EILEEN LOO YI ZHEN;
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
11:36 PM
Knives
Knives
I seem to be at some loggerheads with knives. No matter when i use them, im sure i'll definitely be cut. Like what happen while i was working in fairprice last time,
And of course, just 5 minutes ago.
My grandfather told me to cut some apples for him, i was trying to cut them as nicely as possible when.. the jagged edge of that stupid knife just slice my finger. what the hell right? then blood trickled out again, and it stained a part of the apple which i threw away.
Plastered my finger already, so im fine. The tasty apple made the cut on my finger worthwhile, though i know most peeps get to eat an apple as tasty without being cut.
Up next, i'll be joining a CCA. i cant decide between dragon boating, and the pugilistic( is that how its spelled?) society. I wanna be the drummer if i join the pugilistic society, but i wanna row a boat. not to gawk at guys ar, mind you.
And do not say anything about the boat rowing me instead of me rowing the boat, unless you want a stubbed toe.
so shush.
There are many things in life in which we'll make wrong decisions, and eventually do the wrong things. I dont know if im doing something wrong right now, but, whatever i do, i hope for everything to be the best for you, me and everyone.
Ciao.
And of course, just 5 minutes ago.
My grandfather told me to cut some apples for him, i was trying to cut them as nicely as possible when.. the jagged edge of that stupid knife just slice my finger. what the hell right? then blood trickled out again, and it stained a part of the apple which i threw away.
Plastered my finger already, so im fine. The tasty apple made the cut on my finger worthwhile, though i know most peeps get to eat an apple as tasty without being cut.
Up next, i'll be joining a CCA. i cant decide between dragon boating, and the pugilistic( is that how its spelled?) society. I wanna be the drummer if i join the pugilistic society, but i wanna row a boat. not to gawk at guys ar, mind you.
And do not say anything about the boat rowing me instead of me rowing the boat, unless you want a stubbed toe.
so shush.
There are many things in life in which we'll make wrong decisions, and eventually do the wrong things. I dont know if im doing something wrong right now, but, whatever i do, i hope for everything to be the best for you, me and everyone.
Ciao.
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
4:38 AM
My cute cousin.
My cute cousin.
Hellos. Today, school ended at 1230, and so all of us, NYJCians, went back to damai. It was fun. And i felt kinda sad for this teacher. He is Mr C. When i was in Damai last time, he looked like a comedian, he joked so much, and you know, he never really looked like that sorta man.. you know..the sort who is the one who has cooped up feelings.. and i felt so sad. Sad that i never got the chance to get to really know him more than just his facade. He is a really nice teacher. He tells us ( gavin, hui ting and i ) about how much he'd suffered in school while teaching, and how much injustice and all that some of the teachers and even the principal! I shall not elaborate about what he said to us. We talked for quite a long time, and it feels so nice to be back there again. But yay! he gave me his number, lol, not just me, the others as well. I love him man! ;) Mr toh also talked to us and then we shook hands for the second time. Mr Toh is nice, really. think Damai is improving, and that is really good. YAY! On a sad note, rasina didnt make it to NYJC, im so sad. sad, sad. but, no matter what happens, we'll always be friends, i know we will. We promised to work hard together, and strive for A levels together. And be a teacher together... So many things, i wonder and wonder, and i hope too, that we'll never drift apart. Hui ting, Gavin and Ellene got into the same CG. I got into the same CG as haniffa. Its alright. I dont care anymore. We can all stll crash each others' lectures together. I went back to my primary school just now too, i had to bring my niece to her tuition. It feels weird to be walking into the front gate and swinging on the monkey bars. To be walking up the stairs, into the toilets, and even watching the fishes swimming in the pond under the staircase leading to the hall. It was kinda nostalgic, but nevertheless, Damai Primary is a place a grew up in, and even though i dont like it as much as my secondary school, i still have to appreciate the fact that the school is still around and that i'll have a chance to go back now and then. Oh, i ate ice cream just now, just a change from the normal routine of Popsicles.
Karyn and her momsie!#1
karyn and her momsie #2
lol, karyn and her ice cream painted face, so cute!
Karyn digging for ice cream
My dad treated us to a can of abalone, lol. it was nice.
Hmm, i guess i'll end this post soon, i wanna go to bed, im tired. lol.
GOODNIGHT PEEPS!
n___n
Karyn and her momsie!#1
karyn and her momsie #2
lol, karyn and her ice cream painted face, so cute!
Karyn digging for ice cream
My dad treated us to a can of abalone, lol. it was nice.
Hmm, i guess i'll end this post soon, i wanna go to bed, im tired. lol.
GOODNIGHT PEEPS!
n___n
Monday, February 25, 2008
3:10 AM
Blogging
Blogging
I wanna blog, and i dont wanna blog. lol, sounds contradicting right? i do wanna blog about the things that have happened and what i feel nowadays, but then again, im lazy. Maybe you shouldnt call it lazy, its just, the chemistry, maths and literature subjects are like killing all my brain cells. Ugh. I am tired, and at the same time, i look forward to school. Today is the first day i wore my NYJC uniform to school. NYJC uniform is alright, the shirt, is sorta cinched at the end so that you dont have to tuck in. you simply fold in and it wont fall off. It's sorta cool. The problem is my skirt, lol. It's tailored till its kinda short...and i dont feel secure wearing it. Well, anyway, it cant be amended now i guess. Not sure if it's possible, maybe i'll ask the tailor someday. I look forward to school, but at the same time, i look forward to the March holidays. Ironic isn't it? I dont know. wish rasina is in the same school as me, because it sucks, really. It sucks like hell not having her around. We usually depend alot on each other. She's like a pillar of support to me. When there were those times in class whereby i cried because i was sad, she'd always be there. She'd laugh at me for crying and that'd make me laugh and the waterworks will stop. We laugh at the stupid, little things. even when we almost fall down or like say something wrong, we'll shoot each other this knowing look and then we'll crack up.
Life is so fun with her. I really really wish she can be in the same school as me. I really miss her too. Anyway, tomorrow the results of her appeal will be out. Im crossing my entire body for her. Hope she makes it.
My friends in my school call me watermelon. know why?
lol, i think now you do.
And boy, i really gotta do something about my hair colour, or the bio lecturer will have me beheaded. u__u
Bye for now!
Life is so fun with her. I really really wish she can be in the same school as me. I really miss her too. Anyway, tomorrow the results of her appeal will be out. Im crossing my entire body for her. Hope she makes it.
My friends in my school call me watermelon. know why?
lol, i think now you do.
And boy, i really gotta do something about my hair colour, or the bio lecturer will have me beheaded. u__u
Bye for now!
