Relief :)

hmm.. two days ago ( 18th Dec 2012 ), I had my driving test.

I failed my on the hill.

I was shivering from the beginning so I think it couldn't b help that i'd failed it.

and of course, I was sad n disappointed upon myself.

but I hv faith that I can do better next time on the coming 31st.



oh, Monday, I went out with Eevia.

my very 1st tuition fren that I actually noe her name n kept n touch ;)

v went karaoke, was fun xD

Despite my mum scolded me again that day.. she said Im cruel.

I think so too...



today, I dated with Chin Zhi dear <3 :d=":d" p="p">
before that, I went out with my mum n grandma. Happy family time, I love it x)

hmm, not really too special about it actually.

maybe its because tomorrow is 21st of Dec, the world end day.

so I felt more grateful today for everything I have around me ;)

so me n Chin Zhi did a lot of talking, a serious tension release to me after a talk with Jessie dear on Tuesday too.

I love my darlings! I noe I made u guys worried so much for me.. thank u all!

after that v went to watch Life of Pi.

a movie Chin Zhi had always wanted to watch n a movie I heard how meaningful to b watched.

well, it didn't let me down. it was great.

I realised I m a coward cause if i were Pi, maybe i would just choose to die n sink with my family instead of keeping myself alive.

i couldnt let go of my family, i cant imagine how can i ever live without them.

but Chin Zhi made me realised that why must i give up?

i do i hv to run away every single time when i face a problem?

why cant i learn to grow up?

so i know now. for how selfish, immature and a coward i m.

i must grow. to b a better one :)



then i went home straight to my bedroom, lay in front of my new laptop.

a laptop my mum bought for me to let me hv a better laptop to do my homeworks.

it shows how loving my mum is towards me. she loves me so much :')

my mum came in. she sat quitely beside me.

a little bit of a akwardness.. so i thought i should say something.

i shared with her the story of Life of Pi.. and my feelings after watching it.

i dont remember how we went in to the topic of that pig, although it just happened 15mins ago, but we did.

so we talked.

i told her i noe im such a coward but in this friendship with tis pig, i wasnt a run-away.

i was scared by him.

he is a scary man.

i knew cause i observed.

i dint just decided it without thinking n understanding.

he is scary.

he is using my mum to get to me just because i ignored his sms n calls.

he is faking to be a good fren at the same time trying to just get me.

so scary that i wanted to run .. disgusting.

i can feel goosebumps.



my mum dint say a thing after that. just like out 1st yelling fight.

she did the samething by just hugging me, saying nothing.

im affraid maybe that ive hurt her again this time but i really hope i dint cause this time i really made everything clear.. everything i thought n felt to her..

i felt relieve.

i just hope everthing will get better from now..

i love my mum n family.

i noe im being ridiculous but i really hope my family relationship wont change forever.

v can b happy n love each other..

ok.. i just LOVE THEM!!!! >w<



hehe...weird post again i noe..

but to me a great day.. really. love u all <3 br="br" x="x">



 

Confusing Plans ╮(╯▽╰)╭

u can really get unlucky when u hv no luck.. trust me..=3=

i really din plan to go CF at all, so i sold my ticket to Florence dear.

then i was reminded i hv a group on day 1.

but who cares~ i din prepare the costume, so cant go also.

thn they say go borrow.. fine, i go find ppl borrow cuase i know a really big probability she wont borrow me the costume, so i just chill saja~

=-= after so many days she din reply me, i was so happy thinking she dont wanna borrow.

i was like:" yay~ not to say i din try ar~ i tried ald~"

thn suddenly she so genorous pm me saying "no problem ar :) "

*SHOCK*!!!

ORZ...

thn Shamira wanna borrow my Miku wig on CF day 1 oso... orz...

last time she borrowed me her wig, i cant possibily say no to her... plus she's my friend...

Deng....

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thn Monday (10th Dec 2012) 

a day that i hope plan for any photoshoot.

i actually thought Elyon finally forgot bout the Miku yukata shoot, but she actually remember n planned it too..

for god sake, she should hv know the yukata belongs to Jessie dear, so definately shouldnt ask Alex to shoot. 

