EILEEN LOO YI ZHEN;
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
9:32 PM
It's till the very last minute that i actually see my life flashing by.
It's till the very last minute that i actually see my life flashing by.
Hey, im helping someone with this. Those who are going to a Junior College in this upcoming year, you'll definitely need a Graphic Calculator (GC) to aid you in your Mathematics, Chemistry or even more. It's selling cheap, and will come in a complete package just like purchasing a new one! The one that will be sold will be the Black in colour one, and it will be selling at almost half price. Go take a look at the website for mor details!
Visit: http://secondhandgc.blogspot.com
Anyway, its the last day of Year 2008. Year 2008 is like one of the highlights of my life. I had my ups and downs this year, which of course are inevitable. There are many things in this year that i will not forget, and i wont name them here. As long as i know them, that'll be enough.
And the last day of the year, how will i spend it?
I dont really look forward to Year 2009, but that cant be helped.
So, yeah, 2009, i welcome you with open arms.
Labels: Getting old.
6:01 AM
Obessssessssion- Newton's Law
Obessssessssion- Newton's Law
I cant move my right arm, and that is so depressing. There is something seriously wrong with my arm, it hurts i cant move it.
boohoohoo.
boohoohoo.
Labels: Break an arm instead.
Monday, December 29, 2008
6:40 AM
Oh, was it you who spoke the words that . ..
Oh, was it you who spoke the words that . ..
Regarding what JingChun and Yihao wrote in their blogs, i do want to share my view of this pie. They talked about how the Spartans are no longer as united as when we were in china. If you think i beg to differ, you are wrong.
It makes me realise how people only stay united just because they have to. Like in china, we stayed united, we were a team, for the simple reason that we need someone there for us because we were all alone in China. Now that we're back home sweet home, we dont really have to stick with people we dont want to but force ourselves to just because we need to.
The past few gatherings, not the entire team was there. I always asked those who organized, " Who's here?" And then its always the same bunch. Then i'll try to get those i can get, to come as well. Some people have their stuffs, i understand. But even as we get together, we segregate into cliques. Yeah, there seem to be a sort of hierarchy, i cant quite put my finger to what i feel here, i dont quite know how to say. I dont deny the fact that some outings do have their elements of fun, like what Yihao mentioned in his blog, but seriously, it just isnt there.
" ... the more we get together , together, together, the more we get together, the happier we'll be .."
I dont believe in it. Really. I rather have the memories of us all together in China, than the memories of the team being segregated.
Please dont let it fade.
Thanks to the people who always stayed by and talked to me, people like JingChun, Yihao, Peiyu, Liying, sometimes Yizhe too. And Daniel.
And thanks to Yizhe for his souvenir from Hokkaido, it really is cute. It's a small Mt Fuji that i hung on my phone. The more i look at it, the more cute it is, and the more happy i get.
Bye now, later.
It makes me realise how people only stay united just because they have to. Like in china, we stayed united, we were a team, for the simple reason that we need someone there for us because we were all alone in China. Now that we're back home sweet home, we dont really have to stick with people we dont want to but force ourselves to just because we need to.
The past few gatherings, not the entire team was there. I always asked those who organized, " Who's here?" And then its always the same bunch. Then i'll try to get those i can get, to come as well. Some people have their stuffs, i understand. But even as we get together, we segregate into cliques. Yeah, there seem to be a sort of hierarchy, i cant quite put my finger to what i feel here, i dont quite know how to say. I dont deny the fact that some outings do have their elements of fun, like what Yihao mentioned in his blog, but seriously, it just isnt there.
" ... the more we get together , together, together, the more we get together, the happier we'll be .."
I dont believe in it. Really. I rather have the memories of us all together in China, than the memories of the team being segregated.
Please dont let it fade.
Thanks to the people who always stayed by and talked to me, people like JingChun, Yihao, Peiyu, Liying, sometimes Yizhe too. And Daniel.
And thanks to Yizhe for his souvenir from Hokkaido, it really is cute. It's a small Mt Fuji that i hung on my phone. The more i look at it, the more cute it is, and the more happy i get.
Bye now, later.
Labels: I really miss.
Sunday, December 28, 2008
8:18 AM
I wish,
I wish,
Saturday, December 27, 2008
10:23 AM
It's a love story baby just say Yes
It's a love story baby just say Yes
I dont normally spell out my emotions so clearly, but this time there really is no hiding it. I hate to hide it, throughtout today's entire Spartans gathering, it was such a fucking hell load of facades which i hate. Going out sure lighten up the mood, instead of being cooped up at home, so scary, so stressful, so full of tension every corner i round.
I am feeling very sad, and there is nothing i can do. This feeling of helplessness is just crashing on top of me, smashing me to little bits, and i just gave in to it all.
In the midst of all these, for some reason, i find myself brightening up when i talked to you. even though i know it is never gonna be and will never be, because .. nevermind, it just wont be me anyway, but i just dont feel unhappy when you talked to me.
Thank You.
Love Story- Taylor swift.
To love and to be loved.
I am feeling very sad, and there is nothing i can do. This feeling of helplessness is just crashing on top of me, smashing me to little bits, and i just gave in to it all.
