Tuesday, August 22, 2006 @10:41 PM
Heaven is a wonderful place
Heaven is a wonderful place
Fill with glory and grace
I want to see my Savior's face
Heaven is a wonderful place =D
Lols, I was just studying then out of the blue, this song came into my mine. Haha. Funny, but its rather stress relieving. *grins* Alrights, I shall go back and continue studying. Take care all.
♥ there's not a place
in heaven that we cant reach
@3:23 PM
Something to confess
Sometimes I really hate being way behind my own schedule.
It makes me super stressed up even though I know I shouldn't.
In the end, making myself cant study
And can't remember what I studied.
That really sucks.
Studying for exams is really a battle for me.
As a person who always gets stressed up easily.
I really wish to have a breakthrough in that.
Perhaps that is why God always make me go through this.
Time and time again.
To test on my trust on Him and also to grow up.
I thought that I actually learn it the other time.
Perhaps, I've forgotten it.
I really pray that I'll overcome this.
Its tough but can be done.
If only I learn to fully depend on Him.
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart,
And lean not on your own understanding
In all your ways acknowledge Him,
And He will make your paths straight - Proverbs 3:5-6"
Things yet to be learnt:
=-[ jOsiePoo ]-= says:
im feeling the stress coming up
=-[ jOsiePoo ]-= says:
i'm stuck at one chapter super long
=-[ jOsiePoo ]-= says:
can seems to move on
=-[ jOsiePoo ]-= says:
too many things to rmb
=-[ jOsiePoo ]-= says:
=((
(x)28sept'06 strike 18; says:
haha go on then come back again :) dont worry, pray and take a break then come back on it. the more stress u are, the more u study the more u gonna beakdown.
(x)28sept'06 strike 18; says:
loves!gogo.do something u like for awhile.
=-[ jOsiePoo ]-= says:
hmmm, ok
=-[ jOsiePoo ]-= says:
die
=-[ jOsiePoo ]-= says:
i like dont rmb what i studied just now
(x)28sept'06 strike 18; says:
haha just refreshed abit. to all you know it didnt get into your mind at all because u were feeling stress:)
=-[ jOsiePoo ]-= says:
i think so too
=-[ jOsiePoo ]-= says:
Like a burden in my head, i cant get it off
(x)28sept'06 strike 18; says:
stop thinking u cant do it
=-[ jOsiePoo ]-= says:
started off the day rather bad, thats why i got so stressed up
=-[ jOsiePoo ]-= says:
woke up 3 -4 hours later den the time i suppose to wake up
(x)28sept'06 strike 18; says:
ya, i understand, but studying when u feel anxious is not going to help:)
(x)28sept'06 strike 18; says:
God will make a way when there seems to be no way. during my exam week i woke up late but i prayed
=-[ jOsiePoo ]-= says:
how to relax?
=-[ jOsiePoo ]-= says:
i try to pray , putting a verse in front of my,
=-[ jOsiePoo ]-= says:
but not helping
=-[ jOsiePoo ]-= says:
omg
(x)28sept'06 strike 18; says:
and dump all the anxiousness and have faith. jus study normally like how u would when u are happy. then i finish my whole term nnotes memorized in just 4 hrs.
(x)28sept'06 strike 18; says:
u need to stop thinking u are studying alone.
(x)28sept'06 strike 18; says:
no need to be anxious
(x)28sept'06 strike 18; says:
God will make a way.
(x)28sept'06 strike 18; says:
so if u sleep late, that doesnt mean you will not finish your studying
(x)28sept'06 strike 18; says:
it is when u are anxious and stress u will not finish it.
(x)28sept'06 strike 18; says:
so dun forfeit yourself
(x)28sept'06 strike 18; says:
knowing the verse is one thing. acting on it and trusting it is another thing. it's heart knowledge.not only mind knowledge
(x)28sept'06 strike 18; says:
jiayou jo
♥ there's not a place
in heaven that we cant reach
Friday, August 18, 2006 @10:36 PM
Something that I miss
It's been more than half a year
Feelings and memories
Seems to fade away
I thought to myself
"This would be great"
I never thought that
When I talk about it ytd,
Memories of everything will start coming back
This is scarying me, distracting me
But at the same time
A sweet memories that you've left in me somehow
Perhaps being friends is still the best for us
Sometimes I yearn to talk to you more
But I fear too much
Guess for now, its best like that
Shall see how it goes...