Who knows she so "SMART" x_x

haiz, summore tell me: " that day ar before u get on to the car he knew bout the yukata thn he say dun shoot de leh~ thn u come he say shoot~" like she si beh beh song..=w=" but if u got brain oso know u shouldnt find him in the 1st place la...@x@

suan... hv to wake up to make up.. thn Alex with his usual late habit, i waited from 11 to 3pm..WTF...

go there feed mosquitoes saja... now i got trauma seeing mosquitoes...==

i think above these two incident, the main problem is i dunno how to reject ppl ==

i should really just b firm to myself, dun "soft hearted"

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thursday ( 13th Dec 2012)

the miss "smarty" originally planned the MONDAY like this:

shoot 4 miku version in A DAY!

walao...sometimes i was thinking is she really human? @w@"

her single Mr. miku shoot

thn the 2 yukata miku shoot.

thn my wedding miku shoot.

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._.  wat can i say?

that time promise her shoot i was actually joking saja...

this is what ppl call “嘴賤" =x=

she ask me go ask alex wats the plan 4 monday, n wen i ask alex was like "wth? 4 shoot in a day?"

obviously she din tell anything in details...

so i told him i don think can fit in a day, i'll change my shoot to thursday instead n try persuade her to give up on yukata.. so obviously i failed...x_x

nvm la... wen ppl very unlucky anything can happen de lar...

thn go Bridal shoot.. actually din plan to shoot oso de.. if wasnt Elyon, i dun think i would even go 4 a shoot..

n i din plan to find Alex.. cause actually wanted Jessie dear teman me de...haiz...

nvm la, happened ald oso...

so he was late AGAIN as usual, then went to putra jaya onli say this light not good la, this place not nice la... if u come earlier mar no problem lo...haiz...

suan la, 有求於人……

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ytd firday (14th Dec 2012)

so school to discuss proposal...

conclusion: im stil the one hv to do everything =w="

thn go play pool wif classmates, not bad la..

see them lose kao kao xDDD 

>D

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today (15th Dec 2012 )

learn car... haiz... cacated dao... Q3Q 

Nex tuesday exam ald... wish me luck bah...

kan- cheong ar!!!!!!!!!!!! >x<)o

其實originally picture很漂亮的。。edit 出來。。。唉。。 ╮(╯_╰)╭

假假~

終於知道欲哭無淚是怎樣的一個感覺了……QAQ

天哪！！早知道就天天勤勞的CHECK E-MAIL 啦！

十一天前！？

老師！早知道我就給你我的電話啦！

你線了給我就打電話給我嘛！

嗚……現在要我去哪裡變個PROPOSAL給你啊！

QAQ

老師，你又不是不知道我班的男生是怎樣一個懶！

他們是絕對懶好不好！

包括我在內啦！全班懶到一個不行耶！

聖誕節？老師！我完蛋了啦！QAQ

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嗯……我只想說不管你線幾個sms給我都沒用。

我對你簡直是謝敬不敏。

打電話給我？

我跟你很熟咩？

拜託，你還嫌你弄到我的母女關係不夠爛？

噁心……

托你的福，我現在跟我媽的相處還是小心翼翼的！

吊你娘的！

醬多人死，不見你死! 偏偏就愛來打擾我平凡的生活，死吧！

什麽？線個SMS來說我有心事！？

去你的吧！

我現在過得好、睡得好！豬一般的生活，奢侈得很！

為你的麻煩就是你這個多事的傢伙！

有心事跟你說？死吧！我跟豬說都不跟你說啦！白癡！

沒事不要打擾我，我很困擾！

媽的！

所以我才討厭男人！

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假期~

過的還不錯~

不過我太過分了……懶到一個不行……

要開始努力了！

加油~ xD

iSaiD,sheSaiD

these past few months, ive been fighting with my mum over an unnecessary human.

it hurts not only me, but my mum too.

that day, she said what she said for the past few months was just wanted me to be good friend with that person. She said i don't understand.

Then i said she don't understand. I don't wanna be good friends with this person and i hated it all.