In the midst of all these, for some reason, i find myself brightening up when i talked to you. even though i know it is never gonna be and will never be, because .. nevermind, it just wont be me anyway, but i just dont feel unhappy when you talked to me.
Thank You.
Love Story- Taylor swift.
To love and to be loved.
Labels: Curl up in a ball with something Hanes
Thursday, December 25, 2008
6:20 AM
Santa Claus is coming to town.
Santa Claus is coming to town.
251208
A few more days and year 2008 will end. I'll try not to write anything sad since its christmas, but i really cant help feeling sad that i am going to have to prepare myself for a new year ahead, brace myself for any surprises, even if they are pleasant ones.
Today is Christmas, so, yeah merry christmas to all. I can still remember myself celebrating Christmas, last year, working at Fairprice, similar to Gavin. Except, his is stocking up, while i was tokyo-drifting my trolleys here and there, ticking the orders on the lists.
Ahh, those fun days and how much nostalgia i feel right now. Life is simply passing by so fast for me, i cant catch up. I really cant believe, and am not prepared in sitting for the A's next year.
I do love my life,, sometimes.
Anyway, today's christmas at Sunbeam children's home was splendid. It was the most memorable christmas i ever had, because i spent it with people around me. Like, i interacted with kids, sculpted balloons for them, and helped them draw spongebobs!
I saw them having fun smashing the pinata, and them having fun eating candies and crackers. My heart was filled with joy and warmth, yet i kept silent. I was afraid of people laughing at me feeling that way if i spoke. Thanks to those Spartans who went with me and made this Christmas a memorable one! I managed to see Glen again too (the small boy in Sunbeam whom i took care of when we took the children to Sentosa!), and he remembers me! ( :
*EUPHORIA*
Thanks to Jodi and Careen for giving me Christmas presents! CHOCOLATES! my favourites!
And i have been starving yet i don exactly feel hungry. As in, i have been skipping meals yet i dont feel like eating. Weird.
Merry Christmas to you all out there.
And Im gonna post my OSLE reflections down here, the Gift i gave miss darrell ( :
You can skip it if you want to!
(the stuffs here are sort of cliche)
Reflections for OSLE 2008
I don’t really know how to begin, but really, just before I start on typing anything, I just want to confess that this will not be any fancy reflections, but simply, my heartfelt words. Some of these words might have been said during certain facilitation sessions, but there are also quite some of them that remain unspoken, so I’ll pen them down here.
The first thing I want to say here is something that was told to me, probably a million times over, and which I did not commit into memory, until I really totally experienced it. It is the cliché,” Do not take things for granted.” I was told by my mom how every single thing in life should not be taken for granted, over and over again, but I did not realise that. I couldn’t. Until I was there, especially during the first time Spartans gave out the balloons we made. The children fought, screamed, and did almost everything to just get hold of a balloon. It really made me realise how just one simple balloon can mean so much to people, when I can easily get hold of one, and burst it just as quickly. I was, some sort of, enlightened, and I really try hard not to take anything else for granted again. I was reminded of it, yet again, when the piñata was broken. I have been trying hard not to take things for granted ever since, even a small little candy, or pork floss.
The second thing I want to mention here will be something relating to friends. I remember confiding in Mr Lee, and telling him that sometimes I feel that when a close friend fails to play her part, I feel so disappointed. However, when someone, not as close, actually comes over, and maybe just gives a little pat on my back, I feel like I actually feel that the person is better. Mr Lee told me that it is because my expectations for my friends are kinda high, and I am not the only one. When that friend fails to meet my expectations, I get the sort of feeling like that friend has let me down. Yet, the other person who gives me a pat, I don’t have any expectations of her. So, when that person suddenly just shows me some concern, I feel like wow, this person is such a nice friend. Mr Lee told me to not expect so much after all, everybody will have their own expectations and their ways of doing things. We should not be too blinded by our expectations that we lose the big picture that is the friendship I have with my friends. Mr Lee’s words will always be etched deep in my memory.
I also want to talk about the can of cola Yihao got for me when he was allowed to go to town. I remember myself just whining to him casually, how much I need to get my daily dosage of soda, and then after a few days, he came to me and handed me a can of cola. I feel that sometimes, I just mention things casually. I never thought that my casual words will actually be remembered by someone, who will actually go to some extent to complete my wish. This is the most touching moment I have ever felt, and I can safely say that Yihao is an extremely thoughtful person. I know it is just a can of cola, but it really is him paying attention to what I say, him remembering it, and him trying to fulfil it, those are what counts. Sadly, I was unable to bring the can of cola back to Singapore, but it really is the thought that will count.
On a heavier note, speaking of the mentioning of casual remarks, I remembered an incident whereby Careen said something rude in the bus, but it was accidental. Seriously, we should really be mindful of what we speak lest we offend people without even us knowing it. Besides, we were in China, and it really doesn’t make sense to offend the people there unless we really don’t want to go home.
When I see the villagers, I feel that they are really poor. This should probably be not what I should feel, but I felt that they are poor. Yet, they live really happily. They are happy that they have pork to eat. They live a simple life, and they are not perturbed by the fact that they do not live a life of luxury. I suddenly saw myself as a spoilt princess. I have this, but I want more and more. From them, I learn the meaning of self sufficiency, and contentment. It is really easy to say, I will be contented with the things I have, but it is really difficult to put into actions the words I say. I still am trying to be contented with every little thing, every simple thing, like having a handphone and the whatnots I have with technology these days.
