AidahBurne
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Tuesday, March 31, 2009
veracity
the eyes can kill. Im starting on Jodi Picoult's new novel, Handle With Care. what's not good is how my 31 March ends.
you should also know that to me, two wrongs make a right. " well, tomorrow's a good day to start fresh. sometimes it hurts. but you've just got to face it. i made a move at 9:55 PM Monday, March 30, 2009 lovestoned
that's a very spot on one word description. it started off with me making a bet with this Nasrul Muthusamy about who's gonna reach first. bloody cheater, his mother send him!! (what time you reach anyway ehh?) squash was the first game. i only played one round, i realised it now. then the rest of us played american football. pretty cool, actually. & then we played tennis in the scorching hot sun, i might add. (tsk! li ying!!) the uncle gave me a soccer ball cause he overhead chester who wanted to play soccer. wahh, the soccer ball really CMI, i swear. -.-
we went Pizza Hut to end the day off. i don't like this new Pizza Hut menu. it's pretty limited. & thankyou, dear manager, for that one cube of ice that fell into my pizza when you were re-filling my drink. i think your face was comical cause the whole table had burst out laughing & you could still look like as if nothing happened. haha. the ride home with Nas Muthusamy was an experience. we encounter this group of primary school kids who must be fucking deaf cause they were practically shouting bloody crazy to each other even though they were sitting next to one another. wahh, i went 'shhh' also no effect. the next medical check up, the nurse should cut off their ears. kids. i hate kids. i hate primary school kids. i hate secondary school kids. how come they act as if they own the world?! wait, was i like that back then? hmmm? & i've collected my spectacles. i look like a minah, now. see, just now play soccer. now got minah specs. i think next, i'll take my guitar, sit at the void deck and play smoke on the water ;) OHHH!! Ferhan asked me if i were a guy how would i ask for a girl's number. the soalan a bit merepek. & me being the very kaypo makcik i was groomed to be asked if he likes anyone & that i want to know the name & i want details cause im so excited. im always excited when it comes to all these! (dah nampak sah hilang akal until i can ask ferhan all these. haha) sometimes, i forgot who he is & treats him like my best friend (well he is one of them -.-) it took me about 5 minutes of persistent persuasion before he gave in and answered. wooo =)) i should work for the CID & be the interrogator. 'okay, borrow your account i wanna go check her out.' i like stalking unsuspecting people. it gives me great pleasure to be able to track someone down and silently creep up on their unsuspecting lives. very pleasurable, you know. almost orgasmic. (nas, if i want to say orgasmic i will say it as and when i please) right, okay. moving on to another topic not related to stalking or being a private investigator, i'm depressed. i cannot hear the word depressed it reminds me of my client interview with Mr Ferlin. anyway, when the tables are turn, it feels somewhat different. i had expected it but, experiencing it is a whole lot different. yeah. i didn't know. i honestly didn't know. i erh have self esteem issues (i think so) one that really need to be sorted out before i go mad thinking up of fucking delirious scenarios that could have happened. OKAY, NOW IM DEPRESSED!! ohforfuck's sake, sometimes i don't understand my emotional range. really. Labels: (no, i'm lovestunned) i made a move at 11:15 PM Sunday, March 29, 2009 get up, its time to die.
