Linger

Hey guys, I've moved my blog to hwaimun.blogspot.com

Happy Birthday.

Hunger Games

Met up with sexy bitch for lunch @ Lot1 Pizza Hut! :) There's a 1 for 1 promotion right now, (yes I know it has been going on for weeks already..-.-). For those that have yet to dine in there, please do! Its really a good deal. Its $17.50 for TWO regular pizzas. But we didn't buy that cause it's too much for us.

So I ordered my Orange Zest Duck while Weiyan ordered her Cheesy Shrooms Baked Pastaaaa :D (A pity I didnt get a picture of it D:)

Orange Zest Duck w mashed potato. Its reeaaally good. The duck is very soft and tender.

 And here's our appetizers,

6pc roasted chicken wings, AWESOME WINGS.
(I'm salivating now, crap)

Cripsy Golden Bites, they're actually fried 'wantons' with shrimps in it.


Heading out with babe again to Ben & Jerry's Free Cone day tmr :) Stay tuned for Ice Cream :)

Takoyaki o kay kee

Had 4A class BBQ on Saturday evening, food's pretty good thanks to Yentl, she's so good at making chicken wings! Yumyum.

I didn't take any photos so here's some from fb, credits to Yentl. :) There's a few more on Nadia's DSLR but she hasn't up upload them so, here.

WEIYAN IS DAMN SEXY WITH HER NEW HAIRCUT *-*

THE LADIES

HAZWAN LOOKS SO CUTE IN HERE!

BUFF GUYS \(*O*)/

CONGRATS TO SHAHREEN FOR LOSING 8 KG..LOL

OUR BELOVED..

 And here's a polaroid picture taken with sex,  the one on the right was taken on 3rd Dec, notice how we look exactly the same in both pictures?! 

Mmm, more pictures are on fb, Mandy & gang went to kbox after bbq, didn't join them cause it was past midnight. I'm a good girl ^^! Gotta thank Afiqah, Afiq and Advik for making this bbq successful! Cool 3As. xD And daryl for the lift home :O

Now for my next post, haha Sorry for the posts spammage. Life w/o work is so happening, I've been missing this fun for a looong time. 

Last day of work

Hello!! I'm done with working! Its time for enjoyment!! My seniors brought me to a Japanese restaurant that night and its delicious! It is called Zen Japanese Cuisine, located near Bugis chinese temple :) Its vegetarian though.

 me and one of my seniors Estee, she's really petite in size.

 The rest of them :) Dont you guys think I look the oldest in here?

Another senior of mine drew this on my lunch box. xD

I love that day, because I feel appreciated and loved. There's more pictures on fb btw.

Right after we bid goodbye @ bugis street, (cause they had to go back to Msia) I went to my mum's office at Raffles place and camwhored xD Shall upload my favourite one.

yes, I've increased the width of my blog template cause I wanna put extra large pictures from now onwards

bad memories linger for a long time

I feel so lonely..I realized many of my friends left me because I was being myself.. Whether it was for hating on my ex form teacher, whether it was for making friends with others..whether it was for being too close to the person they like in class.. And it all happened because I expressed my opinions too openly, because I try too hard to fit in. Even in primary four, I could tell that some were already hating on me because I was hardworking and my teacher doted on me a lot.. And in primary five and six, it was a new class and all I wanted was a little attention from my new teacher, I wanted to be the teachers pet again..but ofc she was a little biased.. and I got demoralized.. so my academics started to spiral downwards. And soon, hatred grew within me when my teacher announced to the entire class that I was last in class. And it wasn't easy to hear that when I was in the second best class..I started hating on my form teacher.. I drew pictures of her and just .. expressing my rage. Classmates around me found out and started to dislike me and I didnt have any best friends..I had one whom swear and cursed at me, sometimes she'd hit me too. But most of the time, all I had was just friends and no besties. Sure I didn't realize that I was being hated on until now..because all I wanted was to be good at everything that I do. I wanted to do my best..but I remembered I was sent to the Principal's office in front of everyone else.. because my chinese kept deproving until I was forced to drop HMT.. well, almost dropped HMT. I had to go into the normal chinese class by myself and I knew nobody there. I almost cried. They laughed at me because I was entering an EM2 class. Its not that I look down on them . . but the humiliation was too much for me to take. So many people were staring at me. So many laughed at me. 