My mind is not organized, and it is very cluttered with memories of this trip, yet the most important that I have mentioned will be the cherishing of what I have, regardless if I like it or not. I have learnt a lot from this trip that is really hard to be put into words, and the things I learn will always seem to boil down to the same – Cherish and not take things for granted. I have seen, felt, and acknowledged the importance of friendship, the need for encouraging words, and the articulation of one’s thoughts. I have realised my strengths, which I would never have realised if i wasn’t given an avenue- I can draw well, and I am actually hardworking. I am also patient, and can be a source of encouragement.
Like what Eunice had said, we all definitely grew stronger after this trip. I am no exception. I can actually withstand the cold, and bathe in cold water despite the weather. I become more tolerant of the things around me which I do not like, and I am more willing to learn the things I do not know. I guess we have matured more after this trip, and I never expect myself to be feeling so.. Grown up.
I have come to know of the society I will only be allowed to enter when I enter the working world. The one Mr lee said, that is full of hypocrites and backstabbers. I am not referring to the Spartans when I mention this. When in China, Mr Lee often told me of the society of such people. I guess I should enjoy this society I am living in, when I still can, where almost everyone is naïve, or we turn a blind eye to things around us. And things can be settled easily over a cup of frappe.
I end my reflections here. I am grateful that I have gone for this trip, and the things I learn will always be etched deep in me. Thank you for the tangible and intangible things that I have been given during the trip.
MERRY CHRISTMAS! ( :
A few more days and year 2008 will end. I'll try not to write anything sad since its christmas, but i really cant help feeling sad that i am going to have to prepare myself for a new year ahead, brace myself for any surprises, even if they are pleasant ones.
Today is Christmas, so, yeah merry christmas to all. I can still remember myself celebrating Christmas, last year, working at Fairprice, similar to Gavin. Except, his is stocking up, while i was tokyo-drifting my trolleys here and there, ticking the orders on the lists.
Ahh, those fun days and how much nostalgia i feel right now. Life is simply passing by so fast for me, i cant catch up. I really cant believe, and am not prepared in sitting for the A's next year.
I do love my life,, sometimes.
Anyway, today's christmas at Sunbeam children's home was splendid. It was the most memorable christmas i ever had, because i spent it with people around me. Like, i interacted with kids, sculpted balloons for them, and helped them draw spongebobs!
I saw them having fun smashing the pinata, and them having fun eating candies and crackers. My heart was filled with joy and warmth, yet i kept silent. I was afraid of people laughing at me feeling that way if i spoke. Thanks to those Spartans who went with me and made this Christmas a memorable one! I managed to see Glen again too (the small boy in Sunbeam whom i took care of when we took the children to Sentosa!), and he remembers me! ( :
*EUPHORIA*
Thanks to Jodi and Careen for giving me Christmas presents! CHOCOLATES! my favourites!
And i have been starving yet i don exactly feel hungry. As in, i have been skipping meals yet i dont feel like eating. Weird.
Merry Christmas to you all out there.
And Im gonna post my OSLE reflections down here, the Gift i gave miss darrell ( :
You can skip it if you want to!
(the stuffs here are sort of cliche)
Reflections for OSLE 2008
I don’t really know how to begin, but really, just before I start on typing anything, I just want to confess that this will not be any fancy reflections, but simply, my heartfelt words. Some of these words might have been said during certain facilitation sessions, but there are also quite some of them that remain unspoken, so I’ll pen them down here.
The first thing I want to say here is something that was told to me, probably a million times over, and which I did not commit into memory, until I really totally experienced it. It is the cliché,” Do not take things for granted.” I was told by my mom how every single thing in life should not be taken for granted, over and over again, but I did not realise that. I couldn’t. Until I was there, especially during the first time Spartans gave out the balloons we made. The children fought, screamed, and did almost everything to just get hold of a balloon. It really made me realise how just one simple balloon can mean so much to people, when I can easily get hold of one, and burst it just as quickly. I was, some sort of, enlightened, and I really try hard not to take anything else for granted again. I was reminded of it, yet again, when the piñata was broken. I have been trying hard not to take things for granted ever since, even a small little candy, or pork floss.
The second thing I want to mention here will be something relating to friends. I remember confiding in Mr Lee, and telling him that sometimes I feel that when a close friend fails to play her part, I feel so disappointed. However, when someone, not as close, actually comes over, and maybe just gives a little pat on my back, I feel like I actually feel that the person is better. Mr Lee told me that it is because my expectations for my friends are kinda high, and I am not the only one. When that friend fails to meet my expectations, I get the sort of feeling like that friend has let me down. Yet, the other person who gives me a pat, I don’t have any expectations of her. So, when that person suddenly just shows me some concern, I feel like wow, this person is such a nice friend. Mr Lee told me to not expect so much after all, everybody will have their own expectations and their ways of doing things. We should not be too blinded by our expectations that we lose the big picture that is the friendship I have with my friends. Mr Lee’s words will always be etched deep in my memory.
