Thursday, April 09, 2009 @11:59 PM
Many Breakthroughs
It has been a tiring week last week, I kinda took rest from ministry as I was drain out by meeting up with people and feeding their needs and neglected my own rest and time to rest in God. It actually got me emotionally up and down pretty bad that I turn to Nel to really analyze with me and help me up.
One lesson that I learn is that, we need to constantly fill ourselves up everyday and rest in God at least once per week. I really see how it can affect our consistency in God (QT, Prayer, Worship, etc) when we don’t fill ourselves up and rest in God once per week. I was whack on my butt by God. As a person who loves to play and being around with people, I tend to neglect time alone with God. In the end, I was overwhelmed by the things I’m doing and people around me to till I shut everything off and hide in my room to be alone. I was telling myself, “I can serve and give anymore”. My heart was dry and I need God to fill me up again. I took a few days off, resting, reading God’s word, worshipping, praying and also watching online sermon that Nel send me. It was refreshing and I grew closer to God too. Though I learn it through the tough way but I thank God that I learn this lesson well.
Sunday was DMM, it was kind of a special feeling to have DMM on Sunday but it was great. I applied taking rest in God on that day too. I was asked by the TP leaders if I want to join them for a movie after DMM. Initially I agreed but second thoughts I actually rejected it as I was starting to feel unwell and decided to take a rest at home. I had a great Sabbath with God. Read books and bible and sleep a lot as I was down with flu.
Monday, was rest day too as Aug and Kel toh fell sick and I couldn’t meet them.
Tuesday, I met up with Kel Toh to catch up and announce the cg structure to him. I got the chance to really ask him questions to let him ponder. After that, we met Aug and have a short core team meet, to motivate them for this week Easter, days that we are going for evanx and friends whom we can invite and most of all, keeping our health, non-believer friends, care group members and unit members in prayer. Kel toh left after core team meet and left Aug and I for praise and worship preparation for Wednesday care group. That night practice was one of the practices that I practice so hard. Haha, and I realize one thing is that, the reason why my guitar skills can’t improve is because of my inconsistency in strumming and that I don’t learn new guitar strummings. I always like to do freestyle strumming. Nothing wrong with that, but it just makes me limited.
Wednesday was the most dramatic day. I was very excited for evanx, as it’s been a long time since I do it and God planted a seed in me to reach out for more people too. God even gave me creativity to make Easter Day surveys as a tool for evanx. WHAHAHA, very dumb survey but yet it still work. So I happily drew it out and send it for printing. On the way to school, as I was walking under the HDB flat walking out of it to the pavement to reach the bus-stop, someone puke from the high floor down and it got me. I was like, “WHAT THE CRAP?” in my heart. Feeling so disgusted, I quickly walk home and get myself bathe. I was thinking, why it happen at such a timing when I’m all ready up for evanx and to direct the people who are going for evanx. The more I think, the more I see the work of the devil to stop me from doing something great for God. If you know me well, you’ll know that I’m a person who is very hygiene conscious. I can’t stand my hands being dirty. If it gets dirty, I get very paranoid. When I get home to clean up, I almost didn’t want to go to evanx anymore and all I want is just to get clean. But I thank God that He opens up my eyes to see beyond that and to come out of my comfort zone by not following my feelings. PRAISE GOD for that! HAHA! I’ve passed the test to do things beyond my feelings. I’m so glad!
After evanx, I came home for care group. Praise and Worship was a bit crappy but I was glad that the movie “Facing Giants” I showed them impact them and that they learn things from the video too. It’s kind of a different way of learning things in care group, rather then just teachings but movies and all. With more creative ideas, it can really make care group an exciting and enjoyable place for all and that’s my goal for this group.
Today, I went back to school for evanx again. I enjoyed the time I do evanx with the rest of the NP members and I enjoyed the fellowship with them. We went to Botak Jones to eat and I almost sleep when I was eating. LOL, don’t know why so tired. To keep myself occupied I borrowed Diella’s camera and starting taking people. I enjoyed taking photos of people, and I came out with this idea that maybe I can be a photographer but first I need a camera. WHAHAHA! XD After dinner we went home. I kept laughing on the way home; it’s been so long since I keep laughing non-stop for an hour. Laughter is good medicine! WHAHAHA! I had a good talk with Isaac on the way home too. It’s been quite a while since I’ve got a chance to really talk to him. Something he shared actually made me ponder, “If God wants to use you to grow this ministry He’ll send people to you”. And true enough, God did send people to me. God showed me who will be my armor bearer. PRAISE GOD FOR ALL HE HAS DONE!
I also shared more to Kel Toh online too. He took initiative to share things what God has done in his life and he share with me many links and ideas to build the group. PRAISE GOD to reignite the flame in him! I pray that God will continue to motivate him and grow him.
1 visitor for Reinhard Bonnke conference on Saturday
2 visitors for Easter service
PRAISE GOD! More to come!!
I really learn a lot this week, that I do not want to forget them that is why I blog it down. Joy and faithfulness of the Lord is the strength that keeps me going in this spiritual race. It is something I would not trade for. Nothing is impossible with the Lord. Nothing is too hard for the Lord. Things start to turn out right when I learn to trust and depend on God more. God’s perfect love cast out all the fears in me and it gave me courage to carry out the conviction that God planted in my heart. I foresee that God will continue to use me greatly as I continue to grow in Him and follow Him, continue to take courage in things I do, continue to grow in wisdom and anointing. PRAISE GOD for all He has done!
♥ there's not a place
in heaven that we cant reach
