it has been draggy at first. very! but time seems to fly away quick. i am back in adelaide now. there were 2 scares for me tho. 1 - was in Sg airport wen they told me that i didnt haf any visa attached to my current passport. and i was like wtf? i specifically asked the lady at the freakign counter wen i picked up my new passport, since the old one is gonna expired, if ti does matter. but she told me in a matter-of-fact face'No!' not unless mine is a paper visa. ouh but it does matter now right. so wtf am i suppose to do? my plane is flying off in like wat 90 mins or so. and i dun haf a freaking visa. it was nice fo them to offer me a tourist visa tho its bullshit to the max since i cant haf it. unless i want to be deported back to sg soon as i land in Perth. of course i panicked. but the kind lady at teh counter told me that they will amke a call to Canberra and tell them of my situation. I was made to travel back to my house to get my old passport. all that - thanks to my dearest kuzzies. thanks for driving like we r racing thru amazing race. and Yes! tje kind ppl at Canberra told me that i culd make my journey back and that its all good. phew! relieved i tell you. thank gawd!


2 - well. i hadnt had much sleep lately. dun ask me why. wuldnt be able to answer the questions myself. culdnt get fark all sleep on the plane. there was fark shite movies that was being aired. and worst, they were serving fish. FFS! i mean i dun mind fish. i like fish but them fish they serve smells fishy and turn me off completely. so i had to starved myself thru the 5 hrs journey and i was getting crankier. upon reaching the Perth International airport, i was made even frustrated coz i missed my domestic flight to Ady. and mind you, Perth was at abt 40deg that fuking day. i tot i culd haf a snack coz my tummy was rumbling like mad. but no! it takes 15mins to get from the international to domestic airport. i mean like WTF? haf the airport further next tym. omg! by the tym i checked myself into a later flight. i was upset, cranky, grumpy and everyting. to a point i tink me and the boy was fighting on the phone the whole tym i was in Perth. ouh boy! am i looking in 2 hrs.


the trip to ady was a nice and comforting one. wasnt too many flyers. and the food was awesome. and i had a lil nap as well. very much contented.
my highlight of the day was definitely the first look at the boy. i was so nervous wen i was walkign thru the tube coz i miss him so much. and it just feels weird after 2 mths. i had to take my moments and walk up to him slowly. u noe, to take it all in. we cant rush these things.
and i got a huge kiss and hug wen i got to him. it feels good. it feels good to be back wif him.
and now, i am just looking forward to a wonderful weekend. just him and me! movies, beach and catching up. we earned all of that. esp after everyting we've gone thru.


to everyone else, thanks for all the wonderful tyms spent wif me. i rly appreciate it. looking forward to our next meet-up. hopfully in march next year. and prolly wif the boy as well.
brother's wedding. heh.

sumtyms i feel that i am taking a wrong turn. it doesnt differ from all the other tyms wen i feel like i dunno wat i am doing. i mean the decision is made and have already been consented by my parents. but i still do feel like sumting just not right at the corner of it all.
i dun diagree the fact that this has been my decision. and prolly wat i want so much but theres just too many tings at stake to be all abt me.


every1 has sumting to say. and it does bother me in a way coz they are not random ppl. and everyting feels like its tearing me apart. it feels like having myself pulled in every direction.
its starting to hurt.
its not easy to haf a decision made and actually stick to it. i wish i culd but i just cant.


this didnt help the r/ship at all. new sets of problems were brought up. the ones we haf been wanting to stay away from. the ones wich we tot we culd take lil steps to get to. but no! the bridge haf to be crossed now. and it hurts to know the things being said.
but it still doesnt make a difference coz i am still being pulled in every direction possible.


its those littlest things that hurts. those little things whereby ppl tink its for the best but nvr spare a tot for me. isnt it my life? even tho i haf a gazzillion feelings to care for. but isnt it ultimately my feelings that i haf to look after...
isnt it?

its a yearly ritual for my family and everyone beside dad's family to be celebrating either raya in KL. so this year, raya haji was meant to be in KL. my parents got there like the monday before but i only came wif Azhar 3 days after. i dun see the need to be spending a week in KL wen i culdnt even afford it and gerl kuzzy is not coming wif us. another reason is also bcoz one of my kuz in KL is getting engaged on sat. since i missed his 1st bro engagement and not mentioning my own bro, i tot it wuld be nice to see how its like and all.


this raya haji is just like every other one. wif alot more birthday celebration and my parents wedding anni!
my family

nat's family

azhar's family

it was too farking hot in KL for me to njoy and i didnt do that much either.
hmm, ooo, but i meant up wif one of my WoW fren. Raisin! It was nice to finally meet him. thanks for treat dude. and entertaining me and my boy kuz!

i tink i sleep alot wen i was in KL. not that it akes anyting diff wen i sleep that much here as well but i tink it just feels diff. i am gonna stay off m'sias ciggies. my throat hurts like shite. arghhh!!!!