I want to be brave

(: She's so cute all the time.

Hey, :)

Heeey heeeey heeeeey

Your lipstick stains on the front lobe of my left side brains

I knew I wouldn't forget you

And so I went and let you blow my mind

Your sweet moving

The smell of you in every single dream

I dream I knew when we collided you're the one I have decided

Who's one of my kind

Hey soul sister, ain't that mister mister on the radio, stereo

The way you move ain't fair you know

Hey soul sister, I don't wanna miss a single thing you do tonight

Heeey heeeey heeeey

Just in time, I'm so glad you have a one track mind let me

You gave my life direction

A game show love connection, we can't deny I'm so obsessed

My heart is bound to beat right out my untrimmed chest

I believe in you, like a virgin, you're Madonna

And I'm always gonna wanna blow your mind

Well you can cut a rug

Watching you is the only drug I need

So gangster, I'm so thug

You're the only one I'm dreaming of

You see I can be myself now finally

In fact there's nothing I cant be

I want the world to see you'll be with me

If you see it,

I guess this is so true. I'm in the pit now, alone.

If you were to lend me a helping hand,

I'd pull you down with me.

I don't find this a bad thing.

I'm just happy someone understands how I'm feeling.

I don't hate love because of this.

I hate love because my heart beats on quick mode when I see you ):

I hope you hear this

I'm trapped in a world that I can't take,

Where everything's unrealistic and fake.

I'm hiding out and planning my escape,

I hope I'm not the only one.

Please come and rescue me tonight.

I just wish that I could disappear.

Someone take me far away from here.

Do you suppose there's more to life out there?

There's no happiness surrounding me.

Hate and ugliness is all I see,

I wanna leave it all behind.

I'm running out of time,

Please come and rescue me tonight.

Today I feel crushed

The worse things to feel in silence.

1) Loving someone you're not supposed to.
2) Having the urge to meet someone but you can't.
3) You want to look after the person but it's best if you do it in silence.
4) You're afraid of losing the one you love. (even though she doesn't know)
5) You need to see her but she doesn't want to.
6) You've realised that there's that tinge of hope, you want and is so close to holding onto that hope but that hope decides to find its own hope in wanting to cure her own complications.
7) You suffering the same fate as your hope at the same point of time.

I need to see my hope soon. The only way to know that you're fine is by your friend. I guess it's more than enough for me. :) Silence is virtue. I love you hope. I have no idea when it started. I need you badly.

(YOU WON'T READ THIS ANYWAY SO WHATEVER)

Something to think about.

Love those all who love you. That's what I was taught.

Rejection is something that everyone is afraid of. But what’s there to be rejected if you do not dare to love? Love isn’t something to be afraid of. The future when in it makes you afraid. Well, at least to me it does.

Je n'ose vous aimer. Et vous?

I think I'm gonna have a fever!

OMG OMG OMG.

BB bold 9700 for me please. I'm gonna get that for myself this xmas. HO HO HO!

I shall love myself for a few years. Let's not think about the price I'm gonna pay though. HAHA

YOU GUYS GET THE MESSAGE! YAY

I need to vent this here and now.

I believe that the worst came upon me tonight. I should have known that this was going to happen, before I stepped into RP. It’s been long and the field had the same aura; something that I had to give up now.
How could I be so stupid, thinking that by bowing my head to you asking you to help me when you knew I wouldn’t do something like that?!?! I thought about it for countless nights. I know that this sport is something I see myself doing in the future. But words you said tonight ruined it. I told you that I’m apologetic to my parents for what I have done. Skipping school and all. The only thing that you said to me was that it was my fault, not my parents?! I’m sorry for venting it out here. But I thought you would talk to them on my behalf. I told you that rugby has been my life, I feel myself when I play the sport. In a feeble attempt you just told me with a smile that I should coach and ref, to be involved. I sucked my ego when you drew me the player analysis, I told myself that it was an opportunity to play better. You put me down the other time, but yet I was so stupid to think that you wouldn’t this time round.
I made myself meet your superwoman requirements. The impossible, and yet all you could do was to tell me to stay out of the team for now. IVP is coming up, I missed it last year due to your high requirements, I told myself that this year was the only time to prove to myself, and to you. But you stopped that from happening. You crushed the dreams of many all the time, and you could still think that it’s the best for everyone.
As I waited for my team mates to have their break you told me to study hard, asked me to hurry go home because I can’t stay. I thank you for that gesture but you’re as heartless as a beast. I couldn’t stop the tears running down my cheek as I went home. Home is the last place I would seek refuge when I’m in doubt. I’m sorry RP rainbows. I’m sorry to let you down. But this time round, I wouldn’t sit and get back into cunning hands. You’ve changed Boo. I’m sorry.

You’re a fucking bitch. I can never let myself forgive you.

I hate PP for a reason

I spent $20 on rubbish. I rushed and got stressed for stupid reasons. Next up I will post something really demoralising to me, but apparently it's not for someone. Anyway,

Take note of my stupid advisor's comments. He suck big time.

Good Posters. Critical analysis needed. Good to gather public feedback rather than just relying on SSC's statistics.

What a bitch! Damn ass.

I love Dashboard Confessional!

