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Sunday, July 26, 2009
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-Aidah Burne i made a move at 6:20 PM Saturday, July 25, 2009 why can't we make the darkness feels like home? We're high above the ground, we're nowhere to be found -RJA Yesterday was something. at that place, high above the ground, where no one knows who i am, then & only then, i allow my guard down & feel what i've been wanting to feel all these while. what i miss the most. to say i feel very content will be an understatement of the year. by the way, i'm updating this using IE where everything seems to be fine except that i cannot upload pictures. at all. they keep saying theres an error. i strongly believe that blogger is losing it & soon, it will just shut down. this whole platform. i must meditate like my picture to get rid of this frustration. i'll find a nice time to change later. like August 31 maybe. where things did change for me. maybe i'll go like wordpress or tumblr. or wherever it is. i watched The Gods Must Be Crazy just now. & i think it's kinda stupid. funny but stupid. around 5, i went Expo with my brothers, mama & nenek. back there at Expo, there's this beautiful dais which was grand. like really really nice. i bet it'll cost like two months worth of your salary or something. wedding sucks. it's actually a food fest of sorts. & when you go to a food fest, you must make sure you taste every single food/drink they put out for testing purposes. which is exactly what i did. life is cheap like that, in a way. on the way back, i also managed to grab a pair of pants for attachment later in a few months time. i like it. =)) my grandmother entered my room a few minutes ago & we were talking about what to cook for tomorrow & somehow, she said, she's going to die soon. & i am very very sensitive whenever she talks about death so i broke down. i mean, you can say that you're going to die soon but i probably wouldn't have the same reaction as i would have when my grandmother say it. who is going to give me strength when im not strong? who will watch over me when you're gone? who will ease my pain? so, you cannot go. (& itunes is playing songs about losing someone & death like Alter Bridge's Watch Over You & Iced Earth's Watching Over Me) i made a move at 10:33 PM Friday, July 24, 2009 "He trusted you!" Yesterday was great. =) Dian & Li Ying didn't cry & it's their first time watching. I don't expect Dian to cry since she's not a fan but Liying, YOU ARE HEARTLESS. How could you?! Inhumane. Oh, anyway, Dian's birthday was on Wednesday, due to CPA test, we couldn't do anything much so me, Sham & Ing took a picture from my FB & made a poster for her with an 'unglam' picture of her & the fine print says 'When you see her, please don't hug. Just wish her. Thanks, her awesome friends'. & that poster was pasted at ilaw & at the entrance to LT before the test starts. HAHAH, now the whole law cohort knows your birthday! My plan of not going to go school today has got to be scrapped off cause i've gotta go back & check crim pro results which was quite okay, i supposed. Not what i expected but, actually, i wasn't expecting anything. I intended to go CPA lecture today since i had to check results. But, my alarm snoozing habit dragged on & on until i realised im late by 20 minutes. So, i met Ferhan at interchange & he accompanied me to check my results. & then we went Sentosa cause i have this urge to go Sentosa sit at Palawan Beach & read my book which was exactly what i did. I think i am insane. The water look so tempting but i can't swim due to erm, woman problems, yes. I'm very sad. & i insisted that Ferhan read his book which i made him borrow yesterday. Very adamant, i even insisted on reading aloud for him. (i read Monsters Vs Aliens children story for Li Ying at Times bookstore yesterday, as loud as i can, complete with all the emotions needed when you read a dialogue. She very embarrassed) I still don't understand my brain. Library can read book must go Sentosa all. Very leceh when i get this urge. Like you know, at times, i'll feel the urge to like hit the person in front of me but i cannot hit that particular stranger infront of me (later i get sued), so i'll wait till Ferhan walks infront and i'll just whack & walk off. (I know, very weird.) Continuing my story, for the first time (the other time i went, it was under construction), i went to that Bridge linking to the Southern Tip of Continental Asia or something. I think that place kinda