this is me all tired and smiling. my eyebag is like a mf. but at the end of the day, i still njoy and had fun. i reckon thats most important. esp wen we not sure wen next we'll be meeting up.
his bdae is coming. tioman was postponed due to work commitments. so we trying to see if we culd fit a day-trip to sumwhere into our schedule.

i cant wait for the 4th date. i reckon that'll be more fun. i lurve getaways. :)
and yes B! i tink i miss you oready.

everyting seems like shite.
works like all over sg lately and very fuking early morning wake-ups. late sleep and early wake-ups makes me a grumpy and cranky gerl. well, not rly, i am just fuking tired out. as much as i hate how it has been and will be, its work and i just haf to stand it.

wow fuked me up good too. for sum fuking reason, my acct got compromised wich leaves me upset. mainly because the help-support they provided wuldnt/culdnt help. despite me explaining the whole annoying story over and over again. i mean seriously, dun u understand english? Jadz tried to help but he cant do much cept to gif me emotional support over the phone since i was oready crying eyes out.
and of course, who comes to my rescue? the boy as always. omg i know. i was suprised. but since the acct was registered under his name. only he culd do sumting abt it. wich was nice of him too. i keep apologising and he keeps saying dun worry abt it. wich leaves me at hello. sigh
wich den makes me realised that i miss him since we hadnt chatted and all for ages. double sigh.

as much as having a fuked week, we haf been at each others throat since our 2nd date. wich leaves me very fuking frustrated. i cannot believe how much we quarrel and everyting just got very irrational. how can it be that my points are not valid?
not having enuff sleep and voice-raising everytime we are on the phone. that just doesnt help the situation, does it? i am tired. i need to rest and i cant be fuked wanting to meet u up this wkend. honestly. but i know i haf to coz we need to fuking sort things out. but its nvr gonna happen. we r nvr gonna sort it out. we'll just haf fun and enjoy each other's company and leave everyting to wen we are a distance away from each other to bring up.

fuk! i'm tired and sleepy. my back's aching like a muthafuker. my mind is all over the place.

'ku mencintaimu lebih dari apapun,
meskipun tiada satu org pun yang tahu.
ku mencintaimu sedalam-dalam hatiku,
meskipun engkau hanya kekasih gelapku.

ku tahu ku takkan selalu ada untukmu,
disaat engkau merindukan diriku.
kutahu ku takkan bisa memberikanmu,
waktu yang panjang dalam hidupku.

yakinlah bahwa engkau adalah cintaku,
yang ku cari selama ini dalam hidupku.
dan hanya padamu, ku memberi sisa-sisa cintaku
yang panjang dalam hidupku.'

it was a nice day spend for a 2nd date. tho, we were both drained out after a week worth of work, it was nice to be chilling out in each other company's. 'KL Drift' was the highlight of the date. the normal brunch/starbucks/shopping happen while waiting for the movie. den again, fancy dinner by the sea wich is always good :) i lurve my grilled stingray!! along wif my kailan oyster sauce. ouh and we were entertained by very loud old skool rock music. wich have us laughing coz he said he cant imagine that i actually knew those songs.

but things werent good b4 we left. we had an arguement that culd nvr be resolved, wich we had to end midway coz it was late. so we ended up keeping quiet during the journey home. i reckon we both just didnt know wat else to say. having the options and not being able to do both.
or rather not wanting to do both. it render us helpless.

maybe, we shud just cross the bridge wen we come to it. i dunno.
right now, i am just looking forward to date #3, Peterpan Concert.
heh! that'll be super awesome i tell you.

its funny how life turns out sumtimes. i knew them when i was 18 i tink. 1st year poly.
its been roughly abt 7yrs wif the senoritas.
7 wonderful years of frenship, support, laughter, tears and love.
at 26, we still act as tho we nvr grow up. cept for Jun(far left), shes getting married.
for once, i tink i am glad i came back. i really do.
the bdae girl, Fozie
well she trys. it wuld nvr happen. haha

and with the senoritas, came the accessories of life
the jantan cabarets!!! haha.

perfect company.
wat betta way to end a wonderful night wif supper@carousel wif these ppl.
ouh wait. it didnt end here. it ended up wif us girls shopping at mustafa center after supper. roflers. such life!

an impromptu decision lead me to double'o. haha. but it was fun. thanks to mya for everyting. my chaperon for the night - my b-bestie. if he hadnt agree to follow, i wuldnt end up going to. it was a helluva ppl, i tell you. and i was dancing and perspiring as tho i was running a marathon. haha. i like a good workout. and them drinks were cheapass!!

and yes mya! i like the idea of MOS-ing end mth. seems like a damn good idea u hadnt haf in while!! so lets! i'll try to make sure b-bestie b free that day too :)

having not met b-bestie in a longest longest time. it feels good to have him all to myself for a good 4hrs. but it also make me realise how much i miss spending time wif him. i used to see him almost everyday back wen we were not working or wen hes not working. or wen i am back for hols. its just weird how that can rarely happen now. i reckon thats wat we call life eh?

nwayz boy, lets haf a good dinner sumtime soon. :)
i like that. and i miss you.