In the end, i think we both didnt understand.

she wanted it her way for my benefits,
i wanted it my way for my own feelings.

so i think i was at fault more it seems.

i dont really know what i did already.

but i do know ive hurt my mum very deep when i thought she hurt me really deep.

i guess it was me.

i always knew i am immarute,
but i never wanted to change.

i kept things going the way i felt like to according to my mood.

so i'd hurt lots of people around me.

and the one who i dont want to hurt the most, My Mom.

just now we had a talk together.

i dont think it can really said to b a talk,
cause practically, i was the only one doing the talking and yelling.

she asked me to say out want i think,
so i did.

i said im tired of fighting with my mum.
i said for the past 17 years in my life i did not fight with my mum like what i did this year.
i said i hate it.
i said i felt i was like a cheap goods or something to b sold off by my own mum.
i said i hate him even more every single seconds we fight.
i said i hate fighting with my mum.
i said i dont want to have anything to do with him not to mention good friends.
i said i know im immarute n i dont want to change.
i said i just want my mum.

i said so much just now.
my mum said non.

she kept quiet sitting there listening thn hugging me.

i know deep within myself,
even though she said nothing,
she was hurt deep down there.

but i didnt stop saying:
"i hate him so much."
"i just want my mum."

like a spoilt brat.


then i stopped crying,
she wiped my tears away and said: "ur mum loves you very much."

she said she didnt meant to.
she said she will b letting it go.
she said she wont interfere her children's decision anymore.
she said she will learn letting us go...

i knew she is very hurt.
hurt so deep n i know till that i cant breath.

i was the one hurting her..so deep..so deep..

i dont know what to say when i hear her say :"im letting u all go.."
with her face like that.

i know im the worst child ever.

i dont want her to let go.
i just want everything to be the same like b4..
like b4 i stepped into cosplay world, a world filled with rubbish-lifeless place.

but i know thrs no turning back..because i was the one who made it happen.

i dint want to grow up.
i want to b my mum's little girl longer.

and that's SO WRONG!

i will grow up.
i will grow and b a person that my mum will b proud of.

i want to grow up.

i love u, mum.

im sorry for hurting u.

but i will grow now and learn my mistakes.

i promise.

我願意當個啞巴

maybe one day i will really go nuts..

just when i thought i could hv peaceful life with my mum..

guess i thought too highly of myself n too low of my mum...==*

好朋友？你要我跟他當好朋友？
對不起咯，我沒興趣！

啊，你是說前幾個月是我誤會您的好意了？

你不是要賤賣女兒？是要女兒跟他當好朋友？

所以結論是你的女兒想太多，聽不出你的好意？

你當我智障啊！？

講話講到醬過分，你跟我說你沒有？！

是我想太多？

X的！我跟你溝通我會吐血！

我知道他是好人，可我就是天生第六感不喜歡他不可以是不是？！

好朋友？我跟他當普通朋友就該謝天謝地了！

既然知道我無法也不願意跟他當朋友，
你又何必這麼“好心”！？

我想表達的很簡單，那就是：我不想跟他有任何關係！

沒錯啦！
我就是任性！霸道！孤僻！沒智慧！不可以咩！？

我跟你說：你娘的本大爺爽！你吹啊！？

總之你說什麼都沒用了！
我的心靈已經被你在那短短的幾個月傷的血淋淋了！

你現在說什麼【好意】、什麽【朋友】、什麽【誤會】、什麽【不是故意】都沒用了！

我很霸道！我很偏激！我很善變！我很任性！

我沒有辦法再原諒了。

求求你不要逼到我不說話了，情願當啞巴了，
才告訴我你不是故意，
然後再重新說什麼“你沒有遠見。”

對不起，你要的話，
我真的願意不再說話……
不再分享……

我願意爲了我們不再吵架，

我真的願意 當一個啞巴……

你當我不孝也好，

沒腦也罷……

媽，我真的累了……

好累好累……

考試後的放蕩生活

要寫的挺多的。
都是考完試的這一個星期的事。

考完試就立刻跟校友去唱K。

其實蠻期待的，
畢竟不是經常跟校友出去玩。

也是第一次跟KIM YEN出街。
她的歌聲很好聽 :)

其實真的不是很盡興。

女的還是斯斯文文地唱，
完全不像跟瑾芝她們那樣瘋狂、放開的唱……

男的自己唱自己的rap……
沒事再加多兩句說女生不會唱……

悶哪……

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然後星期五 （9.11.2012）

去pool party……

原本以為可以享受、放鬆自己……

結果……比前一天還慘！

女生……噁……(#‵′)

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之後 （10.11.2012）

電頭髪！

orz,我的頭髮簡直干倒不像樣！
像雜草！

然後就快快樂樂去赴約~

跟瑾芝寶貝出街~！

耶！一解我鬱悶的心情~！

xDDD 

resident evil 5 真的很hurt我咯……

騙我的感情！還騙了四集之久……=3=

恩愛照 x)