cool, very windy =) As such, today is an awesome day. I got Mac breakfast, I got to go Sentosa read book & take pictures, have BK dinner, gossiping about passengers we see in the train & me dying from the smell of this construction person's armpit since we were all squashed in the train & he lifted his whole arm up to hold the pole above his head & his armpit was directly in my face. I cannot tahan. I want to breathe but im scared of the disturbing odour, i don't breath then i scared i die. So, difficult this life Anyway people, the poles in an mrt is not meant for you to lean on it! Please be considerate, especially when the train is full! Other people actually need to hold on to it for balance & its main purpose of existence in an Mrt is not for you boneless people to support your weight on that poor metallic innocent pole. Did Phua Chu Kang not teach you this simple logical basic rule?! He only teach you not to pretend to sleep on priority seat right? Just for the record, im typing this from Microsoft Word & i've found out yesterday that you cannot upload a picture on blogger when you add in on Word. Blogger's mood swing is kinda getting old. Im thinking of moving. You caught me under false pretenses, -Muse & Ferhan, thanks. i made a move at 11:13 PM Wednesday, July 22, 2009 tonight this is the 600th post & blogger is screwing me over. the dashboard is not aligned at all. & i cannot even find the button to upload photos. this is imbalancing my already imbalanced aura. i had CPA test just now at 7 which was quite okay, in a sense. today is Dian's birthday & we did some things to her. embarrassing things, that is. i'll upload the pictures once blogger return to its normal state. i've got a million questions about my life. & they need answers. & in my personal humble opinion, i don't need this right now but cause people's fate is intertwined with the answers i give, i am forced to face it. at this material point of time, i really wish i've never met you. really, i don't. i really don't like being entangled in this mess. but that's just a wish right, cause the genie's not here to grant them. yes, we're not perfect. but that is not reason enough to do something & use it to claw your way out. i don't want to confront this issue, now. so, please, stop asking me. because sooner, i think questions like those you asked will just become superficial. i am divided. i made a move at 10:57 PM Tuesday, July 21, 2009 Black Monday .... as it turns out to be, it's only MONDAY i've got 4 more days left, before i hit the weekend. i love weekends nowadays. having said that, not this particular week though cause, as i've found out, i've got some wedding to attend which will quite possibly take up most of my saturday. it's only Monday. i think, once Wednesday is over, i'll be quite glad. then Thursday will come. Thursday looks pretty promising. & Friday, i have never thankgod it's Friday, cause there's nothing remotely exciting about Friday. it's either i go school or i dont (depending on my crim pro schedule) having said that, i'll wrapped up my entry now. on a sidenote, i do not like this social divide i see emerging in my country. also, Happy Racial Harmony Day. tmr, remember Maria Hertogh, remember 1964 July riots, okay. (tmr, must not disturb shamini shara) i made a move at 12:15 AM Sunday, July 19, 2009 the end is just beginning  severus snape: it's over HBP was awesome. it's like the best movie out of the 6. it has all the right amount of humour & dark elements in it. & Severus Snape. =)) his layered and complex character is just very very compelling. Draco? Awesome. "Okay, Okay, i was gatecrashing! Happy?" MLOCT test was a test where most people will spend their time bullshitting their way away. like, that classic President Obama question. You ask for our opinion?! Obama say already what its shameful, so shameful la. does our opinion matter? We went Pastamania for lunch before the movie. & i've got carbonara which i'm craving for again, now.  we smuggled chocolate mousse & our drinks inside the theatre. that's like our favourite past time, you know. when i was crying & sobbing at the part where Dumbledore died, Ferhan went its okay. After the movie, i was still sniffling & he said, its okay, he didn't really died die, right. so its okay. Crazy person. He said THAT to me. "Well, of course he died! no amount of magic could ever bring back the dead!" Then he can ask me if Sirius Black died in OOTP. Ohmygod. I thought enough is enough & i really MUST educate him about the world of Harry