EILEEN LOO YI ZHEN;
Sunday, September 27, 2009
6:58 AM
try to remember, not miss.
try to remember, not miss.
the truth is, it was such a painful feeling, and it still is. i can never forget the day when popo died. it was the first time i've seen someone dying right in front of my eyes, someone so dear. i didnt want her to die. she didnt want to die. and i cried so hard. thinking back on it at times, i still cry. i cry myself to sleep, cry on the way home from school, sometimes just sitting down in the canteen, classrooms, tears will well up. then i tell myself, i never want anyone to go through the same thing i had been through. i never want anyone else to feel this pain so hurtful it kills your purposes in life.
but i am so naive. today, when i heard a close friend telling me that her grandmother had departed this world, tears started rolling down my face immediately, but i cant show it, because it doesnt help if i cry when i am supposed to console her. yet i cannot forget the pain, and after she hung up, i started wailing my heart out. grandpa was so shocked, he came over and held me in his arms. i am so sorry. i heard her cry, and told her to cry, it is best to let it out. it breaks me heart to hear her cry, and i want to dash right beside her to lend her my shoulder.
i'll always be there for you. stay strong.
Thank you to you, who just let me cry. thank you.
but i am so naive. today, when i heard a close friend telling me that her grandmother had departed this world, tears started rolling down my face immediately, but i cant show it, because it doesnt help if i cry when i am supposed to console her. yet i cannot forget the pain, and after she hung up, i started wailing my heart out. grandpa was so shocked, he came over and held me in his arms. i am so sorry. i heard her cry, and told her to cry, it is best to let it out. it breaks me heart to hear her cry, and i want to dash right beside her to lend her my shoulder.
i'll always be there for you. stay strong.
Thank you to you, who just let me cry. thank you.
Labels: please dont take away any more lives.
Saturday, September 26, 2009
9:08 AM
summers have come and gone.
summers have come and gone.
i decided that even if i was told that i've done badly for biology, it doesnt mean i should stop trying hard for paper 1. I'm so disappointed in myself, for telling myself that i am giving up on biology. i will just, try my best yeah.
On another note. i just wanna say, sometimes, i'm glad im not perfect or immaculate. Because i'm not perfect, i do feel envy, i do feel the inferiority. And because of these feelings, i push myself to my maximum limits at times. I wanna thank those, who've snubbed me and insulted me, those who've shown me how perfect they are, and those who've made me realise my many many flaws. Because of you people, i think i'm slowly paving my way towards self improvement, thats what i believe then.
I'll continue to jiayou yeah.
It's weird, but thats just me. And i just like guys who don't bother about how old or ugly or childish their pencil cases look. Guys who rather listen than talk. Guys who are caring and helpful.
Maybe such a guy exist, in my heart, he does. But in reality, he does. And then he may not, right?
(:
Oyasumi.
I'm going to the library tomorrow then.
Some library i guess, where my legs take me.
On another note. i just wanna say, sometimes, i'm glad im not perfect or immaculate. Because i'm not perfect, i do feel envy, i do feel the inferiority. And because of these feelings, i push myself to my maximum limits at times. I wanna thank those, who've snubbed me and insulted me, those who've shown me how perfect they are, and those who've made me realise my many many flaws. Because of you people, i think i'm slowly paving my way towards self improvement, thats what i believe then.
I'll continue to jiayou yeah.
It's weird, but thats just me. And i just like guys who don't bother about how old or ugly or childish their pencil cases look. Guys who rather listen than talk. Guys who are caring and helpful.
Maybe such a guy exist, in my heart, he does. But in reality, he does. And then he may not, right?
(:
Oyasumi.
I'm going to the library tomorrow then.
Some library i guess, where my legs take me.
Labels: the only rain cloud in the sky is showering on me.
Friday, September 25, 2009
6:49 AM
in the sea there is a fish, a fish that has a secret wish
in the sea there is a fish, a fish that has a secret wish
hmm the feeling is downright hurting, to hear your teacher hinting to you that you just did terribly on a subject that you love most.
sigh why must it be biology.
i'll be back later maybe.
Song currently playing on repeat: The rose.
I always put songs on repeat when i feel down.
let it be. let me cry.
sigh why must it be biology.
i'll be back later maybe.
