing except 4 sleepin, eating & playing d comp................... Arghhhhhhhh.........................
-Wednesday, January 12, 2005-1:50:00 PM
Haiz..... 2dae went out 2 look 4 a job but...... Aiyoh..... Stress seh lyk tiz :( *Sob* Aishah u can now book me a bed at ur special chalet at hougang i want a bed nxt 2 u tau :) i tink i'm going 2 end up there if i fail 2 find a job at d end of tis week...... Finding a job nowadays is lyk sooooooo difficult. Arghhhhhhhhhhhhh................. Btw, 2dae dunno why i keep singing d song "Tempted 2 touch" (btw is d spelling correct???) & ur dearest Aishah keeps laughing throughout d journey, dunno why lah???? Maybe becoz we failed 2 get a job???? Haiz...... I'm tired & sick of looking 4 a job :( Tis is toooooooo tiring 4 a seventeen yr old teen lyk me ;) Hehe...... Okay lah peeps, gtg i'm tired & i wanna sleep now. * YaWn* Tata................
I Nd A JoB pLz HeLp mE :(
-Monday, January 10, 2005-7:11:00 AM
Hey.... At last 2dae ma dad bought me my tudung a.k.a scarf ;) hehe.... i'm soooooo hepi!!!! afta soooooo amny months of asking at last 2dae is d dae :) i noe it sounds weird but yeah, i'm hepi..... tak tau eh, mcm i have tis urge 2 wear tudung. Insyallah when d dae cum u guys wud be d first psn 2 c me where ma tudung :) hehe..... Tata.....
Farhanah_Red Nkjm
-Sunday, January 09, 2005-2:10:00 PM
haiz.... 2dae has been a tiring dae 4 me. I was out da whole dae. First when 2 funan afta tat when straight pick up ma sista & my hansem cousin :) Serious, he's really hansem..... Then i spend da whole dae at my aunt's place & "took care" of my other baby cousin. He's getting chubbier each & every dae :) I luv u! Hehe.... Chayang my baby cousin :) Afta tat my parents decided 2 go 2 cwp but actuali it was my idea :) hehe.... Anyway my only intention was 2 buy my scarf but ended up walking at d night market a.k.a pasar mlm. I'm toooooo tired :( Haiz..... wat a dae??????
nEiL PeRrY _ My LoVe.
-Friday, January 07, 2005-12:10:00 PM
hey peeps.... 2dae me went out wif ma sis, Nuriah a.k.a Yah shinoda :) Hehe... so we tok bout ur daily happenings in ur life & up8 each other bout other stuff for example "Guys" :p Hehe... Not much happened 2dae except tat saw ur lil sis, pink nkjm wif her boi. Such a cute couple :) Hope u stay everlasting 2gether. Amin. 4 nuriah, nice hair colour :) I Like.... okayz tat's all, tata....
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--4:00:00 AM
2dae is a very sunny morning..... tat's a very gd sign :) In d early morning azni have alraedy crack me up wif her jokes. Thanx gurl 4 making my dae :) U r d best! Hmm.... 2dae i'm going back 2 skul wif ma frenz 2 help out mr chua wif his new cca. See how helpful we r???? hehe.... Hope 2dae wud be a meaningful day 2 us :) Amin. Tata....
nEiL PeRrY _ My LoVe
-Thursday, January 06, 2005-12:10:00 PM
Helo... i've made a new blog. Plz check it out. Any comment juz tag me or juz leave me a comment :) Tata...
Red Nkjm.