I also want to talk about the can of cola Yihao got for me when he was allowed to go to town. I remember myself just whining to him casually, how much I need to get my daily dosage of soda, and then after a few days, he came to me and handed me a can of cola. I feel that sometimes, I just mention things casually. I never thought that my casual words will actually be remembered by someone, who will actually go to some extent to complete my wish. This is the most touching moment I have ever felt, and I can safely say that Yihao is an extremely thoughtful person. I know it is just a can of cola, but it really is him paying attention to what I say, him remembering it, and him trying to fulfil it, those are what counts. Sadly, I was unable to bring the can of cola back to Singapore, but it really is the thought that will count.
On a heavier note, speaking of the mentioning of casual remarks, I remembered an incident whereby Careen said something rude in the bus, but it was accidental. Seriously, we should really be mindful of what we speak lest we offend people without even us knowing it. Besides, we were in China, and it really doesn’t make sense to offend the people there unless we really don’t want to go home.
When I see the villagers, I feel that they are really poor. This should probably be not what I should feel, but I felt that they are poor. Yet, they live really happily. They are happy that they have pork to eat. They live a simple life, and they are not perturbed by the fact that they do not live a life of luxury. I suddenly saw myself as a spoilt princess. I have this, but I want more and more. From them, I learn the meaning of self sufficiency, and contentment. It is really easy to say, I will be contented with the things I have, but it is really difficult to put into actions the words I say. I still am trying to be contented with every little thing, every simple thing, like having a handphone and the whatnots I have with technology these days.
My mind is not organized, and it is very cluttered with memories of this trip, yet the most important that I have mentioned will be the cherishing of what I have, regardless if I like it or not. I have learnt a lot from this trip that is really hard to be put into words, and the things I learn will always seem to boil down to the same – Cherish and not take things for granted. I have seen, felt, and acknowledged the importance of friendship, the need for encouraging words, and the articulation of one’s thoughts. I have realised my strengths, which I would never have realised if i wasn’t given an avenue- I can draw well, and I am actually hardworking. I am also patient, and can be a source of encouragement.
Like what Eunice had said, we all definitely grew stronger after this trip. I am no exception. I can actually withstand the cold, and bathe in cold water despite the weather. I become more tolerant of the things around me which I do not like, and I am more willing to learn the things I do not know. I guess we have matured more after this trip, and I never expect myself to be feeling so.. Grown up.
I have come to know of the society I will only be allowed to enter when I enter the working world. The one Mr lee said, that is full of hypocrites and backstabbers. I am not referring to the Spartans when I mention this. When in China, Mr Lee often told me of the society of such people. I guess I should enjoy this society I am living in, when I still can, where almost everyone is naïve, or we turn a blind eye to things around us. And things can be settled easily over a cup of frappe.
I end my reflections here. I am grateful that I have gone for this trip, and the things I learn will always be etched deep in me. Thank you for the tangible and intangible things that I have been given during the trip.
MERRY CHRISTMAS! ( :
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
2:01 AM
Im not really good at culinary.
Im not really good at culinary.
Yesterday, during the Pugilistic gathering, Jieyang said," You all really think studying is fun? It's very tiring to study all the time, and so stressed out all the time blah blah."
He said that because people were egging him to sign up for scholarship. He looked very tired, really. First time in my life, i saw his tired face. I said, " Being happy is sufficient."
If i ever get the chance, i wont sign up for it either. The scholarship for Uni after A levels. Weimin also asked me what i wanna do after JC. Truthfully, i havent thought of it. I never think that far ahead. Maybe i really dont have plans, no clue. Or, i just dont wanna scare myself with the Future.
I live as though A levels will be the end of my life. Seriously, i'll never dare to think, nor look upon the life i want after A's. I dont wanna get scared.
I didnt manage to sleep the entire night. It was cold. I had with me, my pugi shirt, and a jacket. The jacket isn't enough to keep me warm, and i had draped my shirt over gavin because he was asleep, and was cold.
Around 5 plus, Jieyang woke up, and we went to the toilet. Seriously, he looked sleepy, tired. I dont know, maybe i wont even get the chance to be like him, straight A's and all. But like what Weimin say, you dont have to pay just 'cuz you aimed. So, just aim for Straight's. After that, i just lied down there and thought of certain things. Im sure i'll straighten out my thinking soon.
Gavin woke up, and i draped my shirt again, over jieyang. I felt tired, all of a sudden, but i know i'll be able to sleep when i get home.
Which was what i did from 7 a.m. in the morning, all the way till 4 p.m.
I really think i need to sleep more. My head feels heavy, but im sure its not due to the can of Anchor. It really takes more than that to KO me.
Goodnight.
Soon.
Because smiles are a mask, and to laugh is to cry, remember?
He said that because people were egging him to sign up for scholarship. He looked very tired, really. First time in my life, i saw his tired face. I said, " Being happy is sufficient."
If i ever get the chance, i wont sign up for it either. The scholarship for Uni after A levels. Weimin also asked me what i wanna do after JC. Truthfully, i havent thought of it. I never think that far ahead. Maybe i really dont have plans, no clue. Or, i just dont wanna scare myself with the Future.
I live as though A levels will be the end of my life. Seriously, i'll never dare to think, nor look upon the life i want after A's. I dont wanna get scared.
