Wednesday, November 29, 2006 @11:07 PM
The Lift
WOOH! It's a refreshing day after God spoke to me yesterday. I have faith that things are going to be alright =).I almost flare up with my mum this morning over a lab coat. Sounds super lame. But I couldnt helped it because if I dont have my lab coat, I can go into science lab and today I got lab lesson for the whole day.Phew~! Thank God, my mom washed it and it was already dried when I ask her for it. I rushed out of the house and got into the lift, hoping I could catch the bus on time.
On the way down in the lift, the lift suddenly jerked for awhile and kind of broke down. I was stuck in the middle of the 5th going down to the 4th level. It was super lame. Somehow I didnt really worry that much, I guess I was blurred by what was happening. I stone awhile before I press the alarm button. POOF~! Guess what, the lift was working again. =) It slowly moved down to level 4 and the door opened. I walked out of the lift and walk the down by stairs instead. It was another lame incident and it made me late for lesson.
Through that incident when I was trapped in the lift, it was another incident that God spoke to me again. What I wanted or desire most might be trapping me like how I was trapped in the lift but once I rely on God, He'll make a way for me and make my paths straight. And walking out of the lift and choosing the stairs over the lift, was just like how we flee away from our temptations before it came and engulf us into it again.
I'm really really very happy that I'm back on track getting back to God again. Sometimes you dont even know that certain things you do might cause you to sin and be so blinded by it, until when the flaws of it came out. But no worries, God is a very patient God. Of course, don't test God's patience too. =)
I pray for a even greater growth each day!
Continue to guide me Holy Spirit!
*Filled with Joy*
♥ there's not a place
in heaven that we cant reach
Tuesday, November 28, 2006 @11:58 PM
The Toilet
It was a long and tired day for me. Every seems rather dull after the stormy rain came in the other day. I struggled inside of my with the right and the wrong. Somehow I couldn't see the value of doing the right thing. All I want was what I want but not what God want. I tried hard to fight for what is right, till I almost got dried up. One thing that kept me not giving in was God's promise of His presence for me.
Before going home, I was in the school library's toilet. While I was using the toilet, the light suddenly went off after someone went out of the toilet and I got stunned. At the moment, I was thinking "oh no! How am I going to get out of this place" instead of fearing the surrounding.
Suddenly, this incident hit me very strongly. It reminded me of the loneliness and emptiness I felt before I receive him as my Lord and Savoiur. It was really complete darkness. You can't see even your own hand and you can't even see where you are heading to. You just walk by luck hoping not to bang onto something or trip on something. That was the kind of life all of us were in before we accept Christ.
Then a few mins later, someone switch back on the light. At that time, I really treasure the presence of the light, especially the light that Jesus has brought into our life to light up our lives. It is filled with warmth, joy, peace, guidience, love, etc. Things that no one could ever take it away from my heart. It reminded me also that I need to constantly remind myself of what God has done in my life and be grateful to what He has done for me. His blessings He has bless me with.
It was just a simple and lame incident, but God speak to me through that incident =)
♥ there's not a place
in heaven that we cant reach
@10:43 PM
Stand up HEPHZIBAH, dont just sit there!!!
After much of thinking, I've made up my mind to stop dwelling in what is happening now. But instead to move on and do God's work. Just like what fel said "dont just look at the dot on the paper but rather, look at the whole piece of white paper". In other words, she meant that, dont pay attention on the problem but see the big picture of what God wants you to do or to grow from.
YEA!! I suddenly felt so enlighten. Thank God, I was blog hopping and I dropped by at Utan's blog and read a few of her entries. I was deeply encouraged by her post. While I was reading her post and listening to her blog's music (the time has come), I came to realised that what am I really doing in my life? Who am I really living for? Have I forgotten the blessings God has given to me? HAVE I FORGOTTEN ALL THESE?
Reading her blog, reminded me of the times when I was walking very closely with God each and every single day. These happy and sad times when God was with me. The joy, peace, hope, love and faith that no one can take it away from me. No one.....
It's time that I got to do doubly hard to get back to God. I just pray that, I won't be so forgetful of what and how the Lord has always been with me through every single day of my life. Watching over me, every single second. Even a human can't even be 24/7 be with you, but God can. That makes Him different. Perhaps I should write it down and read it everyday!
Holy Spirit have more of me each day
Guide me back to you
Dont let me stray away from you anymore
Guide me back to you
Grab hold of me
And never let me go
=)
♥ there's not a place
in heaven that we cant reach
@10:04 PM
Through His Eyes
When God is in your heart
Reflecting all that He sees
He'll remind you that He's there for you
To be all you can be
He is the truth and light
He will take away your fears
With His strength all your weakness
Will truly disappear
Chorus:
When you look in the mirror of His heart
You will see just how special you are
For you'll find beauty
And glory, His destiny
He will show you
His purpose
To be more than you can be
He will give you wings
And you'll soar to the sky
If only you can see your life
Through His eyes
♥ there's not a place
in heaven that we cant reach
Sunday, November 26, 2006 @2:07 PM
I live for You alone
I thought that I've got back on track after last week, but I guess I was wrong.I fell into it once more. God has been testing me the same thing over and over again, once I thought I've passed the test but the next moment when He test me once more. I fell again. Its time I've got to learn how to be consistant and also learn from my mistakes.