I lived through it but did badly on PSLE, Dad was very disappointed in me. And I've never really disappointed my parents before so it was a huge plunge in my life and yeah ..my life became very dark and sad..but still I wanted to do well for my parents. I wanted to feel that same feeling of doing them proud..so..

In sec 1, I thought it was a fresh start for me, I made a lot of friends. I did well in exams etc.. I was very happy, like.. delirious. But somehow it didnt turn out quite well because there were a lot of distractions..and because I made friends with people that weren't from my clique. And it was because of that, they started talking. And we grew even further when I had to lie to them because I wanted the best for them. We started a small band ourselves..and because I wanted to have song nicely composed for them, I had to live a lie. Not gonna talk about it but when they found out that I was lying, and the fact that the song was composed by the person they disliked, the bond between us broke. My friends didnt believe in me anymore, I remembered that night when one of them said, "This is the friend you've made, a liar. She lied to us." I just ..broke down because all I wanted was to help all of us grow closer. I wanted to make things work. Sure I was mad at them because they're so unreasonable..I mean like whats wrong making friends with someone that they didnt like..the least they could do was accept and respect my decision as a friend..I still remember that night.. The pain, the sobbing. The feeling of losing everyone at once. It was like in primary school. After that incident, the band was never spoke of again, well, we did talk about it once but it was a bad memory because all of them started questioning me if I was still talking to the person whom I shall not name.. At that point of time, I really felt like leaving the place and just ditch them. Because I think I've had enough..I mean like, even between my girlfriends, we had quarrels..and somehow I feel that I'm the problem. If I weren't that dull and indifferent..I think we would still be friends right now. I know I'm at fault too. Maybe I didn't try hard enough to understand them. Maybe I should've been a better best friend. Even though we were all in the CCA, I felt that I was drifting apart from everyone else, I felt that nobody wants to talk to me in band at the end of sec 3. I felt unwanted, not welcomed. What pains me most is that they don't even realize that I'm gone after band practice. They see me walkin, they see me walking away but none of them bothered to stop me. And thats where I know that they don't care anymore. That was the breaking point, the limit to how much I can feel lonely and unwanted by my so called friends..But I felt happy when I left them, but sad when I knew that they were once my great friends. Haha, its okay now though..cause along the way, there was this girl that I've never really spoke much to in lower sec. But she has been there for me till today..we've helped each other tide over bad times and mend each others' broken hearts. Haha, I like how she has OCD and is a clean freak like me. And how we're so different in so many ways yet we have so much in common, our family background, our mums are alike, and our life goals are somewhat on the same 'frequency'. We're like bananas in pyjamas lol. we're so close to the extent that we know what we're thinking most of the time.. Ofc I'm talking about you weiyan. But till this day, i'm still sorry for bringing you down into sub science class.. if I hadn't ...

Anyway readers..sorry for this super long post because I've watched demi lovato's after-rehab video and it kinda inspired me to stay strong and express myself freely. I'm sorry for the bad english ... dont be a grammar nazi... I've become stupid over the holidays. My sentences are always half completed.. and I'm always 'like..., so yeah ..' ==; pardon me.. :( its 3.21am now..

gnor mm sek su yan dei de.

Bored @ Work

Hey guys, sorry I didn't update my blog as I promised.. Things that I least wanted to happen has happened. These are things that I know I can do nothing about it and yeah, I shouldn't cry over spilled milk. All I could say is that in every ending comes a new beginning.

