Saturday, September 30, 2006
ahh.. haven't been here in a while so i'll just write some stuffies. :) yesterday i went for the charismatic prayer group meeting at christ the king and it was so nice! :) it is really different from the YISS growth sessions that we have in church. not that i don't like the growth sessions but last night was different in a really nice way. :) it was more serious because there were many old.. well, not old but older people there hee hee. and yah. not many people from svdp went though - about 14 of us. i suppose that's quite a good number. hee. but yeah anyway, the songs that they sang were those that i've never heard before! but then i'm biased towards a couple of songs so maybe i should expand my collection? is that correct? but ah well.. yes, i should start learning some more songs :)
the talk was really nice. :) the speaker was a 23 year old!! o.0 and he was so good! :) he was talking about experiencing God in your everyday life and he was talking about his missionary trip to the philippines and it was all very inspiring :) especially the part about how these 2 girls who were not originally of the Catholic faith converted to Catholicism.. but i must say the most.. stunning part of last night, if stunning is a correct word, was during the praying over. at first i was a little afraid to go up because i honestly felt that i had asked God for so many things already and i felt guilty asking for more. but aunty cecilia told me that i should go up. maybe i looked a little troubled because she said that i would feel a lot better, so i did and i prayed for all my friends :) .. and uncle andrew prayed over me. when he finished, he turned to me and told me that God had 2 words for me: patience and trust. and when i heard it, i was completely shocked because, well i saw how trust fit into the picture because I do trust God to take care of my friends but as for patience i knew somehow that that was for another prayer in my heart that i didn't voice out. and with the 2 of those words given to me, one did link i suppose to what i told uncle andrew that i wanted prayed for, but both answered an unspoken prayer in my heart that i have been thinking and praying about a lot of late. and i felt this wave of peace come over me when it was over and i felt all anxiety just drain out of my body. it was a very tranquil time in the chapel in the basement of the church and it felt so wonderful. :) thank you God for the message :D
bah so tired.. i've been eating so much lately. going to look like a pig. :( alrighty that's all for now :D take care and God bless!! -hugs-
11:05 PM
Thursday, September 28, 2006
ahh so sad :( nic is on the plane now and her plane will be taking off in 3 minutes.. 2325. ARRRGGHHH i'm highly highly sad. i was thinking about our frequent/infrequent walks and i was feeling so upset because i won't be walking with her again for a long long time :( i miss nic. she and i went through a lot together. :) so this entry is dedicated to her!! :)
ok babe i wrote this all in your letter, but spare me. :) I still remember how we used to take the same school bus in sec 1. i was so fat. :( i still have a lot of fats but that's ok :) and how we used to do all kinds of stupid things :) i remember SURVIVOR!!! ok i was kinda extra but hey, we all fit onto the block -.- and how we were yio chu kang power. you paula and i were the something-kang people. actually hui yan is more kang because she's sengkang and paula is hougang. but oh well :) ahh. i'm feeling depressed. :( then in sec 3 and 4 all our funny things.. especially the conducting :) how we used to argue over who would do warm ups. and doing commander stuff together. react, take off.. and how we ended up being the mutated sumo double bodied, 4-armed-although-2-were-just-at-our-side conductor for elisabeth at touch down.. ahh (ok that wasn't in the letter) and ticketing and ARRRHHHH so much more.ah.. nic i'm going to miss you so much. :( especially our walks and talks. -hugs- love you babe. and paula and arlin reminded me that i'm going to be the next one to go.. still have about 5 months.. still a long time more :) but i'll add one more photo.. the day i got my slutty secretary specs.. :)
bleh gross photo of us but hey.. :) i love nic :)
1:27 AM
Sunday, September 24, 2006
hai.. shun ling is gone. =( had a very sad farewell yesterday. after alumni and a rather "short" (hee hee) exco meeting where hanzhong was trying to maximise his 1 hr and 15 mins, pei xuan hui yan tse min and i rushed down to the airport and had dinner there. then clarine joined us then we went to see marlin! then nic came.. and that's all the rgssb people there. then 208 society minus vivvy who's already in london came!! then there were some of shun ling's church or school friends there then we all took photos!! and shun ling's mother is so cute! :) but hai.. i'm going to miss you a lot shun!!! :( then after this it'll be nic.. can't imagine already.. so many people have gone off and it's just so painful to see them walk through the glass door. i was talking to xiaotzes last night and she told me that it'll be my turn soon.. and i was like.. oh yeah. about 4 more months i think. i'll be applying for my visa in 2 or 3 weeks. gosh time really flies..
