..::GENERATION KILL::..

training hard for my competition this sunday. A big competition to me. Trying not to let anything affect me physically and mentally... But of course, shit happens. But trying my best to gain control in all that I do. I want to win this tournament. It means a lot to me. First tournament being in a first "elite-team". THis is it. I want my sponsorship.

Going to war...

*i really wish eu would come watch me play...

This time I finally see. The reason why, I cant do this alone. It took some time and concentration. Its eu. All I need. To believe it. This I know. I need to build my faith sometimes. Im up, theres no more time. Ive tried not to let anyone in until now. Still. And Ive been feeling like Im on some sort of merry-go-round... It took time for me to figure it out. Eu make me feel like a complete work of art. When Im just falling apart. Misunderstandings are an easy way out. And Ive been feeling all this pressure just to figure it out. And when everything aound me feels so broken and jaded...

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and Im caught in a bad weather...

Tonights complete and everyones asleep. I wanna say these words to eu...

Ill be eur hands. So just take me as I am. I just wanna be wih eu... And its only eu.

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I dunnoe how eu do what eu do. Im just so in love with eu. I wanna spend the rest of my life. With eu by my side... .

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The starts lean down to kiss eu.

And I lie awake and miss eu.

Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere.

Cause Ill dose off safe and soundly

But Ill miss eur arms around me.

Id send a postcard to eu, dear.

Cause I wish eu were here...

Ill watch the night turn light-blue

But its not the same without eu.

The silence isn't so sad

Till I look at my hands and feel sad

Cause the spaces between my fingers,

Are right where eurs fits perfectly.

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I havent slept in 2 days

One more...

So, have been really busy for the past few days. My whole weekend was spent helping my cousin out for his Big Day. =D His wedding. For the very first time, i could really see how happy he was. He chose me to be his best man for his wedding. So yeah. I did it. Became his photographer too. Well, not a professional one but yeah. Somewhere close i guess. =D

Waiting for my big day... =)

SO damn colddd!!!

My 3 lovely nieces... =D

So pretty!!!

Poly...

Ill grant eur every wish... And all I want is eu...

CLASS STARTS @ 8 TMR!!! X"(

Sorry this came in late. Haha. But it doesnt matter. Cause wooh! Its been 14 lovely months and a day now byy! Haha. I love eu so much byy! I swear I really do. Well, school has started and yeah. But eu know we'll still be seeing each other alright. Ill try my best to be there for eu. =) I love eu byy. Well, its been up and down and up and down but really, honestly, my love for eu just keeps growing and never stops. I love eu byy... Forever & Always... Wheres my thirty cents? XDHAHAKIDDINGGG!!!

So, will just be school, sayang and paintball for me now. Haha. And I made it a point to give my parents a text every morning saying I Love You Mum and I Love You Dad, cause I really do! Theyve been there for me and have gave me all this and without them, Im nothing. Well, literally. Haha! Okiedokies! Tata~

I LOVE EU NYIMAS SAYANG...