when i told Abah im going to go out, he said, i should go register for a license on
the way. WAHHH!! he dont understand my phobia after being crashed by my cousin's go-cart. i swore i would never get behind a wheel. i would never operate anything with 4 wheels or engines for that matter!!

we caught slumdog millionaire.
YAY!! after close to 2 months of pestering Ferhan to accompany me watch it when it came out. i'll give it good ratings, really. its awesome. the storyline ventured out of the norms for a bollywood movie or hollywood, if you take into account who the director is.

i wanted to go eat pasta mania but ferhan said, i should save the money & when he pass out this april, we will go there to celebrate. he thinks funny la make me wait for so long. OKAY, volunteers needed to accompany me!!

then i went to his place cause he wanted to pass his guitar to me & the book.
so, i will ATTEMPT to teach myself how to play it. (somehow, i know i will fail miserably. shit. i never actually failed anything. & this is gonna be my first. oh sucks) syirah is playing Stand By Me already. i think she stole my talent. how come she can play already!!

then he came over to my place since 'youarethethirdweakestwomeniveknown' & refuse to carry the guitar. & he send me home where he & my mother ganged up & pressurised me to go find a job. you think easy thing to do is it?!

im sick.
brilliant timing to fall sick during the holidays. really...

i have this mug which is plain black & the moment you pour hot water, the whole mug change to show my picture! i find it very cool!! & very mesmerised by it. im going to go figure out the science behind this absolutely wonderful thing.
thankyou, lestat my minion.

nenek & datuk is at KL.
ahhh. i wish i could have followed them.
but then again, i shouldn't cause i'll be sick & be such a burden.
HAHA.

OH, Happy Birthday Kak Nisa =)))
no leap year. but still... haha.

which also means that a year ago, a major life changing event happened when
i decided to tell the truth & shame the devil. 1.5 years already. steady steady.

now facebook got some shits going on.
maybe a new bug. don't close down my account!!
& i must highlight the fact that I DIDNT REPORT that you were in violations of the terms & conditions. IT WASNT ME. WASNT ME! i dont even know how.

After having Nathan Petrelli's face staring at me everytime i go to my desktop for months, ive changed it to that!! now, can look at Sylar smiling so innocently. AHHHH. =))

day 2 out of this 7/8 weeks of holiday has been pretty boring.
ive been at home infront of my laptop, reading my book, watching tv.

was supposed to meet ferhan at 2 since he has halfday today.
& he asked me to slack at his place. aiyohh, boy! like that i better sit at home right?

as you can see, ive changed the blogskin.
it looks so much softer, if you know what i mean. & too plain.
now, im wondering if it was a good move to go & gatal change blogskin.

im still pretty sore that i messed up my FIFO for accounts paper.
its the careless mistakes that kills. like me adding an extra zero resulting in a loss instead of profit. 3,600 become 36,000. a huge difference there. i deserve to be spiked.

we went Popeyes after paper. the initial plan to hit boat quay was called off due to the rain. it was still pretty early, only 7 in the evening, so sham, hend, me & justin went to bugis.

it was here that i found out what Burne really means when i was leafing through 'the meaning of last names'. Burne means someone who lives in a house by a stream. it caught me by surprise since i was expecting, well, something to do with fire.

i want a kitten again!!
especially, like this one who listens to you so easily, you could lure them to their death & they'll be clueless still.

OB paper was undescribable.
what's new? i lost 11 marks. cause i misunderstood the whole goddamn question & gave the wrong theory. wahh heart pain!!

i watched Pink Panther 2. & feel awesomely incomplete cause when i watch a movie,
i really have to sit through the adverts all. then got someone, serious punye malay promise ahh, come late & i miss like 3 mins of the movie.

talking about movie!!
i went to the wrong cinema last friday. HAHA.
& nearly enter the wrong cinema again, if ferhan hadn't pointed out that cinema 6 was at the opposite end.

freedom of choice must have flew out of my window cause i was dragged to his place to help him polish his boots before he booked in. & we end up not even doing it. what nonsense.

today is a day of shocking revelation after i found out that a big nitwit excuse of a human being has been lying to me all this time. you die, i tell you. if its about one thing nevermind, its a lot of issues altogether. heartache, know.

he got punched in the chest & can say somemore, 'you can finally punch like a man, aidah!'
of course, its the anger in the punch, beb. & we ended up having a boxing match in his study room, watching dozens of trailers on apple.com, eating cookies & not polishing boots -.-
i wore the boots & im wondering how can anyone RUN in it!! its like bricks attached to your legs or the equivalent.