Potter. so i spend some time explaining to him the concept of Horcruxes, the tales of the three brothers, told him about the elder wand, the stone & the invisibility cloak, explained to him severus loyalty & his death & the final battle between harry & voldemort. i realised, i like explaining it to people who are actually willing to know more about HP. i really do. & thanks, for the wonderful day, Ferhan. im going to watch HBP again! so, who's with me? today, i feel so accomplished. cause i managed to cover lecture 6-9 for my CPA. it's nice to be done with revision in just a day. now, i can go, yes, watch harry potter. read my novel & return by tmr, get a new novel. &, i've got a new cousin, who i will not meet till another 5 more years. my uncle in Australia just got a son, Adam. very nice. one boy & one girl. in the future, when i have conquered my fear & distaste of children, i will, maybe, consider having children, a boy & a girl. if i have a girl & a girl, i will sell one. you want to buy? come, make contract with me now. it's on a first come & first serve basis. i except no less than $30, 000. HAHAHA. note to self: if ever you get married, delete the paragraph above before your husband discover. (when i sell her off, i will file a missing person report) further or in the alternative, do not inform your husband, of the existence of this blog. OKAY, IM INSANE. I ADMIT. i made a move at 9:31 PM Friday, July 17, 2009 we are the shaken  TOMORROW! =)) Dearest Severus Snape, i love you very much. i grew up with you & i didn't believed you killed Dumbledore & fought with my friend cause i defended you from the time i read book 6 till book 7 came out. & i bask in personal glory when you, my awesome hero, turns out not to be a traitor. ive got some pictures which has been collecting dust in my phone since last week. okay, here's to the most gayest picture taken in the toilet of Supreme Court. Claustrophobic people are advised not to use that toilet.  i don't know why Aishah very happy. i really dont. haha i think she likes the toilet.  & this was after civil procedure lecture last Thursday. very difficult to meet this two people nowadays. very difficult. one, i need torchlight to find (hahah, okay sorry), the other always disappear after class. then, the current satisfactory mind blowing news is that I AM DONE WITH MANAGEMENT OF LAW OFFICE & COURT TECHNOLOGY!! you never knew what hell is until you actually study MLOCT, okay!  & this was while waiting for Ferhan at City Hall, last Friday. =)) she said, our (me & her) honeymoon period is over. she is implying that we should now argue more. okay, basically the pictures i have are about court visits & about us studying MLOCT at MacD, like what you're going to see now.    & you know, for MLOCT, you can write and bring in handwritten notes to aid your memory as long as it doesn't exceed two pieces of paper. & because law students are an ass at times, using the literal approach, we squeezed in every single thing we can from lecture notes & as usual, i copy blindly. & results in this.  that is my graph trying to explain some digital forensic evidence flowchart. i possessed minimal skills to understand the chart hence the WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS. which im not going to erase when i enter the exam venue. i dont understand why my personal notes have stuffs that i dont understand. but im hoping that i can interpret it when i need it tmr. yeah. =)) & in lieu of the picture with me in Silverstein shirt, i bet you laugh at the thought of me thinking for myself, i bet you believe that im better off with you than someone else. -silverstein & just when i was thinking about that line, he told me to move on & find someone else. which was quite a shock to my system & i was unceremoniously robbed off my speech for that 20 minutes phone conversation. very interesting indeed. what to do, life is full of surprises. now, rock on. i will see Snape tmr. & draco malfoy =)) oh ya ya, test tmr. think of test first, please, aidah burne. i made a move at 9:37 PM Wednesday, July 15, 2009 it's hard to see through a heart that bleeds  i think young Voldemort is very very cute in a scary evil way.i cannot wait for Harry Potter. =))) Ferhan told me he got a present for me. i don't want to meet him cause he have mood swings (like girl!) & he promised he wont have mood swings today & when i met him he showed me an adidas paper bag. when i saw the adidas paper bag in his hands i very excited! say Adidas what! i glance at the canvas peeking out the top of the back & went, "i think i know what that is sia!" he gave me a civil defence field pack -.