♥ there's not a place
in heaven that we cant reach
@1:25 AM
Some words to Jean
HEY! When you were telling about your evanx just now and telling me that you were thinking of me because you did evanx on me when the day I met you. I was rather shocked about it. I didnt know mans. Anyway, I was just thinking back of the day that
I met you at convention hall outside--->
Outings --->
Bringing me to Hope church --->
I rededicated --->
Gave you a confirmation that I'll stay in Hope church --->
Become your sheep and your cg member --->
till where I am now
I want to say a BIG THANK YOU for what you have done in my life! You've indeed impacted my life in many ways. Knowing you was a Divine one. I'm going to really miss all those bus rides home with you accompanied along with my sharings and also care group time + preparation. You have taught me well Utan! I've learnt and mature quite a lot from these 4 months. Though you can scare me at times (which is only once), you've always been there, especially during the times when I lost someone dear to me that cause me to struggle within me. Words are few from you, but your sincerity, faith, trust and encouragement in me has made me grow in many ways. I treasure and cherish you and everything you've done! Once my shepherd always my shepherd! =D Lets grow even more!
♥ there's not a place
in heaven that we cant reach
Thursday, August 17, 2006 @11:48 PM
Evanx!
WooHoo! I think I kind of like Evanx! HAHA. I did evanx with the NP church brothers Yesterday. It was rather screwed up. Ming Kuang and I kept hesitating and as a result, miss quite a lot of opportunity. But nevermind, its an experience for me, and I can learn from it. Hees!
I met BIG jose at atrium today at around 6pm. Fel suppose to meet me at 5.30pm but nevermind, I was late and she was late too.Lols. BIG jose and I started to Evanx first as fel told us she will be late. After BIG jose drank finish her HL milk, we set off from atrium to the library level 2. I was feeling kind of scare and nervous at first. We prayed at some isolated area of the Library. We cant stop laughing before we pray. Lols. But we still managed to pray. YUPS. We walked around and actually spotted 1 target! We hesitated awhile but took a step of courage and faith to approach that girl. It wasnt that bad after all. =) We talked quite a lot
After the 1st person, we saw another target. Haha. We talked and Fel appear out of no where. Fel crap a lot but it was great. We went up and down, left and right of the library to evanx. We talked a lot to them and among ourselves during the evanx. Oh yea, and I keep asking the year 1s if they know my friends from band. Damn funny! Nearly everyone we went to approached, I asked that question. Hahahaha! FUN! After everything, we compiled all the surveys and guess what?! Praise God, most of them we approach are actually year 1s. How cool is that?! In total, we fished 10 people for today. Yay! Ytd, I fished 4.
HAHA. It was a great experience doing evanx. My courage has been boost and we sure do make lots of new friends whom are converters yet to be. I'm anticipating to know them more and also to bring them to know Christ too. Haha. It is only the beginning, but yet I am already thinking so far. I'm so excited! OMG! Hahas. I think thats the feeling of doing Evanx ba? HAHA. MORE MORE EVANX!
*Nemo is swimming fast in search of lost souls out there* =)
♥ there's not a place
in heaven that we cant reach
Wednesday, August 09, 2006 @11:53 PM
Pinky and the Brains (the 2 Jose)
HAHAHAHAHA! This is so lame! Yuling and I was just making cindy study however, we went one crapping non-stop. This is so fun. Then I keep wanting to turn cindy into "BUNZ". That is some lame emoticon on msn but it really looks like a BUN! haha! CUTE! Oh yea, then BIG jose went on crapping and say Cindy likes pink and she call her Pinky. And since there is Pinky, there must be the brain too!! So yuling and I become the brains because we are both called JOSEPHINE. *Laugh till I roll on the floor* So crapping. I can see the 3 of us limping already. LOLs
♥ there's not a place
in heaven that we cant reach
Tuesday, August 08, 2006 @4:02 PM
Overnight at Mummy fel's house
WOOHOO!! yay! Haha! I'm so happy and I enjoyed the time spend when mummy fel yesterday! She taught me sooooooooooooooo many things. Oh anyway, I've got to say she's rather motherly. Lols. Opps. She woke me up like how my mum always woke me up, made breakfast for me and walk me to the bus stop. LOL. I think I really never anyhow call her mummy. Lols. So lame. Alrights I think I should just jump straight into the main thing I want to blog about. =D
Anyway last night, mummy fel and I were suppose to sleep early, but we end up talking till 2 plus going 3. Lols. We just keep going on talking and talking but it was a great shepherding time with her. I’ve learn a lot of things through just one night of staying over at her house.She taught me about being obedience, humility and a willing heart. These are some of the 3 main things to take note as a believer and to grow on it. All of us should learn to be obedient, be it to our parents, leaders, etc. Just whoever has authority over us. It is not a overnight thing for me to be obedient though. Mummy fel always stress "It takes time", which is true and strongly believe in it. The obedience that I see in mummy fel, makes me want to be more and more obedient towards whoever who has authority over me, especially my parents.
