HOPE very own SYMPHONY BAND!!!! OMG! I kind of went crazy when lemmuel was telling me about it. He told me that he actually went to talk to the youth people about it and they are welcoming people to join! WOW! It’s like a dream come true from God. One moment I was like dying for this dream to happen and the next moment God seems to make a way for it. I always tell God how badly I want to play in a symphonic band and serve in that area for Him, using my music to touch the hearts of people and to make music with the people around me. I REALLY CAN’T BELIEVE IT! So far, I had approval from my shepherd that I can develop this area of my gifting, now waiting for the reply from the youth side and hear more information from them. I am anticipating for the replies.

I am so excited; God can really surprise me and make me so energetic with little things. But it really makes me guilty of the way I reacted to Him the last 3 weeks. I repeated the mistakes when I actually have learned to overcome it. Humans are forgetful, I don’t deny that. God has been really testing me in a lot of areas such as the way I related to people, patience, humility, faithfulness, joy in time of trouble, reliance on Him, perseverance, etc; character moulding. He actually uses my FYP partner and supervisor to really mould me up too. I do admit that I complain a lot and blame a lot when it first hit on me, I didn’t see what God was trying to do in my life. All I see was just troubles and problems around me, which reminds me of verse that Paul said in 2 Corinthians 4:8-10 “We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed. We always carry around in our body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be revealed in our body”. We may face all these pressure from everywhere but one thing we must always remember is that there is a greater cause beyond all these things that are happening to us. We must also always cling on to God and place our hope and trust in Him.

Nel shared this during the DMM on Monday (10/3) too, about how in the tough times she still persevered and what makes her persevere. She say that it was because she know that when God allow something to happen, God will bless you through it too when you breakthrough it and also that she place her hope on the promises that God gave to her (she claim it).Romans 8:28 “And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to his purpose.” That is what keeps her going and not just quit this salvation. I really learned a lot from the DMM, I am very blessed by what was shared during the DMM and I am very blessed to be able to be in the team too. It is truly God’s mercy and grace that I am where I am despite the weaknesses I have.

During the seminar class yesterday God spoke personally through an adult sister who was praying for me too. God spoke words of encouragement that really made me so encouraged. He also revealed to me the things I need to grow in and work on, in order for Him to pour down more blessings and for Him to work through me even more. I am very very very excited for all these things to happen!! Problems can be everywhere but God is greater than all these! This is one thing I couldn’t forget! :)

I pray that God will help me to apply whatever I hear from Him or through the sharing of people. No point hearing and don’t apply, this is something I believe in very strongly. I pray that God will continue to guard my heart, soul and mind everyday from temptations and being fooled by the devil. I pray also that God will keep me focus on my pastoral ultimately despite having other ministries too.

I am excited yet fearful, Lord please guide me through, I can’t do it alone because I know that when I take control and try to guide myself, it will always turn out to be a flop. So Lord, you take control this time, I dare not do it by myself anymore. Take control and guide me, Lord! Take control and guide me Lord!