I didnt manage to sleep the entire night. It was cold. I had with me, my pugi shirt, and a jacket. The jacket isn't enough to keep me warm, and i had draped my shirt over gavin because he was asleep, and was cold.
Around 5 plus, Jieyang woke up, and we went to the toilet. Seriously, he looked sleepy, tired. I dont know, maybe i wont even get the chance to be like him, straight A's and all. But like what Weimin say, you dont have to pay just 'cuz you aimed. So, just aim for Straight's. After that, i just lied down there and thought of certain things. Im sure i'll straighten out my thinking soon.
Gavin woke up, and i draped my shirt again, over jieyang. I felt tired, all of a sudden, but i know i'll be able to sleep when i get home.
Which was what i did from 7 a.m. in the morning, all the way till 4 p.m.
I really think i need to sleep more. My head feels heavy, but im sure its not due to the can of Anchor. It really takes more than that to KO me.
Goodnight.
Soon.
Because smiles are a mask, and to laugh is to cry, remember?
Sunday, December 21, 2008
9:15 PM
Other side of the world
Other side of the world
Friday, December 19, 2008
8:13 PM
Peppermint Oreo the best heroine.
Peppermint Oreo the best heroine.
Yesterday was an awesome day.
First of all, i wanna thank those who went for the Spartans gathering, especially jing chun (you know why). Some watched twilight, and some watched Yes man. I watched Yes man, and personally, i think it's a movie better than Twilight. The takeaway i get from this movie, is actually the part whereby the girl said, " the world is a playground." We see it as a playground when we were kids. But overtime, as we age, the world doesnt seem like a playground anymore. We get stressed more often than not, and we often force ourseleves into doin things that we might not want to do, but we do them just 'cuz we're trying to stay alive on this planet.
I guess everyone's like that one way or another. And im not any exception. I dont really like to mug for things like chemistry, yet i force myself to do it. I dont really like Binomial or Maclaurin's, and yet i force myself to do them, although i dont really need a maclaurin's or binomial in the future other than to get myself a passing grade for Maths.
Rather sad.
The movie really made me start thinking on what i wanna do in the future, and i felt very annoyed as my thoughts usually conclude in nothing. It is an incredibly irritating feeling, because i dont really know what i want to do in my life. In the movie, the things that the characters did, are so spontaneous, and how i wish i can lead a life as such. Spontaneous, without plans, and carefree. But that'd be absurd, because you cant really get anywhere just being spontaneous.
Anyway, i left the Spartans gathering early. left with a bunch, and i took the green line with Yizhe. It was a rather.. comical journey, for our conversation was somewhat ummm, funny. (: He left for hokkaido this morning, and im hoping for a souvenir (winks).
Oh, before i continue, i wanna say that i found what i've been looking for all along. I found the tofuman. Many of them, and i was so..happy. I was in simply toys, and whilst the others moved to star wars and whatnot, i was staring at the tofuman, and i was swept by an inexplicable wave of nostalgia, and of course, some other emotions which i cannot say. I wanted to buy it, and yet i didnt. Dont ask me why. Some people asked me that already, but i couldnt answer them either. Guess i dont have an answer.
I went to meet up with the NE ambassadors after the gathering. I ate my lunch cum dinner, and we cycled. I DONT KNOW HOW TO CYCLE.
Most of my friends said they'll teach me, but i've never braved myself to learn it. Yesterday, Yensee and i shared a couple bike. She took the front while i took the back. I love the feeling when we cycled, because the breeze is good. The feeling is good. I wanna learn cycling someday i guess.
Some experiences can last us for a couple of lifetimes. Im not blabbering. Seriously, the experience of cycling was great, it will last, even though cycling really hurt my butt.
My mind's still stuck somewhere in Dali. I really miss digging holes.
And, i feel some sort of love actually, haha. Yes, i do feel loved (:
See you guys.
First of all, i wanna thank those who went for the Spartans gathering, especially jing chun (you know why). Some watched twilight, and some watched Yes man. I watched Yes man, and personally, i think it's a movie better than Twilight. The takeaway i get from this movie, is actually the part whereby the girl said, " the world is a playground." We see it as a playground when we were kids. But overtime, as we age, the world doesnt seem like a playground anymore. We get stressed more often than not, and we often force ourseleves into doin things that we might not want to do, but we do them just 'cuz we're trying to stay alive on this planet.
I guess everyone's like that one way or another. And im not any exception. I dont really like to mug for things like chemistry, yet i force myself to do it. I dont really like Binomial or Maclaurin's, and yet i force myself to do them, although i dont really need a maclaurin's or binomial in the future other than to get myself a passing grade for Maths.
Rather sad.
The movie really made me start thinking on what i wanna do in the future, and i felt very annoyed as my thoughts usually conclude in nothing. It is an incredibly irritating feeling, because i dont really know what i want to do in my life. In the movie, the things that the characters did, are so spontaneous, and how i wish i can lead a life as such. Spontaneous, without plans, and carefree. But that'd be absurd, because you cant really get anywhere just being spontaneous.
Anyway, i left the Spartans gathering early. left with a bunch, and i took the green line with Yizhe. It was a rather.. comical journey, for our conversation was somewhat ummm, funny. (: He left for hokkaido this morning, and im hoping for a souvenir (winks).
