Sunday, January 30, 2005
I am in shock. I am SO pissed off right now words cannot even begin to describe how I'm feeling right now.
You are an asshole. As a matter of fact, the both of you are assholes. First YOU, I don't even want to type your name out. Dirty my blog. I cannot believe you had the audacity to do that to Eunice. Cheating on her aye? Right under her very nose. With her friend. And yes to the "friend" I'm getting to you later. First to the YOU. Started liking her before Eunice's birthday right? And yet you still led Eunice on.. making her believe that she had something that she did not have. And yes, you got together before the O levels. And all this time, Eunice trusted you. Hell I'll even go to the extent to say that she might have loved you. And so basically, you were 2-timing the both of them. Although I can't say that the "friend" didn't deserve it because you knew full well what the hell you were doing. And the worst part is that you
still had the audacity to come to the US with us even though you didn't even care about Eunice that much because you had someone else with you. You led my parents on, you ass.. they trusted you too. Don't forget that my mom paid for part of your airfare. And don't give me the crap about "oh I didn't want to spoil Eunice's holiday" Frankly speaking, I think that she would have enjoyed it more if you didn't come. At least she wouldn't have to sit at home and entertain you all the time. I bet you just wanted to go along for the joy ride. "I don't want to tell Eunice because I don't want to spoil her holiday" I cannot believe you. You are a sick, twisted, perverse liar who ought to be shot. I cannot believe that my parents spent so much money on YOU. You did a pretty good job crying last night. How long did you practice? Even if you did, save all those crocodile tears on someone else.. or should i say go and con someone else so that you can get into their good books. The past 6 months have been a damn lie. You know what? I think that the "friend" was just there so that once you broke up with Eunice, you would have someone else waiting to embrace you. That's just SICK.
As if that isn't bad enough, you took advantage of my parents. MY parents. What were you trying to do anyway? Hoping you could gain something from them right? What happened to all the money my mom gave you. You do REMEMBER that she gave you $10 almost every week. What did you use that money for hm? Go out on dates? Or did you just CHOOSE to forget what they have done for you. I cannot believe that you could be so cruel. All those dinners, all those times you came over and all those times my mom has been so nice to you. You are SICK. And I think Eunice is better off without you. She's too good for you anyway. And that note that told Eunice.. "sorry i can't spend Christmas with you. I love you" i wonder if you see any irony, napoleon.
Now for the "friend" I think you are just as bad or even worse. So much for friendship right? Did you even CARE about how Eunice would feel? you are, or should i say were, her friend. And you still decided to get attached even though you knew full well that HE and Eunice were still attached. You are low. In fact, you are lower than low. I wonder what kind of person you are. You obviously are too selfish to think about anyone else.. and I cannot believe that you didn't even tell Eunice. What are you afraid of? Don't you think this is a worse way for her to find out?! Did you know that she was so happy to find out that you had a boyfriend. Until she found out i was HIM.
I wonder what happened to your blog.. you know, where the template is of the both of you kissing? I hope you realise that it is accessible to the public and that anyone can read it? Napoleon and Josephine.. sick pieces of crap. The 2 of you are cowards. I can't decide which of you is lower because you are worse than scum. You know, I had a good impression of you both before.. but then I guess all that went out the drain. You are cunning, selfish and cruel. and I have no words to describe you because nothing can be bad enough to describe what you have done. I am truly disgusted and I think that Eunice is better off without the both of you in her life. At least she has true friends elsewhere who she can actually trust.
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I am SO pissed off now.. and this rant did not help. These 2 people suck to the core.. And it really leads me to question humanity. Would a humane person do this to their friend or someone who they claimed to love? I do not think so. Someone with character and most importantly a conscience would not condone this sort of behaviour. I think i feel the ache more because it's not only Eunice who trust him, but my parents as well. They treated him like their own son. I think this incident is analogous to adultery. maybe I'm taking it a bit too far, but I really think that what they did is inexcusable. Any tears now are useless. You should have thought of the consequences..
