Monday, September 27, 2004
I'm back again! xiaoxins told me it's sunday so i should be blogging. -grin- technically it's monday already. I have decided to give up on my bio tutorial and come online. -feels proud- haha anyway, today has been quite a funny day.
Went to church this morning. Quite a nice reading... about the Lazarus and the rich man. I wonder what it would be like.... going to Heaven. That is, if I can... After mass, I saw Kenneth. He looks really exhausted. Must be prelims :o) Haven't seen him since the middle of the year. haha. Looks very different.
Went for tuition, then came home and did some maths stuff. Then during dinner Eunice, Justin and I had a chili eating competition. I nearly died... At first it was just Justin and me. We each took a huge tablespoon full of his grandma's chili haybee. the proportion of chili to haybee is like 2 or 3:1. He was like "we only live once!!!" then I said "yah and after eating this, we won't live to eat another one..." but we ended up eating it anyway. My whole face turned red and i started to tear. Justin was better. He was really crying.. it was so funny. After that Eunice wanted to do it, so we were like "ALL RIGHT WE'RE STILL ALIVE! Let's do it again!" Then after that I just died.. as in really. I wanted to cry. I could feel my stomach about to explode.. that kind of heartburn feeling. When it passed i was just thinking.. ooh. so fun. haha. See someone once told me this theory that if you drink milk when you're eating something really hot, it wouldn't be so bad. So we had an emergency glass of milk next to us. The first person to drink was the loser. After we all ate and finished crying, we just sat at the table staring at the glass of milk. So I said the competition was over and Justin and Eunice agreed.. or so I thought. When I drank some milk Justin yelled "AH HA! I WIN!!" -mutters-
My stomach still feels funny. -mutters-
I just talked to Isabelle! ARGH I miss her so much. :o( Oh well, I MIGHT be able to see her at the end of this year... I hope I hope. :o)
3:51 AM
Sunday, September 19, 2004
Hey hey! I just realised that I've been blogging on Sundays only. Haha. Anyway, not much happened this week. Back to the usual grind of school. Did I use that correctly? :o) Anyway, I need to go and run. When I ran 4 km... some time ago, it felt really good. Need to go burn some fats. :o) haha. Anyway, promos are coming up soon and I haven't exactly finished. Eek. I'm super worried for Bio and Physics. Especially physics. I want maths and chem s but I need to pass physics first. -cringe- and get a c for bio. -cringe some more- and get an a for both maths and chem -CRINGE- :o) But I'm remaining hopeful! I love maroon 5! Especially she will be loved. So nice! Anyway, tomorrow is going to be quite a nice day. Oh yah did I mention that physics spa last monday was nothing short of a disaster? Anyway, nothing much to report. Just that the audition results for SYWO are coming out this week according to Jun Wen. but it's quite scary... I didn't get any e-mail from them but everyone else did. -fidgets- Anyway, need to go and do some stupid bio spa practice. I have 2 spas this week.. ahhhh! -panics- ok gotta go and stoody. :o) be back next week. I think I'll write more after promos.
OOH. And I'm going to visit mama this year! yay! Miss her so much. Must see her as often as possible before she... um... forgets who I am. :'o( And yai is going there too!! While we're there and we get to spend Christmas together! -beams- Ok ok i'm going now.
11:25 PM
Sunday, September 12, 2004
ARGH! my previous entry didn't get published. :o( stupid internet connection. Anyway, this holiday has been really fun. Ok not very fun, but it's fun studying with batchmates. :o) I really love you guys! Thanks so much for everything. I know I've been really cranky lately and I just wanted to thank you for putting up with all my crap. -hug- love you all.
Today mom told me that mama may be coming down with alzheimers. I really don't know what to think. I just feel really scared. Really really scared that she will not even recognise me a few years from now. But it hasn't been confirmed yet so I'm really hoping and praying that it's not alzheimers... my favourite grandmother... I'm really praying...
Don't really feel like writing... typing much today. Will write mroe another time :o)
7:02 PM
Sunday, September 05, 2004
It's 3 am and I can't believe I'm still awake. I just spent the last 3 hours doing maths. Vectors. Go figure. :o) Taking a break now before I tackle bio... photosynthesis and maybe I'll cram in membrane structure and function. I think that will take me another 3 hours. It's hard to believe that exactly one year ago, I was panicking over my prelims. By this time one year ago, English was over. It was the rest of the papers I was worried about. Funny how I remember these things...
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Ow my legs are cramping up. Been sitting too long I think. Will go make a drink after I write this entry... type. :o)
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Yesterday was kind of a flurry of emotions for me. Even I was alarmed by it. One moment I was pretty carefree. Happy. But something weighed down on me... I knew something was wrong and it felt wrong for more than one hour. When I looked at my watch to see what time it was, I think there was a certain feeling of helplessness. 1310. And at the moment I knew what was wrong. Isabel/le's flight was at 12 plus. At that moment I just wanted to cry and I did. Thank you, Paula dear, for hugging me while I cried. Love you so much. It was just really strange. I know that she'll still be around, and yet I feel like I'll never see her again. She was one of my closest friends in sec 2... then we drifted. :o( I will always remember the insane, messed-up situations we got ourselves into and be able to look back at those times and be able to laugh at our stupidity. :o) I shall not write any here, but let's just say that if any uh.. school staff find this blog and read it, i'm dead. :o) But to bel, if you read this, I just wanted to say that I'm going to miss you soooooo much and I can't wait for you to get back. Love you to bits. :o) *hug*
I think she'll probably reach Connecticut in about 9 hours time. If she's lucky she'll reach earlier. I think these flights are usually 24 hrs including transit and all.
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Ok back to bio. but first my tea...
5:10 AM
Saturday, September 04, 2004
hello I'm back again. Haven't updated in a while again. :o) This week is the last week of school! yay! But today didn't feel like the last day of school. I remember back in secondary school, the last day of school, even if it was for a long weekend, I would just have this "slack time" attitude. haha. I couldn't pay attention in lessons and I would just be really really high. Today was a totally different experience. Sadly, I felt like I was dragging myself through the entire day. I suppose it's because of last night, trying to rush PW and all the unfinished homework. -feels shifty- :o) But thanks to the influence of Adeline and Clarence, I have started drinking Nescafe coffee and it really helps! haha. I didn't feel as dead as I thought I would have.
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I saw this quote the other day on a calendar: You can only really see with your heart. Really important things are invisible to the eye. It's nice isn't it? Just wanted to share it with everyone.
Although this may be a bit irrelevant to the quote, people are so blinded by what they see around them that they fail to slow down and see the simple things in life. I think I wrote something about this sometime back, but it just occured to me again today. The pace of life in JC is ridiculously fast. One moment you're an innocent new J1 and the next, you're chionging for promos. I can still remember the first day of school. More on that in future entries. ;o) But speaking of the finer things in life, I thought of some things that would make a good day for me. :o)
1. A hug from a friend and a secret shared among the 2, being comforted with the fact that your friend can confide in you.
2. A cup of coffee
3. Chocolate
4. Having a good laugh with your friends and the world seems to fade away
5. Picking up the phone and hearing the voice of a friend you haven't spoken to in ages
6. Breakfast prepared for you in the morning
7. Waking up feeling well rested [this is the ultimate!! :o)]
Well there's more but then I'm really really sleepy right now so yup. Will write more later. toodles~
1:03 AM