- the square bagpack cd guys get when they enlist, you know. just cause i made a back handed comment that its nice. so he gave it to me. next time, i must make back handed comment about a cute guy, maybe he will get me the guy also. or comment about how beautiful a sneaker is. actually Ferhan, today you got mood swings too. you suddenly just burst out laughing. you laugh & laugh & laugh & i have to laugh along cause i think we should all enjoy laughing. at the end of the day, i dont think he knows why he is laughing. crazy. OKAY NOW I GOT SCARY STORY! you all better be scared. if you're not, pretend to be. i was walking home when i heard a loud "CRACKKK!". I turned around & stared at this gooey mess on the ground "AIDAH! YOU JUST KILLED A SNAIL!", exclaimed Ferhan. i think i have lost it, i got so affected by the fact i murdered a snail, i burst out in tears. i just broke down & cried. i mean, the snail was just there! it was just there, leading its merry existance when this huge fat giant of a homosapien stepped on it & it just died. & i think Ferhan was taken aback by my crying so he laughed. HE LAUGHED IN THE FACE OF MY DESPAIR & said, "its okay. you just killed a snail. its okay. its just like killing an ant. its just a snail." i didnt want to look at it again cause i was ermmm, traumatised but i did & bad decision, i cried harder. very very bad. i can see the shattered pieces of its brown shell lying amongst its gooey mess of what was once known as a body. on my way to school tmr, i shall stand on the spot where i committed this grave sin punishable in Hell, offer my condolences to any of its unknown family who could be living nearby & also, offer one minute of silence. Snaily, i deeply regret my negligence which caused your death. stay away from my dreams. then got another horror story. this one for another day. at another time. now she paints pictures of her dreams, but today they don't include me too many mistakes ive made too many times i've betrayed She says, i don't want to waste my life hating every god damn day away -State of Shock i made a move at 9:52 PM Tuesday, July 14, 2009 GET A FUCKING LIFE  the only safe place is my mind. the only place i can retreat & have a monologue with myself. HAHAHAH. you know what? im wondering, if i remind you, if my presence reminds you one way or the other of what could have been, what we could possibly have & if one way or the other, you're reminded of your past mistakes & what you have done to me why is it that you want to meet me in the first place? why do you want to meet me when at the end of the day for the past few days all you do is keep quiet because you're sad & depressed or so you claimed? what is the bloody fucking purpose of that, Ferhan Siddiqi?! You have mood swings like a girl! Can i check the ratio of your fingers, please. It's scientifically proven, you know. One moment you made a joke & laughing your lungs raw & suddenly you're as silent as a dumb bell. (what kind of analogy is this, Aidah?) Tahukah anda bahawa saya sungguh fed-up dengan perangai yang sebegitu rupa? Ferhan, are you going to wallow in your self-misery for very long? Because self pity is not a very good company to keep for long. I need to fucking a get a life already! i made a move at 10:33 PM Monday, July 13, 2009 at a park...  Okay, today, i am very very bored. so i was at this website about strangest objects people have sex with & then, i came across this one story about a lonely man in Hong Kong who had sex with a park bench with holes in it & tada! (see video below) his penis got stuck there & they deported him AND the bench to the hospital. dear man, im sorry to laugh at your expense. you are very funny. HAHA. who ask you to be so horny? then today news got the singaporeans having sex at park all. very weird ah this world i live it. we produce a lot of sexual offenders like in Europe they have an offence called sexual breach of peace. this calls for a major revision of our Penal Code. i made a move at 11:14 PM Saturday, July 11, 2009 Supreme Court of Singapore  our greatest joy and our greatest pain comes in our relationship with others yesterday was a very long day. 9 am lecture & i came at 9.20 meaning i didnt appear in LT like i said i would. HAHAHA. had crim pro meeting followed by crim pro tutorial. & then off to Supreme Court with half of the classmates. =)) LATA! i want those photos we took in the train! Supreme