Yesterday, God really spoke to me the whole day. I really need Him to talked to me badly. Somehow, sometimes when I passed a test from God I may at times, not have consistancy in talking to Him and all. Now, I realised that I have been taking granted of Him. That's the reason why, when He test me again, I will fall into the same mistake.
I started off quite badly yesterday. I was late from CLC crash course. Actually, I almost didn't even want to go for it and church at all. I was feeling rather terrible when I thought about what I was doing the whole week. All I could blame was only my own decision that I've made. But I still push myself to go. I was late for class for 1 hr. *shakes head* Anyway, the lesson teaching on WORSHIP was SO SO SO SO inspiring! I really learn a lot from CLC crash course. It makes me wants to really practise very hard my guitar skills and to play not for myself but to minister His people to Him. When I heard WanQi demo for us to hear, I really felt like crying. Her playing is really very ministering. =) Its just a guitar but its how you play it that makes a difference. I pray that I really play to that standerd that it is not only playing for the sake of playing without emotions but play just as if I am singing to Daddy. Also, I learn how important it is to have the right heart attitude when we lead worship.If not you'll never lead people to God.
After CLC crash course we went to region prayer meet at american room, I totally got no time to eat at all. That's not the point. During the region prayer meet, Jasmine actually did a sharing. Her sharing really hit me. It was about Moses struggles [exodus 3 & 4]. It is what I'm going through now.
The service also spoke to me, I learn not to be distracted and not to bother about the people around me during worship. I realised sometimes I can worship God whole heartedly is because I'm to concern about how people will look at me. I focus on myself rather on God.
So many things to learn:
Right heart attitude
Whole-heartedly
Obedience
Willingness
Faithfulness/Trust
Christ-centred
Priortise
While I was on the way home with David yesterday, he shared to me something interesting. It is about his vision he got from God during the prayer meet.This is what he describe to me.......
TO BE CONTINUED
♥ there's not a place
in heaven that we cant reach
Sunday, November 12, 2006 @6:25 PM
Randomly looking around =)
As I was randomly looking out for "who killed santa? 2" video for ollie, but ended up looking at another video which is called "Overview of YouthDNA (3-Quarter of 2006)". That video showed the past events(Urban Groove and Challenge your Limits) that YouthDNA had organised.
Looking through the video, it reminded me of the period when Utan was SOW-ing on me. I'll never forget whole week after I went with her to the Urban Groove event. Looking back at how she had faithfully sowed on me and bringing me back to Christ, it really reminded me that things don't stop here for me.
Suddenly, I realized that I need to SOW faithful just like how Utan sowed on me and bringing salvation to those around me. It is another encouragement boaster to me and a reminder too.
I pray that the Joy, Love, Peace and Hope does not only live in me, but to be pass on to those who have yet to received it. I want to share it to those around me, just like how Utan had share it to me. =)
All it takes is a sincere and true heart.
♥ there's not a place
in heaven that we cant reach
Sunday, November 05, 2006 @2:16 PM
God's love is the Greatest
Have someone ever told you how much they love you
and the next moment they say they hate you?
Have someone ever been very close to you
and the next moment they are avoiding you?
Have someone ever given you so much support
and the next moment they don't seem to care anymore?
All these things are so temporal. One moment it maybe this thing but the next moment everything is the other way round.Isn't it scary? Well, what I'm trying to say here is that, human love has its limitation unlike the love we receive from our Lord Jesus Christ, so true, so real and everlasting. Human can always fail you but God will never fail. It is only these few days that I experience the limitation love I got from the people around me but one thing that I really learn was that all these doesn't matter, because I've got the unlimited love from God. I really felt so privilage to be His child. =)
Thank you, Daddy! *big SMILES*
♥ there's not a place
in heaven that we cant reach
@12:23 AM
Lets Grow Together!
Recently, I've been busy trying to settle some personal struggles and also adaptation to the school environment.
School for me has been rather different . I was really the same as how I was like last semster.Some of my friends change here and there too. At first I really got a hard time adapting to that change.Somehow I didnt want things to change but I cant stop the fact that things change. I realised I've got the face the reality of things. First week of school was rather screwed up, but thank God that He put brothers and sisters in Christ around me to spur me on. Praise God! I learned to be more independent and starting to rely on God more and more each day. I'm not alone because God is always with me. =)
Other then that, I did have some personal struggles here and there every week. One settled, then another came in. So far everything has fallen back to place already. And I'm so so so happy! One thing, I think I felt proud of what I did, was that I've learn how to put myself in safe zone before I fall into Satan's trap. This is something I saw that is very important in our growth as a Christians. I would like to encourage everyone, to learn how to see, choose and follow the right. Don't follow what you feel, but follow what is right. Feelings are very decieving. Once you let it take control of you, you'll have to face the consequences after that. Its great to follow what is right than what you feel. =]
Now everything is starting to fall back into place each week and also I'm starting to get back my focus each week. Thank God for everything. I pray that I'll continue to be faithful to Him like how He is faithful to me. Also I pray that NP will have a BIG BREAKTHROUGH in every aspect.
But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. - Matthew 6:33
♥ there's not a place
in heaven that we cant reach