Oh, before i continue, i wanna say that i found what i've been looking for all along. I found the tofuman. Many of them, and i was so..happy. I was in simply toys, and whilst the others moved to star wars and whatnot, i was staring at the tofuman, and i was swept by an inexplicable wave of nostalgia, and of course, some other emotions which i cannot say. I wanted to buy it, and yet i didnt. Dont ask me why. Some people asked me that already, but i couldnt answer them either. Guess i dont have an answer.
I went to meet up with the NE ambassadors after the gathering. I ate my lunch cum dinner, and we cycled. I DONT KNOW HOW TO CYCLE.
Most of my friends said they'll teach me, but i've never braved myself to learn it. Yesterday, Yensee and i shared a couple bike. She took the front while i took the back. I love the feeling when we cycled, because the breeze is good. The feeling is good. I wanna learn cycling someday i guess.
Some experiences can last us for a couple of lifetimes. Im not blabbering. Seriously, the experience of cycling was great, it will last, even though cycling really hurt my butt.
My mind's still stuck somewhere in Dali. I really miss digging holes.
And, i feel some sort of love actually, haha. Yes, i do feel loved (:
See you guys.
Labels: Gumdrops (:
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
8:39 PM
The best days of my life.
The best days of my life.
Hello there people. Miss me?
Aww, dont deny. i know you miss me and my daily blogging. Oh crap, my nose is like blocked and its so difficult to breathe. Plus the naggy throat infection that makes it difficult for me to swallow anything. That is a really sad thing, for i have been looking forward to eating all types of Singapore's foods when i returned from China. Guess that'll have to wait.
I was back on the 14th of December. Yet, i didnt blog. I dont really know how to begin, 'cuz it will really be impossible for me to type on a day by day basis. Sighs. I really really dont know how to start despite the fact that i really really wanna type on everything that i saw, everything that i heard, and most importantly, everything that i'd felt when in China.
Oh yeah, before i begin, im just gonna talk about You Yu. Dont ask me why, i guess it'll be the best way to start on talking about the trip. you yu, a great OSLE guy departed singapore for Taiwan on 16th December. Some OSLE mates went to send him off at the airport, myself included. It was quite sad to see him go because i dont know why but i just feel that him leaving was quite sudden, but he'll be back sometime in January. After a meal, chats, and hugs, he left. See, the airport is such a nostalgic place.
The airport is such a nostalgic place. On the 26th November, all Spartans went to the airport, happy, and excited, as we were all ready to go for the trip. whatever followed next totally crushed all our hopes, and brought to us, pure disappointment. For we could not depart for Bangkok due to the protests in the bangkok Airport. Our flight was cancelled, and we went home, after cheery goodbyes to those who sent us off. The feeling was awful, for nobody could confirm that we can get on another flight to China. However, all hopes were not lost. We were given another flight (Silkair), which departed singapore on the 27th of November. A few of the Spartans ( Careen, Yizhe, Jiarong and Luzhi) camped in the airport on the 26th so that they wont have to go home and go back to the airport the following day. I visited those Spartans at the airport, and we joked, talked, laughed and walked around the airport. I went home at 11 to repack my bag. And we did set off on the 27th of November.
We reached Kunming first, and i didnt like it. The air was polluted like hell, and some buggers were smoking in air-conditioned restaurants which had a sign that clearly indicated ' No Smoking'. We left the restaurant as quickly as possible, and we went to Carrefour to get provisions. It was boring for me, because i dont really like to go around shopping for things like shampoos, pads, tissues and blah blah. You get my drift. Kunming was quite cold, but after i reached Dali, it really didnt feel as chilly (:
I dont dare to eat the food in Kunming either. Maybe i wasnt used to it, you know, me being in China for the first time. I didnt eat much, but i didnt starve either. Then, we had to get on a overnight train to Yunnan, Dali. The train was squeezy like mad. There are like four bunks in each 'room' ( there are no doors for the rooms ). Four bunks- that means 2 double decks. I am not vertically inclined- ahem. So, i slept on the upper bunk, which was quite sad, because when i woke up the next morning, i got up excited, and bam! I hit my head on the low ceiling. It hurt like mad, i just didnt show it, for it was a rather foolish accident to make, haha.
