it hadnt been easy being back. too much expectations than before. due to the irresponsible of sum other ppl. preassure nvr seem to ceased. in fact it seem to haf rises to a whole new lvl. i still feel the dread. not because i dun want to care for them. but i want to do it away from them.

i am still looking. its been stress coz everything aint up to it. but i cant be fuss. coz at the moment, all i need is one that will help to go back and end it all. thats all i need right now.

and den we talk everything u want me to be.

its still hard.
plz dun ask me why i came back. dun ask me about wat happen in adelaide.
dun ask me wat abt adelaide. just dun ask.
no offence. but if i am rdy to talk, u guys will know so no point pushing it. let me do this on my own tym and target.

i am glad i am back. it feels nice to haf familiar faces ard.

the flight is set and confirmed for the wkend. yes!i am coming back and for good. pardon me if i haf no intention of meeting up wif the masses. there are a couple of things i nd to do hence the not wanting to go out mood. as much as coming back means trying to set a course for my life. setting it involves sorting myself out emotionally and physically.

it feels weird packing my bags. and worrying abt wat to throw out and wat to bring back. it just doesnt feel right. at least not right now. its'll be mere days b4 i leave. and to be honest, i am so not looking forward to it. but i know i haf to.

for wat its worth. i haf come to terms wif things now. i am a lil betta than how i was. i am still fuked up thats for sure. but as far as i am concern. i am a lil betta!