there have been a tsunami of emotions prior to this wkend. mixed feelings of wanting and not wanting. the feeling that i cant really be fuked with everything. fuelled by your behaviour. i've said b4, friendship dont end just because you stop talking, it ends because no effort is being made. it takes 2 hands to clap. communication is a 2-way thing, fyi. i cant be talking all alone now can i? whats the point?

i understand that alot of been said between us that cannot be taken back. things that only the closest of frens would say and know it wuldnt hurt ur feelings. if its not being said by us, who you called ur closest fren, den who supposed to look out for you. i am pretty sure you also have said a fair share to me about my life, something i take in my stride no matter no hurtful it was. and when the tables are turned to you, we bacame the mean ones. is that right now?

all we had ever wanted, all i wanted is that you be happy. and it pains me to see how bad you were mistreated, mentally. and everything became draining to you. even us. accomodating put a dent on each of us. we culdnt understand, and u didnt make us understand. u didnt even bother. assumptions were made based on wat u tink we felt. but u nvr bother to ask.

never fuking bother.

u put ur ego in first. u didnt place us anywhere.

such a sod for 10yrs of frenship really.

i promise that i was gonna suk it up and smile. so much effort i tell you. you haf no idea.

so here i am, all suked up and smile. for one last time. like you say, for old time sake. because we were once good buddies.

congratulations to you. i am glad that finally, he makes you happy. and i hope he continues to make you happy. i wish for noting else but the best for you.