church was nice today. :) kinda sad i didn't go for the feast day mass. ugh i'm in a funny mood again. somehow i have a feeling that i'm never going to get married. maybe i'm just meant to be a cranky old doctor.. gosh i hope not. :) i'm going to be 20 in 5 months!! ahhhhh!! someone once told me that in uni, all the girls start looking out for their life partners. and my reaction was !? alarming.. but seriously, life is really moving too fast now. i still remember back in secondary school home econs, oafie and i used to burn everything and how in science practicals, lorenda almost blew up the whole lab because she turned the wrong gas tap on. HAHA. those were such wonderful times.. but i dont' think i have any photos of lower sec class except for the class photo. :( and i look like a hippo.
the other night i went for a walk with nic. (I LOVE NIC!! :)) and we met meng jun! and apparently his mother remembers me!! from some pre kindergarten school that both our parents sent us to. and she said i was fat last time. but yeah.. it was some zhong xiang hui guan or something like that. mom kept on sending me to all these schools that placed larger emphasis on chinese.. like zhong xiang, newton life (which i transferred to after marymount because marymount wasn't "chinese" enough), St Nicks (which happens to be the only IJ school with a chinese school song.. and how she made me join chinese speech and drama.. wth) and.. well, the conclusion that eunice and i have drawn is: some good that did. look at our chinese standard now. and this is what the exchange was like:
mom / well, your chinese could be worse..
me / it cannot POSSIBLY be worse..
haha good times. hai.. i miss shun ling..
2:26 PM
Sunday, September 17, 2006
i really have very uncreative titles. pfft. anyway, my aircon is leaking! so i have been switching it on for half an hour every night to cool off the room, then i just sleep with the fan on :) it's quite nice actually.. my skin doesn't feel so dry. haha then i recall the dove commercial ;)
my week was rather fun! :) on wednesday, we had the investiture mass and i just want to wish the new exco all the best for the upcoming year! sadly, i won't be here for half of it.. :) but my prayers and my love is always with you guys, although i doubt any of you will ever get to read this :) after that, we had what james affectionately calls csa mambo night :) it was fun!! just that i totally died the next day. :) but it was fun. :) i really love my csa freshies!!! and the seniors too!
the week passed by really quickly.. not that i'm too upset about that HAH. oh well. today was a very rushy day for me. in the morning i went to give tuition then lunch then after that alumni! and holas was finally there!! after abandoning me for so many weeks!! it was really nice to see him and to catch up :D yeah.. rjcsb tubists 04/05 rock :D but it was fun today :D then we reverted back to jc stupidity and talking and laughing throughout the whole practice! hee so entertaining. thanks for being a good friend holas. :D
after that ben picked me up from ri then i went to his place. he had a friend over and che was sleeping -.- so i was left to amuse myself. i've been reading hard times by charles dickens and it really is quite a nice book :D i find it rather entertaining and rather tragic at the same time.. all the inflated egos, the warped minds. but i hope to finish it soon. i haven't read a book in a long time. the last one i read was mansfield park by jane austen and that was while i was still working at imcb o.0 so yes, i'm ready hard times but i'm looking for a nice fat novel.. probably something with a romantic element but not like the romance novels i used to read in secondary school HAHA.
anyway, i've been going through quite a.. difficult time. i am quite lost as to what to do and for a long time i felt that i should just go ahead with my original idea but then all that changed in a day. -sigh- i pray God will guide me.. i'm really at a loss as to what to do.. sometimes i get so upset, sometimes i get so angry, somtimes i feel so hopeless.. but then there are those times when i feel so happy and carefree..
