You will only move on when you decide to own your shit.

"You've changed."

"No, I certainly didnt. I just became better of without."

"You're still holding on to your grudges."

"No, darla. You think too highly of yourself. Its just that... you are of irrelevance thenafter."

Seorang pendita pernah berkata,

"Hiduplah kamu di dunia sebagai seorang musafir yang tugas utamanya adalah mengembara."

Jelasnya kau, aku, dia dan kita semua adalah musafir yang terulung di dunia.

Nyatanya perjalanan kita dalam kehidupan adalah untuk terus cari kemenangan dan dari itu kemerdekaan dalam kehidupan kita.

Majulah kita ke hadapan, melihat kemenangan.
Majulah kita bersama.
Bersatu dengan semangat yang paling teguh. Yang paling utuh.

Jangan pernah telat dengan kesusahan.
Jangan pernah mundur hanya diuji dengan kejatuhan.

Merdekalah kita semua.
Merdekakanlah nyawa dan minda kita.

I took a stand to trash-talk to my future.
I told it not to give a straight-up damn with the monsters called "memories".
I told it not to give a straight-up damn with the demons called "regrets".

I told it to just take a chill pill and live by the day. By that sway.

When you said your last goodbye,
I must admit I died a whole lot inside.

Gone will be the times when I can touch your smiles.
When you'ld pick me up when I start to crumble into pieces and start to cry.

I will no longer have the shoulders to lean on.
And that when I wake up, you're all gone.

The Lover's Guile

Like the one that never moved away.
Like the would that never stopped bleeding.

susuk tubuhmu masih genap di ujung jelingan mataku.
masih kuat rembesnya calit-calit kenangan lampau.


***


salju.
hatiku kini umpama diselimuti salju tebal.
dingin.
kerna kamu.
kerna kamu hilang berlalu.

bismillah.

so this is it. i'm back, for good.
so people might ask who blogs nowadays when there's facebook, right?

but heck i dont really care. i was never on facebook to start with.


its been years, eyhh.
long, good and lousy ones. but life goes on, young padawan.