Song currently playing on repeat: The rose.
I always put songs on repeat when i feel down.
let it be. let me cry.
Labels: far from me., the moon is hanging away
2:54 AM
i wont forget where i came from
i wont forget where i came from
****
Uhmmm drew that using paint.
Anyway, dont fret, nor worry,because when it seems that all doors are close, walls will break, and light will shine again. Just hold on to your faith, and beliefs, and yeah, you'll pull through.
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Sometimes trifles light as feathers
weigh heavy upon the heart that fails to live
because all we see are rainy weathers
that had no orange suns to give.
the eiffel tower cries in pain
the apples fall from trees
ice cream melts with such disdain
the dinos no longer free
but not all is lost in this time and space
think of the stars that won't collide
curl up with a smile in your special place
and twinkling above, the stars so bright.
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penned by myself, dont know, just a sudden epiphany to write a poem regarding things that're on my mind.
yeah not too good, i know i know.
someday i'll do better uh. i'm off to slack and then rest.
still not feeling very good.
Labels: the golden brown leaves of an autumn
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
9:53 PM
stop crying your heart out
stop crying your heart out
Ummm, some stuffs to post. i've got some really long stuffs to write, but im kinda tired now. so maybe later. gotta rest, cuz my throat is rousing my fever again.
And i really love to see the happy faces of people who mean loads to me (:
This is my all time, happiness photo. whenever i am sad, i'll look at this, and it's like so damn funny it makes me laugh (: I think you're chewing gum right? And you really look like lil red riding hood's imposter grandmother!
This is another funny shot. Seriously, this is a lethal combination for smiling till your sides hurt.
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ON another note, got some pictures from hui ting which are like seriously way too long overdue.
But i'll post them here, cuz i'll delete them from my desktop to save space. There're alot more, but blogger is so slow recently, its really irking.
Wei ling'ss house right. a lil unglam. but nevermind.
And i really love to see the happy faces of people who mean loads to me (:
This is my all time, happiness photo. whenever i am sad, i'll look at this, and it's like so damn funny it makes me laugh (: I think you're chewing gum right? And you really look like lil red riding hood's imposter grandmother!
This is another funny shot. Seriously, this is a lethal combination for smiling till your sides hurt.
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ON another note, got some pictures from hui ting which are like seriously way too long overdue.
But i'll post them here, cuz i'll delete them from my desktop to save space. There're alot more, but blogger is so slow recently, its really irking.
Wei ling'ss house right. a lil unglam. but nevermind.
Haha this is the peace thing.
yup peace girls.
Chem paper was horrendous, i cant believe i sat through 1.5 hours, with 6 lozenges, and a head made of tofu. seriously, i gotta stop being too hard on myself.
Let . It . Be.
3:47 AM
when life hands you lemons, squeeze a smile.
when life hands you lemons, squeeze a smile.
decided to blog again, and i felt so so very touched by the people who wish me a speedy recovery. Thanks to Luzhi, Kristabel, yihao, jingchun, keith, jodi, youyu, haniffa, huiting, rasina, visha, sherlyn ,leechia, mr chee, mr chua, mingjie, edmund and tianseng.
Realised that this is a checkpoint in my life that makes me filter out people who are really worth keeping next to me. Thank you, because of all the care, i managed to find some strength to push myself further and further.
And i ate my breakfast, lunch, and dinner today.
And i know what you guys will say, " hope you'll eat like this everyday.."
and i promise i will. (:
Jiayou you all!
Realised that this is a checkpoint in my life that makes me filter out people who are really worth keeping next to me. Thank you, because of all the care, i managed to find some strength to push myself further and further.
And i ate my breakfast, lunch, and dinner today.
And i know what you guys will say, " hope you'll eat like this everyday.."
and i promise i will. (:
Jiayou you all!
Labels: a happier note (:
Monday, September 21, 2009
7:37 PM
the dawn will break.
the dawn will break.