i was reading on human experimentation done by the Nazi during WWII which then lead me to read up on the experiment done by the Japanese on humans during the same period. how come when i was in history class, the book never mentioned about these Japanese experiments? personally, i don't have solid opinion about these experiments. it's true that whatever they're doing in the name of science is ghastly, horrible, inhumane, terrifying but on the other hand, the information they obtained must have benefited our generation's medical science. (well, what i do know is that the reason 'in the name of science' is a bit too overrated. for the greater good? ha!) it must have. their knowledge on biological warfare, chemical warfare and such, it must have gone somewhere. modern doctors now must have known how to treat frost bite because of these experiments. i find Josef Mengele's experiment horrifying. i can't imagine being put on a huge oven just to see how long it takes for a human body to suffer varying degrees of burns, or getting your heart cut out without proper anaesthetic. its gruesome. go read up on him. anyway, 'izzul kicked me in the face just now. right at my eye. & i cannot take it when i'm being attacked like that, so without realising what i was doing, i slapped him across the face & smacked his head with the controller in my hand. syirah insists that 'izzul has my 3 of my finger marks on his cheek. HAHA, 3rd Sergeant. i foresee major abuse if i ever have children. ferhan called me up despite me telling him not to. we have this uncanny ability to answer a question with a whole series of questions. im guessing now, that you don't want to have a conversation with either of us. ;) & thanks baidura for listening. Happy Birthday, Minachi =))) & Happy Birthday Valin. p.s; im a bloody toyol on facebook!! can't you give me like ms pontianak harum sundal malam or what. tsk. i made a move at 11:30 PM Saturday, March 28, 2009 random accidents  awwww!! i read an article on the net a few years back & they say if you stare at a person's eyes long enough, you can fall in love. i have no comments with regards to that but i find the picture amazingly cute. like really! there's something poetic about gay pride, now. my internetexplorer is acting up. like it has some kind of disease or something. it malfunction up to the point that i can't right click anything to open any link in new tab. good thing there's this safari as backup. im done reading Plain Truth in like less than 2 days. i can't wait to finish a book cause i like to know the ending & i usually hate it when i finish reading a book cause its the end! bytheway, im one of those insane people who sometimes read halfway and then flip to the last page. i'll read the last paragraph of the last page. HAHA. anyway, i dont really feel good. there's nothing to feel good about when you're questioning yourself and second-guessing your actions. it's pretty complicated, i don't even know how to say. tsk! sometimes i feel like i made a mistake. but, its not just about me here. no, it's not. i dont want to wake up one day and ask myself, how did i get here? how did it come to this? 'a string of random accidents; a mistake' & oh! im trying to play seventeen forever by metro station on the guitar. =)) it's quite okayy. i made my own makeshift capo and feel pretty proud of it cause it worked! i made a move at 10:48 PM Thursday, March 26, 2009 iexplore  o-hohoho zachary quinto & adrian pasdar has a facebook! i have no idea why it's private considering the fact that they're famous already. i miss Sylar & Nathan. they didn't appear in Cold Snap. & Cold Snap is devastating ahh. the directors like to kill off heroes or what! daphe died. tracy died. (sorry, for the spoiler.) can't wait for the next episode. syimir had his checkup at CGH just now. i remember those times i had to keep coming back for checkup for that broken leg. tsk. i hated the doctors. we went east point after that. i thought you know, i wanted to like get a new top or two but my little shopping plan got discarded when i saw a bookstore. i was more happy browsing through books than racks of clothes. it was whitesands afterwards where i went to the library to get my book. it seems that everytime i go out, no matter where i intend to go i will end up at the library. i should just be a permanent resident there. tsk! my day didn't end there. we went downtown and finally loyang point where i got my eye check. & for the first time in history, my degree hasn't yet increased since the last time i got my glasses (which was last year). its such wonderful news. in anycase, i got myself a new pair of specs =))) with my own money cause my mother refuse to pay it for me. tennis next monday!! i can't wait! & oh, henderik was telling me on skype about the changes in the cabinet. im pretty sure i need to retake my LSM 2 & i'll have to read up on my constitution once again. cause i can't seem to remember if the president appoints the PM or we vote for our PM. & i got all the minister's portfolio mixed up. GOD! somehow the fact that i can tell you who is the head of the luftwaffe, who is the head of the SS during the Nazi regime and i dont remember who is minister for law is veryy bloody appalling!! henderik has given me a list of who's who in the singapore cabinet and he even gave me a pop quiz! wonderful, no? & HAPPY ADVANCE BIRTHDAY NAS! you see, i didnt forget. advance somemore. see you on Monday! i made a move at 9:58 PM Tuesday, March 24, 2009 researching chemistry