&& oh! me feeling for a moment like a rockstar with his new guitar.
just cause im wearing a silverstein shirt, he took a picture of me with his red hot guitar & ask me to act emo.

ferhan, you don't lie to a liar.
i know for a fact that you lied about something & i was waiting for the admittance for the past months. lesson 101, keep track of your lies. or they will outwit you. i kinda like how my decision to be dragged prove to be somewhat worthwhile when i discovered all these nonsense from you.

i also want to say, that i spend like more than an hour going through pictures of hot/cute guys in uniform that ferhan gave me in his hard disk. & ohh, eiffel, i think im in love =)). sorry, ferhan, one day i give you one hard disk with pictures of cute girls for you.

my awesome idea, MIGHT just work.
now, back to accounts since our trust issue has been settled, somewhat.
what could you possibly expect under this condition?

I'll put love in your hand
We know they have it wrong
So, we'll put love in the songs we sing.
promise me.

yes, it has been a good day.
thank you very much =))

Companies Bloody Act can throw inside recyling bin under my block already!!
YEAHH!! good riddance (hopefully)

we ordered mc delivery for lunch.
& how come they don't have McValue lunch for delivery? tsktsk.
since i had the person deliver it right to business school cargo lift, he was kinda lost & called me & told me to meet him at the roundabout. i also dont know where the roundabout is la actually

i lost 16 marks for my exams.
& i just realised im sitting for a paper that consists of 100 marks.
WAHHHH. a 30% paper.

anyway, ferhan have half day today & he booked out early so he came to meet me
since im all geared up to celebrate the end of company law!! (i know i still got two more paper).

he wanted to sign up for a new line & was asking me if i wanted a phone.
no, i dont need a new phone. & there he was standing infront of the glass casing thinking his life away on whether to get a phone. so i told him that he should go get the phone. then we can sell it & split the profit in half. (i told you, i love moneyyy)

he gave the phone to me & told me i can do whatever i want with it.
& now, im thinking if i should use this new t700 & sell my current phone away.
or, use my current phone & sell this t700 awayy. HELPPPP!

we caught He's just not that into you. i'll give it a 3/5.
its concept is like Love Actually, in my opinion. but its funny.
&& i get to see Jennifer Connelly. wooo!!

i have an excellent dayy.
i love it. company law is over.
i get a new phone (or rather, a new avenue to obtain money)
i had the best arguement about scdf vehicles with ferhan (i know i should not argue about scdf vehicles with someone who is in scdf but wth). & laugh too much.

how now.
if you laugh too much you will cry.
how now?

PINK PANTHER NEXT!!
OKAYY, back to OB

i'll watch you wherever you go,
through the eyes of the fly on the wall

all they wanted to do was to soar as high as they could

& they will soon grow up to realise that when you're a child,
you have dreams as big as the ocean & as you age, it gets smaller.
cause you'll do stuffs that will drastically affect your future.

& this was also taken after an intense event at home where the 4 of us took our bikes
& lost ourselves to the world outside. cause the only one who really understood the implications
was syirah & i.

though we won't admit it, maybe taking the younger ones out will help
them forget whatever happened back home. though they seem to be doing a good job of it now.

how can you sleep, how can you breathe,
tell me how, how you love me now?

i'm feeling pretty restless.
cause im not too sure what the fuck is happening right now.
& ferhan kept urging me to ask. but how? cause that'll be a fucking awkward conversation.

i'm tired.
& i'm stress. & i broke down over the phone (& stupidly thought it wasn't obvious)
'don't cry anymore can? just take one step at a time'
'im not crying!' (can sound very indignant somemore, know!)
'oh, please! i know you very well.'

now, fashanu, how do one take one step at a time when everything is happening all at once?
tsk. how come you never tell me this?

& to those people whose debts i can never repay, (i know you dont read this & feverantly hope you dont but i just need to write & write & feel better) i like to hope & this time i hope that things will be a-okay. & that no one rushes off anywhere to do anything stupid only to regret it later in the future.

& haven't you heard?
secrets...nothing eats away at love faster than a secret
-inkdeath

& i'm pretty sure, that love has to exist somewhere between.
maybe if you search for it hard enough, you'll find it again.
cause now, i dont know if you ever had it cause ive never witness it.

g'night.

okay, Happy Valentines =))

i think it has been a good day.
apart from me spending two hours trying to wake up Ferhan Fashanu Siddiqi.
to no avail, i might add.

cause his phone was on the floor. who puts their phone on the floor while he sleeps?!
i dont understand him ah. i give up trying to understand people in general actually.

i met baidura at whitesands.
& she gave me this kinda cool poem which she said she wrote half asleep. HAHA.
its on display on my cupboard baidura! i'll let my mother read & show her your poem writing skills okay!