went for dinner with che and ben today. :) haven't seen them in a month. :) we were talking about all kinda of stuff and we were talking about mad streaks in our family and we came to the conclusion that we attribute every weird trait to the tan family mad gene. haha :)
bah. long entry.. shall stop here for tonight. God bless~
1:54 AM
Monday, September 11, 2006
i went running yesterday!! are you surprised?? :) but now im aching all over :( i haven't run since the week before yong jeng forgot about me. :( aww.. zengo forgot about me. haha. must go remind her about that.. :) but you know WHY i went running? turns out that i had 3 buffets last week!! :( i'm going to cry.. first was that lunch buffet at prego and then a dinner buffet at raffles hotel bar and billiard room then after that that sashimi buffet with mark, hong and paulee. :( i'm so sad!! mom was a bit overzealous about maximising the use of the feed at raffles card. :( then after that when i went out with mark, hong and paulee, i wanted to eat a la carte and they convinced me to eat buffet.. so i had 10 million helpings of sashimi and i feel so unhealthy!! -feels pissed- i'm supposed to be losing weight before i go to australia and put on (God forbid) my 7 kg. :( arrrggghhh :(
yesterday we had a semi-208 society outing! :D zeng, hui yan, vivvy and me!! it was like a farewell to vivvy part 2. there was one on saturday afternoon, but hui yan and i had alumni so we couldn't go :( we went to cafe cartel and vivvy and i shared pork ribs. that thing was HUGE. i should have taken a photo. when it came, we were like WHOA. :) hui yan had a.. i can't remember what she had.. baked macaroni? and zeng had fish! :) and it was really nice. we ate bread.. but a lot less than what i normally would have eaten when i go to cafe cartel. haha. :) explains all my fats.. fattttsss. :) but she's flying off tonight.. and i can't go see her off!! :( because her flight is at 2am!!
today i had a horrible horrible computer lab practical.. AGAIN. pfft. i should just not go. waste of 3 hours of my life. :( i just sat there for most of the lesson wondering what on earth i was supposed to do. well, the practical is due in a month.. so.. no point doing at all. -laughs- i think i'll be pulling out at the end of october. which is quite near, if you think about it. i mean, my practical is due in the middle of october. -laughs again- time is passing so quickly.. which means 5 months will pass by very quickly! and i actually feel quite sad. i have about 6-7 more weeks of ntu, which means i'll only have about 12-14 more masses with csa. :( ok fine i know it sounds like a lot, but it's still quite short. really have come to love the friends i've made.. :) :) anyway, prac was utter rubbish and i'm glad i'm in my room with my comp :) i think i'm going to install wow on it this weekend. -laughs- then during my free time, instead of studying, i'll be wowing. hee all eunice's fault. she got me addicted. and holas is nice enough to lend me his account!!! :D while eunice has banned me from hers. grumble.
ah. i'm having verbal diarrhoea. and 208 society now has a blog!! so instead of fedex-ing or dhl-ing the orange book around, we now have an online orange book!! ahh. i love 208 society..
ah ok i shall stop here. :) God bless!~
6:38 PM
Thursday, September 07, 2006
on sunday we had an rg batch outing to nic's house.. and i had soooooo much fun. :) we were eating chocolate like pigs.. as in we were eating for 2 hours straight at least. then when we wanted to take batch photo, liu rui and nic set their cameras at different times, as in the started the timer at different times. but then they both started to flash the light at the same time then we were like oh crap where do we look first then they both went off at the same time. HAHA that was so classic.. and this is the result:
haha somehow we managed to look into the camera for both photos ;) aww.. i LOVE LOVE LOVE these people.. we all grew fat together :)
after that nic and i took a slow walk and she walked me home and we had a good long talk. :) thanks for the support my dear. -hugs- love you many many!!!!
on monday we went to see chong off.. and i didn't bring my camera. -.- the people at the airport were tm, hy, shun, nic and i and hui chong of course. and she was soooo happy and excited and stuff and i was like aww.. her parents went with her and just looking at her go through the departure gates, and i was feeling so melancholic and so so sad.. i miss chong!!! but she's going to Japan to met her hot jap boyfriend. :)
on tuesday, i went to see lynette off. aww.. it was really painful.. a bunch of us: bing, ben chen, paula, shawn, camy and i were sitting at bk at t2. then we saw darlie walk past and we started shouting: "darryl!! darryl!!! darryl tan!!" then he was like hmm? looked around and continued walking.. so i ran after him, then he joined us in seeing lynette off!! :D then we took lots of photos. i remembered to bring my cam this time. so here's lynette!! :) so cute and round..
and then after that paula and i went mad.. and we started taking stupid photos which i can't upload for some strange reason :( so sad.. but yah.. we started taking all kinds of stupid photos :D
yesterday, we went to see liu rui and xin yi off.. there were 13 rg band girls there! :D and it was so nice.. shun ling brought an awfully chocolate cake.. and we took so many photos.. which i still can't upload here for some bizarre reason. stupid blogger. :( but yes.. it was really sad.. :( :( after they went in, paula, shawn, spencer, darryl, osh and i went to popeye's. still feeling really upset.. when i woke up this morning i was like.. UGH.. :(
good bye, chong.
good bye, lyn.
good bye, xin yi.
good bye, liu rui.
i love you all..