Down in a local bar

Out on the boulevard

The sound of an old guitar is saving you from sinking

It's a long way down, it's long way

Don't turn away, dry your eyes, dry your eyes

Don't be afraid or keep it all inside, all inside

When you fall apart, dry your eyes, dry your eyes

Life is always hard for the belle of the boulevard

You know your silver rings, and your silk and things

That song you softly sing is keeping you from breaking

It's a long way down, it's a long way

Back here you're never lost, you shake the shivers off

You take a drink to get you courage up, can you believe it?

Just this once, just for now, and just like that, it's over

Don't turn away, dry your eyes, dry your eyes

Don't be afraid or keep it all inside, all inside

When you fall apart, dry your eyes, dry your eyes

Life is always hard, for the belle of the boulevard

Please hold on, it's alright

Please hold on, it's alright

Please hold on

16th on our 16th

"We will go through it together" (:

This, the both of us promised and whispered.

It has been a trying week, stay strong baby. We've already made it through so far. I'm not giving up that easily. We have fought hard through the battles, and sail across through the good oceans. Now, we're to prepare ourselves to slide over our rainbow so stick with me, it's gonna be an awesome journey (:

Like I said, I do not have much patience naturally. But my patience for you grew and it is not little patience I have for you. So you know what I have told you (: I'm only understanding for you. I'm your Annie, always at your service (not your maid, but your love) :B

Sorry but I must say this. I have already conquered your ice box. I've crushed it (:

Happy 16th!

It's my favourite number now for a reason.

Can't wait to see you in a few hours time.

<3

I'm feeling like...

Fussin' an? fightin', we back at it again,
I know that it's my fault but you don't understand.
I got memories, this is crazy.
You ain't nothin' like the girl I used to know

Good with ma, good with pa, cool with all my friends
I should try to decide, wanna let you in
That means memories and it's crazy
You ain't nothin' like the girl I used to know

Girl, I really wanna work this out 'cause I'm tired of fightin'
And I really hope you still want me the way I want you
I said, I really wanna work this out, yo girl, I'm tryin'
It's no excuse, no excuse

But I got this ice box where my heart used to be
But I got this ice box where my heart used to be
I'm so cold, I'm so cold, I'm so cold, I'm so cold
I'm so cold, I'm so cold, I'm so cold

But I got this ice box where my heart used to be
Said I got this ice box where my heart used to be
I'm so cold, I'm so cold, I'm so cold, I'm so cold
I'm so cold, I'm so cold, I'm so cold

Why can't I get it right? Just can't let it goI opened up, she let me down,
I won't feel that no moreI got memories, this is crazy
She ain't nothin' like the girl I used to know

Don't mean to take it out on you, baby, but I can't help it'
Cause my heart is in the same ol' condition that baby left it
And I, I apologize for makin' you cry
Look me in my eye and promise you won't do me the same

You will never know how I'm feeling.

Something to laugh about; at least

If life is like a rollercoaster, I think mine wouldn’t stop till the parts break into pieces. Someone help me. I'm falling stories down, it's not ending... Yet. School is stressful and I hope PP can end well for me. Doing PP later. Is it possible to do another 1000 words? Oh man... Zzz

God please hear me today.

I guess there’s simply way too many times that I felt really useless. It lies within my family. I wished I didn’t have to bother so much of how my parents would feel, why should I be this filial when I really want my life to be on this path. I can’t go out late; I can’t spend time with my love and my friends. I haven’t done anything wrong, nothing wrong enough to be given a life like this. I feel like a bird, caged up and lost within it. It feels so weird, my life doesn’t seem like there’s many. I’m working my ass off so that I don’t have to be home every of my free days. Hopefully I have a free day next semester. Psychology or not, I need someone to psycho me to do something bold.

It’s now work and rugby. Honestly, I don’t feel like I belong to rugby anymore. Should I or should I not take a break? Then again, Boo will kill me if she knows about this. As usual, I’m home typing, and my girlfriend’s outside at a pub, probably a club, I really wished I was there because I don’t trust the people around her. Hmm… Do I not trust myself enough to trust her or am I not convincing myself enough to believe that I trust what she’s doing?

And so I pray to God, I said “Dear God, if you can hear me, make my life better, I know you gave me life and time, but I wished I knew how much time I was given, so that I would do things with a bold heart.” Sometimes I wished God has internet up in heaven so that he'll know how my life is when he doesn't hear me. ):

Embarking on a courageous rendezvous; living on borrowed time.

I love Victoria Lim

Just heard from my dear bitch fit mate, she’s attached! So happy for her (: It’s only then I realize that people settle for a reason, but I never thought I’d be settled with one and only person. It’s a great feeling and I’m sure there are many out there who feel the same.

I know I’ve not been updating. Honestly, it’s not that I don’t want to. I just feel too lazy. HAHA. I made my way to sentosa yesterday, my first time in 2009 I think? With wonderful company, Wathone, Ju and of course my babygirl! I guess I’m blogging here today because I want Victoria Lim to know that I love her a lot and I’m sorry for putting her in a lot of distress lately. I’m no knight in shining amour and I’m certain that I can help by not putting you in distress anymore. I’ll promise to understand you no matter how hard it will be. I love you so much words can’t explain how I feel now.

Today’s my dearest Nisa’s birthday and sadly, not much celebrations cos she’s leaving for aussie. U18s trip. Why am I not there?? I guess I’ve made the right decision this time and I don’t feel any regret.

Hokay, a short one, I know but I’m going to get ready I think, bathe and change so that I can meet my baby girl! She’s at her dentist, hopefully her braces can be off soon! HAHA.