& i watched Valkyrie!
LIKE FINALLY! it's kinda good actually.
the person playing himmler really looked like himmler!

then there was a scene where Hitler was sitting with his 4 good 'friends'
& he was stroking his dog. i thought i'll be nice & introduce to ferhan the dog.
'that's Blondi', i said.

& he fucking called me a dog when we were at BK!
'excuse me! what the fuck did you just call me?'
'oh erm. BLONDI! i called you blondi. you're hitler's dog!'

seriously, boy, i know i have a weird fascination with the era where hitler ruled this earth but saying im his dog does not make the situation any better. if i were to be in anyway related to hitler, i'd want to work in the German High Command of the Armed Forces (or something) where i can spend my time stealing glances at hot soldiers in uniform!

but no! he had to call me a dog. chibai.
tsktsk.

tasik and sungai one and the same, you know.
melayu die baik per! the boy in striped pajamas incident is still very fresh in my mind ehh.
you watch out. after exams i got alot of free time, i'll sit at home & device cool methods of torture for you.

i finished Inkdeath.
i havent got anything to read whenever im taking a break from studying.
help?

i want to sit somewhere, sip hot chocolate & ponder my life away. & try to guess if i'll ever be successful or i should just go find someone rich to marry now then spend all his money on my education. (wait, i marry rich dude i want to study for what?!)

really. so arcane. i dont know how to unravel it.

life's like a walking shadow, a poor player
that starts and frets his hour upon stage
& then is heard no more.
it is a tale told by an idiot, full of sound & fury
signifying nothing.

-william shakespeare, macbeth

like i told baidura just now.
'why the fuck am i pondering life on valentines day?'

maybe i should start asking, what love really is!
(roll eyes!)

& happy total defence day

BAIK LIBRARY!
Terus kn la perangai kau mcm gini.

this library ehh i dont know to love it or hate it la.
i wait dont know how many months for inkheart and change of heart only now did the status changed to in transit.

exams temptation.
when i only got project to do, the books dont want to come.
now i have exams & desperately trying to change the Bs to A & the undesirable grades to something desirable, the books fall on my lap.

aiyohhhh.
& you got see that Company Law ready for collection or not?
wahh i never borrow any book related to my academic stuffs from National Library, know.
Company Law is like the first. EVER. & if dont atleast get a B, that's it la. IM NEVER GONNA SET UP A COMPANY. (not that i wanted to)

holding company la. subsidiary company la.
transfer shares, debentures, directors duties la.
WHAT THE FUCK!

If you ask how im doing in law, i'll say surviving.
dian would have said struggling. I want to be able to say thriving one day.

Pasta Mania halal already =))
when is subway ever gonna be halal?
please just get rid of the pork. i havent eaten subway for like what?
a month, now? okay, im kinda proud of myself! my 'no-more-eating-nonhalal-food' period is doing well. =)))) even when henderik tempted me with their cookies.

& my sister has been singing since the past hour.
i sleep also her voice seeped through my dreams.
all those weird weird songs that only she listen to la.
superhuman, sweat the likes of chris brown and gang.

okay. g'day.
i need to get some studying done.

you all want to hazard a guess who in hades bought me THAT badge or not?!
i asked my friends and they all say, 'FERHAN!'
but no, not that beloved guy.
i tell you later.

now, what you just saw was THREE sets of Companies Act.
416 pages each. & i feel far from studious when i carried it around.
like a murderer more like. i'm sorry, trees! i really am!

LAW MADE ME LIKE THIS LA!
YOU GO ASK THIS LEGISLATURE WHY THEY MAKE LAWS UNTIL SO THICK LIKE THAT! (harry potter & the goblet of fire also lose hands down)

then when i get home, i was looking around for my accounts materials to study.
& guess what i found snuggled cozily between papers and more papers?

FERHAN'S COMPANIES ACT!
wahhlauu! fucking heart pain when i saw his copy.

i remembered asking him if he has a copy two days ago.
& he search high & low at his place. & where is it?
hiding in some remote corner in my place!

to make matters worst, his is veryy organised until cannot organised anymore la.
& wayy much thinner. cause he got brains and only printed the ones he thinks he need.
(risk-taker!) i should also mention, he compiled his nicely in a blue file with dividers.
(i'm very proud of you for being organised. =)) once in a lifetime)

he will laugh if i tell him this sad life story.
i feel stupid. period.

