I just wanna say, thank you to all those who have been there for me in my life. I am truly grateful to have met the nice ones, the mean ones. Well, to cut everything short, life truly has been a whole load of trubble and pudding puddle but it has all been worth it afterall.


THANKYOUVERYMUCH
ARIGATOU
KAMSAHAMNIDA

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Happy also one day, sad also one day. Why not be happy?

Hey. I just wanna say, nothing can ever be all good, or all bad. Sometimes there are more good than bad, and sometimes there are more bad than good. It's all about embracing both sides of it. There's gonna be the bitter, and the sweet. Accept the sugar, but don't forget the tongue stinging bitterness.

I'm gonna work hard at doing it.
GAMBATEH

Hello! Good morning! ( or rather, afternoon )
It was a huge mistake to go running yesterday. I woke up this afternoon with this immobilization caused by a series of muscle riots every single time i try to move my limbs. And serve me right for trying to do sit ups yesterday, now my tummy is all cranky and i lie on my bed, feeling that today's gonna be another stay home day.

I FEEL LIKE A BRINJAL.

Other than that, im feeling peaceful today. This zen feeeling!

I guess it is nice to stay at home sometimes, especially when you're rather broke and your body aches all over. But i have some food cravings though ): i feel like eating this and that and this and that, but i'm so fat now i can barely see my feet!

Which brings me back to the start, i have to go running again!

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I love one piece.

I used to hate it. But it really is impossible to hate it now. I used to think the graphics are really ugly, and pirates ain't really my thing. But watching it made me learn many things. I learnt of determination, learnt of the triviality of money, learnt the importance of friends, nakama.

Loneliness is indeed a truly scary thing. I just watched the arc on Brook's story, and it was really touching. It stirs up this miniature hurricane in my heart, and i feel like bursting into tears.

The scariest thing about dying is not about ending a life. It is about leaving behind those that helped to chase away your loneliness when you're alone. I am thankful for those who are always with me, rain or shine. I cant say i am not grateful to fair-weathered friends, for their random, occasional appearance can sometimes dispel a little of the 'solo magic'

On a lighter note,

i went running with peiyan today. Okay, honestly, peiyan ran, i ran a little, and then i began to start rolling like this giant meatball, what with my face sweltering red and the beads of sweat residing on my entire ball of a body that i literally looked like one, minus the tomato basil sauce.

:/

I'm gonna try to run a little harder.
I NEED MOTIVATION RAWRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

Later!

P.S. It was a warm fuzzy feeling, just one word from you.

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Hello there, residents of the net. You guys probably dont follow blogs anymore. since twitter, tumblr, facebook are the in thing. Which is a good thing actually. Lesser people to know what i feel. And people around me probably won't even know that i've decided to blog again.

I'm in university now. year 1 just finished, and i cant say my grades are bad. I think im doing fair enough, although, as compared to my classmates, i am obviously no better than the bud of a potato. WHAT WAS THAT?! A BUD OF A POTATO ?! OMG my command of the english language has deteriorated ever since i enter university, with me taking up chinese medicine - i know many will think me silly for taking something which i have no strength in. I know right. Chinese sucks shit. I still loathe it. Though i think it really was my own mistake.

When i first applied for it, i didnt really know it's gonna be taught in chinese, i thought the chinese part will come in only in the last two years when im in beijing. Guess i was as wrong as pink stripes on a donkey. Chinese started in sem 2 and i think i can die. Like die with a bowlful of chinese characters stuffed right into me i practically explode with chinese-ity. Sucks right? I did think of changing, but if you've been following my blog since a long time ago, then you'll know that i am someone, with no ambitions. It really is sad, i wish i have something i can work hard for, and feel happy for when i've accomplished my ambition. I dont know how it feels, to have an ambition. I have always given it serious thought, in fact, too serious that i get mad thinking about it.

I really dont know what i want.

I guess im the sort that lives day to day. I cant see too far ahead, i wonder why i cant. And thats why i took up the chinese medicine thing and continue with it. With little courage. I wish i can be like the others, the normal girls who dont have to worry about their hair being too curly for their own good, the kind who knows how to put on make up and who dont go rubbing their eyes forgetting that they've put on make up, and the kind who knows what they are doing. although some may have bimbotic aims, but im still fazed at how i cant manage to squeeze out a single ambition in me. Loser-ish much.

Im hitting the big two this year. I dont feel great. I dont even feel my life passing by that fast. I can still remember my first day in secondary school, my first day in jc, my working days, and all of these seem to happen yesterday. Now i know why they use an eye blink's moment to describe the velocity of time passage.

Sighs, eileen. You have already gone through probably a fifth of your life. Dont you think it is time to stop being so clueless, and instead be plunged forward with a sense of direction?

I miss grandma. oops, where did that random thought slipped out from? I do. I wish she didnt pass away, and that she'll see me in university now. I would have no qualms about spending my holidays with her. I abstain from a certain candy, because im afraid that it will trigger upsetting memories. It's not like those memories are bad. They are so good, so full of sweetness and love and wrinkly smiling faces, aromatic tea and milo, and toothless grins.. i just....

I miss her so much.

Sometimes, i feel so alone travelling down memory lane. i dislike it when i get so absorbed and knee-length deep in thoughts that i get so melancholic and all, it sucks.

I'm a grown up already. I should quit behaving like a kid. afterall, it is not everyday that the sun triumphs the clouds. What is supposed to be night, will be night, and nothing can change that. there are some things that can be changed with sheer willpower and hard work, but there are some things that cant, no matter how determined you are. Hard work and willpower have to know their limits too.

I'm tired, i'll blog again, in the meantime, hello my dear blog!

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