is hearing 2 diff person, whose shares the same blood running thru our veins, say somethings that shouldnt be said.

one made a remark coz she always say things w/o thinking and for a fact that she prolly had sumthing up her effing arse.

another made me go thru hell only for me to find out that it was all a faux. not that it mattered much. rly. but i FOUND it out. you didnt even haf the cheek to tell me. i FUKING FOUND it out.

all i can say is thanks babe. my frens were right. i dunno why i still do everything i did. it all seems stoopid. i feel stoopid.

a dear fren told me to see the moon in the sky tonight. and instantly, my heart misses deeply my life back in ady. i used to go to my backyard to wind down. i lurve it. and den i just sit and watch the sky wich is filled wif stars. thats just beautiful. theres many stars and they are so bright in the sky. and it eases me. alot. esp wen i haf datelines.

having thinking abt them makes me miss the boy. i dunno. i told ya that i will haf these feelings from time to time. again. i hadnt spoken to him since our last convo a mth back i think. and i remember how much we lurve sitting in the backyard too. having our meals. talking. smokes. spa session. reading a book. and den i remember how much i love him.

damn now everythings making me very effing emo.