& baidura!!
she called me saying she paralysed on her left side.
heart attack! tolong pergi doktor. even if you're okay now.
even nenek worried about you, you know. ask me to call you all.

i just told ferhan & in his most sarcastic tone he said, "i always knew you were that intelligent! & how many trees you killed already? WAHLAU. that's like one rim of paper!" like i haven't feel guilty enough.

you can keep guessing who bought that badge.
=))

there's this dude at interchange who scares the living hell out of me.
when he beri salam and start talking as if we've known each other since we're in our mother's womb. he started talking about taking something and feeling rich. (WTF) & henderik thought he was hitting on me (god forbid)

i got away & saw him again.
& hid behind a pillar till i see him disappear.
wahhh faggot. don't scare me like that. i was thinking of what my life would be like if he had raped me or something. i dont wanna bore his child sia! eeewww.

i mean the child would be mental.
& i'd have to kill it. like its not bad enough i don't like kids.
wahhh fuck fuck. guys scares me.

STAY AWAY FROM ME!
unless your name is ferhan, henderik, nas, shaun and those who i hang around with

okay. im very stress.
that's why this post very long.
did you actually read this in its entirety?

law arts night '09 =))

arts night was yesterday.
it was a cool & whacky event.
they all performed beautifully. cheers! =))

& ferhan came back to school too!
in any case, we all took a lot of photos.
& had a fun time commenting on it down at facebook.
told you these people i hang around with are whack.

or maybe im just insane.
lata's gonna get back my sanity back & process it. =))
so hang in there. im gonna be sane in a bit.

today was the leadership test.
dian & i were sitting outside this lt when i suddenly burst out laughing
& ask dian to turn to her right. & i swear, the girl was traumatised. HAHA.

we saw this guy on the bench and his ass crack was showing like for real.
& i thought that only happen to girls. hahaha. i think what cracks me up was dian's reaction.
she took her tudung and cover her face in trauma. nuts.

test was a-okay in general.
although miracles of miracles, they had to ask that one question which i didnt touch on.
what is 'selective & socialised'?

caught Defiance today.
it was kind of moving, if you ask me. i sort of like the vigilante justice displayed when one of the brother's wife were killed by the Germans.

my day didnt start off good.
my day didn't end off good.
& guess who had the power to rot it all up?
frustration in this modern times. ugghhh

get well, soon, you who has the power.
& i bumped into baidura on friday night.
i saw her from like miles away & was shouting her name already. =)))

you've got to tell me what happened to you.
don't go 'thats all you need to know'. crap, know.

There's no God
That can save us all
So don't pray on your knees
Just beg on your hands
There is no belief in this promised land

need to start revision.
TOMORROW is a good day to start, aidah

Wooo!
I can collect Inkdeath from the library already! =))
i finished my inkspell two days after i got it. (my dustfinger died! he died! ohhhgod)

inkspell is the cause of my veryy extreme last minute revision for today's leadership test.
OHH. now got new book how to study for exam?!

ferhan once said that the best way to get me to fail exams is to give me new novels to read.
evil, but true.

law arts night yesterday was good.
but it was too short! the performers were awesome though!
=)) you all did wonderfully.

i'll talk more about it later when i get more photos!
& when im not too preoccupied with worries about leadership test and company law.
wahh company law really damn fucked up. FUBAR would be apt.

im going to school now.
to sit for a 3pm test on a saturday. WOOOO!

dian send me an email with the subject heading "why muslims eat halal food.."
& there is this part which is pretty funny (please click on it).
like we can't eat pork cause aside from it being the host for a thousand and one parasites, it doesn't have a neck for us to slaughter it properly with.

ive got this cool idea for a story!
a tale spurned from my conversation with ferhan yesterday.

AHH-OKAY.
need to go school, now.
i got presentation! =))

so would i be out of line if i said 'i miss you'?
- Incubus

missing someone is a strange thing.
i find it very hypnotic. don't you?

i kinda like conveyancing lessons this week.
firstly, there is no tutorial questions which saved us two & half hours of torture.
secondly, we only need to do letters so briefing only lasted for like less than 20 minutes and end even before 10 am.

indirectly this mean, i have had macdonald's breakfast yesterday & today.
but today was good. a group of us stayed on at mac for like hours from breakfast till it was time for lunch telling ghost stories! then we went to play basketball.

& nenek told me yesterday she wanted to try cooking lamb chop.
cause i think she's sick and tired of seeing me buy out. 2 hours ago, she embarked on her new journey. & as usual, when she set out trying something new to her, i become her tester! honoured, you know.

that is my favourite (quite possibly one & only job, seeing as how i would rather not have anything to do in the kitchen. so my future husband should know the art of cooking or be prepapred to starve to death or buy out) job, you don't know right?

in any case, it turned out good.
insyirah burne has decided to go an extra mile by melting cheese on her meat.
i bet it taste funky but she gave good review so i'll try it later on. yes, we are weird like that.

if ferhan got wind of all these, he will laugh in my face. so much for my wanting to lose weight.
my ambition very high, right! i live to eat.

okay.
im running out of words to say.
g'night