if i had one wish to make since its going to be a new year soon.
i would wish to know how to quit you.
its been draining these past few weeks since the ultimate decision made. and everything has just been super hard. resistance has been made and i am keeping to that. quitting you has to be the hardest decision to make. but i suddenly feel the strongest need to move on.

but
everything seems to be pulled your way. every thought i have in my own time was about you. i even caught myself smiling when i remembered one of our memories. these things are hard. esp hard wen i am trying to move on and forget.

apparently the tears haf not fallen enuff. but i am forcing myself not to shed a tear anymore. not for these and definitely not for you anymore. i know that your bagged and booked. i am not sure wen tho. and i hope there wun be a stopover to where i am at. as much as i wuld haf love to see you again, i dun tink i am capable of handling too much drama.

we cant be just frens. we were nvr just frens to start out with. and still being frens with you wuld just makes tings harder than it oready is.
i can be frens with all my ex-es. just not you.
never you, dylan.
never you...