i have been meaning to watch this movie since forever. i didnt manage to watch it while it was on the big screen. so, yesterday night i watched it online & ohmygod, its awesome. i'll give it a 4 out of 5. the story has a very unexpected twist. & i never saw it coming! & bai called me right after the movie ends cause i've been sort of hysterical about this guy. HAHAH. & after the usual question of how you know him, how old he is stuffs she promptly went on to inform me that i'm insane & that i need to stop (which i agree, but i can't help myself). she then handed me over to ferhan. & he has so nicely informed me that the guy has a very different lifestyle from me. i know, thanks for telling. you know the thrill of liking a guy you can never have is awefuckingsome? well, i exist to be insane. what the hell. after i updated the blog yesterday, i manage to fall asleep for like an hour. i watched Mohabbatein just now. OH! i now have a new objective. despite me being insane, i think you're wayy cooler & by nature, we have some similar properties which made it so much easier to live with. & with that, i've opened a chapter called, Researching Chemistry. P.S; i feel a great sense of satisfaction clearing out Ferhan's 100 plus requests on facebook!! wahh, i very happy ignore every single request, you know. i even ignore my own request which i sent to him. HAAA. elf, you need to learn to clear out requests.. you really do. i made a move at 8:45 PM Monday, March 23, 2009 all over again timecheck; 7.14 am this is not normal. there is absolutely nothing normal about being awake at 5.50 am in the morning on a holiday & updating this blog now just cause i can't go back to sleep. stupid body. & i fell asleep at 2 yesterday! (eyebags alert) im typing in utter darkness, i can't bother to switch on the lights & im blasting Hoobastank on itunes. i've also learnt that when you sleep in a fit of anger, the anger doesn't leave you. it'll still be there when you wake up (at 5.50, i might add) & cause the anger is still there, you can't go back to sleep & end up here. on blogger.com okay, the moment my laptop battery goes flat, i plan to try to go back to sleep again. 'cause somebody spoil my plan today & there is no need for me to bother about waking up as early as 10. screw you. it's always the same damn thing. disrespectful! & to think i was even interested in you! & what is the goddamn fucking purpose of sms-ing me telling me that you're not happy with me. i mean should i even care considering that i'm not even happy with you to begin with? what logic is this? but, maybe i should help you out, huh? well, i'll see where my mood swings after i try to get some sleep. even Hoobastank says that, its too late to try to work it out, there's no way to turn this thing around. & this Katy Perry is singing Thinking of You on itunes. i think my itunes has a vendetta against me. tsk. next it would go & play My Life Would Suck Without You. what only, i certainly will live la. i hope, it doesn't play The Irony of Dying on Your Birthday on MY BIRTHDAY come October. because i dont' wanna write another cliche poem of the person i long to be. im very frustrated. it's not a nice feeling, you know. it leaves you all angsty and snappy & the likes. tsk! the song maker says 'it aint so bad' the dream maker is gonna make you mad im already mad enough from my dreams. yes. thank you. & what has this got to do with my entire post about being angry? oh, you know what this shows? my mind is out of whack. i'll just update later on in the day. when i decide to post some nice things that has happened to me (which i can practically count on the fingers of ONE hand) & sometimes, you dont want to hear 'im sorry'. cause, trust me, you don't even know if the person is even bloody sorry. i want something else. a specific performance. an injuction. i don't want just sorry. & i'm a bit too much on the demand laaa basically. i made a move at 7:13 AM Saturday, March 21, 2009 life musical 0130 & im still pretty much awake. i have a horrible headache. one that will blow up to such magnitude that i'm pretty sure, i won't ever be able to sleep if i dont swallow two pills of panadol to keep it at bay. i've got to get some codeine into the system too. maybe it'll knock me out cold till the sun greets me the next morning. i've just finished watching HSM 3 for the second time. i have no idea why in hell i was watching that show. really. i even sang along. i've got to be kiddin myself. & at the same time, i was sms-ing ferhan who is at camp on a friday night. the big guy haven't got something nice to tell. & was pretty upset. & baidura was pretty upset a few days back. haven't you always wonder what is it that you're supposed to say to someone who is not feeling so sunny? i mean, sometimes, words only mean so much. & sometimes, they're not even the correct words at all. if you say, 'i know how you feel' (& infact, you really know how they feel), they won't buy it. well, i for one won't buy it. cause, everyone say they know how everyone feel. i wish i had something powerful to say to them, something that would make them at least feel a bit better. 'cause you know, it kinda sucks if you can't help them. & i refuse to say 'it'll be alright' when i don't even know whether it will be alright, or when i pretty damn sure know that it won't be alright. i dont think a lie will work now. omission or commission. (ohmygod, did i just say a lie won't work!?) i hope you guys will be okay! =)) in a few hours time, i'll be off to sembawang. come to think of it, i've never been to sembawang shopping centre since it has been newly renovated. maybe, i can get the family to swing by for a little a while before the visit. yeah, sounds alright. & im dry out of new books to read. & i haven't swear either!! woohooo i made a move at 1:33 AM Thursday, March 19, 2009 letters to the president..