When i first reached Dali, it was really damn cold. Before i mention anything else about the chill there, i just wanna say that i didnt bring enough clothes. Yihao had to lend me his jacket ( im so sorry, thank you so much yihao! ) So, when i arrived in Dali, i was like, hell, im never gonna make it. To cut the long long long long story short, we stayed in dorms- look alike places. I shared a room with Miss Megan. Miss megan's an american, and some nights were spent talking to her, confiding in her, and sharing secrets. The communication between me and miss megan works both ways because we really share. She told me her secrets, and i told her mine, till we felt tired and slipped into slumber. We stayed 10 days in the village, and those 10 days were really the most inspiring and enriching period of my life for i really learnt many things. We dug holes that were so deep that when i went in, i was even shorter than it. Some Spartans used me as a benchmark to see how much we have dug, haha. And when digging, there'll always be singing. We'll sing together, and joke, and sometimes, the villagers will give us some snacks for us to enjoy whilst digging. Snacks like sour papaya coated with sugar, sugarcane, and tea, they were really heartwarming. It really showed that the villagers appreciated our efforts, and we were touched by their warm hospitality. We spent most of our times digging holes, and more often than not, i was reminded of the movie Holes, which i watched with my sister late into the night somewhere in June this year. I love that movie, and i was just casually asking some spartans who have been digging holes with me, if they know anything about Holes. And You yu told me he has the book! I was so happy, i hope i'll be able to get the book from him when he returns from Taiwan! During our stay in the village, we also went to the school in the same village, and the school was located a 45 minutes walk away from the village. Some people dread the walk, but i do love it. For some reason, i found the scenery there so amazing, it overlooking mountains, with so many fields, and so many many many many different flowers. When we first reached the school, i lived through a horrible nightmare. Since the spartans did learn balloon sculpturing, we decided to give away some balloons. We were like making, and we slowly gave away one or two when all the kids just started running towards us, and crowding around us. I happily made a sword, and was about to look for someone cute to give away when poof! some kid just jumped up, and grabbed the balloon i made. I was so shocked, they were even fighting and screaming, hollering, and some kids even scratched jodi and pinched her, just to get the balloon in her hands. The situation was very chaotic. I was a little frightened, and it really made me realise how the simple things, like a small balloon, which singapore kids have, but do not even cherish, are actually so much welcomed by the kids, as though they have never seen a balloon before, which in any case, can be quite true. I was sad by that, and whilst walking back to the village, i was thinking of all the things in my life that i have, and how they'd be so so so much cherished by the people there. We taught the kids english over a course of three days, and one of the lessons was to present to them the cultures in Singapore. I was in the Eurasian team, and we had a santa claus who was acted by jing chun. He really gave it his best, and really entertained the kids. The kids were so disciplined when in class. They dont slouch, nor doze off or what. They sit straight, and they looked really uniform. Im blabbering and blabbering right? Seriously, the stay in the village, really really etched memories so deep in me, i'll never forget. The last day at the village, we had a youth exchange, and i admt, i couldnt really communicate well with the youths there, dont ask me why. Some youths even asked me for my email address which Miss D said we were allowed to give.. (:
And tada, with that, it was about the end of the Service learning part for this trip. The following two places we went were Lijiang and Beijing, which im not really gonna elaborate, even though it was fun. I dont really like Beijing though. seriously, we were there for the history of china somewhat, and i dont really have any interest in it. However, the climb at the Great wall was awesome as it was snowing, and the road was slippery. Spartans had to hold on to each other to prevent anyone from falling. I was touched as i felt safe when they held on to me.
I fell sick sometime in China, and i was touched by people's care for me. I also wanna mention about Yihao. During the village stay, i was telling Yihao how much i miss soda, and i was so whining to him. After a few days, some spartans were allowed to go to the town to get some provisions. And he brought back for me, a can of soda. I was so touched by what he did.
THANK YOU SO MUCH.
Thank you to the entire Spartans team, including the teachers.
You all really made my life worthwhile.
The best days in my life, so far.
Really (:
I was thinking of how i just wanna stay there and not come back, haha (:
See you guys, a really long post already, and im already tired just simply by typing.
Maybe its the cold im having, or what, but i just think i'll stop here. I'll continue another time.
Have a nice day ahead (:
Aww, dont deny. i know you miss me and my daily blogging. Oh crap, my nose is like blocked and its so difficult to breathe. Plus the naggy throat infection that makes it difficult for me to swallow anything. That is a really sad thing, for i have been looking forward to eating all types of Singapore's foods when i returned from China. Guess that'll have to wait.
I was back on the 14th of December. Yet, i didnt blog. I dont really know how to begin, 'cuz it will really be impossible for me to type on a day by day basis. Sighs. I really really dont know how to start despite the fact that i really really wanna type on everything that i saw, everything that i heard, and most importantly, everything that i'd felt when in China.
Oh yeah, before i begin, im just gonna talk about You Yu. Dont ask me why, i guess it'll be the best way to start on talking about the trip. you yu, a great OSLE guy departed singapore for Taiwan on 16th December. Some OSLE mates went to send him off at the airport, myself included. It was quite sad to see him go because i dont know why but i just feel that him leaving was quite sudden, but he'll be back sometime in January. After a meal, chats, and hugs, he left. See, the airport is such a nostalgic place.
The airport is such a nostalgic place. On the 26th November, all Spartans went to the airport, happy, and excited, as we were all ready to go for the trip. whatever followed next totally crushed all our hopes, and brought to us, pure disappointment. For we could not depart for Bangkok due to the protests in the bangkok Airport. Our flight was cancelled, and we went home, after cheery goodbyes to those who sent us off. The feeling was awful, for nobody could confirm that we can get on another flight to China. However, all hopes were not lost. We were given another flight (Silkair), which departed singapore on the 27th of November. A few of the Spartans ( Careen, Yizhe, Jiarong and Luzhi) camped in the airport on the 26th so that they wont have to go home and go back to the airport the following day. I visited those Spartans at the airport, and we joked, talked, laughed and walked around the airport. I went home at 11 to repack my bag. And we did set off on the 27th of November.