I dont know how to start. I guess, all i can start off with, is by saying, i didnt take my math paper 2 today. I feel the dejection, i feel the sadness, and on top of it all, i feel the disappointment. I disappoint Mr Chee again. Again. Again. and again. I studied so hard for it, and i didnt get to take it. I am running a fever, 38.6 degrees celcius, my nose wont stop dripping mucus, and my throat is just getting from bad to worse. i'm waiting to go to the doctor as i type this, and thinking, how yihao and the rest will have handed up their papers right now. it just makes me sad.
mom told me not to think about it, but thinking about it, this is the first time i failed to take a major exam, despite the time i spent mugging for it.
Yihao asked me, " what are you trying to prove?" as he held an umbrella for me in the rain yesterday. I didnt even realise that i had an umbrella above my head, i was so close to tears. And he was standing right outside the cap of the umbrella, it made me feel even worse. Thank you, i really cant find any words to speak of my gratitude. I dont know what i am trying to prove, i really dont know.
When they're gone, then the real sadness sets in. They went off for dinner, and i sat alone at the bus stop. The surroundings, it was so quiet, i sat there and started sobbing. I felt terrible physically, mentally, and emotionally. I didnt realise that the bus had stopped at the bus stop, and i apologised to the bus driver, who gave me such a kind smile, i felt like i dont deserve that smile. Everything felt like it was crumbling, it was a terrible day of my life.
The rain is pouring outside now, i wanna run out and run in the rain, but there's chemistry paper tomorrow. and i need to get well.
Here's something a friend told me ;
When you feel neglected, think of a female salmon who lays 3 million eggs, but nobody remembers her on mothers' day.
Goodbye, i hope everything went well for you guys.
Labels: maybe it is a fall from grace.
Saturday, September 19, 2009
9:26 AM
aiyah worn out and tired.
aiyah worn out and tired.
I wanna look right into your eyes, give this smile, and this time, point you this middle finger and say, " FUCK YOU."
~
On a much much heavier note, felt feverish throughout this entire day. it's because of the rain. i tried my best to run, but my bag was so heavy. felt damn tired, so unproductive, kept sleeping.
Just realised how torn apart my life seems to be on the bus ride home today. I dont know what i was doing, i dont know what i want, yet i blindly venture and go into things i find out, i never have interest in. Why am i doing this? i feel so exasperated with myself. i am so afraid of growing up, so afraid of wasting my life away, so afraid of so many uncertainties that i feel like im worrying my life away instead of the opposite.
Songs are irresistibly powerful today, one line speaks a thousand emotions from my heart. i was thinking about my life rather than math today, and i fell asleep. my head feels so heavy really.
i miss the eileen of last time, playing and playing all the time. having fun without a care in the world, changing jobs as and when i like, going out late into nights without worrying about studies. now i feel so chained and so burdened.
im trying to shake this feeling away.
lastly, the fullstop of the day goes to you, for making me feel like im wasting my time and effort on something so insignificant.
FUCK
FUCK
FUCK
FUCK
FUCK
FUCK
FUCK
Labels: no miracles. no hopes. no life.
Friday, September 18, 2009
6:59 AM
Gentlemen.
Gentlemen.
I must blog on the theme of : gentlemen.
Luzhi:
GENTLE GENTLE BOY! seriously, sometimes, if you dont talk to me, i think i'll go mad with all my troubles! thank you!
Keith:
GENTLE GENTLE BOY! you too. i doubt you'll see this, because you dont do blog hopping i guess, but you're really a nice and smart guy, i think the most clean, pure, and hardworking amongst the entire spotters group (: keep it up okay! (:
Jingchun:
GENTLE GENTLE BOY! you too too, always make me laugh and dont forget my earthquake okay? And i think you should have a lil bit more confidence in yourself, you're a nice person, really, and you're damn smart, so please work hard! dont make me worry for you!
Yihao:
GENTLE GENTLE BOY! you too too too. similarly to chun, you are so easy going and carefree, maybe thats a facade, i wont know, but thanks to you, sometimes i stop pushing myself so hard. i think you make me remember to play. thank you! and again, please work hard and dont make worry for you too!
Weijie:
GENTLE GENTLE BOY! you too too too too. you're another edmund to me. really. and i think you are another guy who's really smart, but just doesnt wanna put in efforts! so must jiayou okay. and i found out i got a by2 poster at home. but i tore it accidentally. hahha.
okay done. thanks to these guys who keep me happy when im always sad.
thank you!
yay. a post.