Saturday, February 23, 2008
6:49 AM
the movie
the movie
My favourite movie ; I watched it just now. It was also shown on the TV last year, 2007, around June, also on a Saturday, The feelings i had that time while watching that movie, they still remain.
It's nostalgia, accompanied with a little of regret, and maybe sorrow.
I dont know what to say, i didnt know movies can make me feel like that. I guess, maybe its not the movie, its the cooped up feelings.
Yes, you've guessed it right,
The movie is 50 first dates.
It's nostalgia, accompanied with a little of regret, and maybe sorrow.
I dont know what to say, i didnt know movies can make me feel like that. I guess, maybe its not the movie, its the cooped up feelings.
Yes, you've guessed it right,
The movie is 50 first dates.
Friday, February 22, 2008
5:45 PM
Hmmmmm
Hmmmmm
So, i have to apologize for the really short and crappy post i did yesterday. After the post, i went off to Tiong Bahru Plaza to meet chun kiat and Aaron. Andy didnt come because he pulled out last minute. That guy is not steady, boo -.- I was terribly late. The movie started at 645 and i reached there only at 7. Nevertheless, nobody blamed me and we proceeded to watch the movie. Hmm, the movie is not fantastically fabulous or what, yes, it's a movie by Jack Neo, i think it's called Ah Long or what. The plot is not a predictable one, but most parts of the movie are lame. I'll give it a 6 outta 10 i guess. So, i'll skip the story of the movie and move on. After the movie, i was damn exhausted. Tiong Bahru is not a familiar place to me and i didnt know how to go home besides the train, lol. Aaron accompanied me to the bus stop, and i realized that there's a number 5 at that bus stop, and i was feeling super happy, lol. too bad, Aaron hasn't got a bus to get home so he went back to taking the train. We parted ways after exchanging " see you's" and stuffs ( why am i typing as though yesterday is a composition? ) nevermind. and yeah, i waited for number 5, and went home. the bus ride took about 40 minutes, thus, while in the bus, i played with my brother's psp. I finally won the face off muscle in burntout after 3 attempts, YESSSS!
I reached home, ate chocolates and slept.
Today, i woke up at 8 plus, an unusual time for me to wake up since im not one who wakes up early. anyway, i cant sleep, so i just dragged my lazy tush outta my bed and went to brush my teeth. Ate some pineapple tarts and a cup of 3 in 1 mocha coffee ( i dont have the habit of drinking coffee, i dont even know why i have decided to even make my myself a cup of it, well screw that. ) and switched on the computer. Im giving the kids tuition later, Aunty Rose is gonna pay me 200 bucks for her primary 4 daughter. I think its too much, even my mom thinks she shouldnt give me that much, but well, the kids like me(: I think the greatest satisfaction of teaching is not the money you get at the end of a month, it is actually the kids' feelings towards you. When you know they like you, it gives you an additional boost to work harder so that you wont fail them. Im not an experienced tutor, but at least i know im trying my best. Last week, i told them to look for words to replace " eat" and "drink". But, i havent done mine yet. So, im trying to rack my peabrain for some words. Words like gobble, devour, swallow, munch, crunch. These words, i dont know, i cant think of further words. Well, maybe i'll search for it in the thesaurus or something.
I attended school at NYJC from last wednesday. I look forward to schooling there, though the journey from my house to the school is long, i really dont mind. The people there, they are fab, and the school is just as good. We'll be having our orientation camp on the4,5,6 and 7 of march. I hope it'll be fun. Anyway, the only bad thing is, i didnt go for the first 3 weeks thingy, which is the reason why im sorta suffering right now. Especially chemistry. The lecturer didnt even start from the beginning unlike the others. Boo! I tried to read up on the notes, but to no avail because half of it didnt even make any sense to me. Whats subshells, obitals and whattheshit man? UGHHHH. i think i'll have to go and ask Chun Kiat or whoever is free to help me. Im really lost at the moment and the chemistry lecturer doesn't look friendly enough for me to consult him, haha. I love literature lessons, the teachers is real nice, and whenever i dont understand something, i'll ask. There isn't really any shame because the class is kinda small, and i just shoot my doubts whenever i have any. The current poem, " the signpost" is quite difficult. Haniffa and i cant seem to figure out the last part. Thus, i think we'll have to ask the teacher next monday.
Woah, i think this is a rather long post? i dont know. Maybe half of the post is just crap because i've been smashing on the keyboard so furiously and the words juts keep coming out without any probing. lol.
"SW0gbm90IHNvbWUgcHJldHR5IGtpY2sgYXNzIGJhYmUsIGJ1dCBpIHRoaW5rIGkndmUgZ290IGlu
bmVyIGJlYXV0eS4="
The above line is not just an anyhow-typed-words. lol. go figure out if you have the time though.
You know, something is really bugging me alot. Many friends who have went to other JCs, they have made new friends, i cant say i havent because i have too. But, most of them sorta just drifted away already. We promised each other it wont happen, but i guess the promise doesnt stand anymore. I think the next time i see joel on the street, i doubt i'll even have anything to say. SIGHHHHHHHH. It's lucky that Rasina and i sms each other frequently so we wont lose touch. Thats all. I think im done with this post.
" I used to hate endings.
Finality terrified me.
The end - so ominous.
Endings are now New Beginnings,
A place to start over,
A time to become someone new.
Today I can beging to create my life as I want it to be.
I used to hate endings.
Now it is the beginnings that terrify me."
I reached home, ate chocolates and slept.
Today, i woke up at 8 plus, an unusual time for me to wake up since im not one who wakes up early. anyway, i cant sleep, so i just dragged my lazy tush outta my bed and went to brush my teeth. Ate some pineapple tarts and a cup of 3 in 1 mocha coffee ( i dont have the habit of drinking coffee, i dont even know why i have decided to even make my myself a cup of it, well screw that. ) and switched on the computer. Im giving the kids tuition later, Aunty Rose is gonna pay me 200 bucks for her primary 4 daughter. I think its too much, even my mom thinks she shouldnt give me that much, but well, the kids like me(: I think the greatest satisfaction of teaching is not the money you get at the end of a month, it is actually the kids' feelings towards you. When you know they like you, it gives you an additional boost to work harder so that you wont fail them. Im not an experienced tutor, but at least i know im trying my best. Last week, i told them to look for words to replace " eat" and "drink". But, i havent done mine yet. So, im trying to rack my peabrain for some words. Words like gobble, devour, swallow, munch, crunch. These words, i dont know, i cant think of further words. Well, maybe i'll search for it in the thesaurus or something.
