His name is Mozart

Honestly, to know this kid is to love him. He is just so dang easy to love! You will almost always find him with a smile. His smile makes you feel special. I love taking him to the grocery store. By the end of our trip we have at least ten new friends that he has waved at, winked and blown kisses to. Grannies adore him. Asians want to adopt him. His presence has added so much to our family. He has his daddy's body on a miniature scale. His favorite time of day is when his sisters go to sleep and we let him stay up with us. He just loves to take turns between George and I cuddling and kissing. Since he sleeps with us, I get to wake up to smooches all over my face each morning. He also rolls his eyes at me when I tell him to do something. Hilarious, now. He loves going to nursery and they all call him "the ladies man" because he holds the girls hands.
I prayed my whole life to have a boy. I knew I would be so good at being a "boys mom". He is the answer to my prayers a hundred fold. I am so blessed to be his mommy. I keep waiting for this immense gratefulness to wear off but it doesn't. I am just so lucky. Love this Kid.

One Love

Everyone has their trials, it's undeniable. I just feel this guy has had more than his fair share. Loosing his nine year old son to cancer may have been the hardest. He has worked so hard since the day we were married. He has had lots of people take advantage of his kindness. But he keeps on giving.
 Marriage is hard. I don't care who you are. It is really, really hard. We have had our ups and downs. I was reading some church material and came across something that stuck out to me. It talked about having a oneness with your husband. No matter what we go through I really feel like George and I are a "pair". We understand each other. We have our own inside jokes and know each other's looks.
I commit to being a better wife. Honestly, it's like the second I get pregnant I have absolutely no patience. I'm just going to keep praying that God will grace me with some. I appreciate this guy and all he does for me and our kiddos. I know he is going to be so successful one day and he just needs to believe in himself.
Thanks for being you George!

Hashtag #I'mpregnant

We're having baby number 4! I haven't been this sick, EVER! I throw up every other hour in fact. It's quite humorous to guess what new place I will vomit. Upchuck. Spew. And let me tell you there is a difference in all of those. Lucky me I get to experience all of them! I actually pulled a muscle in my neck from violently spewing. Who does that? But before people admonish me for complaining, I'm so grateful for this baby. True it was a complete surprise, but I wouldn't change it for anything. Not even a Taco Bell bean burrito or a Cafe Rio sweet pork salad. I'd just throw those up anyway.
I actually am entertaining the idea of having a little girl. There is so much cute stuff to buy for girls and since we are starting over it would be fun. I have a feeling in my gut it is a boy though. Either way I've been daydreaming about that sweet newborn smell and nursing a perfect little baby in my arms. The kids are thrilled (Mostly). Tati can't wait to be little miss Mommy. Alilia is excited but only wants it to be a boy. If you tell her it is a girl she gets quite upset. I just hope I am giving her enough attention. Love this girl laying next to me even though she has given me wrinkles and grey hair. She's amazing and brilliant. I love to see her shine. Mosa is in denial. When we tell him there is a baby in my belly he runs around the room screaming and throwing himself on the floor saying, "NO!!!! DON'T!" It's hilarious. For now. Sometimes he will come over and give my belly a kiss though. Let's just pray the transition is smooth.
I'm due at the end of November. I'm ten weeks, I think. Maybe more. I haven't gone to the doctor yet. I've popped out right away though. I'm in full blown maternity clothes. I'm just going to embrace it.

It's called Tomato Sauce not Ketchup

How can I give a quick update of the past fifteen months? Here goes:

1. Mosa turned one on Sept. 29th! What a great year with this little addition. He is all smiles and we all just adore him. We didn't end up even having a birthday party for him because we were so busy packing. Most family members didn't even tell him Happy Birthday. I felt sorry for my boy. I'm gonna make up for it on his second.
2. We moved to Australia. I gave away my beloved washing machine, sewing machine, tvs, wii, fridge, scooter and all the luxuries that made my life so easy. We packed up eight suitcases of clothes and that's it. I miss my stuff. But it's just stuff. We flew stand by and it was a nightmare. Wouldn't reccomend that to anyone. We had to eventually buy tickets which ended up costing up through our nose. I'd like to just forget all about that.
3. We moved in with family. George's sister was so wonderful and sacrificed a lot to let us come and stay with her and family. They had a granny flat in the back that was one bedroom and a bathroom. We stayed for about three months and then moved into our own apartment in January.
4. Tatiana started school in Australia. I was anxious to pull Tati out of school in America and have her not start again until January. I was so happy when she adjusted well. She loves her class. She wears a uniform and it's pretty darling. It better be it cost $400! And that was just for the summer. We had to shell our another $400 this month for her winter one.
5. Tati turned six! Can't believe how fast it is going. These kids aren't babies anymore. I miss the chubby cheeks. I love the girl she has turned into though. She is always trying to please her mommy. I'm so grateful for such a good girl.

Now that wasn't so hard was it? That's just the bare bones version. I'll be honest we have had a rough few years. I'm ready for it to be better. I'm confident that it will. I'm quite homesick for my friends and just America in general but I'm know how lucky I am to have this opportunity to live in Austalia. I'm grateful my kids get to be around there cousins and extended family. It's so priceless to see their joy from be best friends with their cousins.I love to watch my girls work all their uncles. There is just something about a girl and her uncle. These big men become so soft. I love that Mosa loves his Mama(George's mom). He is attached at the hip to her if she is anywhere in sight. I love going to the beach. It is just my heaven on Earth. And the fresh seafood is just a bonus!
So what's happening now? We have a five year plan. I think, pray and dream about the five year plan.  George applied the the University here and we find out next month if he gets in. Then he would start in July and go full time until he has his bachelors in Business. After he is done with school we want to move back to America. Hopefully Utah and Salt Lake but it would all depend on where he could get a job. I'm also open to California, Arizona or Texas.  I like the vibes there. I will just keep praying we can get to a point where money isn't such a struggle with us. The five year plan will bring stability. And I'm all for that!

Sunlight

Today I was so stressed. It was one of those days where I was so stressed I wanted to cry but I couldn't even do that. For five months I have been apply to medicaid to get some help to pay the 60,000 plus bill for Mosa's NICU. It has been a nightmare. Also we applied for a loan modification on our house and it's not looking good. Add that to just every day stress and I feel combustible.

BUT, the truth is those don't matter. Not in the long run. We could live in tent in the park and have no money at all and still would be incredibly blessed.

I have a husband who works ultra hard for us. He is gone 12+ hours a day. Recently, he found out his high school diploma from Australia doesn't work here so he is going to school to get his GED at night so he can start college classes within a few months. He is so great about letting me get out of the house and having some "me" time anytime I need it. He puts up with all of my baggage from my family and the drama it brings.

I am so so so grateful for the ability to have children. I don't take that for granted. Each of my babies is so precious and special. I love all the moments I get to hold them and hear them whisper they love me. I love when they hold my hand or sneak into my bed and cuddle next to me. I love when they tell me I'm their best friend in the whole world and smother me in kisses. I love when they smile at me like I am their whole world.

I love my family and I just needed to share that today.

Love Bug

This guy just melts my heart!!

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