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星期日（11.11.2012）

跟媽媽去dinner。

又吵架了……

真的不知道要怎樣相處……

我什麽都沒做都可以被罵，乾脆以後都保持安靜算了。

反正我說什麼她都可以聯想，

到最後一定是我的錯！吊！

算了，幸好之後都安全度過。

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星期一 （12.11.2012）

唉，完全沒有了藝術細胞……

做個佈告板都可以做到不像樣！
做到吐血……

我徹底對自己無言。

還要等漾漾三個小時半！媽的！

算了，看在他挺可憐的份上，
就不怪他了。

可憐人自有可憐之處？

然後去JC寶貝家過夜，
第二天有shoot.

我沒事幹嘛醬講義氣啊？
得空沒事做，拉屎上身==

跟寶貝敷面膜 xD
看視頻！睡覺！

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星期二 （13.11.2012）

都不知道自己是不是被詛咒了！

去朋友家過夜都生病！？

真的衰啊……

其實對elyon的程度早就沒什麼期望了，
但面對事實的發生時，
還是挺無言的。

因為是她的assignment，
我反而希望她可以儘量發揮，
可是…………

無言……

尤其是在被駡了以後，
看得出她根本不去發揮了……

人生不如意事，十之八九……

表緊啦，我跟寶貝不錯看就好了~

開心就好嘛~

回到去還看到有個神經病的居然敢罵我老婆！
X的！知不知道我老婆最無辜啊！？

什麽都不知道還要給你罵！

拜託！搞事的又不是我老婆！

其實這天我心情本來很不錯下的，
拍完寶貝的時候寶貝很有義氣的帶我去吃飯糰~

日本菜就是本大爺的菜！

愛死了~

最近胃口很大，
真的吃很多~

所以肥了……orz~

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星期三 （14.11.2012）

嘿嘿……
終於拐到Florence寶貝出街了！！！

超想她的~！

呵呵~

早上跟外婆跟媽媽去吃早餐~！

耶~ 豐富啊~

吃超多的！

到了sunway還不停吃……
我真的在懷疑我的肚子是不是長蟲了？

不然真麼會真麼想吃？=3=

經常都會很擔心Florence寶貝，
因為她什麽都放在心上，
瑾芝跟我每次都想拐她出街，
今天終於拐到手了~！哈哈哈啊！！！xD

然後因為姐夫的不放心，
我就大大方方進寶貝家門偷情去啦~

哦吼吼吼吼~

晚上還看靈異片！

如果不是前幾次被嚇的好慘，
晚上肯定就不用睡了……T3T

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星期四 （15.11.2012）

哈哈！

我又不停的吃了……
前天半夜我居然在啃肉乾……
想不肥都難……

恭喜我自己，
重了5kg……*死尸

唉，算了……
吃得是福……
我還是看開點好了~

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今天嘛~ （16.11.2012）

嘿嘿……
吃飽就睡咯~

幸福啊！

可是我發現我的壞脾氣還在……
還是很容易就發火……

真的是要控制了……

After Exam

finally finished exam

i did badly.. to be more precise, EPIC FAIL

i didn't prepare well,
so basically i fluncked all 4 subjects.

and guess what, my muet trial exam i only got band 2.

the lamest results ever.

so i really hv to buckup b4 i really kill myself with all this misbehaviour.

so practically, i only set my play time for this week.

next week i'll start my studies again ald.

ofcoz i will still hv play time, but time management is really ONE BIG THING！

so ya.