Court visit was very interesting & informative. i got to be DPP for like 10 minutes of my life yesterday cross examining my witness whose name i cannot pronounce. i think in real life cannot be DPP, i laugh at my witness. Haha. the presiding judge will hold me in contempt of court for being too happy. we were given the chance of a lifetime to see real crime scene photos. which was gory & like 2 times worse than what you see in CSI. they show you the bloated, bruised, tortured body of this one victim who i think was stabbed numerous times and the throat slit or something. you can also see the pool of blood on the floor. maybe the blood seeped through the wood panel & then the next occupant will be haunted by the ghost of the brutally murdered. you never know. then next was this woman (who is actually quite pretty, had she not been dead) on the autopsy table. & the medical officer was trying to get her eyeballs out of the socket & they show the before & after. so, in my general excitement to be able to see this kind of real stuffs i exclaimed, "Aishah! look! no more eyeballs! its just red & empty". i think she was raped then murdered or something. im not sadistic. i am affected by it. its very thought provoking to know that you've been murdered in that manner i speculated & to have your body lying on the autopsy table being cut open & the anatomy detached. i wonder, do they put back her eyeballs when they release the body to her family members for the funeral? can they? cause, you know, your eyeballs decompose first. inanycase, li ying & henderik came down to meet me at City Hall along with Ferhan. & we had brilliant, mouth watering dinner at Lau Pa Sat! =)) which is going to be our hanging port every Friday in two months time hopefully. li ying, lau pa sat is the junction that connects our firm! awww. =)) a few streets apart.  satay =)) & they all don't eat satay babat, you know. they very weird. HAHAHA.  he attempted to spray my face with a pink canister of water when i said i want to take photos but im perspiring! the pink canister look so CFC & i was like "why is he walking around with poison?!" maybe i look so spray-able.  i wore this heels to Court yesterday & by the time we reach Boat Quay i have resurrected my feet (the deceased) more than 5 times already. i took it off & then i got myself two masseuse without having had to ask. & they said im pampered... you see, now, the friends i associate myself with. pampered little girl. like pampered is not bad enough, im now a little girl.  =)) on the way home, i was saw nice nice heels & i dragged Ferhan to look see & ignored him to have a loud monologue with myself. the heels was just there. it was just sitting there so innocently on SALE & the temptation was so overbearing. & so i bought it. well, i didn't, Ferhan did, cause i think he thinks its weird for me to be like, "should i buy this? or should i buy the court shoes i need? but its on sale. ohmygod, what do i do now?!" it's an awesome day spend with good friends for company! we'll have more of this kinda thing later on, okay! i managed to cover lecture 1 & 2 of MLOCT & then i feel my brain capacity decreasing so i stopped. i made a move at 10:01 PM Wednesday, July 08, 2009 it'll be alright she shuts out the night, tries to close her eyes if she can find daylight, she'll be alright just not tonight. it seems like i have a couple of tests coming up. i just realised today that i've got Mloct coming up next saturday. very surprising, indeed. yes, nowadays, i can come to school not fully aware what time my class is actually or like the given example above, not knowing i have a test -.- i watched Saints & Soldiers at school library yesterday. i think it's a cool movie but they could have like explore and expand the plot a little more. but, it won a couple of awards, so yes, pretty good movie. then, i got two hours to kill, so i decided to find a secluded spot in the library cause i am an awesome recluse sometimes & studied my CPA. i am very damn proud of myself. even if out of the one half hour of studying, 40 minutes of my time consist of me reading my novel, Conviction. i feel like the loser of the century. so, yeah, no need to mention it. i told Dian, im not coming for CPA lecture this friday & she actually scolded me. like how a mother will actually scold a child. then they were saying how they never seem to actually see me in CPA lecture & ask how many times i skipped. "i lost count. but i know, i only came to lecture twice". now liying & sham keep saying must