i've threatened to shoot rubber bands at that poor slow four legged stuff for the fun of scaring my brother. HAHAHA. i don't get their fascination with that thing. why can't we have a cat instead? hmm? i'll give it a maximum of another week to live before it'll go to heaven for animals. i think it's a cute show. awesome. it made me laugh. & i like how they talk! those devils sitting a row behind me really deserves to be thrown out of the cinema. WAHLAU so noisy! in school your DM never teach you to keep quiet when the situation calls for it, is it? im done blaming parents. i realise its not gonna change cause some parents love their children too much to spare the rod, so i'll go & blame the DM. HAA. the blame game is fun, wanna join? i made something in the kitchen today with syirah. HAHAHA. the kitchen like concert hall, know. syirah & syimir were singing to Captive by who i dont know (i got the feeling its chris brown). & the only contribution i made to their mini concert was this one line over & over again cause that's the only line i know. 'the jungle the danger happens...' -.- so kentz the song. &OH! i just found my GC album!! =)) i thought i lost it! now i can go back to singing Broken Hearts Parade. awesome! (this is so 2007! god.. i lost it for the past 2 years..) & i showed syirah some coupleblogs. why do couple have a blog together?! it's so kental. & in bai's word, 'tk perlu'. okayokay, cannot talk so much. we each have our own merry existence to lead & we'll lead it any old way we want. g'night. i made a move at 9:22 PM Tuesday, March 17, 2009 oh, the horror i think Suci should just get married to Bayu & forget Dennis altogether. really. & ive only watched three episodes of Cinta Fitri season 2 cause im so irritated by the fact that the grandmother hates fitri & the farel's mother will soon hate fitri cause the oma very the bloody batu api. ITS ALWAYS THE SAME OLD THING LA! i've had an awesome day today. 100m mad dash to the toilet every so often. ohgod, the gastric sucks so bad. my grandmother is convinced that my intestines is corroded (how i know not) cause of my irritating habit of eating one meal per day & skipping breakfast by default. ive been waking up at 3am in the morning for the past few days. such ungodly hours. ive got chills throughout the nights. i hate fever. & my throat still hurts like fuck. & i feel like a pathetic soul everytime im sick. fucking pathetic. i still havent go to the library to pick my book up. soon, they will relinquish my book to another patron & i will still have to pay reservation fee. i've watched Cicakman 2. which was hilarious shit & cool, in my opinion. & this awesomely barbaric not to mention stupid indonesian horror movie, Tiren. my sister should have listened to me & bought a bollywood movie with shah rukh khan in it -.- tiren would mean maTI kemaREN. & for fuck, the sex scenes a bit too berani for an asian film. but, a brave venture there. i cannot fucking take it when the guy had sex with a bloody goddamn corpse & had maggots pouring out of this mouth. eeeww. & i had nightmares of maggots crawling out of my mouth. what fuck, you tell me now. god! i hate horror movies. i actually snap my eyes shut when Coming Soon trailer was being aired in the cinema advertisements. WAHHHH. & if you're wondering, i havent watch Jangan Pandang Belakang. i only watch Congkak & Pontianak Harum Sundal Malam AFTER my sister watched it & assure me its not scary. even so, i can scream as if my house is on fire. HAHA & thai horror movie. you kirim salam sudah ehh. i have never watch ju-on either or the ring for that matter. i feel... ... pathetic OH THE HORROR! i made a move at 8:59 PM Sunday, March 15, 2009 weekends anniversary it doesnt matter who you are or how you look like, so long as somebody loves you. -roald dahl, the witches  Happy 20th Anniversary =)) somehow, im starting to believe that my dad really doesn't know how to smile for the camera -.-& OH! they're holding the gift we made for them. & mama teared a bit when she read this one part & was pretty overwhelmed that she gave us each a kiss. IN PUBLIC, ohmygod.