b focus!! xwx

囧—囧

也不知道是不是我的錯覺，
感覺越來越難跟我媽溝通。

我還是很喜歡跟我媽說說我的日子怎麼過，
跟我媽分享周遭發生的事……

可是我媽卻偏偏什麽事都要往男人上扯。
說一大堆他的優點。

好像我不嫁給他，
她絕不會開心似的！

我說，媽啊，你女兒真的有這麼差麼？
需要把我這麼樣個賤賣么？！

要不是我不要，
我要的話，男人我怎麼會沒有！？

好吧……請容許我這麼樣個猖狂……
我怕我再不猖狂點，我就會瘋掉了……

好吧……
我知道我不漂亮，
連個【普通好看】都混不上……

厚厚的唇，
眼睛小小的，
皮膚也不白，
扁塌塌的鼻子，
飛機場的胸部……

要身材沒身材，
要樣子沒樣子，
要智商沒智商。

可是！
你也不用把我賤賣吧！？

我囧……

男朋友又不是我不想要……

可是真的沒這心思嘛！

而且宗教也很重要啊……

你不介意，
可我很是介意啊！

拜託，
別再在我前面提他了！

我玩够了本就哪個cos人都甭理了！

我靠( ‵o′)凸

不喜歡

我不喜歡我媽在我前面跟我說哪個男人對我好。

我不喜歡我媽每次都告訴我應該怎樣對那個男的。

我不喜歡我媽每次像犯花癡似的，跟我說那個男的好處。

我不喜歡那個男的。

我不喜歡自己一直在發脾氣。

聽到我媽講這些我就好煩。

覺得噁心。


我媽不喜歡我每次都說：“我討厭男生！”

我媽不喜歡我每次都說：“我厭倦了說話！”

我媽不喜歡我每次都說：“因為壓力，我無視所有的男生！”

因為這些男生都包括他。


我覺得很噁心。

總感覺我媽要把我賣給那個男的，她才甘心。

我的未來一定是那個男的。

我覺得好噁心。

面對這種媽，我覺得噁心。


幾時開始我媽變成了這個樣子？

噢，離婚的時候。


所以我的感受都不被考慮？

我覺得噁心，所以要被罵？

我覺得煩，發脾氣，頂回嘴，所以是活該？


惡……我真的好討厭男的。

媽，你逼得我更討厭他了。



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話說上個星期五考完了試。

一敗塗地。

我真的太活該了。

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星期六 （13.10.2012）

去了 vocaloid project diva: pool party :)

基本上，我是去75人的。=w=)v

第一次跟小雷、Kuro Dai & C.K 合作，開始的時候大家都不熟，感覺有點尷尬……

可是這不成問題~

因為在我字典里，很難會出現【尷尬】這兩個字。

哈哈！拜託！也不想想我是誰~ xD

嘿，後感不錯！因為覺得除了Kuro以外，大家都是【受】！ xDDD

基本上，被75得最慘的應該是C.K了……
仗著自己是“姐姐” 一直在75他！
咔咔！！可愛被虐受啦~！

可是終於明白樂極生悲了……

在75 Calvin 的時候，被踢了踢腳，腫了……=3=

算了~ 也不妨礙大爺我75人！目標：Elyon xD

可惜寶貝Jessie 這麼早就得走了……

不然追著她來打也是一種樂趣~ 【被打 xD

照片本人是挺滿意的啦~ 
感覺大爺我很斯文似的~
這是假象！ xD

大合照~！ xD

我跟寶貝的合照！！

我很喜歡跟寶貝合照~ 其實想拉著她拍更多的……可是被小雷搶去了 =3= 我鄙視帥哥！xDDD

還有很多美好的照片的……可是看著攝影師，本爺覺得是【石沉大海】了……

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星期日 （14.10.2012）

去了拍 涼宮春日：Gymnastic 版本。

EPIC FAIL.

真的。

我的表情看起來就是黑社會大姐大要打架的表情……（（哭！

早上發燒就夠倒楣的了……

之後還眼鏡不適，隱形眼鏡不能戴……

orz……

然後還被燙傷！！！

奶奶的……

痛了我六天！ =血=

因為覺得嚴重委屈，我就跑去嚇大眾了~

頂著自以為帥的紫毛，我去Leisure Mall Sushi King 嚇人 xD

好啦，我也有跑去亂晃，下了幾個人 xD

淒涼的一天就醬過完了… :D

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20/10/2012

我好沒用！

居然沒在讀書！

真的是想死了！！！！

17/10/2012

Domino Pizza Day xDDD 

Weddings 0w0

recently, don't know y really like weddings x)

i guess i really sot ald.

past me doesn't believe in love, not to mention marriage.

now is also the same though x)

its not that i don't believe the existence of true love, 

its just that i don't believe that the girl would be me, thats all.

listened to a fren of mine telling me how happy her cousins sister was in her wedding n how the husband loves her makes me feel that "ahh...how lucky she is...:)"

n saw Ella from S.H.E married off so happily makes me wonder if a marriage really gonna make a girl the happiest woman in the world for once?

i guess so :)

but maybe just not me...