come this friday, solicitors accounts rule very important. but how now fat cow? i dont want to go school in office wear at 9 am. not cool ah not cool. you know what, i had cookies and cream cheesecake from Bakerzin today cause liying wants me to eat half of hers. very delicious =))) & i fed liying with all the crumbs falling on her pants. i met Ferhan. & we had dinner at the coffeeshop near our house & i was telling him, "ferhan, how i want to eat chicken without you?" cause you know, i can never and i dont know how to eat chicken wings if i have to use utensils. so, he has to actually help me & cut it & place the small little pieces of chicken meat on my plate. wah. no wonder, liying & henderik all say, i'm like a little child. tsk! actually, henderik even say im like everyone's little sister. how now? then, while i was on my way home, i had to pass by this huge group of mats (illegal gathering, im sure, should have called the police) who behaves as mats usually do, like devil's spawn. perangai don't macam swine ah, please. you all got not fucking balls is it?! if you don't have balls you tell me, i go recommend a nice place for you to get a plastic surgery to attach your missing anatomy. you don't disturb people when they walked past you and have their back turn to you then you want to say macam-macam ah. want to act cool, not like that eh, please. you don't smoke and stare at people also. you all think you so big fuck is it? i would like to see you crash & burn in this pathetic miserable phase you call your life. inanycase, i cannot seem to stream MJ's memorial. & since i don't watch that much tv, i didnt watch it either. you know what, i want to go Singapore Flyer. & nenek just bought for 'izzul & syimir a guitar at $20 from Sungai Road. very nice, the guitar. =))) i made a move at 10:58 PM Monday, July 06, 2009 who am i when im alone? i went Expo Robinson's Sale on the last day. the queue was like a long maze. very interesting people queuing up also. people weirder than me. people who look as if they just move house so they must buy every single thing on sale there. then their trolley looks like a pyramid cause its pile high with stuffs. then when it topples, i laughed cause i can't help my reflex action. then i choke on my saliva trying to stop laughing cause the person gave me a dirty look. (anyhow only, i be happy at your expense also illegal) my dad is playing Burnout on the PSP. he asked, "how to choose powerful cars?" & the other day, he complained cause his car kept crashing into the divider. where to put your license now, abah? don't later, you say you want to play Wolverine cause you want to feel macho like Hugh Jackman. please, don't. i will commit suicide. you know what, i don't want to go SIP already. im scared. cause we never actually drafted anything in class. what if my lawyer ask me to draft affidavit? i will jump out from the fifth floor okay. you think i know how to draft affidavit? i don't. you think i know how to draft offer to settle? i don't you think i will actually learn how to draft AEIC this wed? i don't think so. you think this is funny? think again, cause i don't think so. ferhan asked if i want to meet him today & i told him i don't want. i don't feel like meeting him cause i learnt that it's just too emotionally draining to do so, to keep up a facade of calamity. (not cool.) he called & say, 'look out your window' (sings, meet me at my window by JM) 'ive come to say hello to a friend' that's a very nice surprise =)) it takes a disaster for you to do such kind of surprises? it's okay, its not too late. & i know my heart won't stop breaking moving forward can't be this hard im just trying to find out who i am, on my own i had you right beside me, now your gone & i know that when the room clears, im still here. who am i when i'm alone? -Nevertheless i made a move at 10:02 PM Saturday, July 04, 2009 my bestfriend the stupid neither forgive nor forget; the naive forgive and forget; the wise forgive but do not forget still cannot upload pictures on blogger. it's beginning to get a little frustrating. i went to my cousin's party just now. she just turned 12 & trust me, i have no idea how we're actually related. (i know, but its complicated) the main point is that, i was surrounded by kids & my level of fear is beyond your comprehension. to dispel the fear & occupy my mind, i decided to sms liying & ferhan to inform them of my situation. (ferhan said, i should make small talk. haha) they broke the figurine of Bumblebee. & one of them threw a