Luzhi:
GENTLE GENTLE BOY! seriously, sometimes, if you dont talk to me, i think i'll go mad with all my troubles! thank you!
Keith:
GENTLE GENTLE BOY! you too. i doubt you'll see this, because you dont do blog hopping i guess, but you're really a nice and smart guy, i think the most clean, pure, and hardworking amongst the entire spotters group (: keep it up okay! (:
Jingchun:
GENTLE GENTLE BOY! you too too, always make me laugh and dont forget my earthquake okay? And i think you should have a lil bit more confidence in yourself, you're a nice person, really, and you're damn smart, so please work hard! dont make me worry for you!
Yihao:
GENTLE GENTLE BOY! you too too too. similarly to chun, you are so easy going and carefree, maybe thats a facade, i wont know, but thanks to you, sometimes i stop pushing myself so hard. i think you make me remember to play. thank you! and again, please work hard and dont make worry for you too!
Weijie:
GENTLE GENTLE BOY! you too too too too. you're another edmund to me. really. and i think you are another guy who's really smart, but just doesnt wanna put in efforts! so must jiayou okay. and i found out i got a by2 poster at home. but i tore it accidentally. hahha.
okay done. thanks to these guys who keep me happy when im always sad.
thank you!
yay. a post.
Labels: to be a better girl.
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
9:51 AM
When the stars explode, and im all alone.
When the stars explode, and im all alone.
THANKS JODI ! KIMCHI KIMCHI TOO (:
Hello there.
Prelims had a very extremely bad start. Before the Math paper, Lc and i met u with Mr Tennis and then he taught us math. We felt really happy to see him too, he's still the same as before, only a little rusty. But the paper was horrible. I couldnt do so many questions and this is the first time i felt so much disappointment for Math. I felt really sad, and then i took a freaking long route home, when i had chem the next day. I remember studying late into the night, with milk and my chem. i really wanted some ice cream though;
Chemistry was fine, yet, been hearing everyone around comment on how easy it is, i didnt exactly feel euphoric that i managed to attempt the questions.
Enough of exams.
Recently, i realised many people who cares about me. i found people who i thought would never bother about me, who i believed will never be close with me. I guess i really gotta start opening my eyes a little, and look around for those people who really include me in their lives. These few weeks have been great, i studied with people i thought i'll never study with, i played around when i shouldnt be, and i enjoyed every little bit of it. I love laughing, talking, and i love watching funny things, i love them all.
I wish the company i have now will never leave. I wish they'll stay with me throughout and when everything's ended, we'll still hag out again.
Cant help but want to mention them again,
Jodi, Yihao, Jingchun, Luzhi, Keith, Weijie, and Hairui too.
And the all time Aga.
Okay, im going off now, seriously, i love it.
Holiday- boys like girls.
Labels: i need someone to carry me home safe and sound
Sunday, September 13, 2009
7:35 AM
A Holiday - Boys like Girls.
A Holiday - Boys like Girls.
"You know I'll run far away
I need to take a holiday
Maybe it's a fall from grace
I gotta find a new place
A holiday
I'll set off on a new chase
I gotta see a new face
I need to take a holiday"
Some stuffs happened. Some words were exchanged. they were rather hurtful but i can take them. Listening to this song,it was on repeat 20 times. sometimes, we say things without thinking. I never really understood what i had lacked until today. i know it now. I find it so extremely difficult to get angry at someone important to me. Even with those words that really stabbed me, i can literally feel the pain. Yet, i didnt say anything, except to just keep apologizing. I am too shallow. too naive. sometimes i dont even know why someone just cant trust another, but sometimes i realised, and i stop probing for more. Yet, it is this simple thing called trust that actually makes me feel that i have never ever been included in your plans at all. I dont know what is happening, all i know is, this feeling really sucks.
And i eat my dinners recently.
Thank you Aga, for studying with me today. You always listen to whatever i have to say.
A holiday.
Im running away.
