"A place where I feel safe"

In the rain, in the dark we'll lay
In your arms, in your arms I'll stay....

Kept listening to this song! Even right now, one of those nights I can't sleep at some weird timing of 0332.

It's not like I am sad or what. It's just images of you, me, of us. Keeps replaying in my head.

I didn't tell you, but I really like it when you hug me and I smell Burberry on you and this smell has become a familiarity that it automatically makes me smile when it's there..

In your arms, in your arms I'll stay.

Everytime, all the time. I feel like I can just be in your arms all the time, it feels so warm.

If I could take a picture of love, it's be your cheeky smiling face. Haha.

I was a little sad to hear that there was uncertainty in you on that night when it all started. Everything had been wobbly, hadn't it? I'm sorry I didn't give you enough assurance, but I'm glad we are both gonna try our best to stay close together till we're wobbly weak and tackily toothless. I wish and wish and wish... (:

I dont know why I'm blogging now. I should be sleeping. Of late, days have been so beautifully busy, I go to bed each night with a smile on my face (:

It must be you.

Anyway, I went to this event at hong lim park for some pinkdot2012. It was an event to celebrate the bravery to love, even if it's a love that unique, or extraordinary. But the concept of daring to love is inspiring (; I make cotton candy there. It was fun. I was slow, but I hope I'll become better! And I met this girl, she's really good at it! She's like a pro! I wish I can do it like her someday! (:


Omg I'm really tired. I hope you're sleeping tight right now, with all thoughts happy and all dreams sweet.

Love ya Keith. Bleah.

Dear blog, recently I'm happy every single day! Even on days when I'm sad, sick or when I'm upset with something, the day will still end with me wearing a huge smile on my face :)

Have nothing sad to blog about I guess, the happiness far outweighs the whatever mixed melodrama I have in me!

Keith eggplant must be sleeping now that lazy silly boy. He's waking up to watch soccer later and I'm gonna wake him up although I doubt I'll watch because I really really don't think it's interesting, unless I'm seated beside Keith and eating chips pretending to watch, otherwise, nada I'll pass.

Heehee.

Recently love has made me stronger I feel. I feel like I can become anything, do anything, feel anything. Be anything, be myself, and be appreciated for who I am!

:>

Goodnight world. I hope everyone is safe and sound and happy in the cosy confines of home and loved ones :)

"I'll carry you home, tonight"

Dear blog, its ridiculous. Yesterday was the second time I got drunk so badly. I could feel myself staggering home. And I puked like mad.

I can't really remember the details of everything, all I know was, the whole night I was drunk, my mind's only on one person, and how much I wished he was right beside me then.

I know why I was drunk. I think its because I'm too happy. Of late, these recent days have been so full of happiness and bliss I have never felt this happy and this in love with anyone. The happiness I have felt within these few months, can never be exchanged with anything in the world.


He's not the kind who'll buy me expensive gifts, that don't matter at all.

He's the kind who, when I'm sick, will accidentally draw a get well soon card with my favourite eeyore, and will accidentally take bus 22 down to my house to visit me.

The kind who will remember my contact lens solution is all used up and buy it for me.

The kind who will buy carrot juice for me and make me drink it because it's good for me.

The kind who'll stand up for me when the clique of friends bully me.

The kind who'll let me eat all the marshmallows in the world just because I love them.

The kind who suddenly looks at me, stares, and says " you're so pretty right now "

The kind who is afraid of being poked, but still allow me to poke him when I'm unhappy.

The kind who is so so goddamn gigantic-ally tall but doesn't care a shit about my short stature.

My mind is so full of you, the list will never end.

The kind who will still hold my hand even when I purposely try to pull away from him during fake anger.

The kind who'll take my hands and not go shopping, but bring me around places I've never been to.

The kind who will watch the sun with me and make the sun pales in comparison when I'm with him.

The kind who knows I am so bad with lines and can't draw straight lines related pictures but still teaches me to do them anyway.

The kind who will speak Chinese with me just because it's speak chinese day although this policy is dying soon.

The kind who lets me sleep the whole duration of the bus ride and hold both my hands to keep me warm


The kind, just the kind of person Keith is. The one and only Keith in the world.


And I love you more than anything else, anyone else, in this big big world.

Labels: You and your beautiful soul

Today made me realize everything I've always known just never acknowledge.

My inadequacy.

Yes, it's bitterly harsh but I see it today. It made me inhaled a really deep breath, but I didn't sigh. It's like this huge cloud that someone pushed down my throat and it stayed them, suffocated me, and I couldn't speak. No words could be used to describe te feelings I had then.

I knew the only thing on my mind.
It was the urge to give up on myself.






I wanted to say, wanted to say that I am so not enough. I wanted to be like them, the kind who'd I don't know. Just that kind.

I got on the empty bus and I didn't feel like sleeping, I didn't want to sleep. I was afraid of what I might think of if I sleep. So I'm blogging right now, in the bus. I hope I'll be alright soon.


No matter what, I hope I don't give up on myself

Is it weird? Troubled troubled troubled.
I feel like some inferior good, maybe that's why I can understand the surprised looks, the shocked faces. I hope I dont think so much. I hope it'll still be the same I hope you'll be you and I'll be me and we'll love each other just the same.

Warm weather. Makes me think makes me annoyed makes me mad makes me a tad grumpy and a little tired.

I should stop thinking. Stop Eileen stop!

Today I was on bus 22, I was thinking so hard so much thoughts I didn't even realize, that the bus driver drove the wrong route.

Haha.

Hey blog.
No, I'm not here to complain how bad my life is right now, haha. That's probably gonna be the last thing on my mind right now :>

Life has been alright of late, maybe a tad better than alright, hehe.

Just that I'm currently unemployed, and I really dislike the feeling of having nothing to do and no income :/ it feels like I'm spending and spending and nothings coming in :/

I need to work. I need a job. But I think I'm rather picky this time round, I don't seem to want to work at all, and that's not right, I mean, it's not like I don't wanna work it's more like I have no idea what I wanna work for.

I've made up my mind about my course too. Im gonna go drop my tcm degree and then finish up on my biomedical sciences, after which I guess I'm gonna go nie!

Yes, I think I wanna be a teacher.
It kinda seems like a part of my knew that it's gonna be what I will be all along it's just the whole denying it that makes it difficult :/


Of late, I'm happy everyday. Simple words, simple smiles and simple actions make me smile.

I think it's all because of you.

:>

Anyway, I am a volunteer at sgcares! I went for the first volunteer activity at geylang for some food packing, and it feels really really nice :) I love it. I think we'll go back there and volunteer again!

Life has been, fulfilling, simple and happy.

Q('__'Q)
<3