for many many more years ahead.
i only realised when i was at the lift lobby. 'why are you all in orange? i feel like anak terbiar!!'
i forgot what this was called. lamb cutlet, i think. & i like the mint sauce even though eating this causes extreme pain in my throat. i think i have an ulcer at the back of the throat.
& today we send off Amirah & her family to Australia. & my mother now wanna migrate to australia. ive got my popeyes biscuits. i havent seen ferhan for a week. & i ask ferhan once, how come girls when their boyfriend pass out they very kecoh... & anyway, he asked if i got do that. 'what fuck? you think i got nothing to do? i dont even know when you pass out eh, beb' i think when my brother in the future go NS & they're passing out THEN i will be kecoh. HAHA. im not that bad la, i know its in early April. & i'm sorry, if you're one of those girls. im very angsty nowadays. i made a move at 9:35 PM Friday, March 13, 2009 d-o-n-e What, in life, does not deserve celebrating? -Adrian Veidt & it's finally done. after a week (or more) of the gift being progressively slow. HAHA. im talking about the gift we made for mama & abah's anniversary tomorrow. well, it was actually yesterday... but we're going to celebrate it tmr. godknowswhere la. wahhh, i think i just put my distinction in malay to shame. it's been 3 years since i had to write anything in malay & just now, when i was writing a message for my parents, i did it in malay & ohmyfuckingod, it's so atrocious. eheh, syirah, meluraikan maksud ape ehh? meluraikan tkda. menghuraikan ada. AHH yesyes, i meant that. my uncle & his family visited us again yesterday. & they'll be flying off back to Australia this Sunday. & i'm planning on a little visit to Popeyes after sending them off. i'll look like a whale when school reopen. tragedy, really. i think i'll just upload the photos tmr. i'm hoping for an awesome weekend. with amazing foods. food must be about the only thing that is wonderful in life. i swear. i'm gonna have my own personal chef in the future who is gonna save me the trouble of cooking & come up with brilliant brilliant gourmet which is veges free (they're my mortal enemy) i actually had the intention to bake brownies this week, you know. but now, my throat is acting up again. what the fuck is wrong with it i know not. in any case, who cares, when i'm up to moving about, i'll go get the stuffs & destroy the kitchen. then baidura rahman, you can come my house & steal the brownies. since i dont know why but you keep asking me to bake. you cannot bake meh? once in a while, you go make the cookies that i always look out for at your house during raya, cannot is it? i want to marry money. ohhh sweet sweet smelling currency. i made a move at 10:48 PM Wednesday, March 11, 2009 i think this is a nightmare
AHHHH!!! Ozymandias is now my new boyfriend. i watched the Watchmen!! =)) i think its an awesome movie. the movie is like nearly 3 hours, know! very gory also. i must have entertained baidura with my MAHA bodoh moments. like going to a counter that clearly says 'next counter please' to buy my stuffs. blind. need new specs.
