Monday, June 28, 2004
:o) I realised I've been blogging a lot lately... not good. Well, today was the first day of common tests - chem. Can't say that it was excellent. I aim to pass. I still remember, after the paper, Derrick turned around and started laughing. I turned around, stared at Serene, and the both of us were thinking: DIE. It's quite funny how people bond in agony. ;o) I saw Mark Wang pass out on his desk because he didn't sleep for the whole night. To Mark , you are pro. I would never have been able to do that.
After that, Darryl, Mark Wang, Mark Tan, An Min, Paul, Jon and I went for lunch at macs. It's unbelievable how disgusting guys can get. Well, I shall not go into the intimate details. ;o) After that, I ended up in Thomson plaza Starbucks mugging with Paul, Lynn and Kin Yip. Was talking to Lynn about pri school days in St. Nicks. I guess what we went through in P school is NOTHING compared to what we are going through now.
hmm. Was reading some of my past entries in my old blog. I think my blogging style has changed. Don't know, it's just a thought. I am going to be crazy tonight and stay up the whole night and study physics. I'll probably die, but if I survive, I'll blog at 4. :o) Wish me luck! I don't have a paper tomorrow, so *smilez* Good luck to all the F maths, econs, Jap and chinese people for tomorrow! -beams- God bless. :o)
11:42 PM
Sunday, June 27, 2004
I remember a song I heard when I was younger
Home free
I'm trying hard not to think You unkind, but Heavenly Father, if you know my heart, surely you can read my mind. Good people underneath a sea of green, some get up and walk away, some will find ultimate relief.
*Home free, eventually, at the ultimate healing we will be home free. Home free, oh I've got a feeling, at the ultimate healing, we will be home free.
Out in the corridor, we prayed for her life. A mother for her baby, a husband for his wife. Sometimes the good die young, it's sad but true. While we prayed for one more heartbeat, the real comfort is with You. You know pain has little mercy, no respecter of age, of race or position. I know every prayer gets answered, but the hardest one to pray is slow to come. Oh Lord, not mine, but Your will be done... *
I don't know if this song helps, but I hope some words do... :o) God bless
9:33 PM
I just came home about half an hour ago from Shu Xian's wake. Rebecca was there... the 2 of us were looking through an album of Shu Xian last year and crying. I don't think I've ever felt so... I can't really describe it... don't-know-what-to-do. And I can't help but think about the impact of one person... one special individual.
I wonder why God wanted to take her life... to call her back to Him. So many 'why's are popping up... why her? why now? why must this happen?
Every person you meet and know will have an impact on your life. It could be positive or negative, but the impact is still there. I guess something like this is like a ripple. It starts at one point and it spreads... it just continues spreading until it reaches some kind of barrier... where it will be reflected. Kind of unending isn't it?
To Shu Xian, you have made an impact on my life.. I wish I could tell you that
I wish I got to know you better... and that is something I will regret for the rest of my life. My only consolation now is that you are happy. You are no longer suffering... and you are at home. I just hope to see you again one day... where we can just enjoy and relax. There's a saying that you never appreciate someone until they are gone... This is it.
God bless you always, dear. I know you will always be smiling down on us. While we cry, you want us to rejoice in your eternal life. To jeremy, xiao tian, her family and all her friends, you all have shown so much strength this past week... be strong k? God bless...
1:52 AM
Thursday, June 24, 2004
This is insane. This person reminds me of someone... for my RG band mates.. if you do see this, you might be able to guess who... :o) check this out...
http://www.anzwers.org/trade/sghunk1976/sghunkweb.html
11:47 PM
Hi hi... the past few days have been eventful. For those who know, who knew... you can guess what I'm talking about. Lorenda said that she converted to Christianity... for that, I am really really happy for her. :o) You are in a happy place now... you no longer feel lost because you are Home. God will take care of you... He always has been... God bless you always, girl. We will miss you down here... *hug* ... Love you.
