Friday, March 18, 2011
oh hello blog, long time no see. :)
realised that you've just been an abandoned place and been acting like a link to all my friend's blog that i want to visit.
wonder if anyone still rmbs you.
i still do, i grew up with you. :)
the past week has been rather peculiar, finding out more about him and us.
still having doubts about whether the haze has been cleared,
but i can somehow see the light through it.
at least for me, i know i want to hold on tight.
maybe for once i shall be irrational and go against what my brain tells me.
because that's how irrational he makes me sometimes.
feeling rather guilty for whatever he's going through now.
makes me feel like i've done the wrong thing to abandon him back in sg.:(
feel like doing sth, but i've got my own ass to save before i act.
shall stop being nua and work on it! :)
the only thing i can do now is providing emotional support and i hope faith brings him back,
and hope he sees it from my pov as well.
it always takes two hands to clap, doesn't it?
on foresight, this keeps my faith going strong with each passing day,
cos i know i am one step closer to seeing this with him. :)
Monday, January 3, 2011
against all odds.
just when i thought that exams were the worst ever,
everything comes tumbling down on me one by one.
not that i can help it but,
the worst thing is everything that is out of my control is going horribly wrong.
so wrong that all i can do is wait for everything to subside, with time as my worst enemy.
i may hurt some ppl along the way,
but i wont feel sorry for everything that i'm doing, because i know i'll be doing myself a huge favour by doing so.
we've got to be selfish at times, you know.
as perfect as it may seem on the outside, it may not be perfect at the core.
Monday, December 20, 2010
time.
a simple text set me off, thinking.
everything in life is about timing.
perhaps, everything would be different if you had met that someone earlier or later in life.
immaturity ruined it.
but without a past, there wouldnt be me now.
thankful for everyone who is still in my life now. :)
Thursday, December 9, 2010
i wonder...
if there's such a thing called unconditional love?
would you still love someone with all you have, knowing that loving him would not do you any good?
this question struck me as i was pondering about what i want to do in the future.
with all the opportunities you will have in the future, would you give up all those opportunities just to be by that person's side, when he needs you most?
for now, i'm still not sure of what my answer will be.
you may call me selfish, but i don't believe many people will be able to say yes so easily.
hmm... just some food for thought amidst all the mugging. haha.
it'll be heartwarming to know that someone would love me so unconditionally. :)
well... at least other than my parents :D
Thursday, December 2, 2010
where next?
this put a smile on my face when you asked me over dinner.
i dunno why, but it just made me smile thinking about it. :)
we might not know what the future holds for us now,
but i'm sure we will have many to come;
and i'm definitely looking forward to it.
next destination:
Friday, November 19, 2010
LAI!
come to mama soon pls!
reading all about you has made me even more gian about you.
i dream about you day and night,
pls come to me sooooooon.
kthxbye. :)
Saturday, November 6, 2010
lost.
being bored of school and life has led me to this post.
lack of posts recently due to being clouded by many activities.
been questioning my own ability for the past few days,
thinking about my future and what i'm going to do next has led me into a pit full of question marks.
majorly questioning myself and asking myself what i am doing all these for.
for now, i still can't see the light at the end of the tunnel.
still searching within myself, still searching for my greatest strength and my strongest passion.
without these two, i cannot proceed and work while staying happy.
sometimes i wonder how can some ppl take up responsibilities just because it reflects well upon them and not because they really think that they can do a good job.
i just feel that doing that is super irresponsible.
but oh well, life is that unfair isnt it.
blame on myself for not being so ambitious.
like a struggle to survive and not giving up my ideals.
for one, i realised that scars and failure are not necessarily a bad thing.
failing doesnt equate to sth bad.
it just adds on to your life story and merely makes you someone with more stories to tell.
that is sth so important, i realised.
and that is what makes experience so invaluable.
it's sth that can't be taught or learnt, it is sth that you have to personally experience it yourself.
trying hard to accumulate my own experiences so that i can be someone full of stories. :)