& we were talking about someone who is having a scandal behind his girlfriend's back. see, how to trust men? , i asked trust those who you love & can't live without, he said so poetic. i bet she loved him. the people you love will end up hurting you. i like yesterday's talk. I CAN DIE WAIT FOR SMS RESULTS!! this has got to be the worst semester exams ever. then when i get home & check my GPA, i wanted suicide pills. OHMYGODOHMYGOD!! (stop reading already. im ranting already. please just stop reading my blog now) GOD!!! tell me if 2 semester is enough to do something positive? damnit la, where is this hope? why in the name of all the letters of the alphabets am i in bloody law?! ohyes, that's right, i was thrown in here... OH, hag, stop whining. i made a move at 11:19 PM Tuesday, March 10, 2009 therapy
it calms me. & throwing out unused stuffs was an additional bonus. while cleaning, i dragged this green suitcase out from under my bed. i know this suitcase exists since i was like 6. today, curiosity got a better hold of me & i opened it up. HAHAHA. when i saw the contents, i must have gasped so loud that 'izzul came running into the room. the contents got me a little worried, though. it's like seeing a Colt in the suitcase, you know. what fuck. i wanted to go. you wouldn't let me. you said we'll be stronger together. maybe, you're right. & i certainly hope so. i feel good today. i clean, i found stuffs, i made progress with my parent's gift. i think syimir is weird. i upended the whole cupboard full of photo albums & yet, i still cannot find the album with his baby photos. i think he sell to the karang guni. haha. i made a move at 6:47 PM Monday, March 09, 2009 crisis 101 it has to be a crisis. yes, an internal crisis. tsktsk. well, i did say i wanted to sort out of my life. so maybe, yeah, God listened to me & gave me this. why, thank you, my Lord. maybe, you can listen to my OTHER prayer. you know? the one i so desperately need? yes. thankyou, God. before i leave, i want some answers. cause i think too much already. i made a move at 1:11 PM Sunday, March 08, 2009 it's all in my mind don't tell me the worst is over now.. cause to me, it's just starting. you know how i always say, i don't really like humans (even though i am one!).. well, exhibit A, just prove me why. we always always look at people's flaws. why can't we factor in the good deeds that someone has done & then maybe that good deeds can cancel out the flaws. somehow. HAHA. what joke. i haven't done many good things in my life. so, what is it am i expecting? my sarcasm to cancel out my flaws? wake up call, aidah. your sarcasm IS YOUR FLAW. but, you see, sometimes i act the way i am, sarcastic, defensive, detached, indifferent to the world because i want to hurt you before you have the chance to hurt me. i am veryy veryy sensitive to criticism. i will crumble in the face of it. as to date, no one actually understand this principle of self preservation i have in me. well, maybe except baidura. cause' well, she's been at the violent end of it for 7 years. (& for that, im grateful) maybe, i really am despicable, horrible & above all, undeserving of you. but, you won't let me go away. what do i have to do now? i really really understand what's going on but i just don't fucking understand why i act the way i do. (like, im going to popular soon-ish to buy this book called 'why i act the way i act', i kid you not, it exist.) & obviously, im confused. cause i have thought up a certain something & not sure if its the best solution. i mean, what after? am i always this retardedly emo? cause' its disturbing. really, it imbalances my aura. so imbalance that ive turned so quiet up to the point of being mono syllabic. & that is very disturbing according to ferhan. cause i ALWAYS have something to say. i really need to stop. im watching unexpected access & the kid has a problem more grave than me. (the slaughtering of the pig episode is so bloody sick. i don't see the humanity! HAAA) syirah said its a test. so i either be strong & pass it. or, be weak & fail it & lose the person i hold dear but it hurts so much, to be labelled that. really. i'm speech impaired when it comes to telling people how i feel. so, i dont see me telling you how hurt i am anywhere in the near future. maybe i'll write a letter. HAHA & maybe i'll regret you it's all in my mind.. it's all in my mind i made a move at 9:51 PM Friday, March 06, 2009 shine, sun, please it didn't rain today. it's such a wonderful day, i swear. why can't everyday be like today? sunny, bright, fresh. my reservation is STILL in transit... i'm bored out of my wits at home without a good book to read. i know i have like more than a dozen books lying around my bookshelves but i want something new to read. im such a spoilt bookworm. i must be that desperate to lost myself in the world of words & alphabets that i've gone back to reading fanfiction which i have neglected ever since i entered poly. & it seems like i'm not watching Watchmen this weekend. this sucks. i