As I picked up the phone, I noticed it's already past 12am, and it's 01 Aug 2018. All of a sudden, I remember this date - 01 Aug 2008. And then a sudden thought came through - if we're still together, it would have been our 10th year together already. Hmm. Yep. #randomthoughts

Labels: Random thoughts

不知不觉，你已经离开快6个月了。。你过得还好吗？

今天是国庆日。新加坡52岁了。回想起以往的今天，我们都会再三嘱咐女佣要提早让你冲凉，好让你可以观看国庆典礼 。这也是你一年一次最期待的节目 。可想而知，你有多么地爱国 。

真的好怀念那段日子。。可惜你已经不在了。。

突然又回到了2月14日最后与你聊天的日子。。好怀念和你聊天的日子。。

阿嬷。。我真的好想你。。



It's been almost 12 years since you suffered a stroke.. and now you're finally freed from all these pains and sufferings.

All these years, I've been dreading the arrival of this day. You're the love of my life; the one whom I hold the dearest to. I never want to imagine without having you by my side. This really hit me very hard. Now I'm so lost. I'll miss chatting with you and you always calling me out whenever I'm home, and worrying about me whenever I'm back home late at night such that you couldn't get to sleep. I'll miss my daily routine of saying to you, "ah ma, watch tv hor. Take care and let me know if you're not feeling well okay?" I'll miss everything about you..

12 years ago, I was with you when you suffered a stroke. I thought I was going to lose you for good. 12 years on, my fear has come true. I'm so sorry I wasn't by your side at your last breath..

My dearest ah ma, much as I'm so unwilling to let you go, I have to, now.. Hope you're at a better place now. I'm no longer by your side.. I can't take care of you anymore.. So please take good care of yourself in the other world okay?

Rest in peace, my beloved lovely ah ma.



现在，人生对我已经没有意义了。。

是你给了我勇气再爱一次。。也是你，让我无法再爱、无法再相信爱。。

我的最爱，始终还是你。。

我已没办法再爱任何人了。。

我只恨我自己，为什么让你再踏入我的人生。。

你没错，最错，都是我。。

谢谢你的爱 （如果确实有在）。。

没了你，也没意义、没生存的价值。。

也没什么好留念的了。。


Dear, I don't know if you'll ever read this.. But you were the one who gave me the courage to love again.. But now without you, I don't think I'll have anything to live for anymore..

Without me, you're so much happier and without obstacles..

I'm sorry that I pestered you for so long.. I didn't want to do that at all..

Farewell.. And please take care..

I love you..

Labels: Feelings, Past, Thoughts

因为太在乎。



是成功了。

此刻的心情是很想和他分享，但。。。

Labels: Feelings

现时：18：00, 01.09.2015
最后餐时：16：00, 31.08.2015

距离最后饮食时间已超过24小时了。

是个全新记录。

厉害吧？