however, its still makes me really happy to see friends around me found their loves xD

although there will b some fights but ya, i can see the happiness within them.

sometimes seeing them so happy make me wonder "when will it be me?"

haha, i doubt i wil ever have once...x_x

*sad =3= xD

yesterday, went cosplay working with Jessie, Ayumi & April. :)

it was a mid- autumn festivel in a primary in seremban.

there was a girl in clown suit but can see she is a really optimistic x)

oh n really friendly xD

it was like "awww~" when i saw her with her bf together x3 

how cute x)

n her bf so leng zai xDDD

Was GREAT working with Jessie all again despite some issues...

coz it reminded me of 猜燈謎 with Jessie when we were just 13 years-old xD

somehow, v r still very hyper xD

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after stpm the movie i wanna buy n watch~! >> 《壞壞女孩》 

Ella~ i Lub u xDDD

Moron Me

i have no idea what i've been doing lately.

not working, not studyinng, not thinking...

i really should just slap myself, seriously.

there's a lot in my brain lately,
all seems so useless.
they shud just get out of my brain n let the studies go in.

so mayb i should just slp myself so hard that i would realise how stupid i m here wasting my time.
bastard...

戲

最近都在煲YouTube...真的是個壞孩子……

都看了《命中註定我愛你》、《原來愛，就是甜蜜》、《下一站幸福》等偶像劇。

電影的話，看了《百萬富翁的初戀》、《初雪》、《狼的誘惑》、《Snow White》、《One Day》、《Do Re Mi Fa So La Ti Do》、《The Parents Trap》、《非誠勿擾》......還有很多……看到我都忘了……看，我有多過分……

看到我連做夢，都看到了吳建豪……=///v///= orz,他真的很帥啦~ 人家好害羞哦~ *捂臉*
【眾：你欠打啊！？ xD

沒啦，重點是，我看了《one day》，
一部關於命運作弄、等待的故事。

沒有很感人，要的話，過程甚至讓你覺得無聊。
可是，我卻看了。

平平淡淡，
愛卻不說，
愛卻不懂。

就醬過了不知道多少個十年……
到最後，女主角死了。

人總是醬，
時間過了才發現晚了。

我也是……到現在，居然還沒讀書！！！！！！！！！！！！！！

要被打了 =3=

讀書加油！Fighting! >3<)o

Stupid

ALL MY POSTS R STRICTLY PRIVATE!!! i mean its my private feeling that u dont share wit others. TQ.

men..r hopeless...=_=

for god sake they say they understand u.
thn go to ur friend n say "i noe her n i noe she wil do this n do that" or " wont do this or that."

yeah ryte..= =
y dont u take a look in the mirror or even look at who u r talking to?

thats my bff ok?
she definately know me better then u do.

i feel like laughing wen i hear my bff told me this.
stupid man.

oh n the best part is it is so obvious ure talking bout them n they still din realised bout it.
N even say "im definately not the one~" oh yeah ryte!

wonder whr the fucking over-self-confident came from..
when self- confident is over, its not self-confident anymore,
its call "NUSANCE" ok? =w="


can they make my life peaceful by get themselves out of my life? =x=



hvn been in good mood since ytd...
i just want my Her to b happy... :'(

Tears Drop • Heart Aches

today was suppose to b a happy n enjoyable day...

but i realised she was in pain...

i would nvr notice if v dint meet up today...

our time together was too short..
i didnt b with her when she needed me the most..QAQ

im such a jerk...

i really wanted to cry wen she cried..
she nvr cried infront of me this sad b4..
i was the one always crying & she was alwys the shoulder 4 me to lean on..
but now...its different.

my heart aches like hell to see her tears..

she changed so much since.
she is not the confident her anymore...
i cant find the her...

i got scared..i scare she gets hurt.. i scare her heart aches more n bleed...


i just wan to protect her... i wan her to b free n happy. :)



 ♥ i love u  ♥

MoonCake Festival ♥

今天是中秋節？ 0w0"
如果不是Poh Poh 跟我媽說，我還以為是明天 x)