I attended school at NYJC from last wednesday. I look forward to schooling there, though the journey from my house to the school is long, i really dont mind. The people there, they are fab, and the school is just as good. We'll be having our orientation camp on the4,5,6 and 7 of march. I hope it'll be fun. Anyway, the only bad thing is, i didnt go for the first 3 weeks thingy, which is the reason why im sorta suffering right now. Especially chemistry. The lecturer didnt even start from the beginning unlike the others. Boo! I tried to read up on the notes, but to no avail because half of it didnt even make any sense to me. Whats subshells, obitals and whattheshit man? UGHHHH. i think i'll have to go and ask Chun Kiat or whoever is free to help me. Im really lost at the moment and the chemistry lecturer doesn't look friendly enough for me to consult him, haha. I love literature lessons, the teachers is real nice, and whenever i dont understand something, i'll ask. There isn't really any shame because the class is kinda small, and i just shoot my doubts whenever i have any. The current poem, " the signpost" is quite difficult. Haniffa and i cant seem to figure out the last part. Thus, i think we'll have to ask the teacher next monday.
Woah, i think this is a rather long post? i dont know. Maybe half of the post is just crap because i've been smashing on the keyboard so furiously and the words juts keep coming out without any probing. lol.
"SW0gbm90IHNvbWUgcHJldHR5IGtpY2sgYXNzIGJhYmUsIGJ1dCBpIHRoaW5rIGkndmUgZ290IGlu
bmVyIGJlYXV0eS4="
The above line is not just an anyhow-typed-words. lol. go figure out if you have the time though.
You know, something is really bugging me alot. Many friends who have went to other JCs, they have made new friends, i cant say i havent because i have too. But, most of them sorta just drifted away already. We promised each other it wont happen, but i guess the promise doesnt stand anymore. I think the next time i see joel on the street, i doubt i'll even have anything to say. SIGHHHHHHHH. It's lucky that Rasina and i sms each other frequently so we wont lose touch. Thats all. I think im done with this post.
" I used to hate endings.
Finality terrified me.
The end - so ominous.
Endings are now New Beginnings,
A place to start over,
A time to become someone new.
Today I can beging to create my life as I want it to be.
I used to hate endings.
Now it is the beginnings that terrify me."
12:15 AM
NYJC
NYJC
Hello! Im so sorry that i havent blogged for days. Sorry! i really am always so tired after every schoolday. It's just so tiring, for me. I have to take a 50 minute journey to and from NYJC every day. And im not complaining, because i love Nanyang JC. It's a really nice school, and the people there are nice too! The only bad thing about going to a JC is that you have to keep printing your own notes, and its simply a waste of ink, but quoting what the principal had said, " Knowledge is priceless" so yeah, i just have to keep printing notes. Besides that, the GC is so expensive! 145 bucks for a normal black one. What the hell right? But then, its inevitable, we all need it. So, well, just buy it i guess. I love the school compound. We got an air-conditioned hall, a lift, a squash court, and a very cute library. Hmm, there are also many choices of CCa. I really dont know what CCA to take, i was thinking of volleyball, but then, haniffa, hui ting and gavin laughed at me because, i dont look like the sporty kind. So well, i dont know. Actually, im sorry this post is like so messy but its because i gotta go and bathe and rush out to meet the guys at Tiong Bahru plaza, we're going to catch a movie. They are not damaians, they are new friends i made from my OG. Anyway, my subject combi is: Biology H2, Mathematics H2, Chemistry H2, and lastly, Literature in English H1. I know many people will laugh at me for taking Lit and not Econs. Well, too bad then. I dont like Econs.
JC is a new beginning, and like what haniffa says, you either make it, or break it. I guess there's only one option that i can take huh.
Im going off soon. I really gotta rush, just cramming in a totally outlined post of these few days. Will talk more about it someday!
From my literature: the road not taken by robert frost,
" the road not taken is the road more real, because the thinking of it consumes your heart till it becomes as real as you want it to be."
JC is a new beginning, and like what haniffa says, you either make it, or break it. I guess there's only one option that i can take huh.
Im going off soon. I really gotta rush, just cramming in a totally outlined post of these few days. Will talk more about it someday!
From my literature: the road not taken by robert frost,
" the road not taken is the road more real, because the thinking of it consumes your heart till it becomes as real as you want it to be."
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
1:45 AM
Gavin's birthday
Gavin's birthday
Yesterday was Gavin's birthday, 180208. We went out together. The we, being, berlisa, me, rasina and gavin. IT was fun, except, there isn't really any place in singapore where we can go to which we haven't been before. So, it was also a little boring. I have got several pictures, thought there are still more of them in the others' phones. Gavin treated us to KFC in the end, for dinner. A pity Berlisa wasn't there, or not, we could have finished the entire KFC meal. lol. So, below are the pictures.
Oh, there's something i'll like to say though. The JAE results is out, and im posted to Nanyang JC. It's not in the least bit shocking or what since i have expected myself to get into that school. The only sad thing about going there is that, Rasina is not posted to that school. She's posted to TPJC. WE went to Nanyang JC to help her with her appeal just now, but truthfully, in my heart, i just got this feeling that its not gonna work. Im not being bad, of course, i'll like her to get into the same JC as me. But..i dont know.
Whatever happens, we both know that we'll always be friends forever, no matter.
PICTURES>
my eeyore?
Berlisa in gothic
Gavin and Berlisa
Gavin on the barney car.
My favourite drink in KFC
Mashed potato's cheers*
There was so much food, we couldn't finish it in the end ):
Berlisa, me and Gavin, we were smiling BIG BIG
Gavin and i, we were looking at Berlisa's camera!
Candid
We were trying to copy the cinderella story scene, lol.
Our shoes,
Thats where we went
Emo birthday boy?
Berlisa, Rasina, Gavin.
I was the photographer.
Just for fun,
Only gavin and i were smiling):
Hmm, i'll end this post now. Im really tired. Will have to go to my new school tomorrow. i dont know what it holds though. bye!
Friends forever, no matter.
Oh, there's something i'll like to say though. The JAE results is out, and im posted to Nanyang JC. It's not in the least bit shocking or what since i have expected myself to get into that school. The only sad thing about going there is that, Rasina is not posted to that school. She's posted to TPJC. WE went to Nanyang JC to help her with her appeal just now, but truthfully, in my heart, i just got this feeling that its not gonna work. Im not being bad, of course, i'll like her to get into the same JC as me. But..i dont know.
Whatever happens, we both know that we'll always be friends forever, no matter.
PICTURES>
my eeyore?
Berlisa in gothic
Gavin and Berlisa
Gavin on the barney car.
My favourite drink in KFC
Mashed potato's cheers*
There was so much food, we couldn't finish it in the end ):
Berlisa, me and Gavin, we were smiling BIG BIG
Gavin and i, we were looking at Berlisa's camera!
Candid
We were trying to copy the cinderella story scene, lol.
Our shoes,
Thats where we went
Emo birthday boy?
