2012.07.25

Time waits for no man.
Without knowing, its been a hundred days.
(And in a couple of days, it’ll be a year since I lost a friend.)

Does it feel this way, the passing of time ?
Was it only a hundred days ago when I last saw him in the hospital, hooked to countless IVs and machines, living marginally by the grace of advanced medical technology ?

I still remember how it felt like, the days after his passing. How time seemed to come to a standstill in our home, where he lay. Beyond our walls, life proceeded as normal; the rise and fall of tides, the push and pull of people as they hurried along.

Where I stood, nothing mattered to me; just the importance of living in the present, at that standstill moment, grasping at the final strands of time we had left together.
Physically, he was there. Spiritually, I’d like to believe so. 

It felt so surreal after, where I was forced into the present, back into reality, away from the little bubble we created. All of a sudden, I was forced to adapt and fit myself back into the world that abandoned me as I mourned. 

The calendar tells me its been a hundred days; sure doesn’t feel like it though.

Malaysia

I am safely in Malaysia !

First week is crazy !

Lectures in the morning, with orientation activities at night. So fun, but exhausting !

My group is fun though, thank goodness !

For dry icebreakers, we had an eating competition among other things. And of all things, i got a burger with wasabi and lots of other rubbish, directly after a burger with sambal. Terrible !

Wet icebreakers was worse. it was in the carpark, and we had to crawl army style at one of the stations, where i got all those oil stains on my shirt, splash around in so much water, flour, juice and everything else imaginable.

We had mamak after that though, which is probably the malaysian version of supper. Went back after that and proceeded to hand wash my orientation shirt, since we needed it the next day !

Day 2 was the indoor treasure hunt which was fun !

we were good at hiding our flag, and they had to find all ways and means to force us to get it out just so that they could steal it. i think we ended up finishing first though, YAY !

mamak again after that !

Day 3 had no orientation activities, so we spent the entire day at J's place preparing for Dresscode, which each group had to put up a skit.

Day 4, which was Dresscode day, was hectic. Lectures in the morning all the way till 3 i think, which i conveniently slept through. I mean, sleeping at 2am and waking up at 7am for the past 4 days is enough to kill !

Our skit for Dresscode was so last min, but I though it went quite well. Had to dance to Lady Gaga's Bad Romance on stage, but oh well no one can see me clearly ! :D

Sounds like the end of orientation since its already friday ? NO WAY !

there was outdoor treasure hunt this morning (sat), though i skipped that and ended up handwashing all my clothes (except my jeans). Met OG for lunch at Midvalley though, and heard the morning's activities were really dirty ! they had to do lots of weird stuff, and one of them was to smear pancake batter, egg and flour onto their own heads. CRAZYYY.

And tomorrow, there's track trip coming up where we will be going around KL. Probably not gonna skip, I feel bad for skipping the treasure hunt but the sore throat is terrible ! I lost my voice for a while, hahaha.

There's so much ahead, i wonder when i can go home !