Though things are going well overall, there has been a struggle the last few weeks. A good friend of mine decided that it was time for us to go our separate ways...I am not exactly sure what I had done to cause her to feel the way she did, and I fear there were some uncontrollable outside factors that also added to the situation and didn't help it at all, both that I am aware of and others that I am unaware of. However, it always makes you wonder what could've been done differently, how could I have been better, what if I had known that I wasn't being a good friend to this person, could I have changed the outcome? But at the same time I look back and feel as though I did all I could to try and salvage a friendship that was clearly slipping away and had been on that road for awhile. Another good friend of mine put things in perspective for me a couple days ago. I was telling him that I was really struggling with what happened and I wanted to know how I could've possibly avoided this outcome, and his advice was this:
It is something you may never know and overtime the healing will come. It is important to focus on what is important and in front of us now, and make sure that each day we are living our lives to make the lives of those around us better than they are or were.
I think that is good advice...and hopefully time will heal. It is never easy to lose a friend in any circumstance, especially in ones like this. But I also find myself reflecting back on some really good memories from that friendship and will be forever grateful I had it in my life for a short time. But it is time to move forward and hope that in time, things will work themselves out.