Berlisa, Rasina, Gavin.
I was the photographer.
Just for fun,
Only gavin and i were smiling):
Hmm, i'll end this post now. Im really tired. Will have to go to my new school tomorrow. i dont know what it holds though. bye!
Friends forever, no matter.
Sunday, February 17, 2008
1:13 AM
Apologies
Apologies
Okay, im sorry, i will apologise. i said i wont be blogging for a long time, but in truth, i really cannot abstain from blogging. Maybe blogging has already formed a large portion of my life? Me thinks its a habit already>.<>YESTERDAY
Hui ting met me at tampines and we took 27 to punggol there, to visit Ms veron. Tan's house first. We were in the bus, and i was eating my old chang kee's curry puff, when we realised that we were lost already. We're somewhere near compassvale and we didnt know where to go since she stays in punggol. We asked around for directions, and it was really tiring, because i had been working my last day at Fairprice in the morning, and getting lost in nowhere is really an irritating situation to be caught in. So, i was fuming. We called Ms tan, and asked her for directions. Then we followed her directions.. And guess what? We ended up lost again somewhere in Sengkang. It was annoying!
Bus 83 saved our lives, mine because my legs would give way any moment if i were to continue walking, and hers because i'd have killed her if we still couldnt find a way to their houses. Because bus 83 only goes to Mrs lee's house, we went there first. Her house is pretty, with all the precious thoughts collection - 3 cabinets fulled of them. It is beautiful, but i still prefers ms tan's house. We went to Ms tan's house at 4 and around 6 plus, hui ting went home first. And the rest of us continued to stay there. Ms tan is so generous. she ordered pizza, sushi and even willingly served us the bak kua she queued 3 hours for. She also gave us chocolates from the cadbury milk tray, it is yummy! After that, we played taboo. there were two teams. my team consisted of Ms tan, Xue yuan, derrick, leslie and of course, me. the other team consisted of Eileen T, Raymond, Edmund, Pingboon and hui yee. It was funny because Ms tan kept telling us ," It's not a charade!" because we tried to get our point across by using hand signals which is not allowed. We also watched Ms tan's wedding video and her wedding album. She is so pretty in her wedding gown.Her dogs - Pepper and Ginger, they are so cute. I swear im gonna get a dog when i grow up... We had so much fun that i barely felt the exhaustion until the minute i collapsed on my own sofa around 11.
And yeah, my disloyal phone died on me while i was at Ms tan's house.
End of yesterday. I slept okay-ly.
TODAY
I woke up at 10 plus, and went online. Then i rushed to marine terrace to give Aunty Rose's kids tuition. Her kids are so hardworking, and they paid me 98% of their attention. It was so windy at the void deck ( I didnt went to their house because their grandmother was sleeping i think) and it was cooling too. Taught the primary four girl factors, multiples and even/ odd numbers, and also an english compre. Taught the sec 2 boy coordinate geometry. IT went well, they were friendly.
Except the first part whereby they laughed at me.
I was lost after i alighted at the bus stop. I alighted at the bus stop at bock 57, and i didnt know how to walk to block 15. Tried to walk there on my own and i ended up lost. So, i called them and then they laughed at me. Oh well, not a very good beginning but at least the kids aren't like my brother. If not, i could have crumple into a heap on the floor and die.
End of this post i guess.
nothing much, but well, i think there'll be some pictures..
Yi Chen - stuck in the island of boxes.
the roses i received on Vday.
Mine.
My very sexxay momsie.
My very very cute cousin.
Camera shy ## poor stuffed animals*
Camera shy
Bye bye, they are going home.
the mister blue bear i got for him at Vday. Sorry, not a very fab idea, i know.
Friday, February 15, 2008
7:47 AM
My name
My name
What does Eileen Loo Yi Zhen means?
"You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.
You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.
You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.
You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.
Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.
You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.
You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.
You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.
At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.
You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in.
You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising.
You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care.
You are incredibly wise and perceptive. You have a lot of life experience.
You are a natural peacemaker, and you are especially good at helping others get along.
But keeping the peace in your own life is not easy. You see things very differently, and it's hard to get you to budge.
You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.
Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.
Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person."
Thats what my name means?
"You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.
You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.
You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.
You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.
Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.
You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.
You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.
You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.
At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.
You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in.
You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising.
You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care.
You are incredibly wise and perceptive. You have a lot of life experience.
You are a natural peacemaker, and you are especially good at helping others get along.
But keeping the peace in your own life is not easy. You see things very differently, and it's hard to get you to budge.
You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.
Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.
Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person."
Thats what my name means?
5:05 AM
sad
sad
Where should i start? Its been days since i blogged, and no, i didnt go for any holiday.I just dont know what to blog, so i didnt. I have been thinking about so many things over this couple of days. Tried to sort out my thoughts over sleepless nights. Tried to be happy and upbeat about everything when everything just seems to be crumbling all on the floor. Reality crushed my dreams and hopes of having anything miraculous to happen, and i felt so sad. And guilty.And miserable. And fucked up. So, where should i start? the phone call just now? The presents? Yes, i should start from Valentine's day.
I had so many things from you at Valentine's day, roses, chocolates and a huge teddy- the presents all girls will go yaya over. But, i felt even more guilty. I just cant take all that. You wanted to pass it to me at my workplace, but in the end, somehow i persuaded you to drop it at my house. I felt so guilty, all the guilt pouring over me like raindrops from the clouds. All through work, i struggled to think properly, of what i had to do, things that i have to do and things that i shouldn't do.But i just couldn't think properly. Persuaded Nisha to buy me a bottle of Barcardi Breezers, I think there're some alcoholic level in it.Wanted tiger beer, but i figured that there're still Carlsberg at home so i decided against it.
drank it at home, in gulps. and i realised, its bullshit. It doesn't even taste like beer. Pffft.
Helped mom with certain stuffs like the praying thingy, because we had to pray at night, and i felt so drowsy and slept. The sleep was the best one i had in days, because i fell asleep so quickly. Maybe its the beer, or maybe i really were just too exhausted from thinking and thinking and thinking. And i woke up at 9 plus, ate a little and helped mom prepare the stuffs for the praying. Sat down, stood up, watered the roses, sat down,stood up, put the chocolates in the refrigerator, sat down, stood up, and took the bear, sat down again, hugged the bear, closed my eyes and thought of what to do again/ and again/ and again.
Prayed. And it ended at 3plus am in the morning. The rest of the family went home,and most of my siblings and parents went to sleep. Except my sister and i. tired as she was, she talked to me and gave me advice. She told me, he's a nice guy, the best one you ever have. i shouldnt hurt him, i should think properly, and do the things that i feel is ther best for the both of us. I should analyze what we are, and how we feel and all those. And i did, i spent the entire night thinking about it and i slept at around 9am in the morning. woke up at 10 am to prepare and meet wei ling and hui ting at wei ling's house. I had to go visiting at her house because i do so every year as im quite close to her mother. It took my mind off things for awhile.
