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i've got a lil "HUGE" confession.

i kinda am enjoying someone's company rite now.

its really something new. and i'm not sure how much i would be into it.

he's sweet and all. she's sweeter. like candy sweet. really.

big round eyes. loOonG eyelashes. her name is Princess A.


and we're having a date, real soon. the 3 of us. a crowd you'ld say?

naay, a pleasure i think.

with that mr sweet smile. plus that gorgeous cute princess.. i should be feeling snow white-ISH.

dunno what i'm blabbering about? call me to find out more.. (this applies to my loved ones only or at least those who keep in contact with me..)

"Berubahnya tingkah laku seseorang tertakluk kepada keadaan sekelilingnya.." kata hatiku yang remuk.

Aku diam, sambil menikmati angin laut yang berhembus lembut ke arahku.

"Mungkin tiap perkara yg berlaku di dalam kehidupan ada hikmahnya.." hatiku masih tertanya-tanya hiba.

Manusia berubah mengikut zaman, peradaban dan juga situasi kehidupan.

Mereka juga akan berubah dengan status. Kekayaan, kejayaan dan kesenangan mungkin mengaburi seseorang.

Sifat alpa.

Alpa dengan siapa mereka dahulu sebelum kesenangan datang kepada mereka.

Dulu hari, susah. Hari ini mungkin senang. Esok lusa mungkin mereka kembali susah.

Wallahu'alam.

Satu fakta azali.

Hidup terkadang ibaratkan roda. Putarannya jelas kembali ke titik asal.

Mungkin satu hari kau akan mengerti.

Tetapi ini satu kemungkinan sahaja.

Satu doa dan harapan buatmu selalu, untuk belajar bersikap rendah diri.

Kerana tidak semua perkara boleh ditangani dengan egomu. Dengan pelajaranmu. Dengan ketangkasan tutur katamu yang terkadang tajam.

Kepadamu. Aku berundur diri.

Namun aku harap kamu belajar dari kesilapanmu. Doaku buatmu, selalu.

salaam all



i watched it. 3 times. and have not got sick and tired of it, i think.

Directed by the acclaimed Hanung Bramantyo, from the true story novel by Habibburahman El Shirazy, it was a long awaited movie to hit the shores.

for its enlightening. its fresh. but it makes me a crybaby. for all 3 times, mind you. so cengeng.

this movie was hard handled by the Jakarta movie commissions. a soopa late release, i should say. Like the well-read would say, good things will path its way for all goodness, in Allah's Will..

its all that i had pictured for love. true love. or real love if some would put it as.

two words. without pretence.

no "sayang pergi sayang balik" neither it has "abang pergi abang balik.." or sayang2, abang2 suma blah pun chantik.. citer ni TAKDE sungguh absent dari script!

although i felt that the book left a bigger impact on me. but to have the characters brought to life on the silverscreen was really a deal. like those arabic conversations that Habibburahman wrote, it feels that you're seeing the scene happen around you. super surround.

i get sucked into the lil Arabic conversations, the verses, the sholawat, the Syahadah and the Surahs.

and yeah. the character, Aishah. she made me stronger. but at the same time she made me feel very lil too. i'm nowhere compared to her. except the jealous behaviour portion. erms. for i'm only human.. ni super excoose. hehs.

and so we are always talking about us. about our sayang. about whoeva. wateva. whicheva larh.

but i am asking this to myself now..

it is always about us, isn’t it?
OUR life.
OUR love story.
OUR happiness.
OUR sadness.
OUR wealth.
OUR jobs.
Ours, ours, ours.
Us, us, us.
When will it ever be about ALLAH?
When will it ever be for ALLAH?

the novel reminded us this. constantly thruout the book. pls slap ourselves silly for not constantly reminded.

i'm not saying that showing of affection tak boleh. boleh. tapi memadai larh kan. takmo over the top, later get shot my the gagak hunters tau! lagi tak-balik-the-modal you..

i love the movie. really. i love the novel. i read it twice already. but i somehow have the feeling of re-reading it again..

surah maryam. i will really want to take a closer look at that surah. and slowly ngempel with my father of what he understands from it. and share what both of us feels laarh kan.

and plus i think i'ld spend some time to do An-Nisaa's tafsir. interesting to read the real women's charter, i think.

after the movie i kinda texted some loved ones this feeling of mine..

i conclude this of love. Jodoh itu rahsia Allah, untuk kita manusia.. Sampai sekarang, jodoh yang kita tahu adalah andaian manusia sendiri. Untuk mengenali cinta, kita harus telus percaya atasNYA. Dan apabila Allah menemukan jodoh buat diri kita, dengan itulah dikatakan menyempurnakan separuh dari iman kita (ijab kabul).