Hmm. I missed out on NP's FOC camp that I signed up for. Not sure if I would call it a waste because I've got friends tweeting about how lousy the camp was .. Still, I feel guilty for chicken-ing out, cause I realized all the outings that NP has held, I'm never there with weiyan. Haha, but maybe its a good thing, weiyan can make new friends...get a breather and have fun. In about two weeks time I'll be seeing her again anyway.

Oh, btw people, do you think I should cut shoulder length hair? You know, I wanna start things anew after all the pain that I've been through this year (thanks alot 2012) so I kinda tuck my hair into my shirt and got this, I like how I look so gentle and pure with that style but, I doubt it would fit my fat round face. (yes, my face has been expanding, I told you the fats are going to the wrong place!! WHY WONT THEY GO TO MY BOOBS? -.- )

Aaaand...this is how droopy and dull my hair is now.

Uncut for about 4months.
P.S I don't make my bed

I was hoping to grow it till my waist but its taking forever.. . sigh. :( It hurts.
OH!!! Right, I went to the polyclinic last Saturday to get my fingers checked. Apparently the medication the docs previously prescribed doesnt work. And I've lost all the fingerprints on my right hand, (orly? yes. -.-) It has already affected my left thumb and LOL, the other day when I was registering for NP, they required a thumbprint, so I was like crap, what do I do. All I have left was my left thumb which was slightly disfigured. cause when I pressed my thumb on the inkpad and stamp, it showed straight lines and a little bit of my thumbprint..-.- obviously I needed to see the doc. I pleaded for a referral..but fortunately it didn't take much effort because the doctor was kinda gay and maybe he's soft so he referred me to National Skin Center!! YAY for GAYNESS! :D

:) Sorry for abrupt ending, sist's home.

KONY 2012

I'm happy today.

Hello my sweethearts! I skipped work today and did something much more productive :) I made some green bean soup for my grandma because I heard she was unwell. My sist made porridge and her favourite xian cai chao niu rou. So we set off at about 2.30 in the afternoon. Was supposed to be in the morning but sister slept like a log. Cabbed to my grandma house because It would take an hour to travel from our house via train. Haha, so I fed my grandma the green bean soup and hehe, she said it was delicious. It warmed my heart and I felt kinda happy cause I don't usually cook so at my first attempt I did considerably good :D (I know green bean soup is nothing but.. -.- ughhh I'll try harder.) Haha.. my grandma..She looked like she was in pain. Who am I kidding, of course she's in pain..She doesn't have the ability to see, walk or move. She kept letting out heavy sighs and the frown upon her face wont go away. 


hmm...right..good news... my period came! Though the cramp hurts so friggin bad but yay. I was even starting to think that I could be pregnant LOL! What? I missed 3 consecutive months last year and I was really paranoid. I tried all ways to hasten the process..I drank cold water, ate ice cream, slept early, took pills but it didn't work. (yes, I know you have to be fked to get pregnant but hey its possible okay -.- a virgin was impregnated cause she swam in a pool in Egypt which people claim to be magical, lol.) Btw, what do you people think about women who have pms? Personally I think that's just an excuse to be bitchy..I've had my periods and I dont go around throwing tantrums...(unlike my boss, shes like throwing the files and papers everywhere, slamming the door, phone, or whatever's slammable.) Well, maybe its just me, I have friends who're like that..hahah. 


Ah, its 9:11pm now. lol. Gonna turn in for the night soon, have got work tomorrow..

Would you mind if I looked at you?

Hey guys I'm so sorry I didn't post the ice cream picture as I promised...I was really tired. And I am still very tired.


Sometimes, I wonder if I've made all the right choices. 
Because all these while, it was only you who was trying that hard for us to happen. 
I'm not sure if its regret that I'm feeling now because there's no bringing back the past any more but I'm thankful that I'm still part of your life, no matter how insignificant it is. 


I remembered how we first 'met'..It was through the msn conversation where you asked,