2nd is being humility. Seriously I think being humility is not easy, sometimes I find it quite difficult to let down my pride and accepting constructive comments giving by whoever who has authority over me. Not all the times though. Mummy fel actually share with me, how her previous shepherd was so straight forward with her that, she can just correct her straight in the face. And also how her shepherd actually remind her that, "Whatever reactions you give me when I correct you, you are actually showing it to God and not me". I think this is really an important thing for the sheeps or leaders who is under anyone. We should not let our pride and stubbornness bring us down and lead us to disobeying them. Not easy but we can do it!
3rd is a willing heart. YEA! I strongly believe in this. A willing heart can let you grow like never before. How can one serve or worship God for the sake of doing it and not with a willing heart? Isn’t it the same as being forced by someone? This really makes me think back about the past few years of my walk with Him and really reflect on it. Thank God for always being so faithful to me and never leave me at all when I left Him, if not I don’t think I will even being going to church or even growing now. It really takes a willing heart to grow and commit to Him. No one can forced you, just as the day when you actually receive and accept Him as your Lord and savior. It is your own decision isn’t it? All it takes is a willing heart for Him to transform you into the person He wants you to be. I yearn to be transform more each day into the person He wants me to be and to let Him fully use me. That reminds me of Fel telling me that, “God loves everyone, but not everyone is favored by Him”. Oh mans! I really want Him to use me to the fullest!
Other then these 3 main things, I’ve also learnt and understand other things too. Fel always remind me to take control of my emotions and not the other way round. Yea! That should be the way and I yearn to be a PRO in taking control over my emotions! So when the devil comes to play with my emotions, I’ll be well prepared and not fall into his trap. I’ll kick he’s butt when he comes! Muahahaha. Satan you better shoo off first before I kick you butt!
I tend to doubt a lot. So I asked fel what I should do about it. Then she shared with me about during one of her mission trip to Thailand to our mother church, the pastor there once told her that, “You either believe 100% or don’t believe at all”. In other words, don’t doubt so much. It is better that you either believe 100% or don’t believe at all, than to doubt about it. Since you doubt might as will don’t believe. I think that really made me learnt to not be so doubtful towards myself, friends or even God. I’m still coping with it. I think what I need is more faith.
Oh mans, God’s plan is so wonderful and magnificent! Each time I look back at my life, I realized that my life kind of link here and there, to where and what I am now. From the day I was born to now. It is so wonderfully planned by Him. Last few days when I was told that I changed shepherd and care group, I was actually kind of sad and I didn’t understand why fully. I was actually sharing with Fel about what I was sad about on Sunday. I didn’t really ask her about the changes of shepherd and care group in details. As she went on sharing about her past experiences of it to me, I finally could understand why I was planned to be under her and not whom I always wanted to be under. God really sheltered and protect me a lot. I am so well taken care of by Him. Seriously, if I were to fall back again, I think I might not even go back to Him anymore. This makes me fear the most, because I will never want to be far away from Him anymore. It feels terrible when He is not around. I really thank God for every planned He has for me. He’s planned are always the best for me and I trust in that.
It is truly a great shepherding. I believe I will grow very well under Fel. I am anticipating to grow more each day. Hahaha. I shall end here. Take care everyone. =D
♥ there's not a place
in heaven that we cant reach
Monday, August 07, 2006 @4:27 AM
Staying over at mummy's house later!