I need to take a holiday
Maybe it's a fall from grace
I gotta find a new place
A holiday
I'll set off on a new chase
I gotta see a new face
I need to take a holiday"
Some stuffs happened. Some words were exchanged. they were rather hurtful but i can take them. Listening to this song,it was on repeat 20 times. sometimes, we say things without thinking. I never really understood what i had lacked until today. i know it now. I find it so extremely difficult to get angry at someone important to me. Even with those words that really stabbed me, i can literally feel the pain. Yet, i didnt say anything, except to just keep apologizing. I am too shallow. too naive. sometimes i dont even know why someone just cant trust another, but sometimes i realised, and i stop probing for more. Yet, it is this simple thing called trust that actually makes me feel that i have never ever been included in your plans at all. I dont know what is happening, all i know is, this feeling really sucks.
And i eat my dinners recently.
Thank you Aga, for studying with me today. You always listen to whatever i have to say.
A holiday.
Im running away.
Labels: and ... chemical collide -BLG., shut your eyes
Saturday, September 12, 2009
10:03 AM
i wanna run away, but only far enough for you to miss me.
i wanna run away, but only far enough for you to miss me.
Whats this feeling.
It's like i cant seem to do anything without. you.
I MUST JIAYOU. RASINA JIAYOU. EILEEN JIAYOU.
JODI JIAYOU. LUZHI JIAYOU. YIHAO JIAYOU. JINGCHUN JIAYOU. KEITH JIAYOU. WEIJIE JIAYOU. HAIRUI JIAYOU. AND MSTERS JIAYOU.
even though it will never ever be closer than this, still, i love it just this way because i wont have to find out anything more, really.
Spent this week having the greatest fun in my entire j2 life because i was really laughing and laughing without caring. You guys rock.
It's like i cant seem to do anything without. you.
I MUST JIAYOU. RASINA JIAYOU. EILEEN JIAYOU.
JODI JIAYOU. LUZHI JIAYOU. YIHAO JIAYOU. JINGCHUN JIAYOU. KEITH JIAYOU. WEIJIE JIAYOU. HAIRUI JIAYOU. AND MSTERS JIAYOU.
even though it will never ever be closer than this, still, i love it just this way because i wont have to find out anything more, really.
Spent this week having the greatest fun in my entire j2 life because i was really laughing and laughing without caring. You guys rock.
Labels: Close my eyes, its alright.
Thursday, September 10, 2009
3:52 AM
why do the stars glow above
why do the stars glow above
The end of the world- Skeeter Davis.
I heard it on Yihao's blog this morning, and the lyrics kept coming back to me during the day. Now, im listening to it as i type this. Im blogging because i felt so happy today! Today, i ate my meals dutifully, as i promised. i tried my best to eat on time! I felt really happy for the care people have shown to me. As i was having my dinner, i thought of Yihao's smiling face, Keith's smiling face, Jingchun's smiling face, Luzhi's smiling face, jodi's smiling face, and i smiled as i ate, listening to songs, and it was just so happy for me, even though i had dinner alone. You see, some care can touch the heart.
Going back a little, this afternoon, i had a whole maelstrom of emotions which i confided in Rasina, and she, as usual made me laugh and smile again. Seriously, i can never thank her enough. I rather the world end, then not being able to have her as my dearest girlfriend.
Why does the sea rush to shore...
It ended when you said goodbye.
I heard it on Yihao's blog this morning, and the lyrics kept coming back to me during the day. Now, im listening to it as i type this. Im blogging because i felt so happy today! Today, i ate my meals dutifully, as i promised. i tried my best to eat on time! I felt really happy for the care people have shown to me. As i was having my dinner, i thought of Yihao's smiling face, Keith's smiling face, Jingchun's smiling face, Luzhi's smiling face, jodi's smiling face, and i smiled as i ate, listening to songs, and it was just so happy for me, even though i had dinner alone. You see, some care can touch the heart.
Going back a little, this afternoon, i had a whole maelstrom of emotions which i confided in Rasina, and she, as usual made me laugh and smile again. Seriously, i can never thank her enough. I rather the world end, then not being able to have her as my dearest girlfriend.
Why does the sea rush to shore...
It ended when you said goodbye.
Labels: dont they know, its the end of the world
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
8:12 PM
You and i are done pretending.
You and i are done pretending.
Many things happened yesterday.