After that, we went to hui ting's house, then to AMK hub for god knows what reason, and then to my house. After that, they went home- and im back to thinking again/ I think i think too much. I went to bathe, i took a long time, because i usually think alot when im bathing. And i sorted out what i had to do.
So, now, lets begin with the part on the phone call.
The truth: i cant do it. And i didnt. I just couldn't/ Its cruel, and not just that, i just simply cant. Dont ask me why. I cant break it to him. stammered my way through and i still didnt say anything/
So, what happened?
I talked to him over MSN. You must be wondering what i had been thinking that led me to the decision of us breaking.
The simple truth: i cant forget the man of the past. Everything Tian seng do, it just reminds me of what joseph will do in his place. At least, when i had been single, i didnt think that much. Now, i seem to be just comparing him and him. It's so stressful. and i really cant handle this.
Now, we're just friends. Is this what i want? I dont know. Im miserable like one emotionally wrecked and fucked up weepy person who hadn't slept for days. A relationship in which i cant be honest to is not healthy. I cant say im happy when im obviously not, and i cant say i have forgotten the past when i haven't.
Im sad, real sad.
Im the biggest jerk in the entire world
The most cowardly one too.
And please, dont be so nice to me, i really cant take it. All i wanna do now is to hide myself under the blanket for days and not come out.
Dont think i'll be blogging for days.
I'll put up pictures of wei ling and hui ting soon ( camera shy) but not now.
Goodnight.
I had so many things from you at Valentine's day, roses, chocolates and a huge teddy- the presents all girls will go yaya over. But, i felt even more guilty. I just cant take all that. You wanted to pass it to me at my workplace, but in the end, somehow i persuaded you to drop it at my house. I felt so guilty, all the guilt pouring over me like raindrops from the clouds. All through work, i struggled to think properly, of what i had to do, things that i have to do and things that i shouldn't do.But i just couldn't think properly. Persuaded Nisha to buy me a bottle of Barcardi Breezers, I think there're some alcoholic level in it.Wanted tiger beer, but i figured that there're still Carlsberg at home so i decided against it.
drank it at home, in gulps. and i realised, its bullshit. It doesn't even taste like beer. Pffft.
Helped mom with certain stuffs like the praying thingy, because we had to pray at night, and i felt so drowsy and slept. The sleep was the best one i had in days, because i fell asleep so quickly. Maybe its the beer, or maybe i really were just too exhausted from thinking and thinking and thinking. And i woke up at 9 plus, ate a little and helped mom prepare the stuffs for the praying. Sat down, stood up, watered the roses, sat down,stood up, put the chocolates in the refrigerator, sat down, stood up, and took the bear, sat down again, hugged the bear, closed my eyes and thought of what to do again/ and again/ and again.
Prayed. And it ended at 3plus am in the morning. The rest of the family went home,and most of my siblings and parents went to sleep. Except my sister and i. tired as she was, she talked to me and gave me advice. She told me, he's a nice guy, the best one you ever have. i shouldnt hurt him, i should think properly, and do the things that i feel is ther best for the both of us. I should analyze what we are, and how we feel and all those. And i did, i spent the entire night thinking about it and i slept at around 9am in the morning. woke up at 10 am to prepare and meet wei ling and hui ting at wei ling's house. I had to go visiting at her house because i do so every year as im quite close to her mother. It took my mind off things for awhile.
After that, we went to hui ting's house, then to AMK hub for god knows what reason, and then to my house. After that, they went home- and im back to thinking again/ I think i think too much. I went to bathe, i took a long time, because i usually think alot when im bathing. And i sorted out what i had to do.
So, now, lets begin with the part on the phone call.
The truth: i cant do it. And i didnt. I just couldn't/ Its cruel, and not just that, i just simply cant. Dont ask me why. I cant break it to him. stammered my way through and i still didnt say anything/
So, what happened?
I talked to him over MSN. You must be wondering what i had been thinking that led me to the decision of us breaking.
The simple truth: i cant forget the man of the past. Everything Tian seng do, it just reminds me of what joseph will do in his place. At least, when i had been single, i didnt think that much. Now, i seem to be just comparing him and him. It's so stressful. and i really cant handle this.
Now, we're just friends. Is this what i want? I dont know. Im miserable like one emotionally wrecked and fucked up weepy person who hadn't slept for days. A relationship in which i cant be honest to is not healthy. I cant say im happy when im obviously not, and i cant say i have forgotten the past when i haven't.
Im sad, real sad.
Im the biggest jerk in the entire world
The most cowardly one too.
And please, dont be so nice to me, i really cant take it. All i wanna do now is to hide myself under the blanket for days and not come out.
Dont think i'll be blogging for days.
I'll put up pictures of wei ling and hui ting soon ( camera shy) but not now.
Goodnight.
Monday, February 11, 2008
6:36 AM
hello
hello
Hellos! Im currently at my sort of aunt's house. And i've been watching the MTV channel since 5 plus. Just now, i watched a show on the tv, its channel 8 i think. Its about this woman who's anorexic ( uh, is it the correct spelling?) , and so she'll vomit everytime she eats rice. Wow, then the guys made sushi and chocolate rice balls for her you know! Just to help her overcome the fear of eating. It seems nice. well, its my first time watching it, and im pretty sure it'll be the last because i'll definitely not remember to watch it. Im still here at Aunt's house, and the boredom is not that overwhelming compared to last times while i'd been there. i guess i'll go home in a few minutes, but i thought i'll just write a bloggie junk to satisfy the boredom of some people. I'll be starting work tomorrow, and i dread going back there to work. It'll be boring without haniffa, and even more uber irritating with miss mamaboobalicious..I dont know how in the world i'll pull through that because the main pulling factor that keeps me going back to the job would be the friends i have there. haniffa, yi chen, harris ( yes, i said harris). Though he bullied me all the time, but well, at least it was entertaining with him around. Umm, i gotta go guys, Dont miss me too much (x
Goodnight!
Goodnight!
Sunday, February 10, 2008
2:32 AM
DADDDDDY!
DADDDDDY!
DADDDDDYYY! I MISS YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Dad called us at 1 plus last night! Or early morning, whatever you call it.
He talked to each of us one by one!
I felt so happy.
I was so excited, i shouted " dadddddy!" into the phone.
then he told me not to talk so loud, his eardrums will burst/
boo` haha.
He'll be home on wednesday!
I miss him so so much!
Slept at 3 plus yesterday and was forced to wake up at 10 plus by my mom.
She needed help with the prayers thingy.