want to ask syirah & then i remembered that it's M18. ive got a haircut today. cause i was bored. HAHA. & my mother is irritated with me cause i keep going back to the salon for a haircut. & she's pissed off cause i told her i need new glasses. tk perlu, you know. & i'm irritated. still, i think i'm doing a damn good job of keeping my emotions in check. cause, i've rationalised stuffs & ... ... ... well, i havent fly off the handle. but, irritated, i am. so much for looking forward to it. zilch. there is this one thing that has been bugging me the past few days. i'm not quite sure what to make of it. so, i've kept clear of the person. & hopefully, the light will shine & i'll understand what's going on. i want to sleep well at night. cause i find my nightmare wayy too detailed & too close to resembling my daytime fears. like it's not enough that i'm paranoid & scared of certain stuffs happening, it has to appear in my dreams with a magnitude so huge i woke up questioning my sanity. i think, i overreact well too, judging from what i just say. HAHAH. maybe, i really am insane. maybe, i just haven't realised it. maybe, a psychiatrist will be able to point it out to me. maybe, i'll even get my own sweet prescription of psycho pills. & THIS IS NOT THE FIRST TIME I AM CONVINCED IM INSANE! (i mean, i can hold a conversation with myself!! what do you make that out to be? insane, right?) maybe i'm like Dr Jekyll & Mr Hyde. see, i even read that book. & when i ask the librarian for that book years ago, she looked at me funny & asked if im doing research. & when i said, no & merely for pleasure, she laughed in my face. stupid librarian. i deduce that normal teenagers don't read such dark tales for fun. im as insane as Dr Jekyll. period. can you get me the drug please? i made a move at 11:24 PM Thursday, March 05, 2009 OZY WHO?
i send ferhan three text message all bearing the same message, 'i want to watch the watchmen!'. i told him the same thing over the phone. all in one week. the final straw came this afternoon when he replied with, 'you say one more time, i'm not watching with you!' HAHA. i'm such an irritant. Jodi Picoult's new books seems promising. i think ewan mcGregor's voice veryy sexyyy in Angels&Demons. If God did not exist, it would be necessary to invent him very necessary. yes. i made a move at 9:40 PM Wednesday, March 04, 2009 first world hobby
i'm halfway through Change of Heart. less than a hundred pages & i'll be done. & i haven't got any other books left to read. a trip to the library soon will be wise. this is what teenagers in the first world do as hobby. i made a move at 8:06 PM Tuesday, March 03, 2009 amendments... "i haven't been up to much, just you know, trying to figure out the world...." im done reading the Ink-trilogy. which was an awesome experience!! being sucked in to the inkworld, with fairies & glassmen & the adderhead... see now, im starting to sound like the characters... i just started on Change of Heart while waiting for Ferhan to call. & i found this one quote which sort of rang true if you really mull it over. When you're different, sometimes you don't see the millions of people who accept you for what you are. All you notice is the one person who doesnt. i had this horrible nightmare & woke up startled. & you know how, sometimes, in dreams, you woke up feeling exactly how your dream self feels. which is kind of disturbing. that was like 5.50 in the morning. & for all i know i could have been screaming & trashing & cursing & my sister probably video-ed my nightmare & then quietly go to school without waking me up. in any case, i can't go back to sleep & i refuse to start my day at 6 in the morning. what nonsense. so i lay in bed, thinking of the possibilities of the dream actually happening & all the possible outcomes if it happens. i have this another awesome idea for my parents anniversary. but, as all other ideas that i have, it always appear at the 11th hour. & i have no time complete it by this saturday! ugggh. i think ferhan is too soft-hearted & generous. it's very alarming!! maybe cause he always see the good side of people while i, by nature can't trust people. 'being evil doesn't pay', he said. but its being cautious! don't know how to say no, you know. i bet he is the kind of person who will say yes & have truck loads of tasks that he himself cant complete at the end of the day. there is this open house down at Supreme Court the next weekend. & li ying has asked me to volunteer with her all. should i go? should i go? i have no idea why im in law cause in general, lawyers scares me, judges intimidates me, acts kills me. & speaking of acts, li ying just told me a brilliant piece of news... the civil law (amendment) bill wants to lower contractual age from 21 to 18. (YAY, we're not minors anymore!!) can lease land for a period not exceeding 3 years, can form a company... best, no? i have no idea if its passed though. lets check it out... i made a move at 2:41 PM
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