Ya ALLAH, terimalah ampun kami semua dan temukanlah jodoh kami yang ditetapkanMU. Sesungguhnya pilihanMU adalah yang terbaik buat kami. Aku minta moga2 teman hidup kami adalah yang beriman padaMU, yang pantas memujiMU dalam suka dan juga di dalam duka. Aamin.

that's how peaceful i am for now. within me, i'm proud of myself. for at least keeping wat my woman's worth. the lil gem. although a bitch @ my previous sighting. hehs.

happy Thursday lurvelies.

isnt it ironic, dont you think?
a lil too ironic..

to you. you suck. at all costs. at all times.
so. two words. fcuk off.

wateva your words. just wateva.
it does not mean anything to me rite now. or anymore..

i've blocked you. cos you're not worth.

you stoopid nincompoop! such a waste of time.


okay. rite now. you're to do what you deemed rite. deal?

farewell.

LIBRA - The Harmonizer (Sept 23 - Oct 22)

it defines the horoscope of mine.

1) Nice to everyone they meet - ni btol. tapi ada orang pula kata my face like nak kena rejam if you dunno me well. iya ke?

2) Can't make up their mind - ni comperm. colours, baju, MEN even. i cant make up my mind.

3) Have own unique appeal - biasalaarh kan.

4) Creative, energetic, and very social - ehems!

5) Hates to be alone - soopa manje nak mampos

6) Peaceful, generous - winks!

7) Very loving and beautiful - ni masing2 punya eyes arrh kan.

8) Flirtatious - whoa. ni kan. discreet sket.

9) Give in too easily - malas nak fight arh

10) Procrastinators - TO THE MAX

11) Very gullible - this one not too correct arrh. i feel i kepala batu nak mampos.

arrh tu laarh dia.. it made my day.

thanks beshtie. and those around me to accept me for who i am.

maceh.. buat susah2 je sumer.. ekekekeke.

its the weekend darlinques. pe lagiks?? enjoy arrh kan!

and so we all went. the genq went to KL. and came back!

fuuyoh. penat arrh sket. cos byk kamikaze arrh kan.. pi sana. gerak sini. balik apt. keluar balik..

but all in a good name called siblinghood. gerrek nak mampos.

and i'm still 'begging' dja for the pixes taken via the Samsung digicammie. Biasa arrh datin tuh.. kalah isteri menteri tahap busy dia.. hwahahaha.

we went for dja's friend's wedding. hahaha. nice. at that place. i miss the gotong royong spirit.

and guess wat. all in my mind was to sabo besday boy.. but i oso kena sabo.. in a good way laarh. pakcik shy and shikin came over to our apartment. terkejot nak mampos beb. it caught me very very tak tahu camner nak react.. haha.

plus nizan and wifey. sorry arhh siti tak sempat nak jumpa cos cheq malas nak jalan pi concorde for supper.. dah sibuk melepak @ apartment.. plus i was watching a movie on HBO! sowwie hor brudder. i pwomise i see you around sometime!!

and so i've only got the pixes taken over at my hp cammie. bear with it jer laarh ouhkay.



mobile entertainment.. on the moove


i carried mr bonch with me.. cos he asked me to..


mr bonch..


nature at its best


btween sky and earth. there's ME! hehs


hehs. self explanatory


recharge!


of sins and sensibility. mangkok!


wen we got home. we miss this! mamak. bulls eyes pls!

so that was my peekture journal for now..

i love you one and all.

assyafii. happy besday bro. i lurve you many2 lemon. jangan marah ekkhs kena sabo ngan lotion2. hairgel2. segala benda yang liquid2.. cake cream. dan segala apa yang dah kena. plus the icing on the sabotage cake=air sejok nak mampos dari fridge.. tu pakcik shai punya keje.. it wasnt us.. at least.. hehs!


pssst. eh mat. lu diam pun cantik! byk aah wuuu-aah wuuu aarrh lu! ingat byk bobal byk dosa beb. lu diam pun cantik~~ world!!! adik piee. you know i know arrh ekkhs?

haha. lu. lu diam pun cantik.

kira2 lu bley terjun ngan labu2 lu.

tak pun ngan buah2 lu laarh kan.

mangkok!

byk sangat arrh lu peh beboal "world" !

isap arrh mat!