WHAHAHA! Overflowing joy the whole day. LOL! It is truly JOY UNSPEAKABLE. PRAISE GOD! I had a great and fruitful quiet time with the Lord too. OMG. WHAHAHA! Going school is so different too. I was so energetic and focus. When teacher asked questions I was more then willing to try to answer, which is so not like me. OMG! I really put my whole heart into my lectures too, what was taught, I understand them and I can remember it all. It’s been so long since I can study so diligently.

Even after school when Kelly, Qiu Lian and I were doing outreach, I did it so relax. Outreach is something that I always fear and get very nervous over. But yesterday was the first time I did it so relax and I really enjoyed the outreaching and teaching Kelly and Qiu lian what to take note too. LOL!

I really see how the change of perspective of things can really change my attitude towards the way I do things and the way I think of things. It is really great to be positive and faith-filled, doing the best that we can. Praise God!

Even over the dinner, with Qiu Lian and Aileen I shared like nobody’s business about God and His goodness. It is always what I wanted to do for God, to really share and let others see how He is good and how He can transform our lives. This is what I called it as fellowship too, not just joke joke joke but also talk about God, placing Him in the centre of our friendship between brothers and sisters, spurring one another one.

I thank God for giving me the joy again. LOL. I can’t stop smiling and laughing too. It is joy overflowing like mad. GREAT! HALLELUJAH! God keep me strong in this spiritual race!

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I was in the mist of confusion and doubt, I thought what I breakthrough was already tough enough already. However, this thing that is in front of me seems to be worst. I felt trashed down, abnormal and ashamed. The past images keep flashing back too, those hurts and stupid things. My mind keep thinking and dwelling on the past and negative things.

This was what was happening to me the last few days. I couldn’t find peace at all. I was totally distracted and troubled. Thank God for Isaac to help me break out of it. It was just a prayer away for me to breakthrough it, a prayer of repentance and a prayer to want to get right with God. I learn about the controlling of the mind and also to test and discern whether is it of God and see the situation through God’s eye, eg. “What God wants you to learn from it?”. Every situation that God puts in our learn is something for us to change and learn to grow it.

When I start to fast and pray, I see how God helped me to breakthrough in these areas, the receiving of freedom and trust in God and also how God bless me and open up my spiritual eyes even more.

I think one of the things that I want to thank God is that, I am able to meet sally up and to just spend time with her. Seeing her do her work and helping out with her work. I am more then willing to really go all out mans. I pray that sally would really open up really soon. I want to grow her and to see her having breakthroughs too. Thank God for youth leader that really cares for her too, lets keep praying for her to breakthrough.

It boost up my prayer life and it made me have the burden to want to pray for my cg even more. I want to have the gift of interceding to intercede and gift of discernment to have a understanding of heart for God’s people.

HAHA, God you really know how to make me increase my spiritual life with You. So many things to learn and I am so excited to learn them all. God, keep this momentum in me, help me to be consistent. Keep me focus! I want to grow to the fullest I can and may the prophecy of the tree with unopened leaves be open leaves. God, unfold the potential of me and my group! AMEN!

I thought that I will never get to talk to June again, but God proved me wrong. During my breaks for lab work I was so bored and had nothing to do, as I forgot to bring my things out to do, so I borrowed my partner’s laptop and went online to find something to do and to talk online. I scroll scroll scroll and I saw JUNE ONLINE. WOW, God I’m so happy that you allow this to happen. I talk to her for a few mins and she went off. It was a short talk, but I would say it made me very happy already.

I missed this sheep a lot, it just reminded me of the parable of the lost son. I understand how God feels and how he rejoice when 1 child turn to Him and acknowledge Him. I am determine to bring this sheep back, I want to see the joyful smile on her face again. I want to see God moving in her life again. I think not only for her, but for the rest of my cg, I want to see the joy in them once again and seeing God moving strongly in their life too. I’ve always imagine that day, when all of us can worship God and serve Him with our whole heart, being very focus and spiritually well. I yearn to see this group grow, I yearn to be used by God greatly and strongly to stretch out to these people not for myself but for God.

Keep me focus Lord,
Keep me close to you.
I yearn to be close to you,
Never ever leave me alone.
Come close to me Oh Lord.
This is my prayer to you. =)

Whaha, we almost win the game, the points was so close. But anyway I guess the prize don’t mean as much as the friendship we all had with each other and the teamwork too. I’ve never thought NP would be so sporty and enthu for all these kind of things. But through just this small competition God let me see a few things that; NP can be one in spirit, NP can have teamwork, NP can be supportive of one another, NP can have that Spirit of excellence. I was so encouraged by all these that God has showed me.

What God was trying to tell me was that, “you know my child, NP will grow and must grow because this is my ministry. When everyone is able to get in tune with having a common vision, NP can move and grow very strongly.” It boost up my faith in God and also that I see the potential of how NP can grow. I am determine to grow this group and I want to go all out for this ministry that God has place me in. It’s never going to be the same anymore. I just thank God that He showed me this when I am in the mist of my problems, it just encouraged me and help me get out of my problems that I am going through. FOCUS ON GOD! That the key towards everything. I thank God for all the friends that came too, I enjoyed the time with them. =)

Anyway, after captains ball, ahaha I was desperate to go for the global prayer meet despite the fact that I have homework chasing me behind. Just want to pray and get back to God. I went back to Aileen’s house, I thought that I could go her house and do some work online, but unfortunately we eat, talk and washed up until very long. LOL. Reach her house around 5.30pm then leave at 7pm. OMG! So long! But I had a great time with her. Got to know her more and we shared a lot. I don’t know how, but I seems to keep asking questions. Whaha, perhaps my curiosity of wanting to get to know people and stop thinking just about myself, got me asking ba. I was glad that, that open her up too, it was pretty cool. LOL! Cool sister to know. Anyway we went there sat rather far away from kl and Joel, then after that went for dinner at PS. Talk and eat until like 12pm then go home. I had a great time. God drifted my mind from the things that I was dwelling in and shifted me to know others around me and giving me this new friendship with this sister too. PRAISE GOD FOR ALL HE HAS DONE!