嘿，今年的中秋像往年一樣平凡。
但是，又好像有了那麼一點點的不一樣 ;3

自從很久以前，我家就不再慶祝中秋了。
小的時候就說有那個人跟爺爺奶奶在，
所以中秋是一年裡很重要的一天……

玩燈籠、點蠟燭、提燈籠遊街、吃月餅都是理所當然的……

事過境遷，一切已不再一樣。

我本人很喜歡在重要的節日里，默默地與家人度過……
所以慶不慶祝，無所謂。

最重要的是，我有買月餅跟媽咪吃 ;)  ♥ 

今年的中秋，
真的蠻不一樣的 :D

我第一次收到朋友送我月餅耶！！！
超開心的 xD

而且，還去了Ayumi mummy的家做costume xDDD
人家我第一次做衣服哦！

嘿……可是我只剪紙剪布……
縫衣的是Ayumi幫的……>w<"

成果不錯嘛~
我果然是天才~！ ♥ 【被打

還有，謝謝Poh Poh載我回家兼吃東西！ xDDD
還有你的月餅！
我真的很感動~！
居然有Panda-kun 、Hello Kitty 跟很可愛的月餅！>w<
有你這個哥哥真好！ xDDD

 Muakakakaka~!!! 很厲害吧~！【自戀-ing ♥

謝謝，哥！我最愛Sushi 了！x)

謝謝 Eclair! ♥ >w< 雖然我們都沒見過面，可是你真的超好的啦！

 我就知道他是爲了盒子而買的 =w=

 OMG!!! ♥ Hello Kitty Moon Cakes >w<

Panda-kun ♥ but abit yong sui nia.. x)

大豐收啦！xD

really touched n happy to receive mooncakes from friends :)

but abit guilty coz i din give them any mooncake >x<

however, thank you so much friends!

Happy MoonCake Festival! x3

Past few Months :)

it has been really long since i hv logged on to my blog.
Lots of things happened since..A LOT..

but somehow, i survived x)

let's see, i really do hope i could write it all down..but under condition, if i remember ;)

well, i got an insane stalker n i dun even noe how i got it =w=“

erm, to me i really do appreciate days wit this fren but things went too over.
y does it took so long for me to realise some ppl around me is just mentally ill?
guess im just pure stupid. ._.

i din really take it much cause my brain was packed wif my school stuff. x(

school was cool..when i say cool, i dun mean the studies, i meant frens =3=

Studies didnt went too well though..
i dun think im working hard enough.

seriously, for me to strike STPM, the way im working now just doesn't work x_x

recently, i found out that my chem teacher got a tumor in her stomach..
she is going for surgery.

she told me not to tell others but to see my classmates not knowing anything n stil wondering around just sometimes makes me feel sad for my teacher..
especially when looking at myself not working hard enough to reach her hope. :(

stil remember the beginning of her taking over my class, i dislike her =3=
she scolded me for every single thing i did.

but now i understand. after a few sms with her, i understand all she wanted was for me to score, for me strike.

she always have high hope on me.. n i m grateful for that. I M PROUD :)

and I WANT TO MAKE HER PROUD OF ME before she leaves :P

the things that happened to me all these time have moiled me into a stronger person. a better one i believe :)

i really do hope i could just write it all down what happened to me past few months, but now, i think my mood is just great ;)

ohya, i went to work with Jessie <3 nbsp="nbsp">
# 21.9.2012 #

it was really good n glad to know that she is now in a new relationship cause seriously, the previous one really pissed me off wen he left my dear waited for him after training for 2 hours n he slept  the whole afternoon == wat a jerk. 

back to the work thing x) i always ran off topics i noe... xP

i was my 1st time promoting beer. 

it was suppost to b an grant event but since it was raining, most of the guest couldnt make it.
in which turns out to give us the chance of doing nothg but standing like a statue =w="

anyhow, v stil got the money x)

and i went to genting for a cosplay job ;) # 17th to 26th August 2012#

though lots of bad things happened there because of an unworthy person, but happy to say it ended peacefully. oh n when i say "ended peacefully" i meant my work, not the friendship thing..it went worse =w="

was sick for the first few days but it went quite well n i meet really great ppl :)

ayumi n dave were really nice to me, though i onli bring troubles to them x(
 but they helped me alot x)

n i actually met someone that has a same surname as mine 0w0"

High School of The Dead

 Vocaloid Poker Face :3

After Poker Face Shooting ;3

- Friends Forever! -

i just LOVE them ! *kisses*

that day after shooting, we went snooker! xD
it was fantastic to spend time with my dears after such a long time :D

Exam is coming very soon.

Hope i can score :)

God Bless xD

i shall do my best for my future :)

adios love ones x)