AWW!! I'm so (x10) excited for later! hahaha. I'm going to stayover at mummy cum shepherd's house! whee! It's rare that I can stayover at friend's house and all thanks to band. Hehe. Got to go school by 7, then my house seems a little too far. =) cool! YAYness! And mummy fel is going to sing her newly compose song to me and she's going to bring me to walk walk (I guess). OMG, I'm so excited! LOL. That is why I'm still online and blogging at such an hour. Alright, shall continue blogging about the stayover tmw or something, BYE~!
♥ there's not a place
in heaven that we cant reach
@4:02 AM
Some lame stuff
LOL, the 1st lame thing is that, mummy fel was so sweet to BIG jose that I told her that " you are so sweet till I wanna eat you up"LOL. So LAME. Haha, but seriously she was really sweet as a shepherd, to order MACs for BIG jose in her mist of busy-ness with her project work and she as a result got hungry. Haha, and fel tried to bluff BIG jose that she is going to buy food to her house.HAHA. So funny but sweet. =)
HAHAHA! The 2nd lame thing! Jorris was actually making fun of me about my typo error and I started laming from there, asking "Daddy in heaven , why are you doing this to me?*Cries out loud*". Then I went on saying,
=-[ hEphziBah ]-= says:
i think He must be laughing at our lame conver now
G E N E S I S says:
YES
=-[ hEphziBah ]-= says:
=)
G E N E S I S says:
conver
G E N E S I S says:
conver
G E N E S I S says:
conver
G E N E S I S says:
conver
G E N E S I S says:
conver
=-[ hEphziBah ]-= says:
so funny
G E N E S I S says:
muahahahaha
=-[ hEphziBah ]-= says:
i really wonder how God actually reacted when he see us laming
=-[ hEphziBah ]-= says:
will he be laughing?
=-[ hEphziBah ]-= says:
or will he be saying " my silly childrens. haha"
=-[ hEphziBah ]-= says:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
=-[ hEphziBah ]-= says:
i really would like to ask Him , when He comes back for us
=-[ hEphziBah ]-= says:
=)
G E N E S I S says:
he drink a cup of coffee
G E N E S I S says:
then he saw wad we says
G E N E S I S says:
then he spilled it on hIs whIte robe..
=-[ hEphziBah ]-= says:
LOL
=-[ hEphziBah ]-= says:
oh no!
G E N E S I S says:
then he laugh and clumsily wipe the coffee from hIs long long beard
=-[ hEphziBah ]-= says:
aww!!!
G E N E S I S says:
funny.. then it gets worser on hIs robe..
G E N E S I S says:
then he say"alakoloBoom"
G E N E S I S says:
the coffee disappears
G E N E S I S says:
on hIs robe
=-[ hEphziBah ]-= says:
LOL
G E N E S I S says:
returns hIs clean whIte robe..
G E N E S I S says:
but he cant stop laughing
HAHA, It is rather interesting right. =D Hope you all will think of God like that too. Hehes!
♥ there's not a place
in heaven that we cant reach
Sunday, August 06, 2006 @11:57 PM
An Achievement
Hello! hahaha! I've got to blog about this! I'm so happy that I actually overcome this. A few months ago, I was having problems always being affected by what my that particular friend said. She still talk and treat me the same today, however, I wasn't really affected by what she says or do but just let it be and I could even laugh and smile. Unlike last time, I would show out my black long face and keep quiet and not talk. It is really a break through for me! WHAT AN ACHIEVEMENT! Great Job HEPHZIBAH~! Cheers for you! LOL. What I've learn from this is that, God is always training us everyday, using situations or people to mould us into the person He wants us to be. I am willing to be mould by Him and let Him take control of my life. =)
♥ there's not a place
in heaven that we cant reach
@11:25 PM
Some feelings that stirs up within me
the fear of sth
those music kinda stir up my feelings
missing bel
♥ there's not a place
in heaven that we cant reach
Saturday, August 05, 2006 @11:47 PM
Restructuring of NP unit
I become Fel's meh meh, i change cg to NP3.
Gonna miss the times I had with Utan and Tivona in NP4(zai!)
Felt tired
Rather lost and couldnt really adapt to the changes
Internal struggles of it
Kar kinda spoke into me
supper!!
♥ there's not a place
in heaven that we cant reach
Friday, August 04, 2006 @11:38 PM
Festival of Praise
Its is FANTASTIC
Great!
aahahahah
I sang till i lost my voice
=)
♥ there's not a place
in heaven that we cant reach
