i hadnt exactly been on a date in a fuking long time.
and it felt so good. sumting i needed in a longest time. not to mention the gravity we defy just to go on the date but it was all fuking worth it. very fuking worth it.

the date was set in JB. yes ppl. in Johor.
we met late since work sucked the shite outta us. dinner was done by the sea at some fancy seafood place. it was so good. drove ard and spent the whole night chatting away and laughing. big :)) we were both pretty maxed out wen morn came. a small breakkie. den decided on watching a movie wich nvr happen coz we ended up having coffee at starbucks and we decided to chill.

its been 6 yrs since we last saw each other. so many tings haf happened during those times. and wen we met up, it doesnt feel like we've lost those time coz everyting abt us seems to still be the same. :) yes darl. i miss you. i miss you so much. and i am glad we found each other now.
i cannot imagine growing up together and all and we dun even haf a picture of us together. well, you do. i dun haf any. i looked at all the albums and culdnt find any. all i could find is grp photos.

i reckon i nd to learn to grow up and learn not to run away from tings.
it gets a lil bit harder now wen i haf them come hitting me straight in my face. trust me, i wasnt exactly walking away. i was looking for a solution but prolly i was taking a lil too long to do it. like i've said over and over again, i need to do things at my pace.

i understand that time isnt sumting i haf at a luxury.
i haf no excuses. home feels like not home at the moment. everyone is not talking to anyone. and wen mouth are opened, all i could hear is everyone shouting at each other. do we rly to raise our voices to get a point across? cant we just be civilised?

all i do now is work, tuition, home to sleep and thats about it. and sum of the house work wen required. and looking for a job so i culd get everyting in order. apparently all i nd is a job and everyting else wuld be a breeze.
it all seems a lil easy. really. just the fact of getting around to get it done and doing it that seems a lil more than expected. but hey, thats how it will always be, wuldnt it?

so many ppl tells me that its impossible to be fighting fate.
a tagline from 'The Leap Years' says "it is not in the stars that holds our destiny but in ourselves"
yes! yes! i know and heard so many saying that we cant fight fate but we culd change our destiny. but cant i be different and say i want to fight fate. wateva that is.

and the fact that coincidentally, i want to buy books wif my pay this mth, the 3 books i've picked out are all about fate. i mean wat are the chances of them being super coincidences??

and i've read 2/3 of the books. and i hate it! not the books of course, just the contents.
i mean it was all written brilliantly, dont get me wrong.

damn that boy who makes me feel tis way but as its always is, tis is just a facade.
right now, hes blocked me from everyting pertaining to him over sumting that wasnt even his in the first place(read:stoopid arguements)
i am not fretting. it has always been him who came looking for me.
but first he needs to grow up and learn that the world doesnt just revolved ard him.

please also take note that i am tired of all these.
all these games you've been playing the past 10 yrs.
i tink i liked it betta wen u werent around.

i had a wonderful, splendid weekend.
wat could be betta than to spent an entire wkend wif my fav frens.

yan, wok, fozi, jun, man, lan and ali

my senoritas
the cabaret boys

thanks for the awesome wkend.
and everyone else who came on sat night to make it happen.
it was really nice to haf that after a longest time.
thanks for the non-stop laughter and the stoopid horror malay movies we watched.
brunch on sat morn was fantastic. food was marvelous. thanks to yan&jun for the effort. not to mentioned the jantan2 cabarets who was doing all the BBQ-ing work. lol

but all in all, the quality time that the senoritas had was the best. tho short and the fact that us 4 were dead tired, we still had time to sit ard to catch up on our own(read:w/o the boys). babes, lets not wait too long for the next one. i suggest karaoke! i want to sing to our hearts content!!

so looking forward to the next one. :))
prolly shud head down to one of the islands. that wuld be super fun!!