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back frm the streets of geylang and the bends of changi. doing behavioural psychology assignment. "prostitution"
prostitution (noun) : offering sexual intercourse for money. harlotry. whoredom.
before anyone thinks that i'm writing my direct antagonist way.. wait up!
honestly i dun look down on them. i just wonder why they go into that habit of taking the easy way out?
i think its a habit. a very bad habit. acquainted with bad brushes with life's ordeals.
Observations
1) Various age range.
2) Different nationalities.
3) Sleazy streets, "red light district"
4) Open negotiation trade.
5) Patrons are varied. Local bikerboys, twenties. Taxi drivers, variable ages. Men driving luxurious cars, variable ages mainly chinese.
So?
Men are deprived?
Women are into trade because men needs outlet to f^%k other than their legal wifeys?
Young boys are turning to them as part of their growing up adventures?
Taxi drivers are driving thru brothel-ed streets for a "short time"?
Come on ladies...
Last resort? Case of Lan Lan cannot run, must do the trade?
I bet there are other things that one can do other than that.
I'm sorry if i'm putting it dwn harshly but i think its basically back to our own choices in life.
Pick yourself up, my ladies.
I know you can do better than that.
We are in the world for many other tasks other than that.
Think hard. Pull yourself out of the ruts. I know you're worth more than this!
although i'm vexed and very much clueless with what is happening in life for now and wished that its never happening right under my nose, i am left fighting for the last bits of it, i'ld reckon.
life has always posed challenges along the way. its not been easy, but never fails to teach me a lesson or two along the way. mom's passing away like 14 years back has definitely carved the fighter outta me. never say die. what does not kill only makes one stronger, i've learnt. its true i guess. people who have not gone through the phase wont have learnt wat i have in my pockets for now. the pain. the tears. the toil and all the effort that one puts through helping her dad make ends meet in life, putting her brothers to school and beyond.
honestly i've not been perfect, never will be. but i'm happy. in fact i'm contented.
i've not been the most happiest gurl laughing to the bank cos i aint rich, but i'm blessed, still!
believe me i've had and still have bitches who can affords their monogrammes and blings blings but aint happy and screwing around, for all i'ld care.
but currently i'm learning much more in life.
one's integrity in life.
in whicheva and whateva ways one is put into.
yes. i'm particularly perplexed for now. but when all's fail, i know of Him who wouldnt retire on me. perhaps its just His way of knockin on my door sayin' that hey, you've been ditching me eyy? perhaps i kinda ditched him somehow when i'm all smiles and happy and delusive. Ouh my.. i'm so guilty and ashamed to just run back to Him just when i need him and diss him once i'm done! but its major lesson huh? yes it is. for real!
this year is gonna me about "me" time.
yes. i'm ditching all hospitality.
i've had enuff of planning for others.
for other's holiday plans and all its itineraries.
for planning of burfday parties and all the logistics.
for planning of dinner dates and all catch up sessions.
if you asked me.. i'll gladly say i QUIT. for real!
so if you've decide to catch up and want me to tag along, ask.
otherwise, its farewell then.
and so.. i'll start planning for me? yes... me.
selfish as it may sound... i'ld guess those people i've lived life planning for all these while would know that i've put myself waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay behind all these years.
so shut the gap and dun start. duncha even think about it.
if i'm born to fight my way thru. so be it. i'll fight.
this time i'll fight, His Way.
i'm searching for the ultimate peace in all these ordeals.
everything happens for a reason aint it?
and in His Will aint it?
so. its all written for, rite?
sabar, you'ld say?
as-sabirin, you'ld have.
so, 2010 has yet to be happy for me, but i'll face it anyway.
as daeia has said.. only losers quit.. and she rubbed it again by asking.. so kakak.. are u a loser?!
tsk. she learnt from the best aint it?
these is my guidebook for now...
Health
1. Drink plenty of water.
2. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like aprince and dinner like a beggar.
3. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants. 4. Live with the 3 E's -- Energy,Enthusiasm, and Empathy.
5. Make time for prayer.
6. Play more games.
7. Read more books than you did in 2009.
8. Sit in silence for at least 10minutes each day.
9. Sleep for 7 hours.
10. Take a 10-30 minutes walk every day.And while you walk, smile.
Personality
11. Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
12. Don't have negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.
13. Don't over do. Keep your limits.
14. Don't take yourself so seriously.No one else does.
15. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip.
16. Dream more while you are awake.
17. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
18. Forget issues of the past. Don't remind your partner with his/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.
19. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don't hate others.
20. Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present.
21. No one is in charge of yourhappiness except you.
22. Realize that life is a school and you arehere to learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear andfade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.
23. Smile and laugh more.
24. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
Society
25. Call your family often.
26. Each day give something good to others.
27. Forgive everyone for everything.
28. Spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6.
29. Try to make at least three people smile each day.
30. What other people think of youis none of your business.
31. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your familyand friends will. Stay in touch.
Life
32. Do the right thing!
33. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
34. GOD heals everything.
35. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
36. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
37. The best is yet to come.
38. When you awake alive in the morning, thank GOD for it.
39. Your Inner most is always happy. So, be happy.
40. Respect. Relax. Respond.
So anyone with me?