1:29 AM
Friday, January 28, 2005
Hey hey! I haven't been here in a while.. ok that's a serious understatement. Well, a lot of things have been happening lately. Some good some bad.. but I shall not blog about the bad stuff. :o) Anyway, orientation was so fun!! :o) I really love my OG... super funky super nice people. Thanks eXodus, for all the memories. Love you all! :o) Must go eat prata again one day k? ;o)
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There's something wrong.. and I can feel it. What happened to the daily visits? All the times you came over after school? Somehow the frequency has droppedto an all-time low. Everyone can feel it, especially her. Don't you think that she feels hurt? You're suppposed to talk in a relationship.. communicate. Now, it doesn't even seem like you care. How do you think she feels? Isn't it all too sudden? If you don't want to continue, please have the decency to tell her instead of making her believe that there's still something to hold on to. Do it for her..
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School is insane. All the work is flooding in and argh. Today I had a nice lunch with Adeline, Derrick, Lynn and Shermyn. Laughed so hard I nearly cried. :o) really enjoyed that. Will really miss days like these, hanging out with friends just talking and laughing. Class is really nice now. Everyone is so cool and yup. Really love
2S03G. Man that 2 is weird.. can't believe J2 is here. My final year.. it feels so weird. There were tears andthere was laughter and through it all, I haven't gained a lot. :o) I thank God for this experience because I couldn't ask for more.
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To Paula dear.. ok this may have come a bit late, but I'm so happy for you. I wish that any sadness that you once felt, I could take it all away. But I know that you are ok and that's the most important part. Did that come out right? I have no idea.. all I know is that you have incredible strength and heart. What you did is one of true.. I dunno courage? Because honestly, I don't think I could have gotten the strength to do that. I'm so so so proud of you and I know that you are so strong.. You really are a sweet wonderful person and I thank God that He has allowed me to meet you. I know that there's someone for you out there.. and I meant what I said.. about what Toh Qi and I talked about.. I meant every word because you are that good. haha sorry really really hyper today.. was just thinking about this just now. Yup. Have a lot more to say but it'll take too long.. love you lots girl.. God bless
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To dear px, that talk we had last week [this is a bit late i know and i dunno if you'll ever read this but...] I guess that was time to catch up on all that we missed last year. I suppose things may never be the same again, but I still love you so much because you truly have been a wonderful friend and such a wonderful person.
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My thoughts are rather incoherent and my typin is lousy so i'll stop here.. :o)
10:57 PM
Saturday, January 01, 2005
hey hey :)
happy new year!! haven't updated in a while. well i'm back in singapore now. got home on the 29th evening so i missed the move :( oh well...
now that i think about it, being in the us seemed so surreal. it feels as if i never even went. it's kinda scary because i keep on wondering what i did for the past 3 weeks. i really miss mama. on the day i was supposed to leave, she kept on telling me to stay and according to mom, who is still there, that night she kept on asking mom why eunice and i had to leave so early. mom will be there until the end of january. :( but she's really needed there so yeah.. and i've also been having some kind of screwed up diarrhoea for a few days. shall not talk about that here. i just hope that it will be ok once school starts.
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Christmas there was so wonderful.. went to my uncle's place, which may i add, is totally awesome! they have a pool table and stuff. derek's room has a 60 inch tv or something around that size. and he hooks his computer up to his tv so he can play video games while lying down. sheesh. so lucky. and it was really great because this was the first time all the cousins were there at the same time :) donald and yai were playing pool for nearly the whole evening, eunice was having an eating competitio nwith derek, kelvin was with some girl he brought over and andrea, che and i were just bumming around. the house is realy really nice. :) and mama was so happy :) it was really nicebeing together again..
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really looking forward to school. :) can't wait to start the whole grind again.. well not the stress but i can't wait for after school hanging out with my batchmates, laughing with friends during recess.. good days ahead :) can't wait to meet my og and for orientation!!! :) i hope this year will be a good one and that God will guide me through it and give me strength for the challenges i will face :) to everyone reading this, happy new year once again and may God bless you always!
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