I can't find a wall to pin this to,
They're all coming down since I found you,
I just want to be where you are tonight,
I run in the dark looking for some light,
How will we know if we just don't try,
We won't ever know.
Let me light up the sky,
Light it up for you,
about me
SHAZIELAH RAHIM
I live, breathe, and I..
love. Yeah, that's what it is :)
Friday, July 04, 2008
I moved. If you're nice, I just might let you know (:
Friday, June 27, 2008
I don't even want to try to understand you because it's pointless. You always think that it's your way or no way. What is it that you have against me, really? Do you have any idea how much I've hurt over what you said the past few days? I cannot believe you even said such a thing. I know we're all supposed to be understanding because you're currently on this phase, but tell me, how understanding can we be? You decide to be all random and turn the tables on us, getting all angry over the silliest things. And we're all supposed to take it in. Very fair, isn't it.
I bet you don't realise that I don't seem to ever want to look you in the eyes lately.
UGH. I really don't need this during MYEs.
Tomorrow, my sister turns 3! I hope and pray she has a happy birthday or else, it's really pointless putting up this front.
Thursday, June 26, 2008
I'm fighting a battle I'm already losing. So so torn apart.
I'm such a wuss.
Friday, June 20, 2008
My energy is drained. Studying has been more productive but not as much as I wanted it to be. Oh well, you know what, I'm really screwing Midyears. And I know I'm going to cry when I get back my results and you can call me a wuss or whatever, but it doesn't matter. Cos I want to believe that bad results will scare me into the reality that without decent Alevel results, I'm not going to get anywhere in life. It feels like Midyears in JC1. I'm sensing the Us. Oh god damnit.
Not in the mood for anything.
Sometimes, the simplest of decisions can be very annoying. Anyway, happy early birthday Haziq! Because I know I'm going to stop myself from using the computer tomorrow onwards. As much as I'm screwing it up, I got to do it with at least a bit of effort right?
Monday, June 16, 2008
I'm off to Nty Shah's for a week to regain my lack of self discipline which I have lost along the way. Wish me luck! And I hope I don't screw up MYEs as much as I think I would!
Friday, June 13, 2008
And this week, the count is three. The number of days which I didn't do any productive studying at all that is. So many plans this week, so suffocating. It's like social plans are increasing and study plans are decreasing. My god, and I have 10days to MYEs? I'm so fucking dead.
PICNIC WITH THE GIRLS!
On Monday, had a picnic with the girls at Botanic Gardens! All of us were assigned to bring different food stuffs. And btw, just to point it out again, snacks are not finger food NANA! *glares at her* Haha! The four of us had fun staring at cute eurasian boys, little boys I swear, and just talking. About how we've changed(not very much, we agreed) and how people just change. Nice day girls :) Despite getting scared when we were walking in almost total darkness at Botanic Gardens haha!
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After that, rushed to Tampines to meet up with Mal, Ziq, Hafiz, Sary and the boyfriend to do some last minute shopping for Mok's birthday gift, which turned out pretty! I still remember Mal being such an ass to me at Haziq's place the next morning about how my art sucks. Tsk! Talk so much, at last I was still the one who did the glue thingy! Ass. I came to a conclusion the other day, that waiting for guys can be as equivalent as waiting for rain in the desert! Like seriously,haha.
Went over to Mok's void deck after that to surprise him. The look on his face when the lift door opens was priceless. I wish I had it recorded. Glad you had a great birthday Mok! From your place, to Sakura ( thanks for the treat! :D ), to just plain Town-ing! Pretty amazing. Even I felt like it was my birthday haha :)
MOKIE'S BIRTHDAY!
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And yesterday,headed to Sentosa yesterday with the aunties and the cousins. Two words - just lovely! Haven't spend quality time with them in a while. So, it was awesome!
So yeap, the count is 3. And if that's not bad enough, I'm insomiac, sleeping at 4plus everyday, and I get my butt out of the bed at 1plus2 everyday. I AM SO SCREWED FOR MYEs.
Burn, or not to burn ? :S That's the crucial question!
Saturday, June 07, 2008
I was just netsurfing when I realised it was already 11.59 and I quickly typed http://www.blogger.com/ and closed everything else so that I'm able to wish you a happy 9th month on my trusted blog right on time!
So hello you, happy 9th :)
Help, there's this boy who kinda has my heart.
And you know what, he can have it (:
Friday, June 06, 2008
The bbq at Mudd's condo was fun! :) Although many couldn't turn up, I still had a blast. A mini gathering it was but lots of catch up made up for the absence of the rest like Ruhui, Dorea, etc. Razif and I laughed so hard at how many people we could actually remember from class. " (insert name)? Shaz, WHO'S THAT! " HAHAHAHA. Oh god, we are such horrible classmates. Talking about the past, the present = aah all good. I was just sore that I didn't get to swim. One, cos I didn't bring extra clothes and two, for girly reasons haha. But not like anyone swimmed anyway! Heh, but not the point. It was a nice evening, to say the least. Loved it <3
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the girlies that turned up! a measly five, haha!
confucious says "ANTHONY IS DAMNNNN IRRITATING!"
they were trying to throw suay into the pool! EVIL.
my two boyfriends. HAH i lied. (altho i think mudd looks super adorable!)
about half of 4c'06 :)
It was a fine night,and Miswan happened to send some photos back in secondary school when he brought his camera every freaking day. I LOVE THESE PICTURES.
I came to realise that, eh my hair quite nice ah? :D
Okay gotta bounce and meet mr irritating who takes forever to get ready for study/lepak or whatever. XOXO;
Thursday, June 05, 2008
Suddenly, I want to be back in Lit class with Ms Puja back in secondary school and listen to her talk about how we're always rushing for time when we should just sit back and enjoy as each moment passes by.
Time seems to accelerate and it never stops for breaks. I'm scared.
Of what is to come, of what is to overcome and everything else.
Are you?
Monday, June 02, 2008
Addicted,very addicted to this song.
all of a sudden my vision became so clear everything i needed was right here before me so pressed to let you know how you make me feel never had a feeling that's so real control me