T-Rex at me! you tell me now, what did i ever do to these children?! one of them started to throw balloons at me. i thought i'll be nice & return to him but he did it again. i think he wants to play. (go find, kids your age, okay?) so i went, "heyy, i have a best friend. my best friend is the pocong." pocong is the mummy. the corpse with the white clothe wrap around him, incase you're wondering, li ying. problem solve, right. they actually sat far away from me. =))) i made a move at 9:35 PM Friday, July 03, 2009 rise & fall  when we are no longer able to change a situation, we are challenged to change ourselves i walked through the park today. & the feeling was just sad. when asked by my best friend what is it that i like about you, i told her, he's a nice person. he's the person who will hold the lift for strangers if he seems them running after it, he's the person who will hold the door for others, he will help even though he's got work to do (and sometimes i have to remind him to put himself first), his a family oriented kinda guy, he's nice, he trust people easily, he tries to work things out when somethings wrong, he's optimistic & he's everything that i'm not. im self centered; i will always think about myself first before i agree to help. i will ask for something in return. but he don't. he'll help & accept a thanks. & she ask, what's the problem? (but you know, sometimes, cowards do survive) i think my blog has been too sad for the past weeks. not cool at all, i tell you. i had a great day today. except for the slight minor part where 'izzul with his attention deficit disorder (i diagnose myself) irritated the hell out of me. i watched Transformers again this time with my brothers. =))) NEXT; HARRY POTTER & THE HALF BLOOD PRINCE i went off to meet baidura after that. & then fiza joined in. we spend kind of a lot of time talking. from ehub, to ws, to kfc to mac. here, have an awesome legal pickup line by our very own Hoong Li Ying; "can i draft an SOC to claim for your love?". dearest darling, you should stop using it on me, you need to put this awesome talent of yours to good use & use it on some guy. don't wait for them to use it on you. guys are hopeless. we make the first move now. ;) i made a move at 11:34 PM Thursday, July 02, 2009 & what if the chances are already gone?  i think this is a retarded photo. in anycase, HAPPY BIRTHDAY =))) please stop laughing at me. i feel like a clown most of the time. i had a very frustrating morning with Ryan. i thought he went insane when one of his most major important function (which happens to affect the way i function) malfunction. (i like how i got so many functions in one sentence) everytime i tried to send an sms, it says sending fail. really, you know. i feel severely handicapped for that one hour period. then, i got a message from 'today i am 19 & the first thing i do as a 19 year old is to read Aidah's LJ' that she cannot send messages either. which lead me to conclude that it can't be Ryan's fault. it just can't be. must be this Singtel again. throwing tantrum again. so i changed my network to GSM only & shut off 3G cause 3G is unreliable most of the time. miraculously, it works. i think im smart. hahahah. okay enough. had lunch with sham where we talk about how much drama there is actually in our life. we're barely 20 & we have so much drama going on with regards to our love life. very sad. i dont even want to think how we'll be like when we're 35. goodday. enjoy your day. & this is the reason why i sometimes find it so hard to believe you & too afraid to put my trust in you again; he who permits himself to tell a lie once, finds it much easier to do it a second and third time, till at length, it becomes habitual. ' i made a move at 3:24 PM Wednesday, July 01, 2009 itu Kerbau punye Kandang The pain i go through to upload these pictures on Blogger is unbearable. i think today, Blogger is experiencing her PMS (yes, blogger is female to me, you don't agree?).i cannot upload photos & i've tried 4 different web browser. in a last ditch attempt, i went to photobucket for html codes. & TADA! it works. but safari, cause of menopausal hormones, very temperamental, i cannot resize my photos. wah macam macam, you know this technology. so many wants and needs and problems. i don't know what kind of hormones they have la. if you're looking for a hot guy in a uniform, you can stop. cause i can't find any. the main point is the vehicle (the 2nd one) at the background. when i saw it, i actually skipped a step and bounded (wah, i just made myself sound like a bloody dog. like a goddamn chihuahua or something) to the edge of the stairs and exclaimed, "bonecrusher, bonecrusher! he's transformed into a military vehicle!" it looks like bonecrusher right? heeee =) anyway, i would have just stood there & watch the flutter of activities there but, they pulled me off. we had awesome cheesecakes with awesome company which consists of me, rabia, paris, hend, li ying & shaun. then i went to visit Syimir at hospital yesterday after his surgery. i didn't get lost. i went alone, & i managed to find KKH all on my own. im basking in personal glory okay! come, i show you his, "im very hungry, please i want to go home" picture  he's hungry but he can't eat solid food & for some weird reason he ask for chocolate waffle FIVE TIMES. "tmr, i go home i can eat waffle right? i also want nasi lemak! *sob sob sob*". im beyond exasperated. i explained a million times that he cannot eat solid food for 23 days but he still insist for chocolate waffle. i think now must tell him once he's okay i bring him to meet Charlie & take a tour on his chocolate factory. maybe he can find consolation in that. come i show you, 'izzul...  if syimir wants so much to go home, 'izzul wanted so much to stay. so that is him acting sick so he can stay over. -.- today is the 1st of July. i forgot & i wasn't all excited about it. i woke up feeling extremely tired and coughing my lungs out so i decided that school isn't the least bit important, today. i planned to sit at home & do crim pro. but i ended up going hospital fetching my brother. my taxi got stuck in a jam at CTE, the pain in my heart was unbearable. im not a fan of taking taxi when i know a bus that goes to a place. i don't find joy handing over wads of cash over to the taxi driver. i can cry tears of blood. inanycase, i brought along my school stuffs incase i decided to go to school. but my mother decided to have lunch at Tekka Market. of all places, TEKKA MARKET. i came out smelling like i fought a civil war with dead fishes, squids, muttons, lambs, chicken, prawns & losing badly. army of the dead. my mother said, since i smell like fish, i shouldn't go to school. (i smell like fish.. ME! i dont even smell like human at that material point of time. it hurts to smell like a dead fish.) my mother said, since i have never skip civ pro tutorial & i don't need MC, i shouldn't go to school. my mother rock socks, you dont know right! HAHAHA. i did tell you i don't want to go to school partly cause i was very tired? yes, apparently, when i got home, my mother ask me out to Loyang Point. she spend like 10 minutes of her life in front of the dairy products rack deciding what brand of milk to buy. i think, waitresses and cashiers, they say the most redundant things you can ever wish to hear. maybe its just their company policy. you listen ah, "sorry, we dont have anymore cheesecake slice but we have a cake for 12 person...". you tell me, why they cannot just slice that 12 person cake & serve it to use one slice per person?! then the remaining slices they sell it off? here another one, there's this Buy 2 for 3.25 dutch lady milk. & my mother took one fresh milk and another strawberry milk. that makes it two. at the counter they say, must buy same flavour. you die also you must buy same flavour. i like things to go my way, so i told her, "why not, you take that fresh milk, you scan twice? what difference does it make, you tell me now? so, please, do it." & she did, i very happy =))) i was prepared to explain the rationale behind my suggestion ehhh. if you all don't get my reasoning, you all please ehh go jump down one. don't tell me your otak also don't have otak penipu. you know what. im going to do crim pro now. my crim pro group is the bomb! we have this awesome timetable & schedule. People hurt you, and lie to you, and take you for granted, and treat you badly, but eventually you learn to forgive. You learn to forgive because you have your own shortcomings and imperfections. You learn to forgive because life is too short to be bitter and angry. You learn to forgive because it is the only way you can move forward you know, by default reason, i should have hated you. but i learnt from past experience that hating someone takes up too much energy. & i know you. i know most of the time you have good intentions but you just don't know how to go about doing it. & i do want to move forward, please don't hold me back. i made a move at 7:15 PM
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