Happy, enjoyable, disappointing, funny, stupid and sad things.
It's like a mixture. I thank those who care.
I am too tired to blog all about it, but yeah, thanks yihao,
you tried to stick to your promise. thank you.
Happy, enjoyable, disappointing, funny, stupid and sad things.
It's like a mixture. I thank those who care.
I am too tired to blog all about it, but yeah, thanks yihao,
you tried to stick to your promise. thank you.
Labels: Love remains the same.
Monday, September 7, 2009
10:28 AM
but right now my heart is broken.
but right now my heart is broken.
credits
Anyway yeah. Health's not good.
I'm really feeling super exasperated with myself, i keep feeling so unwell.
Fever here and there, and i was like talking to rasina about it, and i ended up sobbing.
That is so dumb right.
Cant be helped.
everything also cant be helped.
what do you want me to do?
I'm feeling super hopeless now. just feel like giving up and waiting for someone to catch me.
And im waiting for 2 a.m so that i can call Rasina and wake her up, and feel so thankful she's always there for me. Seriously, i feel like there's nothing that i hide from her, because i know she'll be angrier, and even sadder if i dont share with her, than when she hear of my sad news. There are many things that i hide from people, and yeah, they're close to me, and because they are, i always fear that whatever i tell them sort of burden them you know what i mean?
Sometimes i crack.
Rasina's the ultimate glue. yea girl. you really fix me back.
Now im just staring at the picture of the suflower. It reminds me of the first 2008 sunflower we gave to mr chee. i feel so ashamed just thinking of him. im such a fiasco.
Sobs.
Labels: i feel like winter.
Saturday, September 5, 2009
7:15 AM
War and the horror.
War and the horror.
War is not right. War is evil. How many times have i heard that?
And the invasion, those outsiders littering the territory of yours.
This world is minuscule.
I was watching Ipman. I dont know, my sister got the movie.
and then i saw, how the japanese indiscriminately kill off people, bang bang there go their lives.
People who think war's cool are simply too immature. I cant seem to shrug that image off in my mind, the people just being killed off, like that.
And i wonder why the Japanese did what they did.
i so feel like hurling a whole bunch of vulgarities.
But fuck, no i'm not gonna do that.
Stupid stupid stupid.
Humanity is so strange, they're fighting within themselves, believing that they're doing it for a cause, their own pride, patriotism. i think mankind should begin to re evaluate their priorities. Instead of fighting among ourselves, why dont we just use what we have to try and salvage the remaining of Nature, so that one day, Nature will not go against us, right?
Seriously the japanese should fuck off.
Damn i still love japanese anime.
Fuck the japanese.
Fuckers.
fuck fuck fuck.
fuck you japanese!
And the invasion, those outsiders littering the territory of yours.
This world is minuscule.
I was watching Ipman. I dont know, my sister got the movie.
and then i saw, how the japanese indiscriminately kill off people, bang bang there go their lives.
People who think war's cool are simply too immature. I cant seem to shrug that image off in my mind, the people just being killed off, like that.
And i wonder why the Japanese did what they did.
i so feel like hurling a whole bunch of vulgarities.
But fuck, no i'm not gonna do that.
Stupid stupid stupid.
Humanity is so strange, they're fighting within themselves, believing that they're doing it for a cause, their own pride, patriotism. i think mankind should begin to re evaluate their priorities. Instead of fighting among ourselves, why dont we just use what we have to try and salvage the remaining of Nature, so that one day, Nature will not go against us, right?
Seriously the japanese should fuck off.
Damn i still love japanese anime.
Fuck the japanese.
Fuckers.
fuck fuck fuck.
fuck you japanese!
on a happier note, i ate rice with tofu today. I was in school doing math with keith, it was so funny. We couldnt do this topic, so we went to do another, which we didnt wanna do, then we went on to another topic. haha. I ate rice! And you know, it is funny thinking of 2 bowls of noodles for supper.
One last thing: FUCKING WAR AND fuckkkkkkkkk
Labels: FUCCCCCCCCCK
Friday, September 4, 2009
10:06 PM
nine planets in a row.
nine planets in a row.
I just wanna blog something, suddenly.
Ever been alone in a crowded room?
