there are so many tings that set me out and held me back these past 12 mths.
i think at this moment, i am just so looking forward to the new year and what it might bring me.

'it doesnt matter what we call it. what matters is to leave in the past those moments in life that are over.'
- Paulo Coelho in his book, The Zahir

i want to have a new dream. a new beginning. a new drive. a new me.

but right now, i need to get ready and get to KL.
happy new year. may it brings you a bundle more of a lil of everything that you had this year.

i was a good gerl on this merry day. i was working my arse off coz i culdnt think of anyting betta to be doing. so i ended up being bullied the whole night by the cabaret boys;
wawan & my macho-man.

it was a lil bit solemn compared to what i was doing a yr ago. racing ard vivo wif nat and boy and his fren to get her crizzy presents. come to think of it, the tiredness is almost the same.

crizzy night was being entertained by;
macho-man & wacko-gerl :))

i haf to say that we shud haf no more of late night supper/chatting sessions. esp wen i am doing an opening shift. coz they made me late for werk everytime it happens. but fun fun fun was all there was.

but that wasnt all that cheerful. there was a couple of have been that might happen but it didnt. and wen i think of it, it upsets me. it wuld haf been a good one.

another was that unintentional slip-off that caused a lil anger to erupt. my bad sweetie. it shudnt haf been said. at least not in that context and at that point of time. but at the end of the day, i was just trying to put across a point. wich i reckon u wuld nvr be able to see. no offence.

on a much lighter note, i am celebrating new yr - wait for it - KL. pfft. wats new? wedding to be attend. ouh well, beats having to be here and by myself. culd be fun if i culd manage a sneakaway to zouk/velvet underground for the celebrations tho ;p

the whole family
from top; Widy, Aisyah, Agnes, Sheena, Roanny, Claire and Erny
middle; Jamie, Angela, Sufi, Haqiem, Wirda, Nadz, Rizal, Me and Wan
seated; Joel(hes too tall to be standing)
m-i-a; Faizal, Christine and Aunty Nancy!

toasting to recent success!!!

some of us; top - Nadz, Jamie, Faizal, Sheena, Haqiem
bottom - Angela(a very drunk Angela), Rizal, Joel, Me and Roanny!

my favourite bitches; sufi and wirdathe planners for the night; haqiem, nadz and wirda!

my pak-super, my macho-man; Rizal

and yes! the cheeky boy himself, the store manager; Abg Nadz
(omg! i hate that stoopid face of his)

us again. like duh!

2 very drunk bitches

the chalet of was a good one. it was damn tiring but it was all worth it in my opinion.
we had fun and all. i look forward to more of this gathering.
well at the moment lets look forward to the 6th July free drinks event aight peepz!
much much much <3

i haf been rather distraught lately. my mind seem to be running ard wild. and it hurts.
its hurts because i know i am moving on but at the same time, i miss him so much.
can i move on and miss him at the same time?

and looking at them pictures aint gonna help make me feel any less. and i am so afraid to even email or send a myspace msg to ask his well-being.
omg! why do i miss you so much? why now?
and u make me cry. after awhile. u still managed to make me cry.
and i remembered everything all over again. thats just plain cruel.

tis is just too hurtful. i rest my case.
i can never be over you babe.
at least not right now.