Karma maybe?

Yesterday while driving home from work, a thought came. I think i am not a nice person. Probably some of you may feel so too. Maybe thats why we stopped talking to each other or our friendship have fallen out. I suddenly felt the pain that you must have felt. Suddenly all the thought of you being crazy just faded away.

I looked through emails from the last 6 years. Some i must admit that i havent read. The pain in those emails. And in some i really felt how happy you were. I felt it and i Am really really sorry. Sometimes i wonder if things didnt change how would it be like today?

For the first time in years....

Propertilizing

So i had a really REAL dream last night. I mean real as in it felt real but it was just a dream. You just suddenly appeared next to me on my bed and ask me weird things. And i asked you where you came from and why so sudden afterall we havent talk for almost more than a year now. Then you said you were planning on propertilizing your business. i was like what is propertilizing and asking you how to spell it.. I woke up after and realised it was a dream but i actually went to google it and sadly there is no such word.

Anyways i dont know what the dream meant but you have been appearing alot lately.. Oh wells, i believe you are happier now :)

Read through my old emails and this came up on 18/8/2011

https://youtu.be/zaGDcnafWCg

You were my La-la land

watched la-la land today and really loved the last bit. If only life could show play the what if's.

What if i never chose to walk away?

Tear drops...

Turn these tear drops to joy.

I knew it was coming. I had this funny feeling. Knowing it now for real, i wont lie.
Its sour, i feel soft and helpless. The heart is heavy but i will let go.

Because i made my choice and i wont be selfish.

Tomorrow i will be better:)