So, all of us woke up and did our share.
Then my sister went back to sleep.
Actually, it's normal for her to do so, since she slept at 6 plus.
She woke up at 4 plus.
10 Hours sister! Way to go(:
Okay, this post is crap.
wahaha. 3 more days to go, daddy!
And Joel and Joseph are back from aussieland(:
Goodbye!
Dad called us at 1 plus last night! Or early morning, whatever you call it.
He talked to each of us one by one!
I felt so happy.
I was so excited, i shouted " dadddddy!" into the phone.
then he told me not to talk so loud, his eardrums will burst/
boo` haha.
He'll be home on wednesday!
I miss him so so much!
Slept at 3 plus yesterday and was forced to wake up at 10 plus by my mom.
She needed help with the prayers thingy.
So, all of us woke up and did our share.
Then my sister went back to sleep.
Actually, it's normal for her to do so, since she slept at 6 plus.
She woke up at 4 plus.
10 Hours sister! Way to go(:
Okay, this post is crap.
wahaha. 3 more days to go, daddy!
And Joel and Joseph are back from aussieland(:
Goodbye!
Saturday, February 9, 2008
6:59 AM
Paranoia
Paranoia
" It's not your problem , it's mine"
I admit it. It really is me. It was alright at the reservoir, I'll be really frank here okay?
During the whole time there, i was really thinking about many things.
I started feeling sad since this morning, when dad kissed me on the cheek before he left for hong kong. I already felt like crying then, but i was tired, and he told me to go back to sleep.
Which, i did. But i woke up several hours later to meet you for a walk round the reservoir. Yeah, you guys may be wondering why we walked instead of ran, but, its really because i was too tired. And i still am, no doubt.
The whole time at the reservoir, i was wondering why i didnt see the body of blue water gazing back at me at its prettiest. It didnt even look pretty. Which, really puzzles me.
Since, the place i really frequent when i am sad, will be the bedok reservoir. And i really do think that the body of water is amazing from all sorts of angles.
Maybe i really am wrong.
I was even stupid enough to sms-ed you, " do you feel anything lacking between us"
From which you replied "no".
I felt like a complete retard. Sure i knew i had hurt your feelings.
Blame it on me. I am straightforward.
Or maybe i really just dont like to bottle up anymore.
After that, i talked to my sister and Zul, praying for some words of wisdom, which, they no doubt provided me with plenty.
To which, i was glad. Thank you.
I really was enlightened. Repeating the first line of the post " It's not your problem, its mine"
The problem lies with me.
I really cant compare the first time and the second time.
Because obviously they will be different.
Maybe the reservoir really didnt look ugly,
Maybe it just looked different this morning , because i had viewed it with a different person.
No, im convinced. It wasn't ugly.
It was different.
Im done with this post, and at the moment, im unsure if i should even post it.
But i figured that i shouldnt hide anything, since its my blog, i guess, im going to put it down.
I'll conclude this post with a goodnight to everyone and a sorry to tianseng.
Mood : Momentary sadness.
Give me some time to cheer up.
I admit it. It really is me. It was alright at the reservoir, I'll be really frank here okay?
During the whole time there, i was really thinking about many things.
I started feeling sad since this morning, when dad kissed me on the cheek before he left for hong kong. I already felt like crying then, but i was tired, and he told me to go back to sleep.
Which, i did. But i woke up several hours later to meet you for a walk round the reservoir. Yeah, you guys may be wondering why we walked instead of ran, but, its really because i was too tired. And i still am, no doubt.
The whole time at the reservoir, i was wondering why i didnt see the body of blue water gazing back at me at its prettiest. It didnt even look pretty. Which, really puzzles me.
Since, the place i really frequent when i am sad, will be the bedok reservoir. And i really do think that the body of water is amazing from all sorts of angles.
Maybe i really am wrong.
I was even stupid enough to sms-ed you, " do you feel anything lacking between us"
From which you replied "no".
I felt like a complete retard. Sure i knew i had hurt your feelings.
Blame it on me. I am straightforward.
Or maybe i really just dont like to bottle up anymore.
After that, i talked to my sister and Zul, praying for some words of wisdom, which, they no doubt provided me with plenty.
To which, i was glad. Thank you.
I really was enlightened. Repeating the first line of the post " It's not your problem, its mine"
The problem lies with me.
I really cant compare the first time and the second time.
Because obviously they will be different.
Maybe the reservoir really didnt look ugly,
Maybe it just looked different this morning , because i had viewed it with a different person.
No, im convinced. It wasn't ugly.
It was different.
Im done with this post, and at the moment, im unsure if i should even post it.
But i figured that i shouldnt hide anything, since its my blog, i guess, im going to put it down.
I'll conclude this post with a goodnight to everyone and a sorry to tianseng.
Mood : Momentary sadness.
Give me some time to cheer up.
Friday, February 8, 2008
1:42 AM
Fixing a broken heart
Fixing a broken heart
Fixing a broken heart.
For the lyrics, go to tianseng's blog(:
For the lyrics, go to tianseng's blog(:
12:18 AM
Ummm, many people says i havent blogged for a very very long time. Come on, people, it's only 2 days? lol. Hmm, so on the eve of chinese new year, i went to bed very late, or very early, because i slept at 6.05. Its a tradition for us to sleep late that night so that your parents can live longer. So, i slept very late so that my parents can live longer(: Slept till 9 plus, i didnt wanna wake up, but i had to because grandpa's leaving the house and i havent give him oranges yet. So, i rushed like mad and managed to give him the oranges before he left. After waiting for my family members to get ready, we went to my grandmother's house in Ang Mo Kio ( my momsie's side). I dont quite like to go there because it really is boring. The people there are so snobbish plus, i dont wanna see one of my cousins there. He is really pervertic! We ( one of my cousin and my siblings) , went to his house to play some games, since its only a couple of blocks away from my grandma's house. And he, ahem, took off his jeans infront of us, leaving him in his fcuking boxers. I am not going to mention the fact that his boxers wasn't even cute. zzZ. That guy has no naught knowledge about shame and DISGUST. After that, my family went to Sengkang there to visit my grandmother's sister. And i got some ang pows! We sat there awhile, most of the time, i was stoning, or otherwise, gorging. lol. Then my father dropped my sister at Yishun ( somewhere near Lower Seletar Reservoir,) and i was reminded about last year. On the same goddamn day of CNY, i went there with joseph. The same place. Was feeling kinda miserable when i perked up almost as immediately as i soured. Was going to meet Tianseng later. So, i was back at home. Then, i told him to call me once he took the 21 bus because i was tired and i wanna sleep. Snoozed, until my dad woke me up and asked me why i was still at home when i supposed to be out. Wa, got me frightened like mad, then i rushed down and called him. Lol, i foiled his plan of surprising me because i guessed that he was in the lift the minute i called him. The echoes gave him away. Met him at the lift lobby then we took 21 to Pasir Ris beach. It wasn;t empty. It was really crowded, many people were bbq-ing. The whole place reeked of fish and chicken wings and whatnot. But combined together, it was like EEW. So, we left, we took 403 and went to his house. I like his grandma! She's so funny. And we ate dinner together. WA, he snapped so many pictures of me when i was eating! -___________________- ugly lo. BOO`
But it was a happy day and i felt so hapy and at ease when i was at his home. I was only a little paiseh.