Ever been alone in a crowded room?
Labels: daffodils and sunflowers ):
9:29 PM
disappearance
disappearance
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
11:17 PM
In the midst of all the avoiding,
In the midst of all the avoiding,
Nice? heh i think it looks awesome.
best piece of art i've ever seen, cuz it's supposed to be me! (:
Yuans and i, somewhere in singapore.
i remember there was a rainbow that day (:
Aga, yuans eileen.
artistic right.
ohmygod this spastico photo! i extremely like jingchun's face!
heh i dont think i'll ever get to see his face contorted into something like that in singapore!
Hehheh, i think we really like making these faces huh yuan. (:
But yuans' one extremely slutty you know!
Welcome to Yuan the Slu-u-u-t. (:
oh the outing where i dropped the ice cream together with Yuans.
i swear i'll never ever buy an ice cream cone from Swensens again!
oh btw, Visha looks really glam in here!
in the airport. waiting for the flight which got delayed till the next day.
Xinyi's favourite- Mickey .
Take 2.
THIS IS LIKE MY FAVOURITE PHOTO!
i feel less guilty you know, because yihao's finally wearing back his own jacket, he need to shiver in the cold because of me! Yihao thank you uh! :D
LOVE IT. LOVE IT.
Yuans, flowers, me.
Huh how come this photo will end up here?
did i upload it? haha i forgot. anyway yeah.
im the one with the yellow jeans.
i have been thinking.
i guess i'll go back to my late grandmother's house today.
i'll go, okay.
But i cant promise anything, i will, go back.
Yup. i will.
Anyway, i'll start on revising for GP sooon.
Tomorrow marks the start of another period of doom.
Jiayou eileen!
Labels: I LOVE THE HOOODIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE PHOTO (:
8:24 AM
ointment of love.
ointment of love.
This is beginning to get kinda serious.
With regards to health, yeah really serious. You know, today i had a sandwich after H1 timed practice, and after that sandwich, i felt like hell. It's the entire gastric thing again, and if that is the case, i really rather not eat, than eat something and then feel the pain wedged in my tummy. I cant even remember the songs i was listening to as i made my way home. The pain felt kinda terrible, that i wasn't even able to walk to 22 bus stop, and i just took the circle line home, albeit the fact that i had to change trains, and i was unable to sleep during commute time.
I must try to detect myself feeling hungry at the first minute.
I'll try not to make the same mistake again. and again. and again.
I'll learn it through the hard way.
On another note, today's H1 timed practice was hard. It was the first time i couldnt produce a work i was satisfied with, and i totally felt like crumpling my work into a ball of paper and toss them into the bin. Oh well.
On another another note, something happy did happen in school today. And i think only Leechia and Visha will know, and i think Rasina will too (:
To Rasina: hey, jiayou jiayou for your coming papers. Dont be dmoralized by just one GP okay! I shouldn't be saying this uh, you've always told me the same thing as well, so it just means that both of us simply cannot practise what we preach eh (:
Jiayou uh Eileen.
Gambateh.
With regards to health, yeah really serious. You know, today i had a sandwich after H1 timed practice, and after that sandwich, i felt like hell. It's the entire gastric thing again, and if that is the case, i really rather not eat, than eat something and then feel the pain wedged in my tummy. I cant even remember the songs i was listening to as i made my way home. The pain felt kinda terrible, that i wasn't even able to walk to 22 bus stop, and i just took the circle line home, albeit the fact that i had to change trains, and i was unable to sleep during commute time.
I must try to detect myself feeling hungry at the first minute.
I'll try not to make the same mistake again. and again. and again.
I'll learn it through the hard way.
On another note, today's H1 timed practice was hard. It was the first time i couldnt produce a work i was satisfied with, and i totally felt like crumpling my work into a ball of paper and toss them into the bin. Oh well.
On another another note, something happy did happen in school today. And i think only Leechia and Visha will know, and i think Rasina will too (:
To Rasina: hey, jiayou jiayou for your coming papers. Dont be dmoralized by just one GP okay! I shouldn't be saying this uh, you've always told me the same thing as well, so it just means that both of us simply cannot practise what we preach eh (:
Jiayou uh Eileen.
Gambateh.
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