2 days ago, Lyn and I were walking home from RJ and we were walking to the red house bus stop. As we were passing the flats in Ghim Moh, we saw a lot of birds eating something on the floor... there were small blackish-brown specks all over the void decks. Upon closer examination, we realised that they were cockroaches. There were at least 100 all over the place. I still remember the feeling. It was disgusting man... Then the 2 of us were like ew ew ew ew... And talking and walking as fast as we could. Then I heard Lyn going "careful careful CAREFUL" upon which I screamed and realised taht I almost stepped on a roach. hee. :o)
Yesterday went for a com lunch with Mr. Oura!!!! -beams- at Yoshinoya in bishan. Saw Daniel Ow there. haha. :o)
Ok gonna go and study now. Got England vs Portugal tonight. or tmrw morning at 2.35... must watch. *smilez*
11:29 PM
Sunday, June 20, 2004
Hi hi. Went to visit Shu Xian today after tuition with Clarine. Tuition ended around 1ish so we chonged to Changi General Hospital. We got there about 15 mins before the visiting hours was up. So we went in to see. Serene was there. Haven't seen her since last year! Anyway, when I saw her, well, it was painful seeing her like that. I have never seen anyone hooked up to so many machines in my entire life... even on my grandfather who used to frequent the ICUs because of his heart condition. We weren't allowed into the room, so we just stood outside and looked. We met her mom... and her mother looks well, I can't really describe it... a lot of things... like exhausted and in so much pain... Just a whole lot of everything put togeter.
No matter what our age, we are still so vulnerable. Knowing that something like this could happen to my friend, I don't know... I just feel so scared for her. But I know she's strong. But I'm still praying for her. She can pull through... She will pull through.
11:55 PM
Saturday, June 19, 2004
I can't believe my "intelligence" when I got home today, i found a cup of juice in the fridge. I looked at it and saw some pulp in it. Naturally I thought it was orange juice. So I took a nice big gulp thinking it would cool me down. Unfortunately it was lemon juice. Man... It was so concentrated and I could feel it burning a path down my oesophagus. Yuk when it entered my stomach I could practically feel the pH dropping. yuk yuk. Haha. Mom was there. She saw my face. I nearly had a heart attack man. haha. So entertaining. This could be part of my female project-achillies. HAHA. :o) CTs coming up soon. Gotta go stoody.
11:29 PM
Friday, June 18, 2004
Hey hey! Didn't want to kill my tagboard and your eyes too so here goes: -grin-
To Jabez: haha. Alrighty then. Must sms me or smthg k? You fart. You're so lucky. -glare- :o)
To Chong: sorry about that... :o) fixed it already. I have a serious typing and spelling problem. -grin- I love my layout!! haha got it from www.blogskins.com. got quite a lot of nice stuff there.
To Gab: hi hi!! -grin- I like this layout too!! it's v happy and smiley. haha. ;o)
To d: yep I'm still up. going strong man.
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And about the fish thing... we decided that we would leave him be. Or as Paula put it, let God deal with him. Grr. So irritated. I shall not say anything... SO IRRITATED. But nvm.
Ok will write something more substantial another time. :o) Sorry if I sounded very murderous or ego in my previous entry.. was kinda feeling that way then... murderous i mean... as for ego... erm... sorry about that. ARGH. Ok I'm just sleepy.
4:27 AM
Thursday, June 17, 2004
Hey hey!! I have decided to come here permanently because diaryland is being really really stupid and I'm really pissed off with it. :o)
Today was a retarded day. Went to school to look for Ms. Lee because my chem is.. to put it mildly.. dying. Bah. Anyway, went to the canteen to buy a drink and saw Lyn there! So I decided to study with her. We ended up talking a lot of crap for a long time.
OH! and Shun Ling called me today. She told me something VERY interesting. Something about fish. Apparently he had a gf last year... in like January? You know... 1 month after Harmony... when he was still er... doing something. Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned!!!!!! :) Shun and I are developing an evil plan. :o)
Anyway, like my template? :)
10:13 PM
Wednesday, June 16, 2004
Hi hi!! i'm trying out a new blog because diaryland is being very unfriendly. -glares-
10:03 PM