We reached Kunming first, and i didnt like it. The air was polluted like hell, and some buggers were smoking in air-conditioned restaurants which had a sign that clearly indicated ' No Smoking'. We left the restaurant as quickly as possible, and we went to Carrefour to get provisions. It was boring for me, because i dont really like to go around shopping for things like shampoos, pads, tissues and blah blah. You get my drift. Kunming was quite cold, but after i reached Dali, it really didnt feel as chilly (:
I dont dare to eat the food in Kunming either. Maybe i wasnt used to it, you know, me being in China for the first time. I didnt eat much, but i didnt starve either. Then, we had to get on a overnight train to Yunnan, Dali. The train was squeezy like mad. There are like four bunks in each 'room' ( there are no doors for the rooms ). Four bunks- that means 2 double decks. I am not vertically inclined- ahem. So, i slept on the upper bunk, which was quite sad, because when i woke up the next morning, i got up excited, and bam! I hit my head on the low ceiling. It hurt like mad, i just didnt show it, for it was a rather foolish accident to make, haha.
When i first reached Dali, it was really damn cold. Before i mention anything else about the chill there, i just wanna say that i didnt bring enough clothes. Yihao had to lend me his jacket ( im so sorry, thank you so much yihao! ) So, when i arrived in Dali, i was like, hell, im never gonna make it. To cut the long long long long story short, we stayed in dorms- look alike places. I shared a room with Miss Megan. Miss megan's an american, and some nights were spent talking to her, confiding in her, and sharing secrets. The communication between me and miss megan works both ways because we really share. She told me her secrets, and i told her mine, till we felt tired and slipped into slumber. We stayed 10 days in the village, and those 10 days were really the most inspiring and enriching period of my life for i really learnt many things. We dug holes that were so deep that when i went in, i was even shorter than it. Some Spartans used me as a benchmark to see how much we have dug, haha. And when digging, there'll always be singing. We'll sing together, and joke, and sometimes, the villagers will give us some snacks for us to enjoy whilst digging. Snacks like sour papaya coated with sugar, sugarcane, and tea, they were really heartwarming. It really showed that the villagers appreciated our efforts, and we were touched by their warm hospitality. We spent most of our times digging holes, and more often than not, i was reminded of the movie Holes, which i watched with my sister late into the night somewhere in June this year. I love that movie, and i was just casually asking some spartans who have been digging holes with me, if they know anything about Holes. And You yu told me he has the book! I was so happy, i hope i'll be able to get the book from him when he returns from Taiwan! During our stay in the village, we also went to the school in the same village, and the school was located a 45 minutes walk away from the village. Some people dread the walk, but i do love it. For some reason, i found the scenery there so amazing, it overlooking mountains, with so many fields, and so many many many many different flowers. When we first reached the school, i lived through a horrible nightmare. Since the spartans did learn balloon sculpturing, we decided to give away some balloons. We were like making, and we slowly gave away one or two when all the kids just started running towards us, and crowding around us. I happily made a sword, and was about to look for someone cute to give away when poof! some kid just jumped up, and grabbed the balloon i made. I was so shocked, they were even fighting and screaming, hollering, and some kids even scratched jodi and pinched her, just to get the balloon in her hands. The situation was very chaotic. I was a little frightened, and it really made me realise how the simple things, like a small balloon, which singapore kids have, but do not even cherish, are actually so much welcomed by the kids, as though they have never seen a balloon before, which in any case, can be quite true. I was sad by that, and whilst walking back to the village, i was thinking of all the things in my life that i have, and how they'd be so so so much cherished by the people there. We taught the kids english over a course of three days, and one of the lessons was to present to them the cultures in Singapore. I was in the Eurasian team, and we had a santa claus who was acted by jing chun. He really gave it his best, and really entertained the kids. The kids were so disciplined when in class. They dont slouch, nor doze off or what. They sit straight, and they looked really uniform. Im blabbering and blabbering right? Seriously, the stay in the village, really really etched memories so deep in me, i'll never forget. The last day at the village, we had a youth exchange, and i admt, i couldnt really communicate well with the youths there, dont ask me why. Some youths even asked me for my email address which Miss D said we were allowed to give.. (:
And tada, with that, it was about the end of the Service learning part for this trip. The following two places we went were Lijiang and Beijing, which im not really gonna elaborate, even though it was fun. I dont really like Beijing though. seriously, we were there for the history of china somewhat, and i dont really have any interest in it. However, the climb at the Great wall was awesome as it was snowing, and the road was slippery. Spartans had to hold on to each other to prevent anyone from falling. I was touched as i felt safe when they held on to me.
I fell sick sometime in China, and i was touched by people's care for me. I also wanna mention about Yihao. During the village stay, i was telling Yihao how much i miss soda, and i was so whining to him. After a few days, some spartans were allowed to go to the town to get some provisions. And he brought back for me, a can of soda. I was so touched by what he did.
THANK YOU SO MUCH.
Thank you to the entire Spartans team, including the teachers.
You all really made my life worthwhile.
The best days in my life, so far.
Really (:
I was thinking of how i just wanna stay there and not come back, haha (:
See you guys, a really long post already, and im already tired just simply by typing.
Maybe its the cold im having, or what, but i just think i'll stop here. I'll continue another time.
Have a nice day ahead (:
Labels: I'll remember you.