11:35 AM
Tuesday, September 05, 2006
I failed my driving test. i shall not rant, but i shall just say I'm disappointed. hopefully i'll be able to bring the date of my next test forward.
10:19 PM
Friday, September 01, 2006
hello today was a really nice day! :) i went back to rg with vivvy zeng and oafie!!! and we saw shlim and tiew kiat and lui and TOE!! omg. it was soooo nice seeing them after all these years and i felt so old because there were so many little secondary school people running around. :) but one thing i kinda miss after leaving rg is the atmostphere of all their funny celebrations. even oafie was telling me that during national day in sec 4 (3 years ago!!! goodness!) we were all singing and jumping around and trampling each others' toes and running around in circles and going mad! :) those were such wonderful wonderful times! :) and chinese new year and everything. rj was so dead when it came to these kinds of celebrations. :) but oh well, i hated it when i was in rg.. i guess you never realise what you really miss until it's gone. :( anyway, tiew kiat remembers us!! she yelled out in her same squeaky voice (as it was 4 years ago.. 4 years!!) "AYYYYEEE you all came back!! miss wong is so happy to see you all!" haha she still refers to herself in third person. :) then we saw shlim and oafie and vivvy and i yelled down the corridor "MISS LIIIIIIIIIIMMMMMMMMM" then she yelled at us, as she always did in upper sec. :) then we saw lui!! and Lui looks so different! basically, he looks a lot better than what he did last time. ;) he removed his braces, which i happily pointed out (so mean right..) and he changed his glasses and was not wearing his yellow tie which he always wore. haha wonder if his handwriting is still the same. ;) then after that, we went to visit out favourite teacher!! zhang lao shi! aka. toe... aka zhang shu gou. hee now rg has like 3 staff rooms and the languages department is in block j which is damn far from everywhere else. then we saw CN LIM!! :) who still looks exactly the same, who looked the same as he did more than 10 years ago when i saw him in che's yearbook :) we saw cn lim first then we asked him for zhang lao shi.. then he asked which zhang lao shi then we said "zhang shui.." then it was so alarming because we all had this really long pause, trying to remember what the last word was because we were so used to calling him zhang shui gou.. then someone eventually said "zhang shui fu" then the rest of us were like YAH!! :) HAHA. so hilarious!! then when he came out and saw us, he looked like he was going to have a heart attack. :D it was so funny, the 4 of us just totally burst out laughing. we talked to him for a really long time.. one of the highlights of the conversation (which was carried out in chinese!! i actually spoke to him in chinese and he said my chinese was not bad.. which was the first time i'd heard that! haha):
us/ were we very terrible to you last time in sec 1?
toe/ nah not at all.. if rg girls are very terrible, where would society be in the future you tell me?
us (in our heads)/ do you remember what we did?
haha i miss him a lot! we treated him so badly in sec 1.. with all the pranks and stuff :) us and the "tong xue men zao an.." which was promptly followed by a very long and dragged out (roughly 2 -5 mins long, depending on our relative mood) "laaao shi zaaaooo annn.." haha good times. then i asked him whether he still had the smiley face socks.. and he was like NO.. 6 years already, how long do you expect me to use it? haha. then vivvy asked him about the hello kitty socks and he looked absolutely mortified ;) so so so nice!! it was so nice talking to him again!!!
and the icing on top of the cake!! Yai got into SIA!! he passed the interview!! all he has to do is pass the medical checkup tomorrow, which i'm VERY sure he will, and then he'll sign the contract and he'll join sia as a pilot!! OMG! :D he'll be leaving for obs in perak next week for the 21 day course and then he'll be going to queensland to learn how to fly the boeings and airbuses and other planes.. since it's in australia, i'll have family there when i go over.. for a short period of time anyway :) AND!! mom and dad get 1 free flight on sia a year :) unfortunately eunice and i don't qualify :( and che can't either cuz she's married. :( but yes they get a free flight.. so mom was telling him not to get married. :) she wants her free flight to LA.. OOH she can go by airbus. direct flight hurhur. :)
I was praying for this, i was praying so hard. and dear Lord, by your grace, you have answered my prayers. You have answered all our prayers. You have given us so much, although we have done nothing to deserve it. It is only through you that all things are possible. It is only through you that our dreams come true. You are the one who allowed me to get into Monash. You are the one who allowed Yai to make it through a gruelling interview.. You are the one who helped Eunice through her prelims. You are the one who has answered our prayers. Thank you, God! For your grace, Your love..
ARGHHHH!! i'm so happy today was such a wonderful day!
1:23 AM