Hey blog, it's been quite some time already, sorry man haven't found the time to blog due to these exams coming one after another.

Hey blog, lemme ask you something. Which is better, to live for yourself, or to live for others?


Anyway, I'll take my time to ponder about stuffs like that. Quite some stuffs happened recently that taught me that there are some things that I have to do on my own, and that I'm not gonna keep depending on others, as in, I'm gonna try and tell myself that yes, most of the times I'm not that adequate enough, but whatever the case, I'm gonna put in all I have so that when I've reached the end, I can safely hold up whatever I've achieved and say, I did it on my own.


I don't really wanna ask help from people, especially when it ends up ugly. You know? And yes this incident had made me stronger I guess, I can do stuffs on my own, I realize. And I also feel the presence of many other people who care about me a real deal. Man I don't wanna end up disappointing these people by presenting myself as someone weak and as someone who's incapable of depending on her own forte to bring out the best in her.

Haha I am doing it again, blabbering. Haha innate ability man.

Anyhow, I'm going for grave sweeping this coming good Friday. It's gonna be good, I've always like it, the peace ad the bonding with my family!

And to see those who had left, but going to remind them that they haven't been forgotten. To see those I've missed so dearly, all these I'm sure, I'll be able to do on that day :)


My heart has been taking a toll on me of late. Sometimes I suspect the feelings I'm having, I'm not too sure of what they are, but I hope whatever they are, that they'll go away soon. Because its not gonna be possible. And I'm so afraid of changing whatever I'm having right now.

Hmmm, don't really wanna study. Shall start next week I guess :/ hope I don't get too lazy wozzy jelly TEEHEE

By the way, internship ended yesterday! It ended with a DON!

Ciao for now, will update soon. In the meantime, behave!

Labels: There will be that day.

And you feel like you just can't help it anymore. Sometimes I feel like I shouldn't do the things that I have done, like I'm regretting something, but I can't seem to take it all in. I wonder how I should put this across. Sometimes, I just hate it.

Hate it that I always have to give my best for everything just to get something and some people just don't have to try so hard at all.

I know I know, life is unfair.
Yet you just can't help it sometimes, isn't it? :( I know.

Gosh I don't wanna get myself too upset. I still have to try hard to pass this fucking Chinese module.

Damn. Ciao.

I wish I could just stop doing whatever I'm doing and stop criticizing myself for wasting time whenever I'm doing something I like instead of studying.



Fuck it. Fuck all this shit just fuck them all to hell.

Moody angry upset and just

Suddenly it's all gone again. Why does it always happen like that, I really don't know. Sometimes I feel like I haven't try hard enough. Maybe I really can't open up anymore.

They say people who are unable to love are probably those who got hurt too much that they never wanna fall again.

I really don't want to feel what I've felt way then. Happy times of the past are nightmares of the present....


Sorry.