Or maybe, i am always that straightforward. Is it bad to be direct? Hmm, i dont know.
my sister and i. On the first day of CNY.
Somewhere near lower seletar reservoir, snapped it in the car. luckily, i was able to resist the urge to get of the car to LSR.
My bed, so blue! No more greeny.
Tianseng's ah ma. lol she's nice!
Goodbye people. Have a nice lunar new year.
Dad will be leaving singapore for hong kong tomorrow. Sure gonna miss him loads. Bon voyage, dad !
I love you Tianseng!
But it was a happy day and i felt so hapy and at ease when i was at his home. I was only a little paiseh.
Or maybe, i am always that straightforward. Is it bad to be direct? Hmm, i dont know.
my sister and i. On the first day of CNY.
Somewhere near lower seletar reservoir, snapped it in the car. luckily, i was able to resist the urge to get of the car to LSR.
My bed, so blue! No more greeny.
Tianseng's ah ma. lol she's nice!
Goodbye people. Have a nice lunar new year.
Dad will be leaving singapore for hong kong tomorrow. Sure gonna miss him loads. Bon voyage, dad !
I love you Tianseng!
Wednesday, February 6, 2008
2:57 AM
060208
060208
My first present from you , hopefully, its not the last! *winks*
I havent eaten it yet >.<
New curtains for my room(:
I knew i am happy, when i can do the mopping ( something i dont like to do) while trying to dance as though i know ballet.
WHHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEES~
Tuesday, February 5, 2008
8:42 AM
Start Afresh
Start Afresh
Today, i went to work as usual, the day went on like any other day, except, i cut my hand with a penknife because i was too sleepy, and haniffa was teasing me. So, i didnt pay attention to what i was cutting and ended up slitting my index finger. lol. At first, there wasnt any blood, so i tried to continue like nothing happened. But then, the blood started to trickle from my wound so i was scared, because i dont really like the sight of blood. So, i asked for a plaster, and mary gave me one. After that, around 2, Tianseng came(: He passed me the sunflower seeds. YAY! but i cant bear to eat it. Plus, every seed contains his sincerity(: And then i went shopping with my sister. We met each other at Bugis then went to look for certain things for our CNY cuz i havent gotten myself anything yet. Then we moved on to Orchard, lol i was sooo tired, and now i still am. but hey sister, It was sooo fun (: love you loads. Then, i MRT train-ed back to paya lebar to meet him. Wa, still an hour to go before he can knock off. So, i went to the office and,reluctantly, started picking a new list. He helped me with some and it was quite fun. After that, he took 21 back home with me(: Oh, and he actually gets car-sick over long journeys. I hope you're okay! I opened my sunflower seeds, for him but he didnt eat it): Nevermind.
And he bought me a box of plasters just cuz i've got a NOT SO SERIOUS WOUND on my index finger.
Hmmm, enough about today's ramblings. I have something important to say.
As of today, 5th Feb 2008, Kear Tianseng is officially my boyfriend! (x
He sent me home, and we climbed the stairs all the way to the 13th floor. Then when we reached, he told me he likes me. Then i told him i do like him too(: Yupps, we are gonna have such sweet dreams tonight ;D
I have not really eaten the sunflower seeds he gave me, i think im gonna keep it.
Hmm, you asked me if i've let go of the past. Im sorry but i dont know. I cant really. But im giving myself a chance. to love and be loved(: I am not a chiobu, im not pretty with straight hair neither have i ever been with curly hair, not now, never before and never will. You said you wont mind, right? (: hehs. I dont know how long we'll last because truthfully, i've never liked to think about stuffs like that, but whatever it is, let go of the past.
Its time to live for the future.
I love you! <3
And he bought me a box of plasters just cuz i've got a NOT SO SERIOUS WOUND on my index finger.
Hmmm, enough about today's ramblings. I have something important to say.
As of today, 5th Feb 2008, Kear Tianseng is officially my boyfriend! (x
He sent me home, and we climbed the stairs all the way to the 13th floor. Then when we reached, he told me he likes me. Then i told him i do like him too(: Yupps, we are gonna have such sweet dreams tonight ;D
I have not really eaten the sunflower seeds he gave me, i think im gonna keep it.
Hmm, you asked me if i've let go of the past. Im sorry but i dont know. I cant really. But im giving myself a chance. to love and be loved(: I am not a chiobu, im not pretty with straight hair neither have i ever been with curly hair, not now, never before and never will. You said you wont mind, right? (: hehs. I dont know how long we'll last because truthfully, i've never liked to think about stuffs like that, but whatever it is, let go of the past.
Its time to live for the future.
I love you! <3
Monday, February 4, 2008
12:24 AM
Ramblings
Ramblings
Hi, some ramblings for the day before someone force me to blog again, lol. Hmm, so work today was..BORING. really boring. i practically had to check my phone every five minutes to see if the time is actually moving, and you know what? Yes, the time is moving but at a freakingly snail pace. GRRRR. I got my pay today, and after deducting my CP and whatnot, i got 410 bucks like that. Which, i think is quite good, considering the fact that i havent even worked for a month yet. I've counted, and i've only worked for like 20 days. WOOTS~ Im gonna quit on the 16th of Feb, from 11th of feb, i have to work a lil bit more because most of us are quitting and the manpower is diminishing real fast. So, yeah, im really altruistic to sacrifice my holiday huh? bleahs`! I want my sunflower seeds(: [ i think this smiley is better than ._____. hehs] Gavin and family, well actually almost all my aunties and uncles are setting off for thailand today. Its actually not a great deal since they go to thailand to celebrate the new year ( they say the cultural celebration is really meaningful ), and dad will be going to hong kong too. I dont look forward to this new year. In fact, i think i dread it. I'll be so lonely, my sister will have her boyfriend for company. My brother only needs the computer to live, my mom keeps herself busy with the other relatives, so does my grandparents. i sorta feel kinda extra and left out.
Yeah, im going to feel so bored, what to do?
I dont know lol.
lol, the cartons were stacked up so high, yi chen took a picture of it too,
my empty void deck , lol, just like me.
the night sky of 030208. Its pretty.
The remnants of Yi Chen's artwork and my smiley face, nice right? (:
lol new flavour! edmund bought it for me. Its GREEN! ;D
my brother carrying my cousin outside Astons. I was inside when i took this photo.
Yeah, im going to feel so bored, what to do?
I dont know lol.
lol, the cartons were stacked up so high, yi chen took a picture of it too,
my empty void deck , lol, just like me.
the night sky of 030208. Its pretty.
The remnants of Yi Chen's artwork and my smiley face, nice right? (:
lol new flavour! edmund bought it for me. Its GREEN! ;D
my brother carrying my cousin outside Astons. I was inside when i took this photo.
Sunday, February 3, 2008
8:44 AM
WAAAAA, im like so tired already and yet sky forced me to blog blog blog. If i dont blog, then he dont blog. What kinda logic is that man? and even if i do blog, all that'll be coming out of my mouth will be nonsense.
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( see, i put your favourite smiley somemore)
zzZ. Tired like hell. I slept at 2 plus yesterday, and woke up at 12, lol. then, my whole family went out to have lunch at some hawker and then we proceeded to parkway for some last minute chinese new year shopping. Well, not really last minute la, but compared to the previous year, we are kinda late this time. So, we tried to shop for at least an outfit for the first CNY day. My mom was feeling sad just now because my dad kept criticizing her,saying she's wasting his time because she is fat and no dresses or what will suit her. i felt so crabby then, because, first, i am tired, and second, dad should never even criticize her in the first place. For god sake, she is his wife. I will never ever marry someone who'll say im fat lol.Its not that i like to listen to the white lies of my husbands, but if he's gonna be my husband ( oops, did i just type "husbands" in the previous sentence, typo, so sorry. that shows how tired i am) , then he wont even criticize me you know. So, my mom found something presentable to wear and they bought me a tunic dress too. Dont ask me if i like it, cuz i dont know too. Im not even good at fashion, honestly. Sometimes, i wear the crappiest things in my wardrobe to work, and i still dont know if i look ugly, crappy or what in it. lol. Yeah, so its yellow in colour.
I cut my hair today. my mom says i have to because its for chinese new year, for some good luck reason which i dont even get why. But yeah, one should never try to play against luck or whatnot so i went ahead with the haircut. And it turned out horrible.
I have decided that i wanna let my hair curl again. I missed the feeling on bouncy curls on my head. Sky says its alright that he hair is ugly, because if your face is nice or cute then you'll look as nice(: hehs. made me feel a tad better on my ugly haircut.
WOOTS. i have finished my blogpost for the day. Sorry if its just some crap. I really got nothing else to say, im going to bed soon i guess.
GOODNIGHT!!! (:
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( see, i put your favourite smiley somemore)
zzZ. Tired like hell. I slept at 2 plus yesterday, and woke up at 12, lol. then, my whole family went out to have lunch at some hawker and then we proceeded to parkway for some last minute chinese new year shopping. Well, not really last minute la, but compared to the previous year, we are kinda late this time. So, we tried to shop for at least an outfit for the first CNY day. My mom was feeling sad just now because my dad kept criticizing her,saying she's wasting his time because she is fat and no dresses or what will suit her. i felt so crabby then, because, first, i am tired, and second, dad should never even criticize her in the first place. For god sake, she is his wife. I will never ever marry someone who'll say im fat lol.Its not that i like to listen to the white lies of my husbands, but if he's gonna be my husband ( oops, did i just type "husbands" in the previous sentence, typo, so sorry. that shows how tired i am) , then he wont even criticize me you know. So, my mom found something presentable to wear and they bought me a tunic dress too. Dont ask me if i like it, cuz i dont know too. Im not even good at fashion, honestly. Sometimes, i wear the crappiest things in my wardrobe to work, and i still dont know if i look ugly, crappy or what in it. lol. Yeah, so its yellow in colour.
I cut my hair today. my mom says i have to because its for chinese new year, for some good luck reason which i dont even get why. But yeah, one should never try to play against luck or whatnot so i went ahead with the haircut. And it turned out horrible.
I have decided that i wanna let my hair curl again. I missed the feeling on bouncy curls on my head. Sky says its alright that he hair is ugly, because if your face is nice or cute then you'll look as nice(: hehs. made me feel a tad better on my ugly haircut.
WOOTS. i have finished my blogpost for the day. Sorry if its just some crap. I really got nothing else to say, im going to bed soon i guess.
GOODNIGHT!!! (:
Saturday, February 2, 2008
9:02 AM
Of old times.
Of old times.
Hmm, time flies. really fast, in a blink of an eye, im like 16 years old already. I dont want my life to pass by me so quickly, i wanna do more things, make people happy and be happy too. Petty things like money and all, is never important, and its alright that i haven got enough money to travel around the world. Im happy as long as there's food in my tummy, and a shelter over my head.
And a happy family. thats all. Sometimes, you feel that some things in your life are lacking, like, you dont have things that other people have, say, i dont have a boyfriend, while other girls do. Its alright. Count your blessings. I have limbs to feed and provide for myself, while some people dont. So yes, this is a blessing. I must thank my parents for bringing me into this world, since my mom says she had the most difficult time trying to conceive me. the scars on her tummy will remind me of how difficult and expensive it was to bring me where i am now, and i will cherish that. thanks momsie and dadsie.
I love my siblings too. they are funny. and nice. and supportive when times get hard. below are a few pictures of us when we are young ( my brother not included cuz i dont have the photos of him and me.)
my grandfather, my sister and i.
my dad, my mom, my sister and i. Im the one in white and red.
my sister and i, im the one on the floor. yes, i am fat.
okay, i finish this post with a goodnight since its 0116 now. Im not tired. Just, i havent got anything to blog about and im forced to blog. heh hehs.
well, goodnight then!
And a happy family. thats all. Sometimes, you feel that some things in your life are lacking, like, you dont have things that other people have, say, i dont have a boyfriend, while other girls do. Its alright. Count your blessings. I have limbs to feed and provide for myself, while some people dont. So yes, this is a blessing. I must thank my parents for bringing me into this world, since my mom says she had the most difficult time trying to conceive me. the scars on her tummy will remind me of how difficult and expensive it was to bring me where i am now, and i will cherish that. thanks momsie and dadsie.
I love my siblings too. they are funny. and nice. and supportive when times get hard. below are a few pictures of us when we are young ( my brother not included cuz i dont have the photos of him and me.)
my grandfather, my sister and i.
my dad, my mom, my sister and i. Im the one in white and red.
my sister and i, im the one on the floor. yes, i am fat.
okay, i finish this post with a goodnight since its 0116 now. Im not tired. Just, i havent got anything